Superstar

What a show!!!! You were awesome!!! I think you are a natural as a radio host. I listened to the part where you were on with Rev Wright and Min. Farakahan. I think its a good idea for all of you to try to come together for true family and community improvement. You have given us a vision of power and of love. Whether it is three or thirty three, its a start. You can show me better than you can tell me. Walk out of the spiral of failure and into the arena of success. I was just so impressed with you. Good Job and Well Done.

Perseverance

Father God the course you have set before me is clear. You have called me to be an intercessor. To stand in the gap. I see so many who are sad, lonely, and wanting to give up. The senseless crime. I think of the widow who lost her husband and friend.

I pray for her daily. I pray that she continues to find a reason to get up and continue her life. Lord remain in her as you remain in me. Without you we can do nothing. Allow her to not grow weary and overburdened with the pain and heartache.

Help her to remember that Jesus said "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest" Matthew 11:28

Lord I throw off everything that hinders me from doing the things I need to do. Handle my dad's business. Call the chimney repair, even though we have no money, call the lawyer, even though we have no money. Know that God will be with us in this journey and that we are not alone. I will not lose heart and grow weary during my time of intercession. I chide myself because I think I should be able to do better with him but I am only human and I have to understand my limitations.

Thank you God for guiding me through this time and all times that I encounter pressure. Thank you God for hearing my prayers for others. I am just amazed at the sadness in the world. When they talk about the attempted bomber terrorist, we learn he was lonely. Often times they are desperate and alone. Isolated by choice. Just like our children who seem to find solace in the gangs or a life of crime. First its curiosity, the its camaraderie, and finally its a way to escape. Its not that simple. It just isn't one thing, its many things for each person. Its an overburden of pain and heartache over many years. We have to encourage and inspire them to find value in doing the right things. Find value in becoming a contributing member of society. Find value in each other. We are such a throwaway society, we have the notion that we can throw each other away. We are not disposable. We need each other to succeed. We need each other. We need to show that love more and more.

So I am going to get ready to get out of here and go to Staples and get some paper then go to school. First, I have a couple of phone calls to make.

Be blessed today and be a blessing to someone. I love you.

My Mailbox

Someone knocked my mailbox down this weekend. Just plowed into it. We share a post with our neighbors across the street so we were all out wondering what to do. Finally today, she called the post office and they are going to keep our mail at the post office where we will pick it up for the next thirty days and also set up a temporary mailbox for us. Snow is on the ground, the ground is frozen, there's no digging a post hole in this weather. I guess this happens a lot since the post office had a solution readily available. We can only figure there's a car with some damage riding around this neighborhood. That has been our concern for the weekend.

We have been playing Nintendo Wii too. We have a new game, Super Mario Bros. We use to play nintendo during the Christmas holidays when the girls were younger so now we are going back to old habits. Games, games, games. Its either Mario Karts, Wii Sports, Guitar Hero, or Zuma Revenge. Playing with the wonderful pirate ship that we had to put together for Christmas.

I have to go into school tomorrow and Wednesday for a meeting so that we can get the kids ready for ISAT.

I cant skate very well so I wont be at the skating. I broke my ankle skating before and I have never really liked it. I look forward to the New Year's Eve Celebration. I plan to get some movie time in before I have to go back. Vacation time does go by fast. I have about four movies I want to see.

My dad has so many problems, legal problems, depression, I just want to maintain good relations. Try to do the right thing. I have to make the arrangements to get the chimney fixed. Take him to court for his court date, get the hall painted so it can pass village inspection, and get some tenants in there. Of course the lady who moved in is still there and nobody is paying anything but us for the heat. What I know I can do about this is get the chimney fixed and the wall painted so it can pass inspection and housing will pay her rent. I'm not going to be preoccupied with the stuff. Its just that, stuff.

So I'm watching this show on A&E called Hoarders. Its about people who have so much stuff in their home its beyond imagination. This episode is about a lady who had a very abusive childhood where her mother showed her no love, so as an adult with two grown children who dont live with her, she has turned into this hoarder. Her son said something that reminded me of what you said on Sunday. Things just get so bad that you just begin to accept that as the norm and get used to it being so bad. Dont get used to things being so bad. Dont let that be the norm and dont accept less.

So, that's what I have been doing. I have done a whole lot of nothing too. Just trying to keep my sanity and make some sort of plan to move forward and not backwards. I take it one day at a time. It got to be something more I can do, I'm still here. God has a plan for me and I'm still here. He never promised me a rose garden, but I know the fact that I am here is something. I will not lose heart and grow weary and faint. I will act upright in my dealings.
So I end this with the true and heartfelt "Be Blessed and Be a Blessing to Someone. I love you.

Family Love and Commitment

God Bless You today and always.

I continue to be encouraged and inspired by you. I never know what you are going to say but I know I want to hear it from a wonderful man of God. I am thankful that I have some form of communication with you in my life.

I know that I want to communicate more with you. I want to be more of a companion.Your friend. More of someone you can share things with. I dont worry about sex with you, its the least of my worries, that will work itself out, no matter what, I look forward to more good than bad in that category.

I still get excited at the thought of seeing you again. I look forward to seeing you, hearing you speak and getting a genuine hug from you. I want more and I will not give up, I will not stop and I will not become apathetic to my cause, my problem. I will do whatever I have to do. I sit here, alone, in my room writing that after having just seen you four hours ago. Could the world have changed then for us. Was there a chance for a difference. I know that every encounter is a chance for change.

I think I just need to talk, relax and allow God to guide. I stopped becoming too busy with the world stuff. I want to be too busy with God's stuff. Maybe I cant dump my life and move in with you, but I am going to devote as much of my time and energy to what has become a huge almost insurmountable task.

Talking to you face to face. One on one.Communicating in person. Somehow, some way, this has got to change. New Year, new goals. Something has got to get better for us. For You and Me. For our little relationship. I'm not talking about the whole world, just us. Our commitment. I need to see something happen. Something that moves me closer.

Be Blessed and be a blessing to someone. I love you.

Merry Christmas!!!

You inspire me to be encouraged. You touch my heart and keep me hoping for the promises of God. Our Promise. I love you.

The Woman At the Well

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q49BbfgJbto

Peaceful

Thank You God for Peace. You sent the Prince of Peace. I thank You God that when I sleep my heart counsels me and reveals to me Your purpose and plan.Thank You for your promises and your sweet spirit. I thank you Lord that you are instructing me in the way which I should go and that you are guiding me with your will. You lead me in the path of righteousness and I choose to follow.

Father God during our insane search for more- more power, more money, more knowledge, more gadgets, more furniture, more clothes, more love, more of everything, you warn us against being deceived by the finer things in life.

We must be wary of the human principles that are hollow and deceptive. We must remember the uniqueness and sufficiency of Christ. Christ has full authority of all powers and the fullness of life that he gives to us as we search for deeper knowledge of God. It is not reserved for a few but we can all search and find God in our lives. My heart longs to please God. To give to others in some small way that makes their lives better.

I am choosing to be happier. I have so much to be thankful for. God has blessed me this year and I am thankful for every blessing. Yes I have had some hardships. Yes I cant seem to get a lot of things right. I lost the picture that I stood in line to get from the Breakfast with Santa and paid 10 dollars for. I could complain and not have any Christmas cheer, but in spite of the mishaps, I keep chugging along. I try to find some type of harmony. Something that balances the good things with the bad. Something to continue bringing joy in my heart.

