Sunday, September 30, 2007

Inspiration

I'm glad I came out today. I was thinking about passing on today's events. I would have been very sad if I had done that.

Ordinary people doing extraordinary things. I recall reading how throughout the south schools closed for a year or more even during the 60's and 70's so that they would not have to integrate their school. We have to remember that the parents are the ones who were affected by that decision. Now we have their children and grandchildren in school and we're wondering how to educate a child who was a product of a very disjointed  education system in the first place. Yes we know its broken and we know its been broken but how do we really fix it? What is the cure? We would love something that is a fix all and we can prescribe it to everything. We hear how so many different people here and there are able to break through and do it but it doesn't seem to hold steady and work for all. What is the answer? What is the problem? I know that tomorrow I will return to students who worked this weekend to improve their neighborhood but will act a plum fool in school tomorrow. I have to prepare them for a science fair project, give out grades that are not reflective of their true ability and make sense of it all so that I can function as a human being with thoughts and feelings. We all have problems.

Thank God we will be back in our sanctuary. I'm very excited about that.

I'm watching Home Makeover and they are in Hawaii. You will be there soon. Now you can go and not worry too much about the going on's at home.You will be missed. Enjoy your time. You need a break. You have earned a break. Give your self a chance to rest.

It was nice to hear you play today. It was very comfortable. Be blessed and be a blessing to someone.

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. I am encouraged by my morning meditation today. I must pray for others today. Pray that they stay encouraged and know that God Loves them and so do I.  I pray that you stay encouraged and brave. The fight is at your door and you are strong and forceful. You are the apple of my eye and you put pep in my step. I pray that you are strengthen and that your love is what keeps you going through hard times. I pray that you are faithful to God. That your thoughts, actions and desires are all aligned to please The Almighty Father. Keep the faith strong, don't waver, don't give in. Don't be discouraged. The Joy of the Lord is upon us. We will rejoice and be glad.

Yesterday I was at my school. So was the Mayor. The clean and green project was being launched. This school is better than the other school but they all have a long way to go to even the educational divide that exist in inner city schools. I was pleased to see the news and attention given to this school.

After we left there we had a birthday party to attend in Joliet. I was exhausted by then but I had to go anyway. Chuck E Cheese is too loud, too many children and too much stimulation. Visual and sensory perception is attacked constantly. Of course the children love it.

I have to get ready for today. Be blessed and be a blessing.

Friday, September 28, 2007

What A blessed and Glorious Day

Thank You Lord for today. I may not feel well but I am blessed to have this day to take care of my self. Thank You Lord for giving me the opportunity to destress and to remember that I am blessed. I needed this day to get my health together. I will go in tomorrow because we have an inspection on Monday. Thank you Lord for loving me and guiding me. When I ask you what should I say and talk about you direct me to the message of praying in unity for your marriage. When I ask you what should I say you direct met to prayers of a wife. Lord what are you trying to say? Don't give up, don't give in. I wont. I haven't, I cant. When I pray and ask for scripture to guide and direct me you send me to Proverbs 31:10-31. So I walk with love in my heart for my Spiritual husband and my family. I stay in love with you.

10 Who can find a virtuous woman? for her price is far above rubies.
11 The heart of her husband doth safely trust in her, so that he shall have no need of spoil.
12 She will do him good and not evil all the days of her life.
13 She seeketh wool, and flax, and worketh willingly with her hands.
14 She is like the merchants' ships; she bringeth her food from afar.
15 She riseth also while it is yet night, and giveth meat to her household, and a portion to her maidens.
16 She considereth a field, and buyeth it: with the fruit of her hands she planteth a vineyard.
17 She girdeth her loins with strength, and strengtheneth her arms.
18 She perceiveth that her merchandise is good: her candle goeth not out by night.
19 She layeth her hands to the spindle, and her hands hold the distaff.
20 She stretcheth out her hand to the poor; yea, she reacheth forth her hands to the needy.
21 She is not afraid of the snow for her household: for all her household are clothed with scarlet.
22 She maketh herself coverings of tapestry; her clothing is silk and purple.
23 Her husband is known in the gates, when he sitteth among the elders of the land.
24 She maketh fine linen, and selleth it; and delivereth girdles unto the merchant.
25 Strength and honour are her clothing; and she shall rejoice in time to come.
26 She openeth her mouth with wisdom; and in her tongue is the law of kindness.
27 She looketh well to the ways of her household, and eateth not the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise up, and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praiseth her.
29 Many daughters have done virtuously, but thou excellest them all.
30 Favour is deceitful, and beauty is vain: but a woman that feareth the LORD, she shall be praised.
31 Give her of the fruit of her hands; and let her own works praise her in the gates.1


