Friday, June 30, 2006

Good Morning

Good MOrning Lord. Thank you for your blessings. I had the little one last night and that was quite a challenge. He was a good baby. Thank you for your blessings. We are finding good ourt of our ashes. Nana is not use to 2am feedings and then 4;30am then 7am. Nanamust leave the overnight stuff to his mommy. Lord I know there are manythings I need to let go of. Help me to let go of the stuff that is bringing me down. Help me to let go of things that are keeping me from my purpose. Help me to let go of stuff. I've done a lot of cleaning out this week Lord. Continue to help me get rid of stuff that I just don't need.

Good Morning Sweetheart. I hope you are blessed today. I have nothing but admiration ofr you and I pray that your day is blessed. The baby is crying so I have to go. I love you.

Thursday, June 29, 2006

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. I am never defeated if I have you with me. My praise is that I know you are the King. You are the beginning and the end. My Lord and Savior Jesus Christ can do all things but fail. The battle is not mine, its the Lord. I give God the glory. I speak with authority. I know how to listen and receive God's divine word. I praise God everyday. Praise is what I do when I want to be close to you. Thank you Lord for loving me.

Good Morning Sweetheart. I am renewed in my strength and love. I know that I must go through some things and just because I am trying to walk in God's word it doesn't mean I won't go through some things. I give God all the glory and all the praise. I pray that you have a good day today. I pray that all our prayers bear fruit. We will not grow weary and lose heart. We are surrounded by goodness and love. Be blessed today.

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Hi

I was very upset this morning. Its like every morning I am disconnected right in the middle of my journal. I have contacted AOL and they can't explain the reason. I have broadband connection, not dial up. I have internet service and everything. I just keep getting disconnected. Its like a virus or something. I just refuse to give in to the little things that just disrupt a perfectly good flow. I just had to lay down all claims of power and turn it over to God to transform my situation. I believe in the power of prayer.

My day has been very uneventful. I have been cleaning up my room, office and closet. I put together this three compartment hamper that I brought for my birthday in March. I have this pilates dvd that I plan to use today. I'll wash some clothes and that's the extent of my day.  Be blessed today and know that my thoughts and prayers are with you. I love you.

 

Good Morning

Good MOrning Lord. I crush the head of the satan. Who ever is part of crashing and disrupting my computer is evil and will always be know as evil to me. I  know that the Lord is My Shepard and NO WEAPON formed against me shall PROSPER. Your arrows and darts will not succeed. It will only bring me closer to my destination and ITS NOT WITH YOU. YOU WILL NOT DEFEAT ME NOR DETER ME FROM MY DESTINATION. I LOVE THE LORD AND ALWAYS WILL PLACE THE POWER AND AUTHORITY OF JESUS CHRIST AHEAD OF ME. EVERY KNEE SHALL BOW AND EVERY TONGUE MUST CONFESS THAT JESUS CHRIST IS LORD. YOU SHALL NOT HARM HIS FLOCK. GOD KNOW'S WHO HIS CHILDREN ARE AND YOUR ACTS OF DECEPTION AND DECIET WILL SURFACE. I LOVE THE LORD AND THE LORD LOVE'S ME. I LOVE MY SWEETHEART AND MY SWEETHEART LOVES ME. PUT THAT IN YOUR REALITY BOOK AND REPEAT IT OVER AND OVER AND OVER. NO WEAPON FORMED AGAINST US SHALL PROSPER. STOPPING ME FROM PUTTING IN AN ENTRY EACH MORNING IS NOT GOING TO WORK BECAUSE I WILL NOT GIVE UP, NEVER, EVER, NEVER, NO NOT EVER WILL I GIVE UP. GOD IS LOVE AND I WILL STAY IN LOVE.

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Good Morning

 

The Greatest Gift is Love

(1 Corinthians 13:4-8)
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast
it is not proud. 5. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not
easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6. Love does not delight in evil
but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always
hopes, always perseveres. 8. Love never fails

Good Morning Sweetheart. I am trying something different and I pray that It works. You are valuable to me. You are incredible and important. You light up my life. You are unique and you are a ray of sunshine on a rainy day. I ask God to help me to continue to speak words of encouragement and love to you. I pray that you are steadfast and patient. I pray that we continue to have endurance and that perseverance is with us always. You are the one I love and you know how to get the job done. Thank you for being a part of my life. Have a very blessed day today.

Monday, June 26, 2006

"A Woman"

                                                "A Woman"

             This is written in the Hebrew Talmud, the book
             where all of the sayings and preaching of
              Rabbis are conserved over time.

        It says: "Be very careful if you make a woman
        cry, because God counts her tears.  The woman
        came out of a man's rib.   Not from his feet to be
        walked on.   Not from his head to be superior, but
        from the side to be equal.   Under the arm to be
        protected,  and next to the heart to be loved."

Good MOrning

Good Morning Lord. Thank you Lord for another day. I am blessed to be able to worship you one more time. Lord I praise you and thank you for your word. I know that your word does not return void but it accomplishes that which you have said. Father God I am happy to be a friend. I love the knowledge that you love me and want to be my friend. I am a friend of God. God is good all the time and all the time God is good. God looks out for his ministering servants. The Lord watches over me while I am doing his work.

Good Morning Sweetheart. My day is blessed today. How is your day today. I pray that you are ministered to today. I pray someone will place fresh manna into your life. You are wonderful and thoughtful. You have done so much and there is still more that you are ready and willing to do. You are a beacon of light in a dark forest. Your heart is pure. Yuo speak the truth and the truth shall set you free. I want to encourage you to continue to speak the truth. Minister to your ministers but let them also minister to you. I know your job is not easy and you may get discouraged but know that you are God's servant and as it is written " Give, and it shall be given unto you; good measure, pressed downk and shaken together, and running over, shall men give into your bosom. (Luke 6:38 KJV) Give Praise to the Lord for he is worthy to be praised. I thank the Lord for loving me. My plans for today. I will look for a new chain for my cross. I broke it about a month ago and I just miss not wearing it. Not much on the agenda today and plan to keep it like that. Have a blessed day. I won't promise I'll be there tonight but I will make an effort to be there.

