Tuesday, May 31, 2005

Bible Study

You are teaching right now and I'm not there. My head was so congested and I think I'm losing my voice after yelling at these kids today. I was exhausted after school ended. I'm sorry but I just couldn't hang in the city. I came home and made some tea and took two cold tablets. I'll just have to get the tape. I knew I would just be sitting there blowing my nose and coughing and that can be very annoying.

I'm going to make another cup of tea and hit the bed. Please forgive me for not being there tonight. I know the importance of the word and being ther is very important to me. I hate missing bible study. I listened to one of your Sunday sermons on the way home and it was very much what I needed at the time. It talked about being attacked. I look forwad to seeing you soon. Take Care and God Bless. My heart is with you.

Monday, May 30, 2005

hello

Hello and God Bless you.

I left church yesterday and went to my dad's house. We were having a family get together at my cousin's house in Indiana. I didnt think it would last until the middle of the night. I didnt get home until after 2am. My youngest daughter was with me. They hadnt seen her for a while. We just ate, played cards and watched movies. My cousin had just moved out there within the past year so it was like her house warming party too. I had some congestion that I woke up with on Sunday morning and it just seem to get worse as the day moved on. My head was a giant fog. Today I rested and drank plenty of liquids and took some medicine. After I sent my daughter on her way,  I had to finally get down to business and start washing some clothes and get to my computer and talk to you. I don't know if you miss it when I don't get a chance to make an entry but I miss not making contact with you. Character is very important. I think you did a great job of taking to the eight graders about their future. You make every effort to show them the way they should go and help them walk in that path. Its important to speak the truth no matter what. Keep proclaiming the truth. You do such a good job of it. I ask God to strengthen my faith so that I might respond in the way he needs me to respond. I ask my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ to open my eyes so that I can see what he has for me and I will do what he needs me to do. I continue this prayer daily. I continue to press ontrying to do what's pleasing in the sight of God.

Be Blessed and be a blessing to someone. My heart is with you tonight.

Saturday, May 28, 2005

Remembering What's Important

This day has come and gone. As long as I am here I know I have something to do for God. If I can do that then my life is full.I'm focusing on God's will and asking him to lead me in everything I do especially when it comes to you.

Good Night and Be Blessed. I look forward to seeing you in the morning.

Friday, May 27, 2005

Hello

Hello and God Bless You.

How was your day today? Mine was great. I have no complaints and I don't want to come across as a complainer all the time.

I want to come across as a friend. I want to make this work and I want to be a strong supporter of the things that interest you and that you are passionate about.

For me to die I have to value and be sold out in your way. God's will  seems to just flow. If I do something, he will do something.

What I believed to be important is not really important all of the time. I need to dedicate this weekend to making you important to me. Important enough to make the next two days high priority for you.

I'm going to end now. Be blessed and be a blessing to someone. I send my heart flet love out to you. Good Night.

 

Thursday, May 26, 2005

Thank You and Good Night

What a crazy day!

No we didn't go on the field trip. Two kids got into a fight before we left the school and broke the overhead projector. The bus company sent the wrong bus and the principal cancelled the trip. Yeahhh. I wasn't looking forward to going out with them. But, I find out today I am going out with a select few tomorrow for a college campus visit tomorrow. This is going to be interesting. There will be about four teachers going and since I teach the eighth graders too, I am also  now going to be involved in their end of year graduation stuff also. Only four of my seventh graders will be going tomorrow. They (eighth) have a trip to Milwaukee on Tuesday too. I hope I'm not part of that too. There's luncheons and stuff too. I should be more enthusiastic.

We got our IOWA scores back and I was happy and sad. I was the only teacher to have 13 go up  and 2 go down in reading. The only problem is only five actually meet grade level. Most were low before so even though they improved it still needs more improvement. I was very surprised to see that. I thought it would be just all around low. I guess they are listening to something, sometimes. Maybe its just pure dumb luck. It surprised me. Especially since I just came in January.

Well enough of my day. How was your day?

"Praise the Lord."

Praise God in his sanctuary;

praise him in his mighty heavens.

Praise him for his acts of power;

praise him for his surpassing greatness.

Praise him with the sounding of the trumpet,

praise him with the harp and lyre,

praise him with tambourine and dancing,

praise him with the strings and flute,

praise him with the clash of cymbals,

praise him with resounding cymbals.