Thursday, September 27, 2007

The Conversation

Today was just not going well.

Here I was, suppose to pick up an order that my daughter had called in but she didn't call it in so I had to wait. Then this man begins to talk to me. He had been talking to the man behind the counter when I came in about what happens to the soul when you die. I was tired and wasn't going to get involved in this conversation. He thought differently. When I sat down to wait for my order, minding my own business mind you, he comes over. Turns out he is a Jehovah Witness and thought he was going to convert me and tell me how wrong my thinking is and how right his is. That is the first mistake. Don't tell me I am wrong and you are right. God has no right religion. What ever you do don't start quoting bible verse tags. read this, read that, oh no read this one. That does not impress me, now sway me to believe that you know anything about God or that you will guide me to heaven. Thank God my order was ready and I just left.

There's a shaking going on and its not from that jerk. Maybe he wasn't a jerk and maybe he had a message for me from God. I'm being sarcastic now.

I thank God for the great price he paid to cleanse me from sin. I ask God to cleanse and purify my life of anything that displeases him. Forgive me for my sins and walk with me on this road.

Not a Good Day

Wednesday was not a good day. I must have a virus, which I think is from the school. There are two teachers already down. They talk about perfect attendance but the kids are coughing and sneezing all over the place and the teachers cant help but catch something. We had professional development at Bishop Braizer's church. Its huge. Ive seen it on TV but now this was just too much. Its nice that the church loaned it building out to the community.

I have a headache and my chest hurts and my brain is foggy. Good Night. Be blessed and be a blessing.

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Good Night

 

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. Thank You for another day. You kept me through the night and I thank You. Almighty God I am subject to you for the purpose of peace, harmony and unity. I stand firm against all that are against that purpose. We are new creations when we come together in unity. I know who I am and I stand tall with that knowledge. I am in Christ, the Messiah and Savior, the old has passed away and the new creation is in me. I seek the new creation, the new unity, the new harmony. Let us be at peace. Be blessed today and be a blessing to someone.

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. Thank you for today. Thank you for your faithfulness Lord. I have to stay on the path that you have given me. I do wonder if its worth it. I wonder if this is what you want for me. I wonder if it is going to get harder. How long is long enough. Is there a point to all this. What sort of spiritual legacy am I leaving behind. What am I recording and for who. Nothing has changed, nothing is different, there are things that are more important than this.Yet this is very important, very important. It doesn't make sense.

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. Thank you for today. Thank you for your faithfulness Lord. I have to stay on the path that you have given me. I do wonder if its worth it. I wonder if this is what you want for me. I wonder if it is going to get harder. How long is long enough. Is there a point to all this. What sort of spiritual legacy am I leaving behind. What am I recording and for who. Nothing has changed, nothing is different, there are things that are more important than this.Yet this is very important, very important. It doesn't make sense.

Saturday, September 22, 2007

Good Night

Father God I thank you for our peace, our safety and our welfare this day.  Hallejujah! Alleliua! Glory Be to God!

 

It is important for us to dwell in a safe resting places, a peaceable habitation, a quiet place. Comfortable and relaxing.