                                         

Sunday, June 25, 2006

Hello

I missed my hello this morning.

I missed my hello during offering time.

I missed my hello during communiion.

I missed my hug and hello during the line.

Nana is now actively busy with the baby. He sleeps so well during the service. He usually wakes up during the sermon.Around 1:30 he gets hungry. This baby is taking me away from my scheduled times to say hello. I guess I will have to figure out a new way to get your attention.

Then I wanted to listen to the service on the computer but its not up yet. I'll try later.

This is ok. I will be off for a week and a half so I will have lots of time to hear it later. I sometimes like to listen the dame day to refresh my memory better.

I love my grandson and my daughter. I enjoy taking him to church with me. I pray that I am always welcome in the house of God. I have a lot of stares and questions. My other daughter asked me if I was proud of her. She wanted to know if I was dissappointed in her. I told her I love her and I am very proud of her. What would make her think that. I think because she is unemployed in a real job, she thinks she's a failure. She's so young. She's just getting started. I don't have the right to judge now. I'm so glad she graduated. I know other things will come.

This is my thoughts, feelings and perceptions journal. You are so fortunate to have found this. There are few people who know me like this. This is for a select person who can understand and relate. God made this happen and I am blessed to have you in my journal. I love you. You are a friend. Have a good evening and be blessed. I love you.

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. Thank you for waking me up today. I am ready to begin a new week of praise and worship. Lord my habits of doubt and insecurity have begun to rise. This week was a very challenging week and I notice that during times like that I am less secure about my future. Whenever we are examining how to build a community I have self reflection on my own life and I find out that I'm not pleased with what I'm doing. Lord, I try to stay in your presence. I want to do things that are pleasing to you. I want social justice to be a defining force in my life. Lord I seek so much from you. My life is strengthen and renewed with your power. You dwell deep in my innermost being of myself. You know me better than I know myself. Lord, I know that I had a better sense of being loved. Lord you are my strength. I believe that you love me and want the best for me. Deliver me from my habits of insecurity, doubt and frustration. Help me to see and know the fight is fixed. The battle is not mine, its the Lord. Help me to continue to use faith exercises to renew my mind when negative thoughts come in. Help me to receive and be in total freedom. Strengthen and renew my mind daily. I am no one's victim. I am strong and I am a conquerer.

Good Morning Sweetheart. Sometimes I get to see a snapshot of your life. Just a moment in time where you are you. I love it when it happens. You are working hard towards your goal. Keep the faith baby and know that I am not leaving over a whim or whimper. Return to me and I will return to you. Trust in me as I trust in you. Reality is very real and humbling sometimes. Be blessed today and be a blessing to someone very special. I love you.

Saturday, June 24, 2006

Good Morning

 

 

Good Morning Lord. I am walking in faith and I am believing you for my life, my love and my happiness. I have faith in you Lord. Like the three Hebrew boys, I will not bow down to the negative and even if the Lord does not save me, I know he can. I have faith in that knowledge that my God can do all things but fail. I believe the Lord hears my cry. I believe the Lord knows my heart and that some things must happen to prepare for other things to happen. I trust in the Lord to never, ever, never leave me nor forsake me. Lord I seem to work on threads of faith. Sometimes they are very thick and can hold lots of stuff. Sometimes they are very thin and seem to want to break at the slightest attack, but they don't. I just seem to be wandering and waiting. No rhyme or reason, just there, but I have faith that even if I never understand, God understands.

Good Morning Sweetheart. I trust the Lord for us too. I struggle with the us, but I trust and have faith in God for that us that will occur one day. What do we need for that to happen? What would it look like. I have to get ready for the walk. I don’t want the bus to leave me. I love you.

 

 

 

Friday, June 23, 2006

Good NIght

Good Night. This is the second entry this evening. I had problems this morning and now more problems. Let me just say good night before something else happens. Be blessed and I will see you in the morning.

Thursday, June 22, 2006

Good MOrning

Good Morning Lord. I am thankful for today. I pray that my missionary work is successful. Lord you continue to let me know that I am important to you. You know the strands of my hair. I am remembered and noticed. My desire is to please you and I pray that I do that often. I know that I have the power to overcome any and all obstacles. I put my faith in you Lord to see me through. I trust you Lord to guide me and direct me.

Good Morning Sweetheart. Let not your heart and mind be troubled. Have a blessed day today and be a blessing to someone special.

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Good Morning

Good MOrning Lord. Thank you for your loving kindness. You remind us to constantly examine things with our hearts also, and  not only our mind. I would love to say that I have a sense of hope and accomplishment. But I do believe that better is possible and that people are trying to get to better. I have hope in their pursuit. I look forward to the results in January. Thank you Lord for your blessings. Thank you that there were people of hope and faith who know first hand how poverty affects our lives. Walk with us Lord. Talk with us. Talk to me.Lord you know the concerns of my heart. Let your yes be yes and your no be no. I love you Lord and I want to get things right.

Good Morning Sweetheart. I love you and have a blessed day.