Let everything that has breath praise the Lord.

Praise the Lord. Psalm 150: 1-6

Praise is what I do. I praise him in the morning and I praise him in the evening. Praise is what I do.

Have a  blessed evening and take care of your self. Good Night.

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

Good Evening

Today was a good day. Training, evening class and then picking up my daughter at Union Station. She's home for the holiday. I almost forgot there was a holiday coming up until she called and said she wanted to come home. Its been a long day.

Tomorrow we are on a field trip. Dear God help us.

"Live and teach good values, constantly and consistently."

I will have a good attitude and give them the benefit of the doubt.

"...since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another... 1 John 4:11

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

Good Night

You left me with plenty of food for thought tonight. I can't wait to get the tape. Staying focused on what God wants me to do is very important to me. Keeping my commitment is necessary.I liked the fact that God's burden is light. Never heavy. My burden's are heavy because I try to carry them alone. God's will is my will. Following through to allow self to die and his will to live in me, with me and through me is my purpose.

Tomorrow I have a workshop. This is becoming a habit. Then I have class in the evening. Only two more of those classes. June 1st last class. Thursday and Friday the upper grades will be on field trips. I hope these children know how to act in public. I won't be negative, I have high hopes that all will go well. Today was a good day but tomorrow will be better.

Well I have had enough of today and my day starts early, as usual. Thank you for giving me some truth to think about. Keep me focused on God's plan.

Have a very blessed evening. Stay consistent. Don't waver, don't change. Solid. Planted. Rooted. A Rock. My heart stays with you. Good Night.

Monday, May 23, 2005

Has the Church Lost its Mission?

I watched the show. The line stayed busy.  I think a mission is defined as a sending out with authority to perform a special service. The church has a mission and the authority is in Christ Jesus. The special service is to one another to show love, concern and care. We can't just ignore each other. That's not what Jesus would do. You were great and you live your life consistently and constantly in the word of God. Its just such a good thing to know that you care so much for people. Especially those less fortunate. Those unable to speak for themselves. You have been sent with authority. You have a right to do what you do. Keep up the good work. Your heart continues to define your journey. 

Be blessed, good night.

Hello

Hello

How was your day? I had a good day. No fights. Four more weeks. June 17th.

I'm having a new roof put on my house and they are almost finished.We needed it so badly.  I think about how long we have needed it and now its happening. Thank you Lord.

I'm watching TLN Live now. I'm excited. I plan to call in.

Sunday, May 22, 2005

Building My Wall

I am building my wall around me. I want to continue to sow the word into my life and I hope I am able to keep encouraging myself and others.

I don't want to be a grouch. I want to be happy at home and at work.

I do think you you are wonderful and I hope you enjoyed your day. People just want to celebrate your day with you. We all love you and want nothing but the best for you. You can light up the room with your energy. I enjoy being around you.

I was late today because of a train. I had to wait almost 40 minutes. I think there should not be any freight trains on Sunday. I don't like being late. I have to change the time I leave. I'm going to make it 10am from now on.

Happy Birthday young man. You have done well. You have raised two sons and in spite of everything coming against you, you are an overcomer. You have done well. You are amazing and you are loved very much. This will work itself out because God is working this out. You know, you were that close to being with me during the offering.

My prayer tonight is for you to say, this was a good day. I know you don't like a lot of fanfare and you didn't get a lot of that.  People showed you love and you were appreciated. You have done a lot for the faith community and just being able to recognize you and your accomlishments is important to them.

You are one of a kind, don't take that for granted. You are special. I don't take you for granted nor do I take the time we have for granted. I look to the future and know that I will be happy with you in the future. I am not letting my current circumstances control my thoughts and focus. Thank you for continuing to care about me. I don't want to push you away or build a wall to keep you out. I want to concentrate on things that are good and I know this is good.

My love, be blessed and be a blessing to someone. I send my love sincere and heartfelt. I touch my heart and feel it beating and know that I am alive and I send this message out to you with all sincerity.

 

Happy Birthday

 

Good Morning, Good Morning

This is the day that the Lord has made. Let us rejoice and be glad in it.

Birthdays are meant to be celebrated. Enjoy. You are one year older. Enjoy your day. Be encouraged. Celebrate your Life.

Its good that you get to worship the King of Kings on your day. What a blessing.

