Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Good Morning

Good Morning

What a wonderful morning to worship the Lord. Thank You Lord for all of your savings graces and tender mercies. Keep that car running Lord. Thank You, thank you, thank you.

Well I think maybe you are encouraged somewhat. I am very concerned about the headaches. I pray that you are attentive to them and this just wait and see what happens attitude doesnt allow something more serious to happen.

Don't think that I don't long to see you and long for a chance to connect with you. I know when I write something, eventually, sometime that day you are going to read it and connect with me.

I just want you to know that I believe in us. I believe the devil is a liar and God the Father is Supreme! We will not be defeated by a small thing like this. God will order our steps in the right path and we will be victorious.

Have a blessedly wonderful day and be a huge blessing to someone.

Remember I love you, I love you, I love you. There's something about the number three.

Monday, November 28, 2005

Hello

Hello

It feels so good to finally have the opportunity to place an entry in my journal, but I do have something to say about that.

You know this journal is not meant to be the end all be all of us. This is like an appetizer. I felt (I won't say you, its what I felt) were experiencing some feelings of rejection and dissapointment because I had not placed an entry for several days. I felt you began to talk in a defeated manner. I felt you thought that without this journal everyday that there was no relationship. While this may be a comfort to you daily, it is not the relationship. We had something before this journal and we will have something after this journal. I felt that you were thinking it was over or something. I told you I had a computer virus. We were on Thanksgiving Break and I didn't have access to a computer. I won't be able to have it removed until Friday, if then, Dell wants to charge me 99.00 to have them help me remove it. I may have to wait two more weeks because I don't have that kind of money available right now for that expenditure. You know the problems I have been having lately. My days are very challenging. I am disappointed to think that you had just given up because of four or five days of no journal entries. I felt your demeanor and the things you said and did indicated that you were ready to give up. What happen to all that talk about "I wouldn't walk away" "I'm in it for the long haul" "I won't let you walk away"

This is just an external piece of equipment. This is not the relationship. I refuse to let the devil think he has won. The devil has been messing with every aspect of my life lately and I just keep getting up. I refuse to let this be the end of us just because you don't have a journal entry every morning at 6 am! I'm worth more than that and if you feel that you need to hear I love you every morning to know that I'm still here, then here you go:

I LOVE YOU

I LOVE YOU

I LOVE YOU

I LOVE YOU

I LOVE YOU

I LOVE YOU

I LOVE YOU

I LOVE YOU

I LOVE YOU

I LOVE YOU

I LOVE YOU

I LOVE YOU

I LOVE YOU

I LOVE YOU

I LOVE YOU

I GAVE YOU TWO WEEKS OF I LOVE YOUS. ONE EXTRA INCASE IT TAKES LONGER TO FIX THE COMPUTER. I AM ABLE TO USE MY COMPUTER AT WORK, SOMETIMES I WILL BE ABLE TO GO TO THE LIBRARY AND MAYBE USE A COMPUTER BUT IF NOT THEN DON'T SIT AROUND THINKING SAD THOUGHTS. KNOW I LOVE YOU AND KEEP ON GOING. WE WILL NOT BE DEFEATED. NOW BE BLESSED AND BE A BLESSING TO SOMEONE.

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Good Morning

  I have a computer virus and I pray that this entry actually takes affect.

I missed you yesterday and I hope that I am forgiven for not being able to make an entry. Its not because I didn't try repeatedly, repeatedly, repeatedly.

Let's see if this will post.

With much love, have a blessedly wonderful day.

Monday, November 21, 2005

Good Morning

Good Morning

Thank you Lord for such a beautiful day. I love you Lord. I love you Lord. You have started me on a brand new day. A day that I will never see again. What's in the past is in the past and the present is here before me. I look to the future for your promises Lord. I do believe the promise is for me. I know where you have taken me from and I know you love me enough to have something good for me in the future. I turn it over to you. I don't have control of this. I just don't. I'm too emotionally involved. My mind doesn't have the answers and my heart is too heavy to do anything right. I turn it over to you.