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. Thank you for another day. I will praise you today and every day. I thank you for traveling mercies today and everyday. I have been praying for protection from any accidents and grace with my car. I pray that I am not pushing it  to the extent that it will break down on me. I have been directed to protection from travel and I am praying for no mishaps to occur. I cover my route with the blood of Jesus and I cover my car with the blood of Jesus. The car is good, been through all the check ups, its a sound car. Lord protect me from those who may be in a hurry and drive recklessly. Let me not be anxious or annoyed by those who are rude. Thank you for your blessings on the road today. Lord let me seek the truth and not hide from it when I find it. Let my day be filled with learning and community.  Let me hear the truth and not turn my heart away from it.

Good Morning Sweetheart. Have a blessed day today and be reassured that good will come out of what you are doing. God loves you and so do I.

Monday, June 19, 2006

God Wants Us to Smile

Hi

I read this cute email about why God created lightening bugs and it made me smile. It starts out with just another cute email blab blab but then the end begins to say that God sometimes just makes things for us to smile about. I thought that was so appropriate. God made us in his own image and he wants to smile so why wouldn't he make things for us to smile about. I am also watching wife swap and they have an atheist and a Christian who have switched homes. I can see things wrong in both houses.

I have been in class all day. Then I went to the library to get some books to begin my unit for the summer. Now I am baby sitting. I have homework too. I cant wait until this week is over.  What was I thinking. I could be on vacation now, but no, I'm taking a class that's a week long, with homework no less. I always try to do more. I need to just say no sometimes. That's how I got into babysitting. I began thinking about what the speaker said about children yesterday at the Father's Day service and denounced all children not born in what was considered a Godly relationship in the Old Testament and I had to believe that when Jesus came He  told us to love one another as we love our selves. I cant hate this child my daughter has bought into the world. That makes me think of all the people who are againstabortion and they wont adopt or help homeless or orphaned children. I felt there was some bigoted talk and that there wasnt all of God speaking to me. I had my grandson in my arms and he was telling me that this was an unholy union and I agree that she shouldnt have been with that boy and that they didnt need a baby but she had him and I am going to love him now that he is in the world. God says to love each other and that is what I am doing.

I look forward to some me time soon. I will be at the meeting tomorrow night. I'm interested to hear what direction this crusade is going to take. Be blessed tonight and know that i love you.

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. I love you and I worship you. My life just wouldn't be the same with our you Lord.  I get up wondering what's in store for me today. I thank you Lord for the breathe I take each and every day. I thank you that I have things to do each day. That I can claim to be busy. Thank you for all the blessings you have placed in my life. Bless all the people that you have placed in my path. Bless everyone Lord. Hear our cries and hear our pleas. We love you Lord. We love you. Talk to me. Talk to me.

Good Morning Sweetheart. I pray that you have a good day today and that all is well in your neck of the woods. I will be in a workshop all week from 8am -3:30. Its all day. I'm looking forward to something different but I dont like having to leave home so early, then coming back in rush hour traffic. Be blessed and have a blessed day. I love you. I'm believing God for my miracle.

Sunday, June 18, 2006

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. Thank you for another wonderful day. I am blessed and highly favored today. Today is a good day. I thank God for waking me up today and starting me on my way. I give God the Glory, th Honor and the Praise. God has a plan for me and his plan shall not go out void in my life. I will enjoy the journey as well as the destination. My cup runneth over with all the good things the Lord has done for me. I'm loving God just for who he is. He is the great Almighty, I AM, My Savior, The Counselor. Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Not my will be done but the Lord's will be done in my life. Lord bless my travels today. Protect me on my journey.

Good Morning Sweetheart. I pray that you are well and feeling blessed and highly favored. I watched part of the PUSH coalition convention last night. I saw the last 30 minutes and the Rev Forbes was speaking. He is a pastor in New York. He was so good. I felt blessed to hear him.He was a man who spoke the truth. I enjoyed hearing him.

My day was uneventful yesterday. Market Day pickup, cleaning my daughter's apartment. Cooking dinner for the two of us. Her young man was away. He, of course, will come back today, penniless, wanting to spend time with her and the baby. He has no job, not even trying to find a source of income. She is just biding her time until her lease is up in August, then she plans to come back home. She left a year ago on her own, now a year later she's back, and with a baby.

Happy Father's Day to you. Have a blessed day. I look forward to seeing you soon.

Saturday, June 17, 2006

Good MOrning

Good Morning Lord. Thank you for waking me up this morning. I am renewed and refreshed. Yesterday was very busy. I was able to see a year with my students come to an end. Thank you Lord for a different grade next year. I have had seventh, then eighth and now sixth. Lord I pray that you will continue to love me and protect me. I am your servant Lord. Thank you Lord for loving me. God makes all good things possible. Lord today I will meet with my mentee. Let it be a good meeting. I pray that she and I are able to hear each other. I want to be receptive to her needs and to respond appropriately. Lord send your angels of protection and watch over us today.

Good Morning Sweetheart. How are you today? I am always asking how you feel, what's on the agenda for today? Are you taking good care of yourself? I think I mother too much. I was told at school that I am too lenient on the children. I will go back and forth with children. I can only be so mean for so long. Its just not me. I will either be mean and stay mean, or be nice and move to mean, then back to nice, then alternate. I will work on classroom management. It truly makes a difference what sort of student you have before you. I think I have had enough of the big ones for a while. Let's see what grade I get for the summer. Today is market day pick up and then a meeting at bj's. There is no rest for the weary right now. Have a blessed day and be a blessing to someone special. I love you.

Friday, June 16, 2006

Good MOrning

Good Morning Lord. Thank you for another day. You are The Lord Almighty. El-Shaddai, the God who is more than enough. You care that I have good health and that all is well with my soul. Lord I am in agreement with your plan for my life. The enemy is a liar and all plans of the enemy are destroyed. Lord you are my rock and my salvation. I thank you for bringing me to this place in my life. I welcome you to come into my life and set up a good work for me to follow. Father God I am reminded that it is you who have given me the posibility to work, to live and to function on this earth. Everything belongs to you and I will never feel that I have done anything on my own and I owe you Lord nothing. Lord I acknowledge you and my responsibility to tithes and offerings that I joyfully give. I know that we are to give to the poor and bless those in need. You will bless us as we bless others. Lord I give you thanks for your blessings.