What a blessing to see you today. I look forward to being there today. You deserve a good day. Enjoy it.

Friday, May 20, 2005

My Trinity

 

I Just needed to have some visual reflections today. I needed to be reminded that God is God. To just remind my self of my Trinity. Nothing bad happened today. Woke up around 3:30 this morning and couldnt get back to sleep.

 

 

 

Thursday, May 19, 2005

Guidance

"There is only one way to bring up a child in the way he should go and that is to travel that way yourself." Abraham Lincoln

" He guides the humble in what is right and teaches them his way." Psalm 25:9

Well the drama continues. I had to have a student arrested today. It was a girl who tried to fight me.She pushed and I pushed back. She was a big bully and she thought she could bully me and she couldn't.

The dynamics were so intense today. The students are so ready to be done. Spring Fever is definitely in the air.

I really had a long entry yesterday. Today its short and sweet and to the point. My day was hell. I need to really think about this place.

I'm glad tomorrow is Friday. A weekend seems like a lifetime.Twenty one more school days.

I send my love, from my heart, my hands, my mind, through the screen, to you.

Be blessed and have a good night.

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

My Opinion

 

The truth is we all can say we want something, but until we actually have it, we have only an idea of what it might be like. I think you are comparing my difficulty with my job with my difficulty with my relationship with you. I wanted a job badly, and I took the first one that offered me a full time position. I love teaching. I love the way learning imparts knowledge and power to an individual and they are able to stretch further with this new knowledge. I have always wanted to be a teacher and I think I have chosen careers that reflect that throughout my life. Helping people is something that seems to come natural and I enjoy doing it. I care about people and want to be a help. I’m consumed with my career because I want to do well and its important to me. Just like you.

If my job and relationship are being compared then I must say they are both challenging. I sometimes think you would rather I quit the job and quit complaining. But I got the impression that by wanting a job and then finding it difficult was being compared to wanting a relationship and finding it difficult also. The question being would I walk away from the relationship when it became difficult. If I walk away from the job then I would walk away from the relationship.

Being an elementary school teacher in the projects of the inner city is a challenge. I believe that children are our future. If we can’t educate them about the things they need to know in this society, then how can we hope to have them be successful adults that care about each other and us. My biggest challenge has been with the children’s attitude. They don’t see a use for education. I find the disrespect to be extreme. The cursing and total disregard for anyone in authority is annoying.

I’m not trying to rehabilitate the whole school. I think I just had an idea that we need to reach back and help those less fortunate and give them a way out. The reality is they are not all looking for a way out and I needed to understand that. Some are content with the situation the way it is and that this is all there is for them to hope for. I want more for them but I also know they have to want more for themselves.

Some students have failed twiceand won’t be returning so they don’t want to do any work and feel it’s a waste of their time. Some think I am judging them and putting them down as most teachers have. They have new teachers about every six months or so. Some stay but most leave. Part of me says stay and show them you care, another part says I know why the others left and I’m leaving too.

I am not the only one who they disrespect and I find when we attempt to get help from home that’s not always helpful. Most of the parents have drinking or drug problems. They smell of alcohol when they come up or either they are high and its evident. Some have just lost all hope for the child and themselves. Some parents are in jail or have just been released. Some parents are buying and selling things on the street (their body included) and other students know this and tease the student.

Their problems are difficult. They are still children but have deal with problems that just shouldn’t be there. Seventh grade is definitely a challenge because their bodies are changing and they are basically trying to figure this out. Most are trying to experiment with each other and drugs. This is elementary school. Its so different from when I was in school.

So when I say I don’t like it and I’m glad when I don’t have to be at school for whatever reason, I’m telling the truth. I’m honest. Who would like having children, children now, tell you as you stand at the door greeting them in the morning, "why did you come to school today" "I can’t stand you" "What kind of car do you drive, I’m going to smash all of your windows" and other things that I’m just not going to repeat. They aren’t my own children so I have to use restraint and keep it professional, no matter what.

I write them up, I give them detentions, I talk sternly to them. Nothing matters really, because they are used to being punished and having things taken away from them anyway. Some of the other teachers say they are more difficult with me because I came in the middle of the year and I just have to sort of deal with it until the end of the year. Next year will be different when you start with your own class from the beginning they say. Next year. So, for the remaining of this year I have to put up with this stuff. I either let them go hog wild and do what they want to do and I get in trouble. Or I continue to try to reign them in and have to spend half of my time teaching and the other half disciplining. More like a quarter ofmy time teaching and three-fourths disciplining.

