My Relationship

1 Corinthians 11:11-12
¹¹ Nevertheless, in the Lord woman is not independent of man, nor is man independent of woman. ¹² For as woman came from man, so also man is born of woman. But everything comes from God.

Good Morning Lord. Thank you for today. You have given me life one more day. I am grateful and humbled that today you have found a reason to wake me up. I will try to be productive. I will try to do my best and not waste so much time. I will try to communicate better. I will try.

Juicing Day One

OK Lord, we are on a journey. I am bringing back the joy in my life. I loved smiling and laughing with you yesterday. I love being with. You influenced me to think about juicing as a way to help control my weight. So I went out and bought this wonderful Ninja Kitchen System with the three different size attachment, ever so sharp blades, and the fact that it has two single serve cups as well as  a bowl for me to make dough. Yea, I did it. So then I bought some random fruit and vegetables that were mentioned in the recipes in the book. Found a three day juicing program to get started on and I am ready. Yep, I'm ready. Washed the pieces in nice warm soapy water, I'm ready now. I am so ready. Now I prepare for my first vegetable juice drink. I don't know why I thought it would work out better. I forgot some of the ingredients. Didn't have them on the list. Now all I have that I can make are smoothies.But I haven't given up. Off to the store for the missing ingredients. Juicing will begin today, for sure.

OK so I have made a peach and raspberry smoothie and it was soooooo good.

Now I am going to find the rest of the vegetables for the 7lbs in seven days program. Forget the three day program, let's go for seven days. I'm excited.
I want this to work so bad. I will keep it off this time. I will be healthier and more energetic. My mood will improve and my mind will be clearer. The sky will be bluer, the world will be wonderful.

I know it sounds ridiculous, but I have to psych myself up to stay focused. If I can believe in this, I can do it. God is with me. I believe it will help me to be healthier, maybe live to 120 years old. That's what the bible says. Eating a more plant based diet will do so much. I just hope I can get past the taste. If I can get it to taste good, then it can work. I can do it.


I need to place a pen in my purse so I can stop writing checks with my sharpie marker.

Encouraging One Another

Thank you Lord for my love. Thank you for reminding me how much you have done in my life. You saved me when I was ready to fall down the wrong way. You never let me go that way. I have never had a really rough time. I thank God for that. I have kept God in my life to a degree where I would hope I could never just not know who God is in my life. I pray that you are not thinking every pretty women is your soulmate. God will work on that with me because I am truly a one man woman.  But I give you props for just loving on beautiful women. You are my hero. You saved me in more ways than one. Spiritually and Emotionally. Physically we are still working on that. You are handsome to me and I love you so I forgive you for everything.  God is good. I have my joy back today. I am renewed in having hope. Hopelessness is so futile. This is not the end, its a new beginning. Thank you God for change. I love you and look forward to a wonderful future. Now.
So I bought a new juicer/blender/ kitchen system today. I'm going to start juicing. I don't want to look bloated on the wedding photos on the 10th. I'm not going to trip that that you won't be there, I know your AB is important, but Ia will miss you so much on that day. I wanted you there for two reasons. To put my ex in his place, yea, I got a new life and a new man who I love, and to show Jesus is in my life fully. Kim will be there for my church, so I'm cool with that. I will miss you and I I am going to be good with that. God will work with me on that. I'm in wedding mode now that it is two weeks away. I love having my joy back. You have given me so much spiritually that I can only thank God for placing someone loving and caring in my life.

Focus

<sup>John 13:34-35

34</sup> A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another; as I have loved you, that you also love one another. ³⁵ By this all will know that you are My disciples, if you have love for one another.”

Remember

Praise the Lord for He is worthy to be praised. My God shall supply all of my needs. I remember loving the Lord with all of my heart. My memories of my father during happier times saddens me now. But the Lord says to not be sorrowful over that. Treasure the good times and remember them fondly. My dad is totally unable to move with out assistance, wont eat, wont talk to anyone any more. A few words is all we get. I pray that we are able to remember the good times.
Thank you Lord for waking me up today and giving me a good day so far. I am blessed that the career fair was nothing like I feared. There were actually a few good prospects, I hope. I am excited about the posibilities.
I pray that this rain will stop for our walk tonight. I enjoy the fact that it wont be so hot but not the rain.
Take care of yourself. Do the right thing. You make a big difference in this world. I love how you are able to find hope when there seems to be no hope. Your faith and love are both in great abundance. You are a faithful man. I thank God for you.