Good Morning Sweetheart. Today is the last day of school! Yeah!!! I am so ready to be done with this school year. God has been good to me and I will find out today what my assignment for next year is. They wait until the last day so that anybody who doesn't like their assignment won't stiff them on the paper work that must be done to close out the year. How are you today? My family helped me finish my records so I wouldn't be up until midnight working on the stuff. God is good. Have a blessed day today and be a blessing to someone special today. I love you.

Thursday, June 15, 2006

Good MOrning

Good MOrning Lord. I am working on doing a better job of sending my journal entries in. I have lost it once already this morning and that is very frustrating. This does not give me the opportunity to be as personal. I am rushed and hurried. I want the journal to be a welcome page in the morning. NOt some quick, fast and in a hurry thing. Lord you know what is and was. You know the beginning to the end. Help me to remember the good things and to keep you always in my mind. Have a blessed day today and be a blessing to someone very special. I love you.

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Good Morning

Good MOrning Lord. Lord thank you for comforting me during my troubling times. Lord you help me to deal with my feelings and thoughts in an appropriate way. Lord continue to help me work on myself so that I will be healthy and whole when you bring that right person and myself together. Lord help me to remember that this is a preparation time and that I am preparing myself to be joined to another human being for life. Show me how to be responsible for myself and how to allow others to be responsible for themselves. Teach me about boundaries and how to establish them, instead of walls. Teach me about love, Your Love Lord, and how to speak the truth in love, as Jesus did. Teach me to love for better and for worse. Teach me to not be a hindrance. Help me to take a good look at myself and my self-image. Lead me to people who are to help me, educate me and encourage me in Your Ways of being and doing right and being whole. Lord teach me how to see clearly the mate you have chosen for me. Help me to recognize qualities that you know I need in a mate. Thank you Father for revealing to me the choice of mate that you have for me. Thank you for not just basing it on emotions, or feelings, or looks, though you have managed to give me a mate that has all of those qualities and more. You have revealed to me a mate who also has definite Bible guidelines, principles and practices that have been put into use repeatedly. They have repeatedly saved me from lots of pain and trouble. Thank you Lord for not trying to make things hard for me but for making me get to know my self. You know me better than anyone. You know my situation from the beginning to the end and you are still with me. You know my good qualities and attributes and you know the things I need to do to improve. You know what qualities and attributes are needed for another person to make me happy and you know what I must do to make another person happy. I pray that I do not fall in any hidden traps of danger. I cast the care of this decision on you Lord. You will cause my thoughts to come in line with your plans and you will determine when they need to be established and successful.

Good Morning Sweetheart. I pray that you are doing well. Feeling well. Enjoying your mini vacation and praising God for the wonderful blessings. More records, packing and clearing out my classroom today. We are going to the police academy open house/orientation this evening. God bless you. I love you.

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Children

Children. I believe every knee shall bow and every tongue shall confess that Jesus Christ is Lord.

My children on the other hand are of a different nature. Their half sister just had her baby today in Idaho. It's early and therefore premature. She and her husband in Idaho decided to name the child Rune. Runes are ancient stones that Wiccan (witches) used to tell the future. I said that the name was pagan and did not worship God nor is it trying to worship anything of the Christian world. I was told that I am wrong. They are not pagans or devil worshippers. I said they may not consciously be worshipping the devil but to name their child something that is clearly associated with the dark arts is wrong. I was clearly told that I should not associate that with the dark arts and that everything is fine. I then told them, if the child is not representing the Lord Almighty in name and action then the name is inadvertently representing the devil and his spirits. I said every knee shall bow and every tongue shall confess that Jesus Christ is Lord. They are Mormon and they have a different view. I'm making a big deal out of nothing. They are right about one thing, its nothing, because I will probably never see this child and that's fine with me.  They will know one thing that I believe in Christ and that I am a Believer in the Resurrected Christ and that the devil is a liar and a deceiver.  Don't you just love being a part of my family discussions.

Trust and Love

Maui Sunset. Its so beautiful.

Lord I pray a prayer of overcoming feelings of abandonment. I know that you love me and I know that you care. My joy  and my heart are with you. When other people leave me and I feel unloved, I am thankful that you will never, ever leave me alone or reject me. When others have left me I am assured that you will never leave me. You will never leave me. Never, ever, never. Jesus gave his life for me. He calls me friend, he lives in my heart. When I am lonely or discouraged I know that Jesus loves me. I am thankful for that. I love to be loved. The fact that I am loved gives me strength. I will never leave, nor want to leave. I desire to be closer and closer still. Even though being closer requires me to be in danger, I desire to be closer. I want a daily walk, closer and closer. Danger will follow but I want to be closer. Assign your angels to accompany me and protect me and defend me. I am never alone. Your words say that nothing can separate me from the love of Jesus Christ- not pain, not stress, not persecution, nothing. Every circumstance is done with the love of Christ and you say you will never, ever, never, ever leave. You are concerned about the smallest of things in my life. I ask you for friends who will encourage me and help build me up, never tear me down. Teach me how to trust my special friend and to continue to love him. Teach me that the most important thing to remember is to love him and never, ever, never, ever leave him. Let him learn to trust in me as I trust in him. Teach me to love and show myself to be a friend that will stick with him through thick and thin. I love him Lord. I love him a lot. I pray for his happiness and safety daily. Protect him and return him to me safely.

