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That was my picture of calm. Ihad just typed a nice long conversation and then I picked up the baby and he hit some buttons and deleted it. What are you goping to do. Star t over and distract him with something else.

I said before that I like to begin as if we are talking to each other in a conversation. We just pick up where we left off. Last night was a very good conversation. We were very intimate. The fact that we can care about people that are not the best says something about our humanity. Humanity is something to care for. We are to love one another and it didnt say only the ones we like. LOVE ONE ANOTHER. No if ands or buts. Something soulful and thoughtful. Do the right thing. Care about how people are reacting to someone elses pending death. The celebration is of poor taste and should be reconsidered. Miami should not celebrate the death of Castro with hard earned taxpayers money. That money could be given to the poor in many different ways. Why humilate someone after their death with a party. If they were the worst person in the world better to ignore and not show any fanfare. let the final acknowledgement of that person be the final acknowledgement. God has touched your heart to care for others to the point that you could see humanity not doing the right thing for a person who was cruel and inhumane to others. A respectful death and burial is not asking for too much. You touched my heart and my soul last night with your words and your thoughts. Sometimes the things you dont say stand more in my mind than the things you do say. My heart find that you are an awesome man and one to look forward to being with one day. I pray that its in my lifetime here on earth. I am gong to end now.  You know, flowers are very sensual too.

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Good MOrning

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Good MOrning Lord. I am thanking you for calling me back. As I search my heart and mind to come up with answers I hear only "come bck to me". I have strayed in my thoughts and my actions. I have been concerned about the worldly things going on in my life and not allowing you the opportunity to show your glory in my life. Come back to me. Let my words guide you. Let my thoughts be your thoughts. Keep me close. Keep my word rooted in your heart. Dont let the concerns of the world be your concerns. Remember me. Love me. Praise Me. Worship Me. I am the Lord Almighty and their is none greater than Me. Remember Me. Love Me. That is what I will do. My readings this morning were just from an obscure passage that I turned to in Jerimiah. I dont remember the chapter but it was God calling us back to Him. I have strayed in my thoughts and in my mind. I have not been reliant on God alone to work my problems out. Trust me the Lord says. Trust me and I will be with you.

Have a blessed day today be a blessing to someone special.

Good NIght

My day was not good. I was told I need to basically teach less and pay more attention to disciplining the children that I have. They are no longer allowed in the halls if they cant be quiet. I agree they are unruly, I just think that to suggest that it takes a certain person to work in the inner city and that I am too lenient on the children is not right. I prayed on that because I agree I am burned out. I exhibit to my self behavior that says I dont care how these children act anymore. Some I care about and some I dont. I guess this was my intervention. Stop Ms. C before you go over the edge!!! Save the children and you will save yourself. Keep the children inthe class room and keep them quiet. Dont let them out. We know they dont know how to act, refer them for special ed, suspend them, give them Saturday detentions, use more discipline. Discipline, Discipline, Discipline.Of course I am up finishing my report cards tonight. I am so grumpy with this. So many hours to give out so many poor grades. Well, back to the cards, I just wanted to take a break. Good Night

Good Morning

Good MOrning Father. I shall bless the Lord at all times and His praise shall continually be in my mouth. Lord I pray that my words and actions are acceptable. I know that I get discouraged sometimes and I have a very heavy heart. I wonder if I were never to see you again what my life would be like. I dont want to imagine such cruelty. Sometimes I get depressed at the reality of my situation. God gives me hope. Hope for the hopeless. Gotta go. Have a blessed day and be a blessing to someone special.

Good Evening

I dont mind waiting on the Lord. I ask the Lord am I waiting on what you want for me or is this what I want for me. Am I where I am suppose to be. Caring for others, and not myself. Am I doing what you want Lord. God, is my number coming up soon? Our days are not for us to know. Should I feel hurt and forgotten. Should I be doing more?I want a hug, a kind word, a soulful look.Arent I worthy? Have I missed the boat.So back to am I where I am suppose to be and if so why does it hurt so much.