 

Have a blessedly wonderful day and rejoice, God Loves You and I do too.

Sunday, November 20, 2005

The Hanky

Love keeps me coming back for more.

I was taken back to when I gave that to you. Before journal, before anything. Just at a time when I knew I was a girl trying to know a boy.

I really liked that scarf. it is a neck scarf. I washed it, perfumed it up and made up my mind I was giving it to you that day, and I did. I had a speech to say too but you only got the scarf. Thank God you got that. So I wrote a poem in honor of that day.

                                                My Love and Beloved

My Love and Beloved are deeply in Love,

because God has ordained their Love.

My Love and Beloved walk hand in hand,

because God has ordained this Love.

My Love and Beloved do not hear a disparaging word,

because God has ordained our Love.

My Love and Beloved are deeply in Love,

because God has ordained their Love.

 

I listened to the past two bible studies.

Raising My Expectations, Lame Christians and Spiritual Beggars. Spiritual Intimacy with God is on the agenda.

I am expecting to get God's dream for my life.

I have a spirit of expectation.

Good Morning

Good Morning

Thank You Lord for today. Thank You for waking me up today. This is the day that the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it. My Lord loves me in spite of myself. I am loved. Thank you Lord for loving me. Someone once said the first duty of love is to listen, so I will listen today. I seek your word today Lord. I search for your guidance today Lord. I love you Lord. I am in love with you. Love keeps me gettin up and coming back for more. Its all about love. Believing in the love. Walking in love. Being in love. Knowing what love really is. Have a bleesedly wonderflu day and there's a good chance I might see you today.

Saturday, November 19, 2005

Thank You

It was a beautiful evening. I am very grateful that you are so thoughtful. The praise and worship was inspirational. You continue to bless us with exceptional talent. Thank you for caring about the faith community. It was a wonderful evening. You are wonderful.

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord, thank you for another glorious day. We bless you name at all times. Thank you for today. Thank you. You didn't have to allow me to see another day but you did. Thank you.

Lord, you can make a way out of no way. Thank you for your gift s yesterday. Thank you for the fellowship and fun.

Lord you keep making a way out of now way. Thank you.

Have a blessed day today and see you this evening.

Friday, November 18, 2005

Good Morning

"Stay Focused on Jesus" Print

Good Morning Lord,

Thank you for today. You have been too good to me for me to take you for grantedl  I will bless the Lord at all times and His name shall continually be on my tongue.

NOw I can't find my glasses. I feel like Job at times. It just keeps coming. But I continue to praise my Father God. I continue to praise my Father God.

My Trinity is my life. My Lord and Savior. My Heart, My Soul and My very Existence.

I find challenges that allow me to grow are challenges that I find a new way of doing something. I didn't even waste my time going to the journal the way I used to do it. I don't have that time to waste. I have a new way of doing.

Have a blessedly wonderful day today. Find a new way to do the same old stuff.

Thursday, November 17, 2005

Good Morning

 

Good Morning

This is really getting frustrating that I can't make entries the normal way anymore. I don't have time to call AOL and find out what the problem is right now.

I will not get upset or be distracted. I know the fact that so many details are messing up in my life right now I must have a really great blessing coming soon. I know that I have authority over the evil in my life and I call on the name of Jesus to walk with me and destroy the yoke that has taken hold of my life. I take authority over the strongholds and the evil spirits that try to entangle me and trap me. That try to discourage me and distract me. Lord I am the head and not the tail. Thank You Lord for waking me up today and taking the time to love me. I remove all feelings of frustration and anxiety and replace them with patience and love. I am calm and confident. I take authority over the stuff going on in my life. Take Authority! God has not given me the spirit of fear but of power and might. I am a conqueor. I will succeed. My steps are ordered by God. A God who loves me and can do all things.

Have a blessedly wonderful day today and take authority.