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. Thank you for your blessings. Thank you for another day to praise and worship you. Lord forgive me for my sins. forgive me for my doubt. Forgive me for my impatience. Forgive me for any feelings of inadequacy. Forgive me for trying to do something my way and not even knowing what that is. Father God I want to trust in  your plan, not my plan. Lord you must destroy some things and allow other things to bloom. I'm much better with that knowledge. Sometimes I falter but I thank you Lord that I can and do get back up. If I am not back at this school, I wont be anxious like last year, I'll just go to the job fair and find a new school. If I am in any way disappointed in my love life, if maybe the one I love doesn't think they can make that commitment, then I won't be in a deep depression and I definitely am not suicidal. If that spirit is around me or I seem to make others think that I am, Lord forgive me. Lord I don't want to hide from you in any aspect of my life. Fix your eyes upon me and guide me, mold me and correct me. Father help me to work on my one pet project this summer. Weight Loss. Help keep me focused. Help me to create a lifestyle change, not just a diet. Help me to encourage myself when I don't feel like exercising or when I want to put that piece of cake in my mouth. I love you Lord and I want to be better for you. Thank you for loving me Lord. "As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, O God..." Psalm 42:1

Good Morning Sweetheart. What a beautiful day. I pray that everything is well in your world. I pray for good weather where you are going and for a wonderful ceremony this week. Marriage. I think they will make a good couple. Graduation went off without a hitch. After the ceremony, the graduation committee went to Red Lobster. What a nice treat. Came back to school and our day was over. Today and the rest of the week will consist of paper work. I don't mind that. Have a wonderfully blessed day today and be a true blessing to someone special today.

Monday, June 12, 2006

Good Morning

Good MOrning Lord. I have nothing but thanks for you this morning. My praise is for everything you have done and are about to do. I praise you for who you are Lord. You are the beginning and the end. Glory to your name Lord Almighty. I was confused and shaken. I didnt believe that something good was for me.Being doubtful and impatient made me feel as if I had missed something. I had not. My deadline is not your deadline. Lord you are an on time God. Having patience to wait and not be anxious is a skill. When you know that you are waiting to receive something, or give something then the wait seems forever. Waiting in lines, waiting for a certain milestone in your life. Waiting. Waiting is easier if you have someone to wait with. Waiting is also better if you know that there is a process. Some things must happen before other things can happen. That's where patience comes in.

Good Morning Sweetheart. I have been up since 4am. I have to get to school early today. I have 65 eighth graders who have waited a long time for this day. I need to make sure everything is in order. I look forward to 2:45. My grass needs mowing and I have to put out some lawn food stuff. Have a blessedly wonderful day. Know that you are loved very much and have a safe traveling day if you are leaving today.

Sunday, June 11, 2006

Patience

Thank You God for a man who will tell me the truth. I don't want someone who will sugar coat everything. I am not saying I don't need some things to be given a softer flavor but I want the truth and I need it straight up and honest. I need someone who can walk that fine line between truth and honesty. How something is said is just as important as what is said. I need the truth. and sometimes I need it straight forward and with a two edged sword. Sometimes I need it sugar coated too. I am not the suicide you are thinking about. If everything between us went awry, I would be disappointed and hurt but I would not take my life. I probably would settle for someone who was not my promised person. I am not going to take my own life. God did not put that spirit in me and the devil has not given me those kinds of thoughts. I'm too much of a survivor to go down that road. I would live alone rather than kill myself. I have done that for over 18 years now. I was ready to live out my life alone before you. SO DEATH IS NOT AN OPTION. TALK TO ME, CHALLENGE ME, CONVINCE ME TO STAY. KEEP ME FOCUSED ON MY PURPOSE. GOD LOVES ME AND HE LOVES YOU. WE WILL BE TOGETHER IN THIS WORLD, DONT YOU AGREE. I couldnt stand it if you were not able to rouse me and fortify me with your faith and love. I dont need a wimp. I applaud you for being a strong man, with a heart. I forgot to ask you to bless my grandchild. When I am in the line you look at me and then prepare for the next person behind me. I want your attention. Keep looking at me. Be interested in me. Take notice of me. I demand it. a marriage in Maui. I want a marriage in Maui. Keep me near your thoughts. With much love. Good Night.

Hello

Sometimes I just forget that you are hurting too. This is not the best situation for you and I am sure it causes so pain and unnecessary drama in your life. How are you feeling? What's going on in your life?Where can I bring comfort to you? How are you doing lately? I wish you could just say do this and I do it and that's it.

what to do, what to do, what to do. Be blessed today. I do love you but I also know that love is not everything. Faith without works is dead. Love without action, is that really love. Is there commitment there? Do two people really work together in this area? Quyestions, questions, questions.

Good MOrning

Good Morning Lord. Glory to your name. I give glory to Jesus of Nazareth, (the son of God), powerful in word and deed before God and all the people, Luke 24:19Thank you Lord for your blessings. You are my salvation. You walk with me at times when I don't even know its you. But you are there when I am down.. You bring peace. Jesus opened his disciples mind so they could understand the scriptures.Father God open our minds and our hearts so that we may understand also.I give glory to your name Jesus.

Good Morning Sweetheart. This has been a very challenging week. I am encouraged that I will feel better.  I have just felt as if nothing has changed with us. What do you do when you want something and you have little control over getting it? What do you do? What do you do when it seems all messed up and lost. What do you do?  You sow a seed. I plant positive thoughts and words in my mind continue to keep an atmosphere of love around me. We aren't closer, we aren't farther we just are there. Should I be concerned. Should I care. Does it matter. Just inward thinking about the past and wondering about the future. What can I do. Realizing that I had very little that I can do. Leave it up to God and let him do and it will come to pass. Patience, patience, patience. I went over my daughter's yesterday and helped out. I bathed my grandson, washed clothes, folded clothes and encouraged my daughter. The reality of her situation has set in and I don't want her feeling the baby blues. Post-partum depression is real and I want to encourage her to take care of herself as well as the baby. I'm bringing Austin Michael to church today. I hope, I hope, I hope.