Good MOrning

Good morning. Sometimes finding a good picture to include is very difficult. I spend so much time sezrching for something different and appealing.

Today I will of course be busy. Market Day pickup, out to my dad's, babysitting the baby and of course finding time to work on my papers. The weekend goes so fast.But in all that, find time to love. Find time to care about one another. Dont let negative people continue to try to bring you down to their level. They keep picking away with little inuendos and I just have to say either say it or shut up. I dont make you happy or unhappy, you decide for yourself if that's how you are going to feel. I am tired of the self proclaimed martyrs. Grow up.  OK enough about my mother. I have to get ready for my day.

God bless you today and I will talk to you later.

Date Night

Good Evening

Baby is fed, changed, clean and asleep. The most important thing is baby is asleep. How much time will I have, who knows.

Today was a good day. No children. Professional Development in the morning and classroom in the afternoon. One of my students wond the citywide science fair. Now she gets to go statewide. Imagine that. I was given the worst class and so far one of my students came in third in the spelling bee and now one has won the science fair citywide. That is just amazing. With every bit of pain there is some glory.

Tomorrow we have to pick up our market day and then go to IKEA. We are getting new bed covers. Its about time and this will be my gift to me. They are suppose to have a good sale. January was always considered white sale month. New towels and new bed sheets.

I am not going to let January leave without signing up for the fitness center. I have until Wednesday. The baby and my dad will start swimming classes in February. They need some extra curricular activities. Mommy will swim with baby. It'll be fun.

I have to finish my grades for Monday, then I am done for a while. We are going to work on a mask project with an artist for about four weeks. Its really going to be nice and the eighth graders will leave a monument to the school. I'm excited about that too. We have to prepare for the ISAT. It wil be in about 6 weeks and the students just arent ready.

Well enjoy your evening, think about me and have a blessed night.

Date Night

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Ok. Problems with the computer again.

Will have to try later. Have to give the baby a bath.

Good Morning

Hello Father and Hello Father. What a beautiful day it is to be here with God. Every day is a beautiful day if we wake up and can praise the Lord one more day. Everything that has breath must praise the Lord. Every knee shall bow and every tongue must confess that Jesus Christ is Lord. Everything on this earth God made for us to consume and respect as his creation. The will of the Lord is my desire today. Thank You Lord for loving me today.

Have a blessed day today and know that you are wonderful and kind and very smart. Your mommy would be so proud of you right now.Dont let the idiots ruin your day. Play nice with the other kids. Dont take offense. Just smile.

Be blessed and have a wonderful day.

Hello Father

Hello Father and Hello Father. Good Morning to you both. You convict me with every word you say. When I am wrong I am worong. I dont deny, or try to hide. Keep my word, keep my promise. My training yesterday was at the Museum of Science and Idustry from 4 until 6:30 and I hurried over to bible study after that. But we were learing how to improve students writing. The biggest thing was if they promise the reader something in the introduction, like they will talk about three things then keep your promise, talk about three things. If they only have a chance to talk about two then go back and change it to two. Give the readers what you promise. So I made it a point to get up early this morning. My goal is to eventually get up to go to the fitness center before work, but that;s a long way off right now. Today I got up and showered, read, fixed breakfast and still I have time to write. I am taking vitamins at night and in the morning so that I am not so tired. I am doing things for me to improve my ability to keep my promises. If I say I am going to do then I want to do it. I want to be faithful and trustworthy. I'm still here, I havent gone anywhere. Tell the truth keep the atmosphere uncomfortable and let the truth come out. Tell the truth Convict me and convince me.

Have a blessed day today and be a true blessing to someone very special.