Yes, I picked a bad neighborhood, yes, there are challenges here that are quite unique to any learning situation, but it doesn’t mean I have to like it. I know I could walk away and find another school and no one would blame me. After all this is the projects. But so many have walked away from these kinds of problems that it just hasn’t helped matters much. I knew it would be difficult. Now that I have the difficulties I’m being challenged to see some of it through.

I’m not saying I can fix it but I would like to think I can do something good. I’m not saying this is the end all be all place for me but I have chosen a difficult place and I’m trying to figure it out. So when I tell you, I don’t like it, I don’t. But it doesn’t mean I don’t love teaching. I love teaching. Somehow I hope to learn more about children behaviors, classroom management and learning styles to reach the point where I can feel comfortable and knowledgeable in these challenging situations.

Teaching is challenging in any aspect so I just try to continue to sharpen my skills. After all, I am graduating in June. You have been with me on this journey for the last ten months and now its about to end. Thank goodness. I struggled through student teaching and now with my first assignment I’m struggling. Life is a struggle. I don’t expect it to always be perfect, but there can be more comfortable spots in it. I’m sure there’s some learning for me here. I think sometimes that I am being conditioned to take nasty insults from strangers and be disliked openly and still be able to do what I need to do. I’m sure there’s a learning experience here.

I do like the fact that I can write to you everyday and you will read it. I’m just going through some metamorphous. I took today to finish my final project for class tonight and I have to get back to work now. I just wanted to get some of my truth out and hope you understand it a little. I’m not perfect and I know you know this, I just want to try to make things better for us somehow. I want you to understand me. Somehow there has been a bond established. I don't want to break that.

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

The Future

Lessons on life. I just think I have so much to learn about relationships. I agree its easier to say you're committed than to be put to the test of commitment. Time will truly tell.

I raise my hands in surrender to God. I let him have control. I will just keep on following his lead and try to stay on course. Its not for me say what should happen when or how.

I guess I'll sign up for New Believers class. I havent taken them before. Six months is quite a long time but I have that time now. I'll also sign up for the next leadership classes too. Obedience.

I use my hands to give my heart and just say good night now.

Monday, May 16, 2005

Hello

OK , I had a bit of an outburst of despair yesterday. It just seems that nothing changes. If I keep doing the same thing I will keep getting the same results. I know things must change and I have to change them. When the reality of the situation sinks in, knowing that nothing has changed, it upsets me.

I had a good day today. We had an inservice after schooluntil almost 4:30. Then I found out I would be attending a training session tomorrow on Working with Angry, Resistant Students: Strategies for Fostering Motivation, Self-Discipline and Resilience. I think they must have looked in on my class when they thought up this  training. Every one of my students fits into this category. Anyway, I won't be with them tomorrow. Yes!! What a beautiful day tomorrow will be.

I'm watching An American Experience- The Murder of Emmett Till on PBS right now. I'm going to watch this and become more informed.

I'm going to end this now. I continue to send my love. I say it and I mean it. I must show it. Its all me. Be Blessed and have a good night.

 

Sunday, May 15, 2005

A Year Ago

Pentecost a year ago we were flirting with each other. We held hands for a minute. We were talking. You danced to the Temptations. We were communicating. We had fun. There was a thrill.

Look at us now. For the last ten months I have been writing in this journal and we are not communicating. What kind of relationship is this? Have we lost it?  

I have said intimate, personal, and just embarrassing stuff in this journal and I'm embarrassed about it. The intimate girly feeling stuff that just doesn't get said was read. But, I have moved on with that. What's done is done in that respect. It has been nine months of journal writing knowing that you have been reading it.

But I now so desperately want to move the relationship from this journal to reality. This is just ridiculous. Why didn't I just sit down beside you at the table? What's the problem?

I have never heard of a relationship like this and I have no idea how to proceed with this. I'm lost. I'm confused. I'm bewildered.

I'm truly dissappointed with this journal. It seems to have taken us further away from each other rather than bringing us together. I think it has just given you a perspective of me as being a bit crazy. I don't think this has been very flattering. It has allowed daily contact in a sort of one way communication sort of way. Where has it really helped?