Saturday, June 10, 2006

I'm Better

My day has gone well considering the constant mishaps that have occurred. When I arrived at school we had a hoard of students who still needed to pay for their cap and gown. I ,of course, am in charge of the graduation ceremony, why they did that I will never know, so I had about eight receipts to write and then get the gowns from the vault. I still have students who plan to pay on Monday! Anyway, I had the other teachers working on the ceremony.I had written all of the speeches, written the welcomes and picked the songs from the selections they had made. I did not need to be at the rehearsal. I then had to go to Balfour and pick up the salutatorian, valedectorian, and four honor ribbons. They have not had any of these in over four years. None were ordered and none were available. I have made so much money over  the past week its ridiculous. Selling autograph books and just encouraging students to participate in the luncheon, autograph books and graduation fees. I will be so happy when its Monday afternoon and its around 1:30 in the afternoon. Then I heard we are not being paid for today. What a bummer. All this time and effort and nothing for the teachers.

After I left I went to the store to look for preemies diapers. Austin Micahel is just 6 pounds 0 ounces. When I found some after looking at two different stores I call her and find out that she doesnt want them. I buy a couple of different bottles of wine and I am carded. I know I don't look 21. I have been carded almost everytime I buy any liquor anywhere. I am 48 years old! I know others would feel flattered but I am sick and tired of being carded. I am a grown woman! I know I don't look like a child in my twenties. I am flattered about being someone in my thirties but to be 48 and still carded. I'm tired of it. Today wasn't the day to card me. I was rude to the sales clerk and I didnt take it as a compliment.

I plan to go see my grandson today. I have been wanting to show you a picture for the past two weeks but I havent had an opportunity. My two Michaels. He is my cutie, he is my heart. I just love him to death. I was so worried aobut being Nana or Granny but now I don't care what he calls me, I just want to hear him call me something and he's only 14 days old!

I feel better and I am not as gloomy as I was this morning. I love yo and I will look forward to seeing you tomorrow.

Good Morning

Good MOrning Lord. I thank you for today. My obedience to this journal is being challenged. I was very tired after yesterday. It was a long day for me and very active all day long. I didnt set the alarm. I turned it off last night. Lord I am glad that I did not neglect my duty to social justice and I continually seek the love of God in my life. Lord I realize that I spend a lot of time helping others and last night I found myself crying to sleep. I felt lonely. After an exhaustive day I came home to no one. I had to come to grips with the reality that it would be like that for a while. So I cried. I cry now. I can help others but cant help myself. I encourage my self in knowing that I will always acknowledge the Sone of Man and therefore God will acknowledge me when I am before Him. I am continuing to seek light and not darkness in my life. I pray that I continue to do God's work and obey the Lord. I continue to pray to bind up spirits of loniliness, depression, apathy, indifference, jealousy, envy, greed, rage, pride, and any other spirit that is not of God.  Lord I ask you to walk with me today rather than comfort me. I dont always need to be comforted as much as I need to go through some things. When I come out I am stronger. I have to go to school for three hours today for graduation practice then the rest of the day is mine. Lord walk with me today.

Friday, June 9, 2006

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. Thank you for your blessings today. Lord continue to bless us and reward us with some good weather today. Today is a day of fasting for me. As I awakened today I was excited. I only pushed the snooze button down four times. When I picked up my bible I went to

1 Corinthians 2:1-10

When I came to you, brothers, I did not come with eloquence or superior wisdom as I proclaimed to you the testimony about God. For I resolved to know nothing while I was with you ecxept Jesus Christ and him crucified. I cam to you in weakness and fear, and with much trembling. My message and my preaching were not with wise and persuasive words, but with a demonstration of the Spirit's power, so with a demonstration of the Spirit's power, so that your faith might not rest on men's wisdom, but on God's power. We do, however, speak a message of wisdom among the mature, but not the wisdom of this age or of the rulers of this age, who are coming to nothing. No, we speak of God's secret wisdom, a wisdom that has been hidden and that God destined for our glory before time began. None of the rulers of this age understood it, for if they had, they would not have crucified the Lord of glory. However, as it is written:

No eye has seen,

no ear has heard,

no mind has conceived

what God has prepared for those who love him -

but God has revealed it to us by his Spirit.

I love the Lord and I love you. My system, my connection keeps going in and out. I think someone doesnt want me to put an entry in today. I will see you this evening. Yeah, Praise the Lord. Lord grant me Godspeed on my journey today.

 

Thursday, June 8, 2006

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. This is my second entry this morning. My connection was lost and I am not happy with that. Its like almost every morning something like this happens. That was such a good entry. I reflected on how we were going out like sheep among wolves. We should be as shrewd as snakes and as innocent as doves. Don't worry about what to say, we will be given what to say for it will not be us speaking but the Spirit speaking through us.

Good Morning Sweetheart. I pray that you have a good day. Ravinia is out for me. We get back too late for me. I would love to do it but tomorrow is very demanding for me and I have so much to do still for the graduation on Monday. I am blessed that I had an opportunity to see and hear them on Sunday.  They were wonderful. You always bless this community with skilled artists. Have a blessed day today and be a blessing to someone very special. I had a much longer entry but it was lost. I love you, I love you, I love you I do.