Only God

This symbol caught my eye today as I was in our reading room at school today. Its really the multi purpose room (break room, professional development, reading, meeting, etc.) It was on one of thos kente symbol charts that I have seen for many years but never really took the time to look at it closely. I remember seeing this around the church and on different things associated with the church. I looked at the meaning on the chart and found it to be profound. "Except God" Meaning that no man can remember the first time the symbol was seen and no man will be around at the end...Except God. It allowed me to see God in my workplace. I read Tozer when I got home. Just a page that I happen to turn to near the end and it was on the sacrificial living. How we must look at our jobs and our day to day lives as acts of worship to God. If not then we fall prey to allowing the natural world to defeat us and demoralize us. That's just how I was feeling. No matter how significant or insignificant the job may be, if it is something that will honor God. It will please God. Our intention should always be to please God. Sometimes when we look at our work as insignificant and burdening we need to remember that we are important to God and he is looking at what we do. Others will look and judge but God is the ultimate judge of our actions and intentions. I can go back to work knowing that I am making a difference even if its small. I don't have to be a great teacher, just a good one with good intentions for my children. I'm feeling a better sense of acceptance. I wanted to go in and change the world. I have to be content with knowing that with time, change will come. Little by little. Well that was my little revelation today. How was your day?

Be blessed tonight and be a blessing to someone special.

Good Morning

Good MOrning Lord. What a beautiful morning. I am ready to meet this day. I will trust in the Lord and walk with the Lord on my side. As I read Iaiah 30 this morning I was reminded of God"s faithfulness and his love. God will rebuke but God wil also save. My day will be a great day, no matter what comes my way. I am renewed and refreshed in the Lord. Have a beautiful day today, no matter what.

Good NIght

Well today was a work day for me. I am getting all of my papers graded. The end of the quarter is this week on Friday. I stayed home today. I know, I know. I could hear you telling me to go to church. I did listen to you on tape. An old bible study tape. Finding God in the Hurting Places. I listened to it with Austin and he did his usual. Talked while you were talking, tried to out talk you then promptly fell asleep. I did not stay home to watch the Bears win. I am proud of them. This is the first time in a long time that they have won the NFC Championship. But the fact that this is the first time a African American coach has gone to the Super Bowl is great and disgusting. It should have happened a long time ago. We are going to hear that fact for the next few weeks everywhere on the news. Now we have two going at the same time. Isnt that something.What a boost for the morale of the city. I pray for the team to win. That will be great for our city. We can love New Orleans but we had to beat them today.

I am still working on papers and will be for another hour or so. I want to be done and ready for Friday. I want to be ahead of the stuff, not lagging behind and rushed. I think that will help my attitude. I think you think this is a curse for me but I am sure I am blessing somebody by being there. I am trying to do my job and keep focused on my purpose there. I stay out of the mess going on with the other teachers, and believe me there is some mess going on. Two of them hate each other and are constantly fighting and continue to try to put me in the middle. I am not choosing sides nor am I going to stop communications with either of them. I am neutral, like Switzerland.This is not my fight anyway. It has nothing to do with me.

Well my evening is almost over. This break has to end. I pray that you had a very good day. My weekend is over. I spent it in the house. I took down the tree finally and all the decorations. Packed them away for another year. I put away all of my toys in my bedroom. I have a lot of beanie babies and small cars and stuff that I have saved for a long time. I packed all of them away for more space. Well I am heading to bed, to correct more papers. How can you say you love me when you dont even talk to me. Is this talking? Its communication. Its a start. We have a long way to go. Dream for a new beginning tomorrow.

Be blessed and be a blessing to someone special.

Journal Time

Today everything in the house just seem to want to have problems. The kitchen sink. The pipe underneath has a hole in it. The bathroom upstairs toilet started to back up. We all ways seem to have some repair, thats inevietable, but the plumbing problems seem to come in twos and threes. Now its Roto Rooter time. I of course want to call now and get it over with. The others want to do it themselves and save money. I agree with saving money but if you have never done it before and you are just going by a book, its not always the best answer. Delay, Delay. I brought the ticket for tonight but I am not going. I found out this afternoon that I was suppose to babysit while she went to work. She was suppose to be back by now. The doors open at 6:15. Show starts at 7pm. I would be too late. I m glad I bought a ticket. At least I can donate to the ministry. I have to set better parameters for when I can babysit. I was suppose to go to a professional development from 1-3 today also. I know she takes advantage of me because she knows I will say yes most of the time. I am going to get my grades together this evening. I know I am missing a really great show.My time seems to be dependant on others schedules. Good NIght.