I say be blessed and be a blessing to someone and I say this because I like you, I believe we can make a difference in someones life. I believe in that statement. I believe in you and your ability to make a difference in peoples lives. This week you will see just how many lives you are impacting. Its unfortunate to turn some away but think about the ones you are helping. You helped over 700 people have a turkey. That's a huge number. You will bless many people tonight with the toy giveaway, me included. Christmas dinner will be a blessing for many. You do so much. Yes there is a need for more, but don't discount the amount that you are helping.Would you like to have done more, of course. Will you continue to strive for more, of course. Will you be appreciated and rewarded, of course you will.

Philippians 4:8-9
8Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.

Comfort for a Troubled Heart

Father God Your Word speaks to my pain. I trust my life to your provisions. You have sent your Word forward in my heart and it continues to be steadfast and eternal. I let your Word dwell in me. I meditate on your Word. Your Word is the Living Word, The Word of Truth, The Incorruptible Seed. You are my Shield, My Counselor, my weapon in any battle. Your Word is a lamp unto my feet. Your Word allows me to not stumble because my steps are ordered.

Lord I give you all the troubles of my heart. I pray for strong faith to keep me focused on you.I pray that I am walking in your will and in your word.

The Holy Spirit leads and guides me in truth and understanding. I am comforted with the knowledge that I am loved and needed. I am confident that Your Word and Your Will are in me to do Good. You put Your desires in my heart to want what is best for me. You want me to have goodness and grace and mercy. You want me to know that I am loved completely. Let not your heart be troubled.

I exalt Your Word in my life and hold it in high esteem. I give it first place, a place of power and authority in my life. I use it to settle doubt, questions that confront me and concerns that I may have in my life. I chose to have your word be my lamp and guidance. I boldly and confidently say that my heart is fixed and established on a solid foundation, the living Word of God. That comforts my troubled heart, knowing that I can turn to God to find comfort.

Be blessed and be a blessing to someone. Know that you are loved very much.

Boldness

Living in God's Will is my desire. I seem to have a love-hate relationship with that will. I pray that God will recognize that I pray for freedom of utterance to be given to me so that I may open my mouth to proclaim boldly the good news of our Gospel of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To say the things that need to be said and to move to where God is calling me to go. To speak from my heart and to speak in love.

Maybe if I am proclaiming the purpose of God I will be be secure in knowing I am walking in God's purpose. Sometimes I don't want to know the plan because it might not be to my liking. Can I follow through, even when deep down it may not be something I want to do? Can I dare to have boldness, courage and confidence of freedom.

Can I draw fearlessly and confidently and boldly nearer to God's Throne. Praise the Lord. Bless the Lord. Will I boldly declare to satan, and all his evil spirits that Jesus is the Head and Ruler of all authority. Satan is defeated and My God and My Jesus Reign Forever, and ever and ever. In him, I can never give up hope. I continue to say be blessed and be a blessing to someone. I love you.

Ephesians 1

1Paul, an apostle of Christ Jesus by the will of God,
To the saints in Ephesus,[a] the faithful[b] in Christ Jesus:

2Grace and peace to you from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ.

Spiritual Blessings in Christ

3Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in the heavenly realms with every spiritual blessing in Christ.

4For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight. In love

5 he[c] predestined us to be adopted as his sons through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will—

6 to the praise of his glorious grace, which he has freely given us in the One he loves.

7 In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God's grace

8 that he lavished on us with all wisdom and understanding.

9 And he[d] made known to us the mystery of his will according to his good pleasure, which he purposed in Christ,

10 to be put into effect when the times will have reached their fulfillment—to bring all things in heaven and on earth together under one head, even Christ.

Roll Me Down The Aisle

Time is never on our side. We never seem to have enough of it. We don't seem to use it wisely when it is the most important thing that we want to do. I am learning to be straightforward in my communication with those that I love. I have the power to be direct, honestly expressing my feelings and desires because Jesus has given me the freedom to choose wisdom, free from doubt, unwavering and sincere.

I kept certain thing in my head. Statements like "you care too much what other people think" "you are so concerned what others think, you want to be liked too much" "you don't want hate to come your way" I now know that I associated all of those things with my feelings for you. I felt people would hate me for being with you. That doesn't make sense. Those that didn't want you to change and those that just don't like you, would also hate me. I didn't know if I was able to be hated. I don't think you chose to be disliked but you seem strong about not caring one way or the other. You mention times when it is a problem or a bother. You have your midnight hours like Dr. King, but through it all you seem to have a hard shell, maybe its not as simple for you as it seems.

I didn't know I felt that strongly, until this week. I let the idea of hating me become stronger that the idea of loving each other. I pray that I am choosing the right words, that I am speaking truly, living my life in truth, dealing truthfully with people in my life and expressing the truth in love. Communicating from my heart to make things clear and developing a certain level of maturity that I don't have to worry about haters. I have been around preteens and their angst for too long. Being a teacher of middle school students, you start to act like them. I need to remember who I am, I am the adult. There is a certain level of maturity that must come in any relationship.

The truth is one day I will not be here. One day I, just like you, will be rolled down an aisle and people will be sad and wish that they had said or done something more with me of for me. Maybe our last wishes will be that we had done or said something. Something could be done, something should be done. If today were the last day, would we be satisfied? We never know, so we make random choices that we hope and pray are the right ones.

I don't know what to say or what to do. Doing nothing is still making a choice. I know that I have to have God in my life and that I have to pray. I pray for direction, guidance and the ability to make the right choice for God. I pray that I can speak and witness for God. I pray that I am acceptable to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I pray, I pray, I Pray. While I am still on this side of the world, I pray. I pray for a time where this is a distant memory for us and we are laughing over the foolishness. True nonsense. How did this become an issue?

Traveling Together

Thank You Father God that you have allowed us to travel on the same road, in the same direction, both inwardly and outwardly. During this time, on this day, we are together in spirit and mind. Everything that we are is to show that we have one Master, one faith, one baptism, one God the Father and He is present in everything we do and everything we say. He sent His only Son so that we might have life and have it more abundantly.

Father, we seek to shape our lives daily so that we represent something/someone that you would want to call home. We ask that you dwell within us. Make yourself at home. Our bodies are a temple dedicated to you and we seek to have the parts working together to build a holy temple for God. Christ Jesus is our cornerstone and you are molding us together to fit together as one.

We must commit to walk in love and to walk in light. We live purposefully and with your guidance, making the most of our time and opportunity.

Father God we commit to being extravagant in our devotion to you. Lord I want to be more committed to you and to examine my life directions and goals and align them to yours.

John 12:44-50

Jesus’ Teaching

44 Then Jesus cried aloud: ‘Whoever believes in me believes not in me but in him who sent me. 45And whoever sees me sees him who sent me. 46I have come as light into the world, so that everyone who believes in me should not remain in the darkness. 47I do not judge anyone who hears my words and does not keep them, for I came not to judge the world, but to save the world. 48The one who rejects me and does not receive my word has a judge; on the last day the word that I have spoken will serve as judge, 49for I have not spoken on my own, but the Father who sent me has himself given me a commandment about what to say and what to speak. 50And I know that his commandment is eternal life. What I speak, therefore, I speak just as the Father has told me.’