Wednesday, June 7, 2006

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. Glory to your name Lord. Thank you Lord for loving me. In spite of my mess you will show me kindness. I am here today because of you Lord. I can do nothing without you Lord. My car brakes were really going to be another big problem but you stepped in and allowed my brother to be an angel for me. His garage people will help with the problem. Thank you Lord for the blessings. You have been better to me than I have been to myself. I am at peace with many things Lord that were troubling me. Patience was the message that I received from you Lord. Patience. God works on his time, not mine. My faith is needed in all situations. Rely on God. Trust in God. Trust in God. Faith to just touch the hem of his garment and I will be healed. Faith. Come Lord Come. Build a house of Faith inside me. Let me carry your word to others so that I my honor you with my lips and with my heart. I dont want to just say I love you I want to show I love you. Faith without works is dead. My walk must have action. I am preparing myself for a faith sojourn where the people I meet must know I am a christian, a lover of Jesus the Christ and a follower of the Lord Almighty. I continue to ask the Holy Spirit to come into my life and rest with me. Stay with me. Dwell in me. Comfort me. Love me. Love me. Love me.

Good Morning Sweetheart. What a day. What a week. Yesterday I had an interview for the summer academy. I think I will like that if I get it. The only thing is the hours are from 8:30 until 3pm for four weeks. That's pretty much all day. Oh wel, it will keep me busy and active. The orientation is this Friday, of course. From $-6pm. Do you think we can squeeze anything else into this Friday. I already have the luncheon which wont be over until 3pm or so, but I will have to drive and leave at 3 on the dot. Then the orientation (I am just claiming that job) then the church at 7pm. That day has special meaning. I am also fasting on that day. Fasting at the luncheon. I'm going to try and carry a plate home. What a challenge for me. What is it about that day that it has to be so jam packed and be so challenging. You call for a fast on the day I have the class luncheon. The new job has an ice cream social on that same day. Then I have to go preach in the streets, something I have never done before. Lord, Lord, Lord. Hear my heart and hear my pleas. Gird me, strengthen me and uplift me Lord. Anyway, today I can eat and be content. Are you having a bus go to Ravinia. I would love to go if you are? I've heard rumors that it might happen, I'll have to check with the rectory. Well, off to work I go. I love you, I love you, I love you.

Tuesday, June 6, 2006

Good Morning

Good MOrning Lord. Glory to your name Lord. You are worthy Lord. I praise your name and give you all the glory. It is for your glory that I am here. Lord help me to say the right words today. My intent and my concerns are being called into place. Am I ready to ignore, to deny, or to confront. Lord when I see something that is not right do I tell, and who do I tell. Are we the only ones who have seen this behavio to this extent or is it known and accepted behavior? Do I just go along as if nothing has happened and let this person control a very important function. Are they really experiencing a split in their personality and need serious pshychological help or is this just a quirky personality trait? Lord help me with this. It is not for me to diagnose anyone but when I see something disturbing and it was done in front of me and others, I have some serious concerns about that person's capacity. Especially now that they are sending these long emails to us, that are demanding that we not speak to anyone else but them, they are in control and they will decide what to do. Maybe patience is the answer. Lord help me in this endeavour. I know you know that I have lots on my plate that I dont need to get involved in this fiasco. I can ignore and bow out gracefully or I can stay in and try to work through the conflict. Lord help me to come up with a decision. I have my own job thats very demanding right now, I have my family stuff that is demanding on my time and my finances are a mess.My love life is in its own mess right now. I dont know how to change anything or what to do about it at all. I want so much  for it to blossom and come into its own relationship. Lord I am grateful for the contact you have allowed me to have with my loved one. I know I am not perfect nor am I asking for perfection from anyone else but when serious mental illness is present do we just ignore or act as if nothing happened. Lord where will I find time for this. Am I to even be concerned? Is this any of my business? You say love our brothers and sisters as we love our selves. Lord help me with this because its on my heart very heavily.

Good Morning Sweetheart. Yes, I am weary. I have been told I won't be teaching summer school which is good. I don't need the bad children for six weeks in a hot school. Now I am going to try for the summer academy which will include students who want to be in school during the summer. I'm more interested in this anyway. Just that its farther and the day is longer. I do need to work during the summer. I want to try and catch up on my bills and tithes. I love you very much. I owe, I owe, its off to work I go.

Have a blessed day today and be a blessing to someone special.

Monday, June 5, 2006

Good MOrning

Good Morning Lord. I am thankful that I have another day to worship you. Thank you for waking me up this morning. You are an awesome God and I will worship you in Spirit and in Truth. Father God you have sent the Holy Spirit to help us. To give us the power to witness in you name and to help renew our life. When we are witnessing for you Lord our manner changes. We are new creatures in your will and your way. We exalt your Holy Name, Lord Almighty. Through Jesus, we are able to become new. I will witness this week every chance I get.

Good Morning Sweetheart. I am praying that you have a good day. I hope that I havent said anything upsetting. My goal is not to draw division but to have unity. I just believe you have asked for something she can't deliver on right now. I believe you have a wonderful vision for the church and the role to that vision will require someone with the expertise to bring it into fruition. That's why I say you will have to hire someone with that expertise. God has blessed you with wonderful foresight and good people around you to advise you and direct you  to accomplish your goals. I am not a web designer nor technical person of that nature. I was called up to assist with the writing and I will gladly do that. I do know some things about television production being a communication major but I am in no way offering up my services for any of that.I believe you need someone specific to that area of production. I do know when a person is in over their head and she is in over her head. I believe she has a good heart and the fact that she is doing such a good job updating and working on the redesign of the website that shows a great deal of comfort in that area, but the video seems to be an obstacle for her and she had expressed that she was overwhelmed with the project. My concern only lied in the one meeting that I had and the statements that were made during that meeting that led me to believe that video was a tremendous hurdle that she was not ready to make and the opposition was a very personal thing due to lack of experience. I'm with you no matter what your decision is, your method to get there and whatever the outcome happens to be. I love you and I love Jesus. Everything else will work itself out. Be blessed today and be a blessing to someone.