Today I was up early. Went out walking with Austin. Met Zena, the cutey of a little teacup dog. We went to Borders, all of this before 10am. This was my first Saturday in three weeks and I enjoyed it. Then I went to the spa and got on the elliptical machine and then the sauna and whirlpool. I came back, watched or slept in and out, through Monk on demand and washed my sheets and towels. That has been my day. Now I am about to get my hair done and go to bed. What a day. Much love to you sweetie. Be blessed and be a blessing to someone special. I'll think about writing that testimony for the community offering that we did. I love you and pray that you have a good evening.

Friday, September 21, 2007

Good Night

Today was a much better day than before. I think things are improving. I am off tomorrow. There was a chance that I was going to have to go into school. this is my first weekend off in two weeks. I have this weekend off then the next two Saturdays are filled.

I had my children write letters, I have to review them this weekend and mail them.

How has your week been?

Be blessed.

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Good Night

Today my reading was Daniel 1 -... "bring some of the Israelites from the nobility and the royal family- without any physical defects, handsome, showing aptitude for every kind of learning, well informed, quick to understand and qualified to serve in the king's palace."

Now that's a special kind of young man. Brought up from birth to be valued and loved. Willing to learn. That's the kind of young man you want to be around. Daniel was that kind of young man.

I pray for a refreshed insight and strength to face the struggles and challenges of today.

 

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

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I plan to have my literacy group write Mychal a letter, since he is the only boy still siting in jail on $90,000 bail. This boy needs some encouragement from his peers. He needs to know that others his age care. Even though my students are 13 and 14 I think they can make a difference in his life.

 

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Stay out of My own Business

Today was a better day. I am holding my own with the veteran teachers. The students are another thing. I have dangled field trips in their faces and I know they want to go.

Stay out of my own business, let God handle it. OK, that sounds like a winner. Give the worries and troubles over to God.

Good Night and be blessed.

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. Getting ready for a new day and a whole new attitude. Everybody has an opinion of how I should act and what I should say, I know the ultimate reaction and action is always something that will glorify God. I will work from within. How do we get to theses points. Contradictions, assumptions and mistakes. I'm moving forward.

Sunday, September 16, 2007

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. Thank you for today. Your grace and your mercy have brought me a might long way.

Philippians 4:6-7 -Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Mighty God, Wonderful Counselor, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace, I hunger and thirst after righteousness. My obedience to God is my divine response to His divine and profound love for me.

Faith must have a cooresponding action. The legacy of peace makes you unmanageable by the devil. Father I receive your peace this morning. I praise God for His character and way he has revealed himself to me. When I have been overwhelmed with the reality of the darkness and when evil is present and alive in this world, how do I find comfort?

Nevertheless...that's always the catch all phrase of God. Nevertheless, no matter what may be going on in your life.

 Nevertheless there will be no more gloom for those who were in distress. Isaiah 9:1

Saturday, September 15, 2007

Hello

you know what

I have been sitting here crying because I think you are being mean.

You choose to not let tickets go on sale for members first. Why? Why?

I cannot fathom why this would be such a sore spot with you. No one is asking for a special seat only for the chance to have a seat. We love you and would go to anything that you thought was important for us to go to. We support you to the utmost. We love you and you refuse to to give us the opportunity to see speakers that you feel are important for us. I just dont understand your reasoning. Its wrong and you know it.

I just dont understand how you can be so cruel to your strongest supporters.

Friday, September 14, 2007

Good Night

I stay hopeful. I stay hopeful that God takes my life and allows me to do his will. I thought long and hard about bible study and the message that began to come to me was that what ever my plan was its through, gone over. Trash it, bury it, chop it down. It is not God's plan. So I dont get to travel. I have traveled over the world. Not a big dealI will live. This may be the best we have, OK. Whatever it is I am willing to accept it. I think I have been resistant to something and so I will be more acceptant of things. But I am not going to punish people who are faithful just because some people wont come out and see the speaker. You are punishing us. Plain and simple. We are not being rewarded for anything. You are punishing the whole group for the actions of a few who wouldnt come anyway, no matter if you reserved tickets or not. Its not right. Its not fair. Think about that. Good Night. 