Good Night

 

 

Ecclesiastes 3

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A Time for Everything

3 There is a time for everything,
    and a season for every activity under the heavens:

²     a time to be born and a time to die,
    a time to plant and a time to uproot,
³     a time to kill and a time to heal,
    a time to tear down and a time to build,
⁴     a time to weep and a time to laugh,
    a time to mourn and a time to dance,
⁵     a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
    a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
⁶     a time to search and a time to give up,
    a time to keep and a time to throw away,
⁷     a time to tear and a time to mend,
    a time to be silent and a time to speak,
⁸     a time to love and a time to hate,
    a time for war and a time for peace.

 

 

Good Night My Lord. Today has come to a close for me and I just had to spend a little time posting a note. I just want you to know that I care. It is not a meaningless task to write. Sometimes I think its means nothing and its just a waste of time. Other times I feel its important. It is my connection to a very special individual in my life. Someone who I feel very close to in many ways, even though I am just a loon sometimes. Sometimes. It will get better. Tomorrow I will go to this crazy career fair. I bet the lines will be long, cameras talking about the number of teachers looking for jobs and the number of jobs available. Keep the faith, keep believing in the good. Stay positive about the whole experience. My attitude is what will make the difference for me. Thank You Jesus for success in the position that is right for me. Glory to God. May God bless everyone one in my life tonight, especially my family, my church and my country. Bless the leaders who have to decide our future. Give them courage to make the right decisions. Bless the children to do the right thing. Bless their parents to be parents even when its tough. I love you and hope that you sleep very well tonight. I hope that your day wasn't too hard. I pray that the negative people are a small part of your life and you are surrounded by loving people who are encouraging and supportive. I pray that you will make sense in everything you do and that you are encouraged to do the right thing. God Bless you and keep you tonight. I love you.

Good Morning

 

Exodus 3:14

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¹⁴ God said to Moses, “I am who I am.^[a] This is what you are to say to the Israelites: ‘I am has sent me to you.’”

Hosea 14:2-4

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² Take words with you
    and return to the Lord.
Say to him:
    “Forgive all our sins
and receive us graciously,
    that we may offer the fruit of our lips.^[a]
3 Assyria cannot save us;
    we will not mount warhorses.
We will never again say ‘Our gods’
    to what our own hands have made,
    for in you the fatherless find compassion.”

⁴ “I will heal their waywardness
    and love them freely,
    for my anger has turned away from them.

 

Good Morning  Lord. I love knowing that I am on your agenda today. You have me on your list of things to do today. You made plans to wake me today. To continue to give breathe to me. To allow me to interact one more day in your world. you are my delight. Lord, I am in awe of your grace and mercy. I wonder how can you really love me, and you let me know I am special to you. I am on your radar and you want to know everything about me. Then when you find out, you are still there. Lord you are encouraging me daily. My praise for you is forever in my heart and mind.  I know your constant love and attention is to keep me falling in love with you daily. I will trust you daily. My heart and my mind and my soul are yours. I'm a work in progress, but I am your work in progress. You are my heart's desire and I will continue to honor you, praise you and love you. Nothing will change that. Lord, you are watching over us during these challenging times.
Watch over our leaders. Our school system is in serious need. The turmoil has given way to lots of upset. The children are the ones who need to come out winners. In one month we will be back in school, in a system that is continuing to display dividedness and distrust. How can children and their families trust the union or the board? Continued layoffs, closing large numbers of schools, parents not kept in the know about what to expect. At what point are we able to say, OK, enough, let's begin to rebuild. There just seems to be down size, protest, close, downsize, protest, close. This cycle seems to have no end. Where are the children in all of this? Looking at the examples of the adults in the situation and responding the same way. God, I pray that it is better, it just seems to be so chaotic. When will it stabilize, when can we stop the bleeding? It was inevitable that closing 50 schools was going to result in massive layoffs. Now the union is protesting and marching, again. When are people going to move forward for the children? Who is the wise one in this situation, I just don't know. Lord I pray for a light at the end of this tunnel. This week we will have a career fair. I'm sure it will be packed. I will go with faith and hope in my heart and mind. I will try not to be negative about the situation. So few things to be positive about in this situation, but positive we must be. Lord I pray for the right job and the right situation with the right people. Place me where I am suppose to be. Surround me with your love Lord. Keep me near you. When I mess up, keep me close so I can fix it and get it right. Keep me close to you Lord.