Be Blessed Today and Be a Blessing To Someone.I love you.

The Need to Give

2 Corinthians 8
Generosity Encouraged
1 And now, brothers, we want you to know about the grace that God has given the Macedonian churches.
2 Out of the most severe trial, their overflowing joy and their extreme poverty welled up in rich generosity.
3 For I testify that they gave as much as they were able, and even beyond their ability. Entirely on their own,
4 they urgently pleaded with us for the privilege of sharing in this service to the saints.
5 And they did not do as we expected, but they gave themselves first to the Lord and then to us in keeping with God's will.
6 So we urged Titus, since he had earlier made a beginning, to bring also to completion this act of grace on your part.
7 But just as you excel in everything—in faith, in speech, in knowledge, in complete earnestness and in your love for us[a]—see that you also excel in this grace of giving.

8 I am not commanding you, but I want to test the sincerity of your love by comparing it with the earnestness of others.
9 For you know the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, that though he was rich, yet for your sakes he became poor, so that you through his poverty might become rich.

Father God I reflect on my need to be generous from the heart. I pray and listen carefully to the feelings, fears, thoughts and ideas of the people that I come into contact with today. I ask the Holy Spirit for discernment while dealing with my children. I know horseplay is abundant. I must separate that from serious bouts of nonsense. Thank you Lord for giving me an opportunity to focus on the purpose of their hearts. Their intentions are not to harm and if I give them time they will understand the difference. Give me the power of love and a calm well balanced mind and heart. Allow me to use discipline and self control when dealing with them today. Let generosity pour out of me today. Allow me to show love to someone today. I love You, God Bless You today.

Be blessed and be a blessing to someone. Stay Warm!

A Faithful Disciple

Father God as I reflect on rebellious teenagers and I continue to pray that they listen to me today because it our science fair, I also want to pray that I listen to them. I pray that I give an ear to their words that are correct and not just shoo them away with the usual, yea, yea, whatever. I want to affirm them and speak excellent and princely things in their lives. When I open my mouth I want to be able to speak the right things. Just as Jesus did when He was tempted in the desert. When the devil came to tempt Jesus, after having fasted for 40 days and nights, he came challenging him with something new. But in each challenge, Jesus refuted with the Word. Matthew 4, It is written:

"Man does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God"

"Do not put the Lord Your God to the test"

"Worship the Lord your God and serve him only"

Jesus' ability to resist temptation through satan's enticement of food for the body was rejected, his enticement by twisting the Word of God was further rejected with using wise words and finally the offer of worldly power was rejected.

Satan attacks us with our body and spirit. I must remember that when someone is feeling discouraged or inferior or frustrated before me that my responsibility is not to bring them lower. I must find it within me to not break their spirit further.

To stand in the gap until they come to their senses and to not be bound up with grudges and misgivings. I pray for them to escape out of the enemies snare and to to reconcile their heart with their families and people who have cared and loved them. Reconcile with the people who have stood with you.

To be a faithful disciple means to leave everything behind and follow Jesus. It must have been amazing to see Jesus heal the sick. The ones who had diseases of the body and the mind.

Seizures, paralyzed, possessed, all sorts of illnesses, healed, truly healed, not TV ministry, prayer cloth, healed because you are in the moment, healed. These were people who came probably without faith in him but faith in the fact that he had the power to heal, and he didn't let them down.

That Good News travels fast. Let someone know they can go to a doctor, a healer for free and it works, crowds and crowds of people will come. But Jesus had a Word for them too.

Once he got their attention, their focus was on Him. They could then listen to what he had to say. Reconcile the hearts of the rebellious. Bring them back into relationship with God and others. Thank you God for watching over your word to perform it and to not let your word go out in vain.

Be blessed today and be a wonderful blessing to someone. I love you.n I think I found my Joy in this journal again.

God Is So Awesome!!!

God is so awesome, I am so glad I have God in my life. When things happen like they did today, I know God is with me, loves me and protects me, in every step of my life. If I just submit to His will, He will take care of me.

This morning, I didnt know why I was sent to the section on prejudice. But I didn't fight it, I went with it and let it brew within me. At school, we had the Real Men Read come to our classes. I had a professor from a local university. He read Freedom Summer to my children about the time when the civil rights act was passed and integration was the law in the South. The story was a fictional one but based on facts during that time. I didnt know he was going to read anything about the civil rights movement, or segregation and integration. But I was prepared to play an important role in the discussion for my children and it was so on time for me to have prepared myself that morning. God knows all. He continually amazes me. I don't call it coincidence, I call it God. What an Amazing God we have right in our midst. All we have to do is ask.Seek and we shall find. Knock and the door shall be opened. I shall bless the Lord at all times and His praise shall continually be in my mouth. Good Night.

Knowing Me

The love of God rises up from within me. You cannot really know me unless I speak from my heart of hearts. I must chose to share myself with you-my thoughts, my ideas and my feelings. Obviously I am who I am.

My demographics are what have classified me. If we look at me using statistical data, I shouldn't have made it. I come from the inner city of a huge urban area. I grew up during some of the worst racial times around. I saw presidents and peacemakers killed for their opinions.

I attended mostly all minority grammar and high schools. When I left home and was introduced to the other world I was lost for a time.

I learned how to read and write and calculate because I knew it would help me out of this jungle. I knew that God had a plan for me and it was better than what I knew now. exposed me to racial prejudice on a level that I had never been tested before. I found isolation and I found comfort.

I learned that when I was the only one in Iceland, there interest was pure curiosity, not hate. I learned how people are taught to hate others. Either through their religion, or their skin color.

I pray that if I have prejudice in me, that God will expose it and send the Holy Spirit to uncover it and deliver me from it. God you work from within and today you sent me to this section to read so I take it on.

I didn't turn the page and say not me, I didn't hide from it, nor do I embrace it. I pray for any barriers to come down and for me to know peace in this matter.

I felt that there was no division or problem but maybe there is. I don't know of a situation or wrong doing, but I beg forgiveness for anything that I may have done or said that showed me to be prejudice. I want to come together and show how precious you are in my life.

Hebrews 1:9
You have loved righteousness and hated wickedness; therefore God, your God, has set you above your companions by anointing you with the oil of joy.

Be blessed today and be a blessing to someone.

Good Morning Lord

Thank You for waking me up in my right mind today. I am blessed that I can prepare for the challenges that face me today. Thank you for all that you do for me. Thank You for yesterday, today and tomorrow.

Father God I am not ready to deal with this snow but I will. Keep me alert and safe to all of the precautions that I need to take to arrive safely at my journey. Allow me to come home safe and without huge delays. Lord I give you thanks and praise for covering me with your blanket of protection.

I know that we have many different activities going on today and I am praying that it runs smoothly. I have many concerns abouttoday and I am praying for you to guide me through.

It all seems to be a jumble and I want peace, calm and total understanding. I want victory in the midst of what seems to be defeat. I have faith in you Lord that all things are possible.

As I prepare to leave now, I know that my mind is on the traffic but my heart is with you. Truly Be Blessed and Be a Wonderful Blessing To Someone. God Bless You Today.

Unity Sunday

Ministry is a very strong initiative. Its easy to say I'm just too busy. I have my own agenda. But when we think of those in the field carrying out the mission and concerns that we were too busy for, we say thank God somebody is doing something. It should always be our desire to be that someone doing something.