Sunday, June 4, 2006

Pentecost Sunday

What a beautiful service. We were in the presence of the Holy Spirit. My heart was a little heavy today. We have had lots of struggles financially and emotionally these last few days and I am just turning it over to God.

 I know you are at the graduation now and wont read this until later. I hope that you get a chance to rest later.

The South African Opera was excellent. I hope to try and go to Ravinia on Thursday. Of course we cant go on Friday. I'll see how my week is going. It was so cute, we started greeting them and suddenly we were in a receiving line. Now I know what it is like for you on Sundays with a new person to greet every few seconds. It went well though.

There's so much I want to say to you but my mind is fuzzy right now. I was crying in church today so I didnt want to come to the alter. Sometimes the Holy Spirit will get you right where you are and that's what happened to me. My heart was heavy and God knew what I needed. Stay still and know that I am God. The Lord is my Shepard and I shall not Want.

You have a delicate situation with your webcast. I pray that you have the foresight to hire a part time person who knows how to do video and streaming. The person you have is out of their depth. They dont feel comfortable with the video aspect and it could become a disaster. I pray for guidance and assistance in that area.

I have missed you for two Sundays now. Are you shifting, are you changing your mind? Have you decided on another route?  I'm just trying to follow the yellow brick road. Just believing in God. Knowing that my prince is here.  You are my prince.  Shift, change. Change cannot occur until something changes. Change.

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. Glory to your name. I am trying for the second time to place a journal entry. I can only imagine that the first one didnt need to be said. Well, I am glad to get some of that off my chest and to go further in my rejoicing of Pentecost Sunday. I love you and will see you soon.

Saturday, June 3, 2006

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. Thank you for your blessings today. I have had quite a morning so far. Today is a busy day for me and I pray that you will dispatch your guardian angels. I am travelli a lot today. I will be on the road to Campaign today also. Lord Thank You for your loving kindness. You have protected me and restored me. My faith is renewed everyday. I wonder about things but you reassure me that everything will work out in its own time. My love for you is enormous. You truly make my life complete.

Good Morning Sweetheart. My morning has required that I take time with Austin Michael. He will sit in my lap while I type my homage to God. The first one I typed was deleted by accident. I guess I didnt need to say those things. I will be at church today, working on some stuff for the website, I guess. I'm a little unsure of just exactly what I am suppose todo but I will find out. My love to you today. My trust to you today. Sometimes things may not happen when you want them to but they happen when you God wants them to. I was so tired after I got home yesterday from that picnic. Then I had my grandson to look after for a while. I pray that the father sticks around for my daughter's sake but it just doesnt seem as if he will. He needs a job and he needs it now. He is twenty eight years old and he doesnt have a job. He has a baby now. He needs to be more responsibly.His mantra is its hard out here for a black man. I agree but I also know that we all have difficulty and you have to continue to try. Never give up. Well I have to get ready, I'm meeting them for breakfast at BJ's. Do you miss me? What do you think of me? What are you doing today? I miss you and I pray that you have a good day today. Be blessed and be a blessing to someone today.

Friday, June 2, 2006

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. Thank you Lord for your blessings. You have given me another day to worship and praise you. Where would I be without you Lord. My life would be incomplete. Father God you ae a rock for me. My salvation depends on my faith in you. Glory to you Lord. I pray that you remember me. That you continue to be in my life. Lead me the right way. Let me listen and hear your voice. Thank you Lord for loving me. I love you Lord. I love you Lord.

Good Morning Sweetheart. Well its back to work and back to my other children. We are having our picnic today. I'm excited.When I was in church on Sunday, one of my students from when I student taught came up to me. He was the sweetest, most attentive young man in the class. He is a jewel.  He said, Hi and I just scooped him up. He's a little one but just as cute as could be. I did love that class. They will always be a treasure to me. I am prayful for guidance. There is so much going on I have to ask God for focus. Diligence and just stamina to keep going. God will never leave me nor forsake me. I will stay in his word and in his will. Glory to God in the highest. Be blessed and have a wonderfully blessed day.

Thursday, June 1, 2006

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. Thank you for a beautiful morning. Praise is what I do when I want to be close to you Lord. I have the ability to praise you on my own. I can lift my hands in praise where ever I am and begin to praise you Lord for who you are. I am in love with you  Lord. I can't make it with out you. My faith in you is restored daily. I praise you Lord for all that you are, all that you do and all that you will do. Praise is who I am. Lord can we trust? Can we build trust? The first thing we need is truthfulness. Lord don't let me imagine things one way and the reality is totally different. Keep it real. Keep it real. Let your word be true at all times. Lets build a relationship of trust. Together, we can conquer the world. The Lord is good all the time and all the time the Lord is good.  Give God the glory. His grace is sufficient for me.

Good Morning Sweetheart. How's you day going so far. My day began around 5am. This morning I have the baby in my lap. I have folded a load of clothes and I have read my bible and spent some quiet time with Austin Michael. I can't call him just Austin. He's my little Mikey.  Cute as a button. I think he loves his Nana. You have a grandchild, does she just call you Grandpa? Gramps, or Grandfather? I use to call my grandfather "Grandfather". My mother made us do that, it was so formal. Once you start something you begin a habit. Today we will go to the mall, we have some things to return and exchange for stuff she needs right now. What's on the agenda for you today? Try to continue to be your sweet loving self today and always. Have a blessed day and be a wonderful blessing to someone who needs a blessing today. I love you.

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