Good Morning

<sup>John 5:16-22


16</sup> So, because Jesus was doing these things on the Sabbath, the Jewish leaders began to persecute him. ¹⁷ In his defense Jesus said to them, “My Father is always at his work to this very day, and I too am working.” ¹⁸ For this reason they tried all the more to kill him; not only was he breaking the Sabbath, but he was even calling God his own Father, making himself equal with God.
¹⁹ Jesus gave them this answer: “Very truly I tell you, the Son can do nothing by himself; he can do only what he sees his Father doing, because whatever the Father does the Son also does. ²⁰ For the Father loves the Son and shows him all he does. Yes, and he will show him even greater works than these, so that you will be amazed. ²¹ For just as the Father raises the dead and gives them life, even so the Son gives life to whom he is pleased to give it. ²² Moreover, the Father judges no one, but has entrusted all judgment to the Son, ²³ that all may honor the Son just as they honor the Father. Whoever does not honor the Son does not honor the Father, who sent him.



Good Morning Lord. Thank You for today. I am blessed to be here today. Thank You for all that you do for me. I think you are a jealous God and would prefer that I spend my time with you always. I am in love with you and would prefer nothing more than to be with you. Our destiny is to be together and I will believe that to the end. Thank you God for trusting me to believe in the truth. The law is one thing but God's will is another. Be Blessed today and be a blessing to someone. I have to get ready for camp.

All That's Going On in My Life, 48 hours is my future

^{Luke 15:17-19}
 “When he came to his senses, he said, ‘How many of my father’s hired servants have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! ¹⁸ I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. ¹⁹ I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired servants.’ ²⁰ So he got up and went to his father.


Do not be a person that easily passes judgments on the faults and failures of others. We all have faults. We have a tendency to lock people into their past. We have a tendency to think that we are on our own with our successes. God gave us everything we have and whatever we are going to have. We have to thank God for everything that we have. David wrote He has goodness and kindness chasing me. I am blessed. God has smiled on me. God the Father loves me.

I love you for being so confident. You speak to our hearts and mind with true love. You forgot to say be blessed and be a blessing to someone. I know you are a blessing to me. You stand tall and strong proclaiming the word of God. Your love is forever. I love you and I believe in you. I have faith in you. I believe that change is in the future. In the near future. God is getting ready to make some changes.  48 hrs change will happen. Glory to God. I love you. 

I hate it when people are against you. The fact that you are willing to speak the truth, people want to hate on you. Know that you are loved and that God is watching. Don't be weary in your well doing. You are doing a good thing. Be proud and loving. I love you and pray for you daily. Be blessed and be a blessing to someone.

Love is truly enough

Lord I thank you for today. I am blessed and highly favored. Today I feel loved by you. I know that feelings are things that lead to temptations. Our purpose in life is to not to fall prey to our temptations. Our passions are important. God places purpose inside of us. We need to be passionate about our purpose. I affirm my trust and my faith in you. My feeling is that there is more to this than meets the eye. Affirm my trust in you and my faith will follow. I do not need to hide from my fears and anxiety. I  don't need to pretend they are not there, I can bring my fears into the open where we can deal with them together. Lord I give my fears over to you. you can deal with them. I will concentrate on trusting you. I will concentrate on loving you. I have dreamed about you twice this week. Dreams that were different from anything I have dreamed before. Staying close to you yet, distant. Lord, whatever your plan, let me follow it and be encouraged to have passion to do it. Some things just have to be done. Like it or not.

My Concerns-Blessed Unity

Psalm 133

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Psalm 133

A song of ascents. Of David.

1 How good and pleasant it is
    when God’s people live together in unity!

2 It is like precious oil poured on the head,
    running down on the beard,
running down on Aaron’s beard,
    down on the collar of his robe.
3 It is as if the dew of Hermon
    were falling on Mount Zion.
For there the Lord bestows his blessing,
    even life forevermore.