Journal Time

Today everything in the house just seem to want to have problems. The kitchen sink. The pipe underneath has a hole in it. The bathroom upstairs toilet started to back up. We all ways seem to have some repair, thats inevietable, but the plumbing problems seem to come in twos and threes. Now its Roto Rooter time. I of course want to call now and get it over with. The others want to do it themselves and save money. I agree with saving money but if you have never done it before and you are just going by a book, its not always the best answer. Delay, Delay. I brought the ticket for tonight but I am not going. I found out this afternoon that I was suppose to babysit while she went to work. She was suppose to be back by now. The doors open at 6:15. Show starts at 7pm. I would be too late. I m glad I bought a ticket. At least I can donate to the ministry. I have to set better parameters for when I can babysit. I was suppose to go to a professional development from 1-3 today also. I know she takes advantage of me because she knows I will say yes most of the time. I am going to get my grades together this evening. I know I am missing a really great show.My time seems to be dependant on others schedules. Good NIght.

Date Night

Welll, finally, finally, I am on my journal.

Date Night and you  are without a date. I hope you did see the dancers. I know you did. Fridays are difficult for me to get out because of babysitting. I will be there tomorrow. You will be in  another city. Be safe. Be strong.

Today was so crazy. I have a girl that likes to run away from school. She is constantly getting upset over any little thing that the students do to her and if I say anything she automatically goes off the deep end. This is the fourth time this year that she has done this. Its so upsetting. I told her parents she needs a short stay in Hargrove.She has a huge inability to cope with any of lifes stressors and Its not going to go away. If anything its just escalating. I pray that they find her.  She upsets her parents so much by leaving school like this. They have a big family, like 7 or eight children, but both parents are still together. They try very hard. I dont know all the dynamics at home but I do know that they try. Their family was chosen for an extreme makeover by their church and they are very deserving. I pray that she is all right. I have to wait until Monday to find out what happened.

Well God will protect and provide. My day is over now.Good Night.

Good MOrning

Good Morning Lord. I did it. I was not defeated this morning. There were some obstacles but I said no matter what I am writing in this journal. Let God's word be true and man be a liar. The devil is a liar and I am not defeated this morning. Pick up the cross and follow Jesus. My day will be glorious. I have done my thing this morning. This is not an idol nor does it replace my relationship with God. I do not worship this journal but it is my commitment and I will keep my commitments. I love you have a blessed day and stay true to God.

Good Night

Habits are so easily broken and so easily picked up again. I had a better day today. I have to remember why I chose to teach. Why I love teaching and that more students want to learn than don't. I have to stop yelling. Its not very becoming. That was one of my new years resolution, not to yell so much. I have figured out I am not going to see you again until next Tuesday. What is it that makes this so different? So special, so original. Well its off to bed. I have to get up at 5. I probably wont get to sleep until 11. We have training in the morning. I also have training this Saturday. I was suppose to go to a conference this weekend but I cancelled. I didn't want another overnight stay. I will do the single day saturday thing though. Good Night. My eyes hurt. I made the mistake of using chalk again and my eyes started bothering me again. Its official, I'm allergic to chalk. Imagine that, a teacher allergic to chalk.oh well.Off to do some reading. I'm still reading Tozer's book. It's a lot in a little book.

Good MOrning

Good OMrning Lord. Thank youfor waking me up this morning. I am still here so there is still something I have to do. If the thoughts of our mind could be heard by everyone we would have more hypricosy than integrity. Lord I want to match my thoughts with my actions. I want to be a person of integrity.  It is important to me that my word is my bond. Forgive me for my mistakes. I understand that the road to hell is paved with good intentions. We want to do the right thing and we some how continue to do the wrong thing. Are my wrong things murder, adultry, robbery, no, or at least not in my eyes. I say I am going to do something and I dont do it. I need to keep my word. Keep my journal going every day and understand that the effort and time are important. God knows my heart and my intentions. There is no hidden agenda here. The rewards are internal, for me only. My wish is to build a better relationship and to be a better couple.