We are elated that someone is bringing the good news of the Gospel to those who might not have heard it otherwise. We know that God watches over His word. We speak His word here on earth and we establish his covenant in our hearts and with others.

Can we bring the word to more people? Can we allow the dry bones to live? Do we reduce our anxiety because we have God in our lives?

Are we able to find our faith in His word? Do we take all of our fears, every little thing and bring it to God? Today I give you all of my fears. I bring the inconsequential fear that this tree will not stand on its own. I bought a stand that is obviously too small, I didn't know then but I know that now. So I will get a new one. I will call for my dentist on Monday. Go sometime next week. Get the time to take better care of myself. Wonder how to get things on a better understanding with out making it seem that single focused. I love the Lord and I love you. I have listed it accordingly. God is my first love. Take me to a place where I can see you face to face. All I want to do is worship you.

I have named them this morning in my heart and in words. I have described in detail the concerns on my heart. Father God, I seek to please you and to show that there is none before you. I value my relationship with you. I set nothing before.

Whatever the future holds for me I walk boldly knowing that I walk with you Lord.

Be blessed today and be a blessing to someone.

Approaching God

God will keep you honest. Thank you God for reminding me of my desire to please you.

God directs me to the retelling of the Ten Commandments. God reminds the people of his covenant with them.

Obedience is the key to success. Keep God's commandments in your heart, mind and soul. Loving and fearing God.

Knowing that our God is a jealous God and is worthy to receive all of the praise and all of the glory.

I ask God to help me grow in love. Help me to to have love filled faith.

I give God all of the reverence, awe and gratitude. I ask God for courage to walk this covenant walk with Him. I fear His power but I am comforted by the knowledge that I do know to fear Him.

"The fear of the Lord is the beginning of Knowledge".Proverbs 1:7

Deuteronomy 5
Moses summoned all Israel and said to them, "Hear, O Israel, the statutes and decrees which I proclaim in your hearing this day, that you may learn them and take care to observe them.
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The LORD, our God, made a covenant with us at Horeb;
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not with our fathers did he make this covenant, but with us, all of us who are alive here this day.
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The LORD spoke with you face to face on the mountain from the midst of the fire.
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Since you were afraid of the fire and would not go up the mountain, I stood between the LORD and you at that time, to announce to you these words of the LORD:
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'I, the LORD, am your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt, that place of slavery.
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You shall not have other gods besides me.
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You shall not carve idols for yourselves in the shape of anything in the sky above or on the earth below or in the waters beneath the earth;
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1 you shall not bow down before them or worship them. For I, the LORD, your God, am a jealous God, inflicting punishments for their fathers' wickedness on the children of those who hate me, down to the third and fourth generation
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but bestowing mercy, down to the thousandth generation, on the children of those who love me and keep my commandments.
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'You shall not take the name of the LORD, your God, in vain. For the LORD will not leave unpunished him who takes his name in vain.
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'Take care to keep holy the sabbath day as the LORD, your God, commanded you.
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Six days you may labor and do all your work;
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but the seventh day is the sabbath of the LORD, your God. No work may be done then, whether by you, or your son or daughter, or your male or female slave, or your ox or ass or any of your beasts, or the alien who lives with you. Your male and female slave should rest as you do.
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For remember that you too were once slaves in Egypt, and the LORD, your God, brought you from there with his strong hand and outstretched arm. That is why the LORD, your God, has commanded you to observe the sabbath day.
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'Honor your father and your mother, as the LORD, your God, has commanded you, that you may have a long life and prosperity in the land which the LORD, your God, is giving you.
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'You shall not kill.
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'You shall not commit adultery.
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'You shall not steal.
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'You shall not bear dishonest witness against your neighbor.
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'You shall not covet your neighbor's wife. 'You shall not desire your neighbor's house or field, nor his male or female slave, nor his ox or ass, nor anything that belongs to him.'
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"These words, and nothing more, the LORD spoke with a loud voice to your entire assembly on the mountain from the midst of the fire and the dense cloud. He wrote them upon two tablets of stone and gave them to me.
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But when you heard the voice from the midst of the darkness, while the mountain was ablaze with fire, you came to me in the person of all your tribal heads and elders,
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and said, 'The LORD, our God, has indeed let us see his glory and his majesty! We have heard his voice from the midst of the fire and have found out today that a man can still live after God has spoken with him.
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But why should we die now? Surely this great fire will consume us. If we hear the voice of the LORD, our God, any more, we shall die.
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For what mortal has heard, as we have, the voice of the living God speaking from the midst of fire, and survived?
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Go closer, you, and hear all that the LORD, our God, will say, and then tell us what the LORD, our God, tells you; we will listen and obey.'
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"The LORD heard your words as you were speaking to me and said to me, 'I have heard the words these people have spoken to you, which are all well said.
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Would that they might always be of such a mind, to fear me and to keep all my commandments! Then they and their descendants would prosper forever.
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Go, tell them to return to their tents.
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Then you wait here near me and I will give you all the commandments, the statutes and decrees you must teach them, that they may observe them in the land which I am giving them to possess.'
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"Be careful, therefore, to do as the LORD, your God, has commanded you, not turning aside to the right or to the left,
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but following exactly the way prescribed for you by the LORD, your God, that you may live and prosper, and may have long life in the land which you are to occupy.

Submitting it all to God

Psalm 103:
1 Bless the Lord, O my soul,
and all that is within me,
bless his holy name!
2 Bless the Lord, O my soul,
and forget not all his benefits,
3 who forgives all your iniquity,
who heals all your diseases,
4 who redeems your life from the pit,
who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy,
5 who satisfies you with good
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's.

6 The Lord works righteousness
and justice for all who are oppressed.
7 He made known his ways to Moses,
his acts to the people of Israel.
8 The Lord is merciful and gracious,
slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love.
9 He will not always chide,
nor will he keep his anger forever.
10 He does not deal with us according to our sins,
nor repay us according to our iniquities.
11 For as high as the heavens are above the earth,
so great is his steadfast love toward those who fear him;
12 as far as the east is from the west,
so far does he remove our transgressions from us.
13 As a father shows compassion to his children,
so the Lord shows compassion to those who fear him.
14 For he knows our frame; [1]
he remembers that we are dust.

Oh Bless the Lord, Oh My Soul. Thank You Lord for not giving me what I deserve. My stubbornness and my rebellion are cause for you to treat me accordingly. But you have rescued me from darkness and brought me into the light.

You deserve honesty from the heart. You deserve my commitment and love. I don't give it grudgingly, I give it willingly and with truth, honesty and faith. Lord Almighty you have given me Jesus as an example.

You have shown me what your expectation is and I am able to receive the Holy Spirit as my Helper and Guide. Just as Jesus went through trials and tribulations, so shall I. But the joy is that Jesus overcame the world and so can I.

I strive to be more like Jesus. I am not there yet. But knowing that you know my limitations and my shortcomings and through it all you still love me, then what more can I ask for from you. You still love me.

I strive to love you more and more. When I think I can't do any better, You show me I can. When I feel my stubbornness and rebellion coming on, you show me I can concede and be a winner. You show me how to love you, and myself. You show me how to accept love, true love, in my life. You love me. Love never fails.