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Good Morning

Good Morning

The Lord is good and His mercy endures forever. Thank you Lord for your mercy. Thank you Lord for refreshing my spirit. Lord I look forward to today because I know that you walk with me. Give thanks to the Lord for he is good and His mercy endures forever. Thank You Lord for waking me up today. Praise the Lord for His love endures forever. His love endures forever. His love endures forever.

Dear Lord, Let today be the best day for me. Your love never fails, your faithfulness is never ending.Thank you Lord for today. Pleas let this post without any problems.

Have a blessedly wonderful day today.

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Good Morning

Good Morning

For whatever reason I couldnt access my journal this morning. I had no way of making an entry. I even tried to start a new journal but it wouldn't let me do that either. I just thank God that I am able to access it now.

I knew I just had to let it go and find an alternative. I'm pressed for time but I just wanted to let you know you were on my mind and I will keep you in my thoughts today. Have a blessed day today.

Monday, November 14, 2005

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. I stay hopeful for the day when you fulfil your promise in my life. Blessed is your holy name. Great and wonderful counselor. Waking me up and starting me on my way like you do everyday, keeps me faithful and hopeful. Trusting in you Lord renews my strength daily. You didn't have to do it but you did. You love me and I love you. Thank you for loving me. Just like a baby, it's unconditional. I love you Lord. I love you. I love you. I am in love with you. Glory to you, my God. Glory, Glory, Glory.

Father God I don't know the slings and arrows that are ahead of me today but I do know that you walk with me and that knowledge brings me peace and a sound mind. Watch over my love today. Guide him through his twist and turns. Comfort him during any unrest in his day. Protect him from any harm today. Love him today Lord.

With much love and kindness, have a blessedly wonderful day today.

Sunday, November 13, 2005

100 years old

 

If I have to wait until I'm 100 for my promise from God....then I guess I'll just have to wait, but I'll be real weary and probably have a big attitude. I can understand why I'm so impatient now. I don't like to wait. Why do I get such a guarded hug? Keep the faith, walk by faith and not by sight, believe in God's promise in my life. ONE DAY.

I'm hoping to have another car thanks to my loving daddy. All girls need a loving daddy. He's got another car and he's going to give it to me. We had to take it to the repair place so they could fix the trunk. It used to be my daughter's car but it was stolen and she didn't take care of it so he took the car back. Its just been sitting there. He got it repaired and its been sitting. Now I plan to drive it. If I get it by Tuesday I can go to bible study otherwise I won't be back until Saturday. My brother lets me drive his car to work and I'm home in time for him to go to work. I will miss NMNB on Monday and Bible study on Tuesday. My mom  told me she wants to go back to that church on Tueday and I don't want to go now that I know what their plan is. She's going to ask me to drive her and I'm working on how to say I have papers to grade without showing an attitude. I know she's trying to hook me up. I'll just have to be very convincing. Monday she has a board meeting so no car for me. Oh well. I'm just glad she let me use it for church. Things will get better, stay positive, look over the problems, don't get bogged down on the everyday stuff. I'm trying to keep a positive attitude. God knows at this point in my life he is carrying me all the way. If I'm going to make it its because of him. I am out of personal pep, positive attitude is on empty and everyday and every step is a challenge. I like this picture because the cat is like, whatever, I've got somewhere to go, I've got something to do, If you are going to do something then do it otherwise get out of my way and let me go on about my business. Tail is up and not one glance to the dogs. Yeah I may be scared but hey, I'm doing what I have to do. That's me right now.

Good Morning

Good Morning. Another day to bask in God's unconditional love. Thank you Lord for another day. Thank you for your wonderful grace and mercy. You are the most high and powerful God. All things are created through you. Even the littlest detail is smoothed over and refined by you. Thank you for loving me Lord.

Now I know why I was feeling so strange about going to the new church Tuesday. It was a set up from my mother and her friend. I was suppose to meet that man. Now my mother is setting me up with him. How pathetic is that! God knew the plans and he just began to remind me who my true love is. That's why I had all those references to events and times at my church. That church wasn't for me. God wanted me to remember my church and who was at my church, for me.