Dear Lord, the concerns that are weighing on my mind are many. We all have concerns, but Lord, these are mine. When does this hormonal menopausal stage leave, if ever? I am so moody and temperamental. My daughter is getting married and the wedding is in 3 weeks. What should I do about this date, bring a date or not. My father is in a skilled nursing facility, bring him home, like my mom wants, but can't take  care of him, or leave him there? Lord, Lord, Lord. North Carolina will be calling tomorrow for a telephone interview, do my best, then what, will I move if I get the job? Daddy definitely will have to stay in the facility. Will Lizzie and Jarrod move back then, once I'm gone? Will I be missed? Can I handle the distance? God is good. I ask God to search my spirit and to help me know what oppositions I have that are opposing His purpose in my life. Lord I confess to all obstacles that I have placed in my life, whether intentional or unintentional. I can be my own worse enemy, but I pray that you will empower me and allow me to move on in the situations that I have given over to you. I am at a crossroads and I pray for the solutions to these obstacles. I pray that I will listen and hear your words and spirit in my life Lord. You are my strong tower and I need your guidance and love. Direct me on the right choices.

Lord you warn us of our enemies. Those that are recognized and not recognized. Help us to discern when we are in danger. Let us know to listen to your warning signs. Keep us safe. We love you Lord.

Hope for the Hopeless

 

 

 

Psalm 34:17-20

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¹⁷ When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears
and delivers them out of all their troubles.
¹⁸ The Lord is near to the brokenhearted
and saves the crushed in spirit.

¹⁹ Many are the afflictions of the righteous,
but the Lord delivers him out of them all.
²⁰ He keeps all his bones;
not one of them is broken.

Jeremiah 29:11

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¹¹ For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare^[a] and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.

Philippians 4:6-7

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⁶ do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. ⁷ And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Philippians 4:13

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¹³ I can do all things through him who strengthens me.

 

 

Father God this has been a challenging summer. I have seen some good things and some bad. Its wonderful when you have a strong man with your annointing leading a neighborhood out of despair. Teaching children to love one another and care for each other. To see each others as human beings that need love and care. It's disappointing to see a country validate racial profiling and murder. The prosecution let the victim be tried and not the murderer. We can rise above that, as we have had to do for so many years. But rise we shall. This is not the end by any means. Public outcry will demand better laws. God will restore order. The righteous will not go without some kind of justice being done. God hears our prayers.

God knows when we are out of sorts. When we seem to backslide and not know what to do. God is there to sit with us and help us find our way out. When we believe that we are too old for a relationship. Our time has past and we will be just like the elders on the elders row, alone. I know I am as much to blame as you and I place the blame smack dab on me, but it doesnt make it any better. I just couldnt see you leaving where you are and I couldnt see me coming into where you are. Seeing as how its against the laws of the church. So where did that really leave us? That's why I feel hopeless. You have fought so hard to be where you are now. You have achieved so much for the community. Who knows what else you will achieve. This is not the end for you. There had to be sacrafice along the way. Love happened though. Love doesn't play by the rules. It breaks my heart to hope for more. I never want to say I have given up and moved on. But what is there to do? Keep dreaming and keep believing. You know so much about me and yet not enough. Dr King had a wife and family and he was a great man too. I feel like I'm begging for something that you may or maynot want. I feel like I'm wanting more but maybe you are not ready for that. Look at me say that and I am the one not talking. See, How Crazy is That!
God is good and through prayer and fasting the answers will come. Pray daily. Give God the honor. Show my love on a daily basis. This will get better before it gets worse. We will succeed. There is hope for the hopeless. So I send this out into the void, not knowing if it makes sense to you, if I made you mad, if you will ignore it, should I keep writing to you, does it make a difference, what is the real story. Questions, questions, questions, never any answers. Just keep believing.

Honored and Loved

Matthew 26:6-13

Jesus Anointed at Bethany

⁶ While Jesus was in Bethany in the home of Simon the Leper, ⁷ a woman came to him with an alabaster jar of very expensive perfume, which she poured on his head as he was reclining at the table.
⁸ When the disciples saw this, they were indignant. “Why this waste?” they asked. ⁹ “This perfume could have been sold at a high price and the money given to the poor.”
¹⁰ Aware of this, Jesus said to them, “Why are you bothering this woman? She has done a beautiful thing to me. ¹¹ The poor you will always have with you,^[a] but you will not always have me. ¹² When she poured this perfume on my body, she did it to prepare me for burial. ¹³ Truly I tell you, wherever this gospel is preached throughout the world, what she has done will also be told, in memory of her.”