Jesus is my Lord and Savior. He came to bring peace. Rejoice for the Savior is Born. Help me Father God to walk through this process of surrender. Guide me Holy Spirit to exchange rebellion and stubbornness for a willing and obedient heart.

When I refuse to listen, anoint my ears, when I refuse to see past my own desires, open my eyes to the truth. I belong to Jesus Christ, the Anointed One who breaks down strongholds and destroys every yoke.

Allow me to continue the fight to break the yoke that holds me. I submit control and direction to the Holy Spirit to guide me in the right direction. I love you Lord and I submit all to you.

So Be Bountifully and Gloriously Blessed today and Be a wonderful blessing to someone who loves you dearly. I love You.

Commitment

25 " 'I will make a covenant of peace with them and rid the land of wild beasts so that they may live in the desert and sleep in the forests in safety. 26 I will bless them and the places surrounding my hill. [a] I will send down showers in season; there will be showers of blessing. 27 The trees of the field will yield their fruit and the ground will yield its crops; the people will be secure in their land. They will know that I am the LORD, when I break the bars of their yoke and rescue them from the hands of those who enslaved them. 28 They will no longer be plundered by the nations, nor will wild animals devour them. They will live in safety, and no one will make them afraid. 29 I will provide for them a land renowned for its crops, and they will no longer be victims of famine in the land or bear the scorn of the nations. 30 Then they will know that I, the LORD their God, am with them and that they, the house of Israel, are my people, declares the Sovereign LORD. 31 You my sheep, the sheep of my pasture, are people, and I am your God, declares the Sovereign LORD.' "Ezekiel 34:25-31


Father God in the name of Jesus I commit myself to you.I turn from sin in my life. I seek forgiveness now and thank you for forgiving me. My desire is to please you. Lord, your word is truth. A lamp unto my feet. A guide for my daily walk on this earth. I submit myself to you; mind, body and soul. I seek change in my life and desire to be changed forever. I want to be a vessel of honor, truth and love. I thank you that I am able to be blessed in this world and beyond. I have faith in your word. I have faith. I am a champion. The Lord is my Shepard and I shall not want. All of my needs are met. I speak boldly to God's commitment to my life and my commitment to honor God in my life. Mind, Body and Soul.


I desire to have a wonderfully blessed day today and to find peace and love in my daily walk.

Be blessed today and be a blessing to someone. I love you.

Strength

Gracious and Mighty God I come to you with my cares. I come to you with my heavy burdens and I seek your rest. You Lord will ease and relieve and refresh my soul. I resist the cares of the world which try to pressure me daily.

This is what the LORD says:
"Let not the wise man boast of his wisdom
or the strong man boast of his strength
or the rich man boast of his riches,

²⁴ but let him who boasts boast about this:
that he understands and knows me,
that I am the LORD, who exercises kindness,
justice and righteousness on earth,
for in these I delight,"
declares the LORD. Jeremiah 9:23-24

What do I value and what does God value? My skills are of no importance to God. My character is what is important to God. The cares of this world are burdens that I seem to occupy my time with. I need you Lord to help me prioritize. I strive to keep my focus on you daily. I want to please you and enhance my relationship with you. I seek to please you daily. My heart magnifies and glorifies our relationship. I give my praises to you Lord for it is you alone who can change anything in my life.

Since my people are crushed, I am crushed; I mourn, and horror grips me, Is there no balm in Gilead? Jeremiah 8:21

My heart mourns for my people. I pray for healing.My people are sad.

Father God, remind us that this is the season of hope and change. Tis' the season to be Jolly, so let us find happiness and joy. Joy to the World, the Savior is born. Let us rejoice and celebrate. We must never lose our hope for a brighter future. It will get better, it will change. I love you and pray for peace in your heart and mind and soul. You have the cares of the world on your shoulders. Know that you are loved and adored. Pray for our reconciliation and peace. God loves us and wants only the best for us.

Be Blessed today and be a Blessing to someone. I love you.

Individual Growth

Thank You in the name of Jesus for today. I am in the presence of God and I know that Jesus is Lord. Intercede in my life to deliver me from demonic forces that try to keep me bound. Father God I speak to the spirit of lack and disillusion, procrastination, inability to have a conversation of worth, laziness, contempt, greed, gluttony, envy, strife, jealousy, anything that is not of you Jesus.

Father God whatever I bind on earth is bound in heaven, and whatever I loose on earth is loosed in heaven. Lord you have said for me to cast out my demons in the name of Jesus and I cast them out.

I look forward to my future. My future is so bright I have to wear shades. You know I did an educational workforce video with that same title in the 80's. I was the "minority in authority".But that was then and this is now. I remember it, I don't dwell on it. I am not going backwards I am going forward.

I have a new picture for my future. I move forward in victory because I walk with my shield of faith, breastplate of righteousness and sword of truth. I have renewed faith in my future. I am loved and I know it. God loves me, I love me and you love me. I am loved, I am worthy, I am needed.

I believe that I am a winner. I am willing to go through the change. When God calls us to do a task we must be faithful and diligent until its completed. Stay the course, be a finisher. Cheerfully do God's work. Don't let it become a drudgery of heavy burden. Rejoice that you have a purpose in God's Kingdom Plans. I look forward to finishing God's Plan in my life. I look forward to being successful.

Sometimes we can grow tired or discouraged when obstacles block our path. Sometimes the very people we are trying to help mock us and we are truly tempted to give up.

We feel unappreciated and helpless. When this happens we need a fresh word from God. A word that rebukes us and offers us strong encouragement and genuine hope. God reminds us how its not about us, its about Him. Our task, our job is just a small piece of the big picture. But still very important. We are important and we are loved.

We can be the champions that God wants us to be. We are Believers in His Word and we are doers of His word. We must believe that we can change and that our change will accomplish great things.

We must stand in the midst of any adversity that comes our way. Sometimes we can grow weary doing God's will. When God calls me to do something, I am excited. I have great zeal and enthusiasm, but after the problems and disappointments begin my enthusiasm wanes and I slow down on the project. So God reminds me of where I have been, my hunger for Him throughout all of my crisis, and how He brought me through everything, big and small. I can do nothing without the Lord on my side.

...Return to Me ...and I will Return to You..-Zechariah 1:3

God is calling me to complete the task that he has placed before me, no matter the obstacles, no matter the problem. See it from God's perspective and know that it is part of God's Master Plan.

Believe that I can rule my thought life and I can accomplish great things. Keep God close in my thoughts and in my heart. Do what needs to be done. Know that I can only complete my task with God's help and blessing. God Rules!!!! Satan is defeated.

I give thanks to God for all that he has done, is doing and for the bright future that He has planned for me. Glory Be to God!!!! I give God all the glory.

Be blessed today and be a blessing to someone, know that you are truly loved and you are a blessing to me.

Grateful and Thankful

Lord I am grateful and thankful for all of your blessings.

This has been a week that is more than challenging.

The one tenant that I have in turns out to be a crack head and the federal, state and local police have raided the building looking for a high profile murderer who was know to have been there within the past 48 hours. Now I have to carefully let her know that housing is not going to approve her for my building and basically she has no lease. The police tell me to be cautious. Thanks for the tip. I know we are going to take a hit on this.

Then today, while cooking, I manage to start a fire in the oven. Flames and all. We had two fire extinguishers and one right by the stove. We had to stop and read the directions to use it.

