My heartfelt desire is to be true and sincere. To love God and to love my fellow man. To show my angst and happiness through words and deeds.
Thursday, April 23, 2009
My Ninevah
I know that my ninevah is that i have to go down that road of trusting you and loving you. I have to take that fall and believe, no matter what happens, I have to surrender myself to you. I have to stop crying and adjust.myself and know that I can trust, love and go down that road again and come what may, it will be good. My ninevah is to go through that line and believe that I mean something to you and that I can share or know that I mean something to you than your next cause. Where do I fit in? I hate that line. I am stressing now about going through that line. I always feel like you are looking at the next person in line and just waiting for the next person in line. I don't get your eyes, I don't get your undivided attention and my fear is that I am what you will get tired of soon and become bored with. But never the less, I have to go down the never ending assembly line of greeting the man I love. I am just a number in that line, one of many and not unique or important. That is my fear, that I become unimportant in your life. I'm not spiritual and holy, I am just honest, that's just me. That's just what is on my mind and what I am fearful of.
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