I have to get ready now. Fix breakfast, shower and leave by 7:30. I pray they have fixed the shades in my room. The children pulled the chain and now two shades are down permanently. Really three.The other one just stopped halfway down so I havent bothered them about that. Have a blessed day today and be a blessing to someone special.

Good Evening

Long time, no hear from, huh?

Well its been quite a challenge to stay up with this journal.

I have missed you. My heart longs for communication. I wonder what the problem is sometimes. I can always state the obvious. I dont get up early enough. I cant access journals at school anymore, there's a block on that sort of stuff. Sometimes I just dont know what to say. I think about the fact that sometimes it doesnt have to be anything important or spiritual or social justice, it can just be something about me or about you. Sometimes the point is to communicate not just to make statemaents that are remarkable or grab you with a point. Am I growing out of things to talk about. I dont think so. Have I missed your message. I dont think so. Am I going to respond, I dont think so. For tonight I am going to go to bed and wake in the morning with a fresh outlook on life and a renewed attitude. Be blessed and have a good night.

Good Night

I know that sometimes I must sound crazy but I am a good crazy.

I dont get to see you like I want. I dont get to touch you when I want. I live for the moments that we have together. To be in the same room, to have a moment where we are united in the smallest of ways. Light the fire. Tell the truth. Break down the reserves. Be a guiding light for many. Be blessed tonight and be a dear blessing to someone very special.

Good Morning

Good Morning Father Almighty

Everything is fine. You know how to encourage. Thank You Lord for loving me. My days are filled with anxiety and violence. I am wondering about this school. What was I thinking. What were you thinking? Is this where I am suppose to be? I love teaching, the abstract concept of it. I cannot stand the concrete concept of teaching which has become nothing more that behavior management and policing behavior. The conceptual idea of learning, higher level thinking seems to be lost. Some days you get them interested and others, you are just a police officer breaking up a fight, calming derogatory speech, and in general just keep calm. I know that there is a better way, a method, a plan to make this work. Others have done it, why cant I. Each situation is different. Am I too soft. Not enough stamina, backbone? I think I am being reflective because we were studying, or trying to study Martin Luther King and the attitude is so poor. They are not interested. Yea, Yea, Yea. We hear this stuff every year. What do they need to hear to understand the struggle and the continuing struggle that faces them as they mature? How does the past become important and help to build the future?

Enough, the baby is crying and I'm babysitting. Take care and have a blessedly wonderful day today.

Good NIght

Thank you Lord for another day. I am so happy tomorrow is Friday. My week has bee very challenging. What's a girl to do when the native are restless. How do you get to tell your honey that all is well and that you do love him. You get home and you're so tired. The morning comes too soon. I knew I had to write tonight or else. I hope that the week was good for you. I pray that we can purchase that building out right.I know that the faith community wants to do something special for you. Something to show gratitude for your continued service, dedication and dicipleship to the community. What a wonderful man you  are. Always striving to uplift the community, to continue to challenge us and to help us grow. I'm going to go to bed now. My nose is stuffy and I am tired. Be blessed tonihgt and be a blessing to someone special.

Hello

Hi

Well today was another day that I thought about whether I had any other options in my job career and when I should take them. I considered the fast food industry to be a shining example of capitalism at its finest and wondered if I might be able to flip a burger fast enough. I had a fight in my room today. Two girls. Over a picture of Chris Brown, a rapper. Where in my contract does it say break up fights between teenagers.I feel like a police officer rather than a teacher. We had our lawyers visit today. The constitutional rights program is working ourt really well. I figure most of them will need legal advice soon enough. That wasnt right. I'm sorry. They were very good during that time. I'm sure it wasnt because I had the asst. principal, another teacher, 2 aides and myself in the classroom. When I was leaving today I said have a nice weekend. It was a reflex action. I guess I was hoping it was Friday already. Well I guess its going to be a rough week. Its only Tuesday. I did purchase my dance ticket for Saturday night. I have my Harry Belafonte ticket. I might have to bring the little one with me. I hope he doesnt need a ticket. I watch him on Fridays, Saturdays and Sunday.