Too much drama. It has been nothing but Satan trying to be abusive to me and my family. But God is watching over us and it is by grace alone that we are here, safe and sound. This has really been an eye opening couple of days. Murderer in my building, fire in the stove, mom locks her keys in the car at the gas station. Its just a bunch of stuff. One minute things are going along the same old way and then poof, drama. Drama is always there on some level but high drama is not. Lord lead me in the path of righteousness. Let no weapon formed against me prosper. My mother says something really good is about to happen because we have had so much bad happen in such a short period of time. I pray that is the case.

Receiving Forgiveness

Father God help me to receive my forgiveness. Help me to believe that I am forgiven. Help me to forgive myself.

Father God I count myself blessed that I get to have a new start. My slate is clean. Lord you hold nothing against me. I am fortunate and happy to be a child of God.

Forgiving myself for my past and present sins and transgressions will allow me to remove the feelings of guilt and unworthiness that keep pressure on my shoulders. Forgiving myself allows the pressure to be gone. I am not responsible for everybody and everything in my life.

My guilt dissolved, my self worth lifted up , I move forward, claiming a new life for myself. If God can forgive me then I can surely forgive myself. You have forgiven my transgressions, covered my sins, I am blessed you will never count my sins against me.

Your Word declares that if I ask for forgiveness, You will forgive me and cleanse me from all unrighteousness. Help me to believe, help me to receive my forgiveness. Help me to forgive myself.

My own demands of how I will follow God's commands in my life have caused me to give obedience but not in God's true intention. My repentance and obedience have been less than complete and total obedience. I have held back.

I thank God for his initiative in my life. Showing me that I have His forgiveness. I ask God to guide me in true, full repentance. Faith in his word is not my devotion to belief but my ability to take action . Faith without works is dead. I must move from reluctant to confident.

I enter, reluctant, unsure, with little confidence. I emerge as someone willing to take action when God asks me to do so. God give me encouragement when I waver in my faith. I pray that You will give me faith to carry out the tasks that You have for me. I forgive myself and move forward with a clean slate and the promises of God in my life.

Be blessed and be a blessing today.

Overcoming Fear

I confess that as I read my notes from the past few weeks of bible study and church services the theme is don't fear, don't just settle for less, don't lose hope, remember that you are a champion. Remember that you are loved and move forward with boldness and confidence.

Praise God. I take comfort and I am encouraged by the knowledge that God is my helper. I know that things are such that I cannot handle them. They are beyond my control, I am overwhelmed, but if I stay obedient to God, help is on the way.

If I see prayer as an investment into my future and know that starting my day off with God's prayer is a benefit for me, then I can truly believe I was chosen by God and that hope is what keeps me going.

Hope for the future. Hope for tomorrow. I can believe that no weapon formed against me shall prosper, and any tongue that rises against me in judgment I shall show to be wrong.

God will discipline me with justice, I do not go unpunished, but I know that God will never leave me without support nor forsake me, let me down, or in anyway relax His hold on me. I take comfort in that. I will not fear or be terrified for what can man do to me? I am chosen by God.

God loves me and I love Him. My heart longs for Him. I treasure the time we have together. My soul is desperate for you. Through Jesus I look to the hills for my help and my strength. Oh magnify the Lord in me so that I may give glory to God. Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah!

Be blessed today and be a blessing to someone.

Hedge of Protection

Father in the name of Jesus I lift up your children to you one by one. Individually place a hedge of protection around them.

We thank you Father that you are a wall of fire around us. You have sent your angels around us to protect us. Lord, we thank you that we are able to dwell in the secret place of the Most High.

We abide under The Almighty God's shadow and protection. We say that the Great I Am is our refuge and fortress in time of need. We trust you Lord. We glorify your name.

You cover us with Your feathers and under Your wings we trust and are not afraid. We are not afraid of any terror by night or arrows by day.

We are not afraid of our past and we look forward to the future. We look to the hills, where our help comes from.

Your loving angels take charge of our walk with You so that no harm shall come our way. We follow You Lord God and when you call we answer.

We know that you are with us always. In times of trouble we call upon you and know that you can and will deliver. You have sent a hedge of protection to surround us.

Father God we know that you have set your love upon us. We love you and are in love with you. No weapon formed against us shall prosper and every tongue shall confess, and every knee shall bow to attest that you are Lord.

We are Champions and we know that its not over until God says its over. Its not over and we are under God's Hedge of Protection.

I love you and walk in the knowledge that I am also loved.I walk towards you knowing that I am making a good choice. A God approved, prayed on choice.

Be blessed today and be a bless sing to someone.

Hearing God's Truth

In making any decision, first seek the counsel of the Lord.
When you seek God's advice, let your mind and your heart be open to hear His word. Let His advice not fall on deaf ears. Seek God in every day matters.

Let God be sought daily. Do not lose the relationship with God.

Even when God gives you a message that doesn't line up with what you want or think you want. Seek God and follow His counsel.

Father God, in the name of Jesus, your Son, I confess your Word concerning healing.

I have sought things that were not directed by you. I let others tell me this is what I should do and I listened to them. You did not guide me down that path and it took up a lot of my time.

I grew distracted and distant. I had to fall on my face and get back up to see that national board, which I never really wanted to do in the first place, but I made it important in my life, was not for me. I knew this, I knew this, I knew, I could not give it what was needed to be successful but I continued, instead of quitting.

I didn't want to lose all that money, I didn't want to be wasteful, but I know now that I wasted something more valuable, my time.

I focused, somewhat, on something that I should not have, because I didn't want to be wasteful of others money. I didn't pay for the test but that shouldn't have mattered. Now that the scores are back and I see that I did not make it, I know, truthfully, that I also didn't submit my best work. In the sections that I did my best, I passed. The areas where I did minimal, I failed.

I was feeling trapped in the process and wanted it to be over. I know that it is very much a commitment to something I was not prepared to mentally and physically take on.

I fought doing the weekly writing, the weekly studying and the weekly work necessary to be successful in that arena. Now I have to explain to people that I didn't pass, while the other one with me did pass.

My principal was constantly pushing for this and will continue to push for me to take a retake. That I will not do. I'll just keep her at bay on that matter by being vague.

I see my job demanding so much more of me daily. More than I am willing to give. If I want to keep the job, I had better be more accountable and procedure oriented in the classroom. I know my downfall. I know where I have not provided the necessary materials for my class. The students are exhausting. Teaching is like a tag team relay race. How much information can I get in them and how much can they distract and not get anything done. Our children need to stop fighting with the teachers about their education.

But that doesn't change the demand. I am struggling with the ability to daily and weekly provide the time and resources to this career choice.

Have I sought God on this matter? I am not seeking God enough.

Daily, hourly, I must seek His Word and daily and hourly, I must believe in my own health and healing.

I believe in the name of Jesus that I am healed. Jesus took our infirmities and bore our sicknesses. I believe and confess that I am the property of the Almighty God and I give Satan no place to reside in me.

I rest in the secret place of the Most High God. I abide, remain stable, and fixed under the shadow of the Almighty, whose power no enemy can withstand.