There is no one else I would rather be involved with but you. I don't have a plan b, an alternative option or a just in case method. I'm believing on this to work itself out. I'm just so infuriated that its not. If this doesnt work, then it doesnt work. We now both say this is something we want and we don't seem to have more than two words to say to each other. Its crazy. I've never seen anything like this before. This keeps me confused.

I try to make sense but it just doesn't make sense.  What are we to do? What can we do?

Pray and ask God for true guidance. Truth and more truth.  This has to get better. How can I say this and hear you say things and we are still not even talking? Its not right. How do we make it right?

 

Good Morning Good Morning

Good Morning

Saturday was busy. I spent most of the day with my dad. Plumbing problems and tenant concerns.

We face some desperate situations. I don't know what to do. I just have to call on the name of Jesus.

"Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you.

Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul.

Rescue me from my enemies, O Lord, for I hide myself in you.

Teach me to do your will, for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me

 on  level ground.

For your name's sake, O Lord, preserve my life; in your righteousness,

 bring me out of trouble.

In your unfailing love, silence my enemies; destroy all my foes, for I am your servant.

Psalm 143:8-12

I ask for God's guidance in my life today. I need guidance from the one who knows me best. Guidance in his perfect will for my life. I ask Jesus to help me see his will today and to give me the power to carry it out. I don't pray asking God to do this or do that but I pray with the awesome knowledge that I am communicating with someone who knows me inside and out. Someone who loves me in spite of anything I can do to mess things up and who  knows the personal challenges in my life. A God who still wants to use me for something even though I have dragged my feet and said not me, it can't be me he wants to use. God says Yes, You.Guide me Lord. Guide me. Guide me in your will.

I look forward to seeing you today, I have to drop my daughter off at work this morning but we are going to be able to leave on time. Take Care and see you soon.

Saturday, May 14, 2005

Blessings

You know, I wasn't going to go to that party. I'm so glad I changed my mind. What a treat to see you and to be near you. If this is going to happen God is going to make it happen. It was a good night. I'm glad I came.

Prayer, family, a firm foundation and just spending good quality time with people is necessary.

One thing I know is that even if you are afraid you can still do something. Do it with fear and God will walk with you.

Prayer from the heart. Oh Lord hear my cry prayer. Thank you Lord prayer. You are an awesome God prayer. Good heartfelt prayer.

A willingness to step out on faith and believe God and his promises. Know that his will be done in my life. My desire is to worship and please God. I want to walk in his will. With much love and happiness for you on date night. My heart to your heart.Be blessed.

Thursday, May 12, 2005

Today was a good day

I don't have any major complaints today. Today was a good day. I decided I was not going to let anything upset me and I didn't.

I was thinking about how I didn't say what was wrong with me and I really could have. It's not that big of a deal. Now it seems like a big deal and its not.

I'm anemic. Not sickle cell or anything just mild anemia. I've had it all my life and that's just the way its been. It fluctuates between the low end and the low low end of the hemaglobin range, generally 9-11, when the normal range is 12-15. Well, during the summer the number was low and they thought lukemia. I knew it wasnt, but I let them send me through a series of different test and the final one, a bone marrow biopsy showed proof positive that it was not lukemia. He said I was just one of those who's numbers are on the low end. I have normal iron levels and everythig else is just fine. So when he told me yesterday that everything was fine I was relieved. Nothing really big, but with all the tests you start to wonder if there might be something there. When he said it was fine, I was relieved. There, that's all it was. Nothing that exciting Wow, tht took more to explain than I thought. I just didn't want you to wonder.

OK, enough of this wonderful day and now to get things ready for tomorrow. We have a speaker coming tomorrow. We're counting the days down. Thirty-five more days.

How was your day today? Did you have a good day?Was it challenging? WellMy heart says good night. Be blessed.

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

Success

Today was a good day. Good news from the doctor and I don't have to go back. No more details on that. That's not fair, but its too much to go into right now. Suffice to say that all is well.

"A woman who is loved always has success." Vicki Baum

"Your love has given me great joy and encouragement..." Philemon 1:7

"To teach is to touch a life forever"

I have to go back tomorrow. One day was a treat. I had a good day. I think I can make through the rest of the week (two days).