How was your day today? I pray that it was very successful. Be blessed tonight and be a blessing to someone special. I love you.

Good MOrning

Good Morning Lord. Today you will continue to walk with me. A Fool and how to recognize the folly. That was the readings for today. I hope there isnt too much foolishness today. I dont want to get caught up in the nonsense. I couldnt get to sleep last night. Too much anxiety for today. I pray for an uneventful day and to have a good first day back after vacation. Be blessed today and be a blessing to someone very special.

Good Night

I have to remember that God is with me and always will be no matter what. I arrived at the airport at the right time. While I was walking from the parking lot she called me to say her plane had landed and she was on her way to the baggage claim. We met up and I got a chance to hold my little baby again. He was so mature. He's now 7 1/2 months and he is crawling. Its the little things that matter. I also got my hug today from My Love. I have missed that hug for so long. I almost thought I wasn't going to get it today. I missed my kiss though. I was so happy to have the hug, I forgot about the kiss. The baby now knows how to make kissing noises. He is so cute its just amazing.

Well tomorrow I am back in the trenches. I enjoyed this vacation. I am so not ready to go back. When does June get here? The first week I was sick then the next week I tried to catch up on everything I wanted to do. I did get my ticket for the dance team, I have it for Saturday. I imagine you will be there both nights, maybe.

God was with me today. This morning was so soulful. I was reading Jeremiah 5,6,7. It started with Faithfulness and worshipping God for who He is. I opened it up in the middle, but then I read back and then read forward and just realized that staying faithful to God, realizing his awesome power and glory and knowing that religion was not what it was about but loving God and knowing that without God on my side I would not be where I am today. Sometimes God will not give you what you want because you are just not ready for it at that time. I guess I am not yet ready. I'm working toward readiness. Be blessed and be a blessing to someone special. Good Night.

Good Night

What a day! Sometimes you plan one thing and something else happens. I finally had the installation guy come out and right away he tells me I have picked the wrong fan and I will have to exchange. The fan has to be at least 7 feet from the floor and the one I picked had a long hang. I had to get a custom flush or something like that. Needless to say I was not happy with him. He was able to help my mother with an outlet in her room so it wasnt a complete waste. The fan was taken back and I now have the right one. I have to reschedule with him for next weekend. Computer problems in the morning wouldnt let me make an entry. What happens here stays here.

Tomorrow is Unity Sunday. Her plane is due at 1:42p. I was torn between going to service or not. I am going though. I have to remember that the fact that they arrive at that time does not mean she is ready with luggage to go. What I will do is leave straight away after church and get to O'Hare. If the weather is bad in Denver then she may not be on time anyway. The avalanche and other windy conditions make the chances of departing on time not very good. She may have to go to San Francisco and take a redeye home. Arriving at 6am the next day. I pray for good weather and excellent flying conditions. The baby is starting to get congested. All that traveling is getting to him.

I hope you liked the fragrance. If not, give it to someone. Maybe they will like it. Eat the cookies and enjoy yourself.

Sisterhood was very emotional. Its amazing the links that we all have and the hurts that bind us and separate us. I have to prepare myself for school on Monday. I dread going back sometimes. I was asked if I thought it was worth the financial loss to teach. Not only teach but teach in the inner city. Sometimes the answer is truthfully, no. I love teaching, but I dont love the constant disrespect and disregard for their future. But then I think if I can reach one person then it makes a difference and I believe that I am reaching one person. ONE PERSON. Is it worth it? Is one person worth it? Yes. So I will go back on Monday, ready to teach that one person.