I see the situation with my father crumbling around me. He is blessed that he doesn't have any serious physical illnesses. Mental illness is his major obstacle and loneliness. He basically spent his whole life alone, now he has a family and doesn't want to leave. I know he has been wondering what the next step along his journey will be. I want to make decisions that are compassionate and takes into the account the needs of all parties involved. I don't like being the sole decision maker regarding everything about his health and well being. Its funny, no one else wants to be involved because of his distance during his lifetime. Look at me now, do I feel like I owe him something? Why am I doing this? Why haven't I just turned my back like all the others? Its depleting my resources, time, and energy. I need to be realistic about this situation. I cant keep giving it small bits of time and not being successful when it needs huge chunks of time daily as well. I am not going to be successful with this building because it requires more time and energy than I have. I already leave work exhausted and tired. My day starts too early and ends too late. It is by the grace of God that I am not plagued by serious illness and infirmities.

Even as I get tenants in I see that they require attention too. Why do I take on so much? I know I cant handle all of this responsibility? No one else is even stepping forward to help. I have asked for help but it is very sporadic and limited. I need to watch my own health and remember that I cannot take care of others at the expense of myself.

I'm going to fall on my face and then what. I have take on his problems and responsibilities. I don't know what to do about that. How do I get out of this and leave something intact? Is this building going to be too much responsibility for me? Yes. Have I really sought God's Word on this situation? Not like I should, obviously.

Father God I reverence You. I worship You. Through my actions and my thoughts I have been distant. Father God your Word is a lamp unto my feet. I will seek you daily in my life. I cant make it without you. My decisions are wrong with out you. I plead that you encamp the angels of the Almighty Most High God around me and deliver me from every evil work that tries to snare me. Jesus, let no evil fall upon me, let no sickness come near me. I pray for perfect peace. Soundness of mind, body and spirit. I seek wholeness in my deepest nature. Let your word be medication to my body, my joints, my mind, my flesh and my soul.

So Lord, that's just the tip of the iceberg. I know you know all my minuscule woes, compared to the great matters of the world, but I give them over to you and I will pray this next hour for your guidance in the largest and smallest details of my life. I don't jumble all together I pray on one specific area. Should I....

Be blessed and be a Blessing to someone today.

Spiritual Decay

Sometimes we emphasizning loving people and not endangering our relationship with them over challenging them to get right with the Lord. When we think like this, we have accepted the world's value of the situation and not kingdom values.

In order for us to get back into right relationship with God we have to concern ourselves with what God has said and done biblically. Others need to hear God's Word through us.

I know that in God's kingdom there are upfront gifts and the supporting gifts. Those that we see directly and those that work behind the scenes. Thank you God for allowing me to be an encouragement for others. Thank you that I am encouraged by them as well. Do not let them feel that they are in a thankless job. Remind them of their love for God. Let the commitment to being faithful to God's kingdom be rewarding for them. Know that God loves you deeply.

I ask God to show mercy to us according to His great love. Lord I know that you seek the truth and rejoice when we have cleansed our self of all iniquities. Forgive me Lord for times when I have fallen short of being an example for your kingdom. When pride or selfishness have made me indulge in the flesh.

I choose Jesus rather than the indulgence of my flesh. I command my body to get in line with you4r Word. Father God I am your child and I confess that Jesus Christ is Lord over my spirit, my soul, and my body. I make Him Lord over every situation in my life. Therefore I can do all things through Christ Jesus who strengthens me.

I have made a quality decision to give you my appetite. I will exercise and discipline myself to line up with keeping my body as a temple for God. I will resist temptation and self indulgence. I have been given a spirit of power and and love and sound mind. I have discipline and self control over my body. I resist temptation in Jesus Name.

I run with patience and know that this is a declaration of a commitment to improving the quality of my life. I will have struggles and unnecessary distractions, but never the less, I will always get back on track, keep my eye on the prize and reduce/eliminate food that is harmful to me.

I thank God for providing a food source for me but I am respectful to not be a glutton.

Lord I seek your guidance and forgiveness in every decision that I make today. Show me the way to go and the things to say. In Jesus Name I make this prayer.
Be blessed today and be a real blessing to someone.

Are You Hungry?

Are you hungry enough? If I'm not hungry enough to want a change then its not going to happen. I'm not comfortable with the way things are. I'm not content with keeping things just like this. In the face of discouragement, disappointment and despair I chose to believe that your word is the word for me. You are mighty and awesome. Because of you I am in covenant. God has heard my cry and not forgotten one word of his promise to me. I don't chose to be stuck and I have no intentions of staying stuck and in bondage. God has delivered me and will not settle for less. I will meditate on the word day and night. I am hungry, hungry, hungry.

Divine Intervention

"When God restores you, He does so in a way that suddenly you are walking in the light and you can hardly recall how dark your life had been."

The Beginning

Father God, thank you for sending your Son. After much deliberation and temptation, Jesus sets up his new ministry. He calls his disciples to follow him and they do. When called, we must hear his voice and come.

I think about all the stuff that I am responsible for and I think, when I hear his call, will I come. Will I answer the call? Have I heard it and missed it? Its not too late. Its never too late to walk in God's path.

I pray that I will be a faithful disciple. One that is able to hear a new message from the Father.

Jesus spoke like nothing they had ever heard before and it touched their hearts and their mind. It refreshed their soul and he healed their bodies. He got their attention. I pray to be attentive to his word.

One who recognizes his voice. Ready to leave this behind and not worry. Rejoicing in my new found life.

Glory be to God. I'm working on a new thing.
Be blessed today and be a blessing to someone special.

Stand Firm or Lose All

I look for God's grace in a tough situation. In the midst of a personal crisis I look for God's mercy and grace.

I have taken on too much and I have made someone's elses problem my problem. I take a little time and pray for the revelation. Maybe I'd better take some more prayer time.

If I do not stand firm in my faith I will not stand at all. Stand firm in my faith.

I ask the Lord daily what to do, how to do it, act now, wait. What's the best way to do this. Take a leap of faith now. Pray, Pray, Pray. Guide me direct me. Is this what you want me to do? Have I just become weary. But the constant nagging voice says dont give up. Dont give up. Dont let satan win. Stand Firm. Stand Firm.

I Take Your Word For It

Father God, I take your Word and speak it out of my mouth. I have faith that I am a capable , intelligent, patient, virtuous woman. I am more precious than jewels. I value myself and my relationships. My heart trust confidently in you and I believe and rely on you to display honest gain.

Lord God I give comfort and encouragement to those that are in my life. I pray for the right words to come out of my mouth. Words that uplift and encourage. I want others to look forward to hearing me speak. I gird myself with strength spiritually, mentally and physically. I understand the importance of keeping myself healthy for my God given task. I understand that all will not like me, nor do I want them to like me, but I know that I have not be petty, gossipy or disrespectful to anyone. I treat others with respect.

Lord I open my hand to those that will take it. I reach out in spirit, body and soul. I do not want to carry or enable. I want to skillfully use love and kindness to instill independence and peace. That almost sounds like an oxymoron. Independence requires struggle to be free and peace infers no struggle. Lord, let us not become idle and discontent. Save us from ourselves.

Lord I reverently worship you. I magnify the Lord in all things. I lift up my hands and my heart to you. I thank you for loving me and simply calling me one of your own. I love you. I willingly allow you to be the authority over me. I submit to you with my own free will. I take your word for it that everything is going to be alright. I give my worries and cares over to you. I made a choice to want to be with you and to follow you. You give me power to do what your Word says for me to do and to be a successful, loving woman in the process. Thank you Lord. Use today to be blessed and to be a blessing to someone.