I'm so blessed to have such a loving God who knows all and can work the smallest detail in our lives. Thank you Lord for being the author and finisher of my life.

Have a blessedly wonderful day today. Today is the day. I have bargained and cajoled for a car. I'm going to church today.

Saturday, November 12, 2005

Good Morning

Good Morning

Thank You Lord for today. Today is the day that I will continue to focus on your will and your way. Thank you Lord for waking me up and starting me on my way. My cup runneth over with your blessings today. I seek you first in the morning and I have found you. I love you Lord. I Love You. Lord you know the comings and goings in my life. You know the things going on in my children's lives and you definitely know what's going on in my life. I call on you to see us through. We can't make it without you Lord. We just can't do it. The road is too long, too dark, too narrow. We need you Lord to guide us, comfort us and protect us. We can't do it by ourselves. We turn it over to you Father God. Our Rock, our Comforter, our Counselor.

Have a gloriously blessed day today and remain in God's will.

 

Friday, November 11, 2005

Good Morning

 

 

Good Morning

Staying in God's grace is my desire every morning. Thank You Lord for another day. Thank you for waking me up and starting me on my day. Thank you Lord for new insights and a different way of looking at things. Thank you Lord for saving me.

Thank you for renewing my mind and letting me see something new in a scripture that I had read over and over again. You saved me Lord from being blind to things going on around me. My walk continues to be narrow and straight. It's not easy but I know you are with me. I turn it over to you Lord. I ask for your help and assistance. You know the conditions I am faced with and the atmosphere I am in. Thank you Lord for loving me and caring about me. Thank you Lord for loving me so much. Thank you for never giving up on me. Thank You Lord. I submit to your will and continue to walk towards your vision. Even if I don't know what it is, I am supportive.

Have a blessedly wonderful day today and renew your mind, body and spirit.

"Apple Tree with Red Fruit" Giclee Print

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Hi

 

I am so glad today is over for me. We are out tomorrow and don't return until Monday. YEAH!!!!

I must admit there was a slight twinge of satisfaction as I watched some of my problem students squirm in their seats yesterday during report card pickup. I just told their parents exactly what was going on and the child was silent. Usually they are going word for word with me but then they were silent. Today was a much better day in general. I took my test to be graded and walked down those stairs with the children to go home. No staying after for me. Next week begins the afterschool program and I am going to be there Tues, Wed, and Thurs, until 4:15 on those days for the next twenty weeks. I also am going to do Saturday school from 9-noon. I don't know when that starts but I have the time and can surely use the money.  I might as well get paid for the time I spend there.

I was thinking about my time on Tues and I believe that pastor mad a reference to my sexuality because I didnt say anything when his boy made a pass at me. Now if a woman doesn't show interest in a man that makes a pass at her she must be a lesbian. He never thought that maybe I might be seeing someone else, but just because I didn't have a ring or something to indicate to him I was with someone else, he chose to think I was available for him or anyone to pickup. It makes me mad when I think about it. He definitely didn't have to assume that I was a lesbian because I didn't talk to his guy. I don't think people should be trying to pick up other people in church, but that's just my feelings. He talked about men being on the down low and said that women are on the down low too. Some are right here now, then looked at me. Maybe I'm taking it too personal. It was on my mind and I just wanted to get it off my mind.

Good Morning

Good Morning

God is good all the time and all the time God is good. Thank you Lord for waking me up this morning and starting me on my  way. My cup runneth over. My days are blessed. My spirit is renewed in the promises of God.

Have a wonderfully blessed day today and enjoy the treasures of the Lord.