Be Blessed and get ready for tomorrow.

Today

ONe day makes a difference in the events of our lives. My computer is very important to me and trying to get a wireless connection has become a task that I have spent many hours trying to get. When the guy came the computer had a virus. No one had been on it in the morning as we didnt know. When I found out I called Dell, again, and spent the next 6 hours trying to fix the problem on the phone, with Dell and comcast. Then I thought they were coming back today but now its tomorrow. Wait, wait, wait. So I keep going on with my list of things to do. I'm bringing my present to you tomorrow. I'm coming to the sisterhood event so I'll drop it off then. Why do I stress over it. Because its for you and I want you to like it. So I soften it up with cookies and chocolate if you dont like it. I dont stress like this for everything. Only what is important. 

I want to be able to hear what God has sent the angels to tell me. I want to be in relationship with God. I want to hear what he has to say to me. My readings are constantly of things that indicate a release. A new beginning. A different time. My life will bear fruit. My life will reflect God. That will please me. Be blessed today,

Hi

HI

How are you today? Did you have a good day?

I got your present in the mail today so I am going to bring it out to you sometime this week. I'm going to bake some cookies too.  I have chocolate for you and your staff also. I was just thinking what if you dont like the fragrance. I dont even know what it smells like? I hope you like it.

Im still trying to get that fan installed. I called today and they said someone would contact me for sure in the next 24 hours, so far, nothing. I know its the holiday and everything but someone could at least give me a date or prospective date. I did get the cable guy to come out tomorrow. We are going wireless. I'll use Lizzie's laptop until I get my own. That will give me more flexibility and access to the computer when I want to use it.

I am counting down the days. Five more to go then its back to my students. My family wont even let me talk about them at home anymore. They say I talk about them all the time. I have some real characters though. I have a lot of work to do too. My lesson plans and my gradebook needs to be updated. I was suppose to have this done by now but being sick last week put a kink in my plans.

I need to take down the tree and put the things away this week.

"Relying on God has to begin all over again every day as if nothing has yet been done." C.S. Lewis 

This give me strength to take on the challenges of each day. Each and every day begins new. Relying on God to direct me and to Keep me focused on my vision is something I look for every day. Each day is a new day. In my heart of hearts I have my ideal request. My everything that makes my heart sing, brings joy to my heart, and keeps me floating on air. That I want to stay focused on. The thing that I can not do on my own and what I must rely on God to do. The impossible.

"My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." Psalm 73:26

I'm watching the Bulls with my father. Boring. I should grade some papers. Boring. Right now I think I will just say good night and try to read one of these books I havent had a chance to get to yet. Good NIght. Be blessed. I like to think that my wish/dream is still out there floating around , able to come true.

Happy New Year

What a wonderful evening. The balloons were so soulful. The release of your dreams and hopes out into the world, up to the heavens, Give it over to God.

I found it difficult to really know what I wanted. I didn't want to make a small gesture. I wanted a big gesture. Something  I could not do. My vision for myself and the city, the state the world.

We made it to the airport by 5:10 but we didn't get parked until 5:30. The security is high. The threat level is orange. Lots of security and checks. The good news is she left on time this morning. I was back home by 8am. I went to bed and couldn't sleep. I cat napped for the rest of the day. A nice hot shower tonight and a cup of tea ought to help. Of course Nana misses her little baby already.

When I had to think of my ultimate best situation and how I would get there I was at a loss. So many dreams go un done, un noticed and just don't happen. But it doesn't mean you cant still dream. Have faith and pick yourself up, dust yourself off and start all over again. Believe in the impossible, believe in yourself and know that you can achieve the impossible. Hope. Without hope we would be a sorry lot. Hope in the future. Hope springs eternal. Hope keeps me believing in tomorrow. So my new years commitment is to keep the faith, keep hope alive, believe in myself and to really take captive thoughts that go against my having hope and believing in my purpose and destiny. Its still abstract but the concrete comes in my remembering the abstract and following through to make sure that happens for me. Have a good evening.