Thursday, September 13, 2007

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord thank You for loving me.

I had a crazy day yesterday.

I will trust in you Lord

Proverbs 2:6 - The Lord gives wisdom and from his mouth comes knowledge and understanding.

Lord I went to the workshop on the wrong date. Good News is I didnt miss it I was just a day early.

Water Aerobics is my saving grace this year./ I so needed an exercise program in my schedule.

I love you. Please take care of yourself today and be blessed.

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. Thank you for all of your blessings today. Thank you for waking me and for giving me the opportunity to reflect and renew my mind and my body.

Thank you for the preaching that I received last night. I needed to hear a word from you and the word touched my heart.

Reflecting this morning, I am struck by the words of who touches a hot stove twice? Who can love people who mistreat others and themselves? Who goes back into a place that they just left and its the same sceneario as before. People who dont learn from their mistakes but yet we must love them. Love others as we love ourselves.  People who refuse to learn from their mistakes and will make new ones on top of the others. How do we love them? Its easy to say Jesus sat with the sinners, ate with the wrong people but when we encounter those same people in our lives are we able to find that ability to not judge and oh no here we go again. Lord teach me how to love these students when I have some that are the same old buttheads as before and they frustrate me to no end. Lord give me a new outlook on the same situation

Monday, September 10, 2007

Good Night

Good Night Lord. I am exhausted. I have to say that today was so much better than it has been in a long time. I can truly say that I am at a school that is going to work for me. I used some of the stuff I learned at the workshop this weekend and it actually worked. That much alone was a stress reliever. Then going to water Pilate class with my dad was great. This was a good exercise class, then we went to the whirlpool to work out some kinks. I really did enjoy it. We take water classes Monday and Wednesday. I will miss this Wednesday, I have to go to a science fair workshop. This Saturday is yet another workshop. Next Wednesday another one. I plan to be like Daniel 6:4-5..."They could find no corruption in him, because he was trustworthy and neither corrupt nor negligent." I pray that God has a shield of protection over me but I also know that Obedience will result in favor. God wants me to reach out to the world and to accept his word and vision for my life. I need to spend time expanding God's way. Pray, Pray and pray some more. I ask God to put my heart in tune with his word.  Open my mind and my heart to God's will and purpose for my life.  My mind and my heart stay open to serving God. Be Blessed my dear and have a good evening.

Sunday, September 9, 2007

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. Thank you for waking me up today. Thank you for all of your blessings and for your grace. My life wouldn't be the same without you. Lord help me to understand that your NO does not mean never. Help me to direct my thoughts from my flesh and more on my spirit. Bring me closer to you Lord.

" For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways" declares the Lord. Isaiah 55:8

Lord my prayer to you this morning is for understanding. For calm and for peace. In my home life, work place and on the roads that I travel. Watch over me. Nothing I have done and will do is hidden from you Lord. Judge my heart, find me faithful. Remove any hidden agendas. Allow me to have a lifestyle that backs up my faith. Try me, test me. My words and action must match up. Let me do what I say I am going to do. Let me have integrity. Let it be genuine, open and have a sense of trustworthiness. Let my actions be one with God. Help me to follow through. Bring any sin into the open. Reveal my sin, let me deal with my sin. Be direct, be honest, get the truth out. Convict me, convince me. Love me. Let me love you. Allow me to Love myself Lord. Reveal my obstacles and make it crystal clear to me.

Friday, September 7, 2007

Forgiveness

Father God I come to you in the name of Jesus, I confess that intimidation has caused me to stumble. I ask you to forgive me for thinking of myself as inferior, for I am created in your image and I am your workmanship.

The Lord is my light and my salvation. Father God I come back to you. I love you.

Thursday, September 6, 2007

Good Morning Lord

Good Morning Lord. All blessing and glory belong to you. I love you, love you, love you. I come back to you Lord. I seek you first God.