Its interesting that we are in May and the temps are so cold. I hope you had a good day today. You took a stand yesterday on an issue that needed to be refreshed in people's minds. Never again we say and so quickly we forget.

Well I'm off to bed, a successful day ends with lots of love to you and my heart filled with joy. I sign off with my hand to my heart and to the screen. I'm overjoyed with happiness today. Be blessed, Good Night.

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

Changing the World, One Protest at a Time

If just one life is saved tonight then its worth it.

Saving the world with our voices and action.

I thought I was going to miss the bus because I had a two hour meeting after school. I won't be in tomorrow, I have a dr's appt, so I had to get my stuff together for the sub. Then of course there was traffic. But I made it and I was very happy to see you.

The walk was inspirational and uplifting. I think it went well. I'm tired now so I'm off to bed with my  hand to my heart and sincere heartfelt thoughts go out to you. Be blessed. Good Night.

Monday, May 9, 2005

There is Power in Prayer

God help me to like children again cause I'm not liking them very much right now.

Mercy

"God's forgiveness and love exist for you as if you were the only person on earth." Cecil Osborne

"Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness." Lamentations 3:22-23

I listened to one of your Sunday sermons from Feb 14, 2003, on my way home today. I had about a two hour ride home today so I managed to listen to the whole thing. "Do You Love Me" was the title. It was good. I remember it. I used to wonder that myself. We used to sing "I need you, you need me" alot.

"God sometimes puts us in the dark to show us that Jesus is the light" I read this today. I feel like I am in the dark sometimes.

I know in the morning I will feel renewed and have a better attitude about the kids.They just annoy me with their nonchalance about education. They truly don't get it that if they don't learn now the new institutions they are building for them now are called prisons. Most of them do not care. 12 through almost 16 years old. Thats the range of ages in my class. Not all are terrible, but the ones who are make it hard for the others to learn.

Enough about my school days. How was your day today? Are you excited about the rally tomorrow. I will pray tonight and tomorrow. I decided to drive to the church. Parking will be difficult in that area and I can just drive home from there.

I'm going to get on the treadmill and walk off some anxiety. I'm going to try to do this everyday. I need some kind of outlet for this.

OK, well, be blessed and be a blessing to someone. I'm signing off with with my hand to the heart to the screen signature. I like that because its real to me. I just feel I have to connect and I have to keep trying to make the connection real. Real, up close and personal. Good Night.

 

Sunday, May 8, 2005

Thank You

Thank you for bringing another great speaker to our pulpit. She is a brave woman and her experience is worth knowing about. You blessed the mothers today. Thank you.

Thank you for being you. Your honesty, your candor and your spirit keep me believing and trusting in you.You are the real deal. That's refreshing. You inspire me to stretch myself further and to stay focused. Thank you.

I thank God for you. You are amazing and that's a good thing. I'm not idolizing I'm just encouraging and recognizing.

Take care and be blessed. My hand to my heart, to my screen and off to you. Good Night.

Saturday, May 7, 2005

One Day is Not Enough

I didn't make it over to my dad. He went to the race track and I knew I didnt want to go with him because I would get home very late. I don't gamble so it would be just a matter of hanging out with him. He has a new tenent so I need to do some paper work for him. I really need to get over there. I haven't been and he's thinking my job has taken me from him. He thinks I have kicked him to the curb as he put it. I'm just trying to split my energy between everything. I might go over there tomorrow when I leave church.

I spent today working on my grade book. Yes, I do have a lot of preparation stuff for school. It is very time consuming. I still have stuff to do. I just try to do what I can to keep balanced, prepared and ready for the week. Its just so much stuff to do.

I know that I have to balance my life.

Matthew 6:24 "No one can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money."

Balance is the key. I want my loved ones to know that I love them and they are important to me. I want you to know you are important to me.  I look forward to seeing you in the morning. I will be at church.

Take Care and be blessed.

Good Morning

God Bless you this morning.

I just want to say good morning and I hope you have a wonderful day. Enjoy it today.

I have to grade some papers and go over my dad's. Maybe do some shopping.

Be blessed and I will talk with you later.

Friday, May 6, 2005

Divine Intervention

Hello.

What a wonderful day. I was supposed to have my observation by the principal today. I was all ready to dazzle her with this wonderful lesson and she didn't show up.Now I will have to do another one next week for her but, today, I didn't have my observation.