Praise God. Thank You Lord for another day. I am blessed today. You have given us a new day. Your love for your people is evident. Thank You Lord for today. Lord I thank you for loving us and keeping the community safe. Hear our prayers Lord and know that we are in love with you. Keep the community safe and keep the violence away from all areas of our life. Keep us hungry for your love. I pray for continual knowledge that I am not finished and I need more of you each and every day. Thank you God for your blessings. You have blessed us today. I pray that we can be blessed and be a blessing to someone today. I love you.

Obedient til the End

Romans 8:1

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Life Through the Spirit

8 Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus,

 

 

John 19:17-19

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¹⁷ Carrying his own cross, he went out to the place of the Skull (which in Aramaic is called Golgotha). ¹⁸ There they crucified him, and with him two others—one on each side and Jesus in the middle.
¹⁹ Pilate had a notice prepared and fastened to the cross.
It read: jesus of nazareth, the king of the jews.

 

Luke 6:37

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³⁷ Judge not, and ye shall not be judged: condemn not, and ye shall not be condemned: forgive, and ye shall be forgiven:



Thank You Lord for another day. You are the great equalizer. You remind me of your great sacrifice and how you suffered but you did what had to be done to save me. Can I ever repay you enough for your great sacrifice? I will try. Lord I will continue to follow you. I seek you daily. I want to do your will. I don't know if I am doing the right thing, or not sometimes. Is it this way or that way? Say yes to this, no to that, or is it the other way around. Have confidence in my choices. Don't be hesitant to make a move. God is with me. Have confidence. Trust in the Lord. Trust in the Lord.

 

 

 

Inexhaustable Love

 

 

 

 

Isaiah 54:17

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¹⁷ No weapon formed against you shall prosper,
And every tongue which rises against you in judgment
You shall condemn.
This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord,
And their righteousness is from Me,”
Says the Lord.

 

Thank You Lord for today. You are my strong tower. You are there for me daily. When I need your presence in the present, you are there. Thank you Lord for your unfailing love. When I am weak you are strong. Unfailing Love, constant love, never waning. You don't love me more on some days and less on others. You are constant. Thank you Lord for loving me. I love you so much.

 

 

How Do We Deal With Loss and Need

Jeremiah 52

Psalm 36:10-12
Continue your love to those who know you, your righteousness to the upright in heart. May the foot of the proud not come against me. Nor the hand of the wicked drive me away. See how the evildoers lie fallen-thrown down , not able to rise.

Thank you Lord for today. I am blessed that you woke me up today. I give my all to you Lord. Thank you for today. I have another chance to make a difference in this world. I have another chance to do your will. Lord I ask what my purpose is and I am still wondering if that is really a priority. Love is so important in our lives. Our need for love can be embarrassing but necessary. Infants cannot survive without someone loving them enough to care for their basic needs, and love is one of them. A basic need. When  I acknowledge that I need love, I feel incomplete, but the truth is, God is Love and I need God everyday. The need for love is basic and true and pure. It is good to be true to God. Good to know that love is needed in our lives. We remember times when we felt true love. When we smiled, and felted warm and tingly inside. We have to receive love as much as we desire to give love. Each and every day is a chance for love. Yesterday's love will not suffice for today. We are always renewing our supply and demand for love. We love the Lord and daily we seek the relationship that will replenish our supply. Let me love you and let me receive your love. Sounds so simple. I ask God to redirect my thoughts so that I am more open to love. Soften my heart  and mind to receiving love. I ask God to remind me to believe that love is here. Love is so faithfully following me daily that I can not even notice its there. Remember how to love. Remember the hankie, that was my attempt at getting your attention. I remember writing how excited I was to be on my way to see you. Loving every minute, every second that I was in your presence. Having date night, every Friday. How you spent an extremely hot day watering love for the community because I was not going to be there on Friday. Love has never left us. We have to remind ourselves that we are a product of love and we need to replenish our supply of love for each other. Fall in love again. Be happy. Know that love is basic and necessary. Love me today because I will love. you.