The Lord will call you back as if you were a wife deserted and distressed in spirit-a wife who married young, only to be rejected," says your God. For a brief moment I abandoned you, but with deep compassion I will bring you back. In a surge of anger I hid my face from you for a moment, but with everlasting kindness I will have compassion on you says, the Lord your Redeemer. Isaiah 54:6-8

Lord I seek your voice. I want to hear from you. I want to spend time with you. I want to be in relationship with you. I will take time to learn to hear your voice Lord.

Thank you for yesterday, today and tomorrow. I build on the events of yesterday. I look forward to what will come today and I am excited about my tomorrow. I want to eliminate any walls that separate me from a healthy relationship with you. I have to be like a child and take a risk. A leap of faith with my trust. I want God's love and grace.

I want you to be blessed today and be a blessing to someone special.

Wednesday, September 5, 2007

Good Morning

Thank You Lord. Thank You Lord. I am blessed and Highly favored. I will forever give you praise and honor and glory. Thank you for loving me and I do love you. You are the song in my heart Lord. You are the joy that I speak of when I talk about joy and peace. The apple of my eye. The pep in my step. The reason for me to get up in the morning. I have to please God today. Jesus died for me and The Father sent him to do just that. Thank you Father God for allowing me to serve you. Thank you for your blessings.

 My school day was good. There are the usual concerns on a first day but all in all the school is a much better fit than the other ones. I do have a boy who was just released from jail the day before and he has a bullet in his leg which makes it difficult for him to sit and stand for long periods, but other than that all is well. All is well. Just busy busy busy. So much to learn, so much to organize, so many routines to set up for the classroom. Let the students help, get them involved, get to know their names. Get to know and love them. About 60-70 percent are just fine so far, its the other 40-30 percent. I have about 6-8 out of my 34 so far, that are going to be a problem. It doesn't matter. They all will begin to show their individual style soon enough. Some do it earlier than others.Be blessed today and be a blessing to someone special. 

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. This is the day that the Lord has made. I will rejoice and be glad in it. I have been up for an hour now. Going over stuff for today. Father God, grant me peace of mind to be patient and not make rash judgments. Not jump to conclusions, and to be assertive enough. Don't smile 'til December. Guide me as I make my plans. Encourage me to encourage them. God help me to understand who you are and help me to grow with that understanding. Help me to know how you work in this world. Draw me near. Keep me close, never leave me Lord.

I listened to Sunday's service again, this time without a squirming, squiggly baby. I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you. Love God, love myself, love you. Let me get that order straight. Let me love me. It almost seems selfish, but if I don't love me I wont be any good for anyone else. Practice loving me. I love me, I love me, I love me.

Monday, September 3, 2007

First Day Jitters

Well tomorrow is the first day of school,,,,again. I am nervous, again.

New children, new school, new everything.

There's so much to do, and so little time. I can never sleep the night before something big. I'm like this the night before church too.

Well good night.

Be blessed and be a blessing to someone special.

Sunday, September 2, 2007

Our Deepest Fear

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
 
----from A Return to Love, by Marianne Williamson.

 

I looked this up today, I found it again. It continues to challenge me.

Your sermon challenged me.

Be blessed and be a blessing to someone.


Saturday, September 1, 2007

A New Level

When you move up to a new level, you have so much more responsibility. I have been so busy, but I thank God that I have a job to be busy about. I was praying so hard about that fact, Goneeded to bless me with a position this fall that would be  a  reflection of me. What did he do, give me a science position. I love science. I am so pleased and excited about this position that I am totally engrossed in the entire process of a upper grade science teacher. Thank you God and I truly just want you to know that I am grateful.,I missed you but I was so busy that by the time I made it home I was totally exhausted. I didn't have Internet for two days also this week. We had an animal that bit through the wire out back. I also have to rent the two apartments and I have thirteen people who responded. I have tow good possibilities. I have so much to do and not a spare moment.  I need an assistant to write my entries. Someone to respond to you as you have someone to respond to me when I try to contact you. An assistant is so handy.They are able t o handle people and still give them the feeling of being in touch with the real thing, This has been  such a strenuous week. I look forward to church tomorrow. 

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