I know I talk entirely too much about my job. I am a victim of circumstances when it comes to my job. This is what I do everyday. Its full time and it consumes a lot of my time.

When I started this journal I didnt have a fulltime job. Then I was student teaching and that was a different sort of responsibility. Then from November to January I didnt have a fulltime job. Then I got a fulltime job. Oh my goodness. How do people do it.??? Work fulltime, go to school, have a family, a church life and sanity. How do we reduce the stress and increase the love? I just think we all have such busy lives that we forget about the important people in our lives. We don't forget as much as we just take for granted people will be there and then one day they aren't. They feel taken for granted and not treasured so we have to give them a special day. Mom's Day, Dad's Day to show them they are loved and treasured..

It's a challenge that takes place everyday. With mother's day coming up I take my hat to all mothers who have ever done all of this and continue to do it now. I know there are mother's who stay at home with children and there are tremendous hurdles to jump in that scenario too. I stayed home for six years. Mom's of any kind need recognition. I have no more grandparents. They're all gone. My grandmother was my favorite. She taught me to cook and everything important. My mother hates it when I say that.

I'm just thinking out loud now. I havent written anything lately with the communications ministry and hear you talking about being in ministries and moving around. I need to be more stable with that aspect.

I heard why the brother complained in the story of the prodigal son this week and it was thought provoking. I had wondered for a long time on that. I heard that he had stayed and done all the right things and still wasn't rewarded. Sometimes when you do the right thing for so many years you wonder if anything good is going to happen to you. But I know you can't always expect to be rewarded or even expect recognition. It's life.

I'm preparing for tomorrow by doing my lesson plan tonight. I plan to enjoy my weekend. I have to go over to my dad's tomorrow. I haven't seen him for a few weeks and its about time I do.

Well, enough from me for now. I pray that I can be faithful to my task for the weekend and that I will see you on Sunday. That's something to look forward to. Do you plan to go in the garden this weekend?  Have a good night and I will talk to you in the am. Be blessed and be a blessing. My heart, to your heart.

Thursday, May 5, 2005

Thursday

Hello, Hi, Good Evening.

Today was much better. Only half a day with the children and then professional development and a meeting. We do a lot of professional development. I left right after our meeting. I was out of there by 3:15. I try to leave early at least one day a week. Every other day I have been staying late or somewhere to go.

They didnt ask to pray today. I said a prayer for them anyway. I am so glad we are through with testing. Stress for the kids, stress for the teachers. Its over.

I'm without a topic to discuss. I have copies of the flyer for work. So I guess I will close now. I know you will be blessed and have a good night. Take Care and rest and relax. I know you have a lot on your mind and you are busy so stay focused on what you have to do and stay positive. My heart , my mind, my soul are with you.

Wednesday, May 4, 2005

Hello

The name of Jesus

"..protect them by the power of your name-the name you gave me-so that they may be one as we are one." John 17:11

There is power in the name. Jesus, Jesus, Jesus.

The name you gave me...

protect them by the power of your name...protect them...by the power of your name.

So that they may be one as we are one.

Thank you Lord for your protection. Thank you, thank you , thank you.

My day was OK. The kids asked to pray again today. I thought, here I am in a public school, with children who have tried to drive me crazy and they are now asking to pray. I'm sure we will pray tomorrow also. If only they were better. Its like the prayers bring out the worst behavior. The imps get upset and make the kids perform at their worst sometimes. Its like when they had mass at school, the little demons would be upset and start stirring things up in the children. I just ask God to bring some unity and stability to that classroom.

How was your day today? Did you have a good day? Were you able to do something you wanted to do today? Remember that God will give you the desires of your heart, he wants you to have joy in your heart. My hand to my heart, to my screen, to you.

I'm through for today. School, then class until 8:30, I am exhausted. Off to bed for me. Take Care and be blessed. Good Night.

Tuesday, May 3, 2005

Blessings and Discipline

God really has blessed the women for Mother's Day. I think that's a really good thing you are doing. Continue to lead us where we need to go. Your guidance and direction keep us on the right path.

Church behavior was so necessary. I will definately try to improve where I am lacking. I will work on each area and make sure I'm showing reverence in my manner, behavior and dress.

I know you are tired at the end of service and I think I might just want to make sure I say something to you but then just keep moving through so you can go and get some refreshment and just sit down and rest. You need to revitalize your strength.