Wednesday, November 9, 2005

Good Morning

Good Morning

Thank You Lord for another day. Thank you Lord for waking me up this morning. Thank You Lord for caring about me and wanting me to see something new and different. I went to a new church starting up in my neighborhood. It began Sept 20th. They are currently at the golf course and they will soon go to a location of one of my mother's friend church. She needed a night time driver and I was it. Smokie Norful is the pastor. He did a song or something recently. It was interesting to see a startup church in the very beginnning stages. The people are not the seasoned church goers, nor are they the "oh so holy and grateful" they are just there and hoping for their miracle. Just like me. I enjoyed the lesson. God definately wanted me there. He began sermon with the four men lifting the parapalegic down through the roof. That reminded me of Rev. Proctor's sermon to us about who and what is the church. He also included the Romans 8. All things work together for God.  I know forgiveness is not mine to do. I have to turn it over to God and release it. I don't want things to be the same as usual.

I have parents coming today. Report card pickup day. This is not revenge day for all the crap their children have given me, its information day for concerned parents to take notice and check up on their children. Some of my children are raising themselves and I know that's hard on everybody.

Have a blessed day today and stay strong.

Tuesday, November 8, 2005

God Morning

 

Good Morning and God Bless you today. Thank you Lord for another day to get it right. I am believing in you for my miracle today. I start each day giving God the glory and praise. I must convict myself everyday on my relationship with th Lord.

I won't be at bible study today. I have to go somewhere with my mom.

I'm sure you will have a wonderfully blessed day and you will renew and rejuvenate everyone. I rely on God's power to transform my circumstances. I know it will get better. I will have my own transportation again. I'm believing that there is something more for me to get out of this situation. I am where I am due to my own making. I blame no one but myself. I should have paid closer attention to the warnig signs.  In the meantime I have bargain and cajole between two cars. God is good and his mercy endures forever. God knows my needs.

Be blessed and be a blessing to someone.

Monday, November 7, 2005

Good Morning

Good Morning

Thank You Lord for another Glorious Day. You woke me up thins morning with Joy on my heart. Joy, Joy, God's great Joy. Joy, Joy down in my soul.

Thank you for waking me up and starting me on my way today. Today is the first day of the rest of my life. Today I will do my best to be the very best that I can be. Today I will be an example of God's love for me. Today.

God you have given me insight into the love of your Holy Spirit's spiritual gifts this morning. Love is patient, kind and never boastful. Love conqueors all. I rest in your love Father God. Your saving grace has blessed me and kept me. Thank you Lord for your love. Every morning before I come to this journal I go to God. I pray, I read the word, I reflect on how God's presence will influence my life that day. I listen to his guidance and grace. Living water flowing in my life. Waters that run deep and still like a well. Waters that flow like a waterfall. Sometimes waters that are as clear and flowing like a continual stream down a mountain. God has so much for me to do, I pray that I can accomplish half of the things he needs me to do. My heart, my mind and my soul say "YES" to your will Lord.

Have a wonderfully blessed day today and enjoy the little treasures that God will place in your life today. Remember to rest, rejuvenate and renew your mind. Restore your soul to know God's great glory.

Sunday, November 6, 2005

An Attitude of Gratitude

Thank You Lord for All You Have Done and Thank You Lord for All You are Going to Do. I Love You Lord. Nothing new has changed for me today. My situation is the same but I stay grateful and continue to have an attitude of gratitude. Glory to your name Lord. Thank You.

Good Morning

Good Morning. Thank You Lord for another day. Your saving grace and mercies let me know that each day I have is a blessing from you. How I spend it, how I honor you is important to me. Reading your word, seeking your presence is how I will spend my day. I seek to magnify your presence in my life. I pray for the Holy Spirit to come into my life and helo guide and direct me. I won't go without you Lord. I will walk by faith and not by sight. Each day I look to the Lord for my strength and health. Come what may, I know its in God's hands.

Have a blessed day and look to God for your answers. Seek Him earnestly and sincerely. What is the truth that you really are wanting to know? What are the words that you long to hear?

Saturday, November 5, 2005

Good Morning

Trust in God. God knows what you need. I have been up for an hour now. Thank you Lord for the rest that I was able to get. Today will be a day of training in the city. I can't lose sight of God's promise. My timetable is not God's timetable. Trust in God and lean not to my own understanding. When one door closes another opens. Let me see the path that God has placed before me. Let me travel down the road that He is directing me towards.

what is it I need to do? Where is it I need to go? Are there even answers to these questions? Am I running a race where there is no end?  The ultimate answer is always stay in the race. Fight the good fight. Love conquers all. Stay focused.

have a wonderful day and continue to reflect and renew and rejuvenate. Let God's word guide you in your direction and communication.

Friday, November 4, 2005

God Will Make A Way

Hello

Nothing more specific happened today than the fact that I went to work and I came home. Everything in between was just related to school stuff. Report Card pickup is on Wednesday so we have done a lot of preparations. God will make a way, when there seems to be no way is all I keep saying today. God will make a way when there seems to be no way.

Good MOrning

Good Morning

Thank God for all of your  lovingkindness. You will continue to hear my prayers and know the thoughts of my hearts. Father God render null and void any words that have come out of my mouth that are hurtful, harmful or decietful. Father God the things that were said this morning let them be burned and destroyed. Do not let the devil have his way in my house. Father God hear the pleas of my heart and mind. Correct me and allow me to stay calm during my time of struggle. Remove all resentment from me and allow me to not judge and demand from others. 

Be blessed today and have nothing but God's saving graces on your life.

Thursday, November 3, 2005

Good Morning

Good Morning

This is the day that the Lord has made. We will rejoice and be glad in it. Thank you Lord for today and for all of your tender mercies.

Lord you cannot really know me unless I choose to share myself...my thoughts, my ideas and my feelings. I have tried to do that Lord. I seek your input, your direction and your guidance. I open myself up for your inspection Lord. I want you to know me. I welcome you into this place.

Have a blessed day today. I pray that you are rejuvenating your mind, body and spirit. Listen to God's directions for your life. Hear what you need to hear.

Wednesday, November 2, 2005

Too Good to Be True

 

Be still

and  know

that

I am God

I just know it to be true.

No matter what is going on in my life, be still and listen to God. Hear his words.

My day was exhilirating. I was in a hurry to get back and the children made me wish within the first hour that I had taken another day. A fight in my room at 9:30. Two girls at that. All of the classes acted like it was the first day of school and they forgot all of the rules and stuff. I'm gone for two days and there is chaos. I have to write up about 40 discipline sheets tonight and begin to schedule parent conferences. What a day! Be still and know that I am God.

Glory to you Lord. Glory, Glory, Glory.

Good Morning

Good Morning and blessings to you. Thank you Lord for today. Thank you for allowing the medicine to work and I do feel better. The side effects aren't that pleasant but I know they will go when the infection is gone. Off to work today. I'm looking forward to seeing my class again.

My walk with God is one of boldness. Having courage to stay the course and to stay focused during all the trials and tribulations that are put before me. I have a passion for Jesus and I will not let anything stand in the way of my relationship.

Have a blessed day and enjoy yourself.

Tuesday, November 1, 2005

Good Morning

Good Morning to you today. Today is the first day of the rest of my life. Today I thank the Lord for waking me up and starting me on my way today. Lord you know we have court today so walk with us on this journey. Its tough. Lord keep our minds on you and not let the devil come in and cause my self or my daughter to say/do the wrong thing.Keep us strong and determined today. Let your peace rest upon us today and follow us. Keep our minds clear and undisturbed by the things going on around us. Thank you Lord for your tender mercies today and every day. Lord we don't want to go without you. We search for you continually. If we don't hear from you, we wait. Guide us in your will and your way today and always. Strengthen me Lord to fight the battle. I love you Lord, I love you.

I have been ill and I haven't been with the faith community. I miss the fellowship and I know I'm going to miss it tonight too. My circumstances with my transportation cause me to limit my evening activities. I'm grateful for any activities I can make. Thank You Lord for hearing my prayers. You know the concerns of my heart and you hear my cry.I don't give up, I haven't given in, I just have to heal.

Have a blessed day today and don't stop believing that I do love you.

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