Today we prayed before our test. This was the first time they ever asked to pray and I said OK. We stood in a circle and I led the prayer. We will do it every day of testing. Its one thing to pray for God to show up when you have done the studying and preparations but when some have done nothing, its almost like a wasted prayer. I know some have done the work and prepared and the blessing they receive will be very much appreciated. Others who have done nothing and think a miracle will happen will be disappointed. Not surprised, just disappointed.

Well its off to bed, I have class tomorrow night and another long day. So I send my heartfelt wishes out to you, I touch my heart and send them through the computer to you.

Take Care and be blessed.

Monday, May 2, 2005

He Is Able

Today was a good day. Not a just getting by day. Not a thank you God I made it through day. It was a good day.

We are preparing for Iowa Test that start tomorrow. We've been preparing for the longest. We will be doing this for the next three days.

I listened to you today going into the city and coming back. You've had some challenges in your life. I believe the challenges help to define our character. You wouldn't be who you are if you had not gone through some of the things that you have gone through. I think sometimes we wonder if we really need to go through all of that just to get to where we are suppose to be. When do we know we are where we are suppose to be? We are always evolving to a new challenge. Once we meet one challenge we have another.

When I hug you I just have a sigh of relief. I have reached my destiny that day. To get to you. I look forward to seeing you and making a better impression each time we meet. I feel like we are close, we just need to make it better. I know it will happen. I have nothing but positive feelings about this relationship.

Smile when you think about it. The devil is a liar. The comes to kill, steal, and destroy.  That's just what he has tried to do with this relationship but I refuse to let it go.  I just think how good its going to be because God wants this to happen and it will.

So I now touch my heart and touch the screen and just send love out to you today. Sincere and heartfelt hugs and kisses. All things are working together for good, for those that love the Lord. God is Love. Be Blessed and be a blessing. Enjoy your evening.

Sunday, May 1, 2005

A Smile

I think I must smile for at least an hour when I first see you. I just seem to smile and smile and smile. Its a good thing. Its encouraging and comforting to be in the same space with you.

I'm planting my roots right here with you. Whatever God wants us to do we can do it. It's possible. We are able. I am able. It can be done.

I like the idea of you sowing a seed into abused women. I have never been abused but my mother was by her second husband. I know what it was like as a child to have to move away after he went to work and go into hiding for a while. After we left he never bothered her again, at least not as far as I know of. He really wasn't a bad man its just when they went out and he would get very jealous and become upset when they got home. We (my brother and I) would be awaken to fighting and screaming ni the middle of the night. I think that's where my concerns might have come from. I personally have never had a physically abusive relationship. Verbally is something else. I think there is some healing that can take place with this. I have volunteered to drive the women. I did sow $40.00 for the hair and care packages. We all need to be shown some signs of love.

Someone has a birthday this month.

Well I have to do my lesson plan. Thank you for such a good service and thank you for letting me feel loved by you.

Good Morning Good Morning

God Bless you this wonderful morning. Yet again we have another chance to get it right. Another day to bless and be blessed.

"...Let us go to the house of the Lord." Psalm 122:1

Let us go to his house with gladness in our hearts and worship on our tongues. Let us go with joy in our hearts. Let the truth be heard today. Let God's words feed us and enrich us today. Let the truth  refine me and renew me and chastise me. Get me on the right track. Get me focused on your will and your plan Lord.Doing the right thing for the Lord. Not my will but his will be done in my life.I can't wait to get to the house of the Lord.

I was watching Harry Potter because a student gave me a book report on that and I needed to know what the story was about. I didn't want to read the huge book so I watched the movie, along with two other movies. I say this because of the witchcraft references to the movie and the fact that I think I will hear about it.So be it. I need to be reminded of things. The hand of blessing and the hand of discipline. God is working it out. If I just let go and let God do his thing.

We stay connected by staying with the truth. Letting God be the final word on the subject. Letting our hearts and mind be guided by God's will. I pray that I can be strong and focused.

I have to go now, I have to take my daughter to work and get to church to find a new spot to sit in. Somewhere I have not sat before. The only spot I never sit in is  behind the musicians. I've been in a lot of different spots before, balcony, all over on the  center main floor, the sides I don't frequent to often. OK see you shortly.

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