The List

Father God I come to you with the List.
The list of all that I have on my plate for this week.
YOU,
the building,
journal writing,
the inspections,
the lesson plans,
the room set up,
the science club,
the after school program,
daily dinners,
cornell notes,
the washing,
the driving,
bible study,
the sleeping,
the correcting papers,
the testing,
the science fair preparation,
the cluster meeting,
the inquiry questions,
the papers to sign,
the bills to pay,
and to the many other things that didn't get put on the list but will still get done or at least attempted. What nonsense and foolishness we occupy our time with on this earth. At the top of my list is you.

I need you to guide, direct and lead me through each and every one of my tasks, duties, assignments. I choose to put you at the top.

You are not an afterthought, or something to do when I have a spare moment. I chose to love you and I continue to willingly and freely make that choice. I do not make you my lover, you are my King, My Love.

Lord I love you and need you to be at the top of my life.

Father God I pray for the ability to not drop the ball on every task on that list.

Spiritual Maturity

Father God I seek to grow spiritually. Father I come to you seeking both compassion and patience. You are allowing me to stretch and grow as one of your disciples.

Your word says that if anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will save it.

What good is it for a man to gain the whole world, and yet lose or forfeit his very self? If anyone is ashamed of me and my words, the Son of Man will be ashamed of him when he comes in his glory and in the glory of the Father and of the holy angels. - Luke 9:23-26

Father, I thank you that we are called to be your saints, your disciples. We call those things into being that be not as though they were. Father I thank you that there is no division and that we are perfectly joined together and on one accord in the same mind. As your representative we speak your Word boldly. Father we speak the truth in love. We walk in love and we magnify your love as a witness not only to believers but to disciples. We meet the needs of people who come spiritually broken, lost souls, and physically challenged. Father we seek a vision for the church that is more than enough for every situation before us. We have everything we need to carry out your vision for our church. We are a people of love and we spread love and love is in our hearts. The word of God lives within us and we strive to show God's works within our lives. Do others see God within us? Are we laborers of God? Is his Spirit within me? Am I a living example of his love. Has God grown impatient with me?

Father God your apostle has returned from a very intense and spiritual mission. As leader and teacher he sees where we can go, what we can do, if on one accord and he finds there is still reluctance. Why cant we move forward? Why has nothing changed? Why are we still doing the same thing and getting the same results? Why? Why? Why?
Short term cost for long term benefits? How does that work? What do I do? As I ask these questions, I know that God is in control, He's working it out. Trust and believe that everything is going to be alright, no matter what. His time is not my time. Patience is truly a virtue. Years and years of waiting mean nothing to God. This is where spiritual maturity comes in. Show some maturity and strength. Embrace what God has allowed to happen.

Be blessed and be a blessing to someone today. I love you.

Passion

You can not be passionate about being in a relationship if you are not passionate about Him.
Why is it that people dont want you to know the truth about themselves? When you find out something, when the armor is chinked, you have to decide, is this major or minor. Is it really that serious or is it their character and something that is not going to change. If you are constantly surrounded by/rescued by/ rescuing others then are you enabling that behavior?

Why cant you help out your children every now and then? We love them. Especially when they are trying to help themselves. Times are hard and I remember when I was young and trying to make it. I wouldn't ask my parents unless it was thevery, very, last resort. They knew if I came to them, I had no other choice. I imagine that your boys feel the same way. They wouldnt ask you for anything unless they had exhausted all other means. Its not easy being on your own and if you have family that can help you, then all the better.

They seem to be responsible citizens who are contributing members of society. Neither are in jail or drug addicts, so you did something right with them. I do understand that you dont want to be thought of as an easy mark. You dont want them asking weekly for money, then they are not managing their money.

God knows I have two daughters who for the most part are self sufficient, if you call living in my house with her son sufficient. That one doesnt get money, but we help each other out sometimes. The other one, I occasionally send money maybe once every three or four months. Is that too much? Who else are they going to get help from? Times are hard and I dont have a fortune either. I would like to think that they are responsible and caring. Not on drugs and committing crimes. I'm not aiding and abetting criminals. I'm helping my children who are trying to make it in this world on their own. They need some sense of independence.

As I continue to know God I know that their are setbacks, mountains and valleys in all of our lives. Part of the test of life is to see if we have overcome or was it a defeat. Did we learn a lesson, build character or are we hearbroken and disillusioned. After all of that can we still lift our hands and give God praise and thanksgiving. Can we thank him for what he has already done? Can we be real and come to God from our heart in times of crisis? Can we love God for who he is and not for what he can give us? Do we demand that of our family? Can they love us for who we are, even when we are in crisis? No body can hurt you like family. Nobody can get that deep into your character like family.

What a Difference

You were refreshed and recharged. You looked really good. Good Night

Your Promise

Father God we are your people. Your word says in 2 Chronicles 7:14 AMP:
If My people, who are called by My name shall humble themselves, pray, seek, crave and require of necessity My face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven, forgive their sin, and heal their land.

Father God we are your people and we call you by name. We confess with our mouth and believe in our heart that your word does not go out in vain. Thank You for hearing our prayers and moving your Spirit in our land. Lord do not let our spirit fail us because of fear. We worship and adore you Lord. We desire to humble ourselves before you Lord.

I thank You Lord for quiet time. For a time to seek you out. Give me a spirit of humility. Search my heart Lord. Remove that which is not like you. You know my thoughts before I speak them. You know my heart's desires. I am transparent to you Lord.

Forgive me for judging inappropriately, for complaining, for criticizing men, women and children who have been leaders, followers and participants in my life. Lord release your living waters to heal our nation. I desire to follow your lead and to conform to your ways and your will. Search me, guide me, direct me.

I believe, if I could just touch the hem of his garment, then I too shall be healed. I Believe in God's Promise in my life. He has not forgotten, abandoned me or turned his back on me. He Loves Me with an everlasting love. He loves Me. Thank You Lord for loving me. Glory Be to God. Be blessed today and be a blessing to someone.

The Verdict

If my life is to be judged by the quality and level of my obedience, then I am not going to be judged very favorable. I'm guilty. I have committed the offense and I am guilty. They have the proof. I know the truth. I have not been there on time like I should have. I have not spent the time doing lesson plans, correcting papers, making the right decisions at home. Following through with my financial responsibility. Paying my bills on time. The list goes on and on. I am guilty. I have not prayed when I should have. Read the bible when I should have. Loved more intensely. Written in my journal, when I should have. I have been negligent.

Keeping God's word in my life. Restoring faith in someone who has lost faith. Have I been bold in speaking and talking to a non Christian? Have I encouraged others to believe in God and to have faith, and to trust?

I believe in God's faithfulness. Let God be true and man be a liar. God could condemn us now but His word gives us forgiveness and faith and trust. Trust in the Lord. I didn't earn it, I was given it .As a gift, a present.

Be blessed today and be a blessing to someone.

A New Location

Lord I ask you to guide and direct my path while I go through this relocation. Finding a new place is not the easiest thing to do. Allowing an old place to be let go is tough also. Give me guidance to do the right thing. Prioritize what is important and keep my focus on that. Lord forgive me where I have fallen short of your expectations for me. Forgive me when I have been self absorbed or too much in another person's life. Forgive me Lord when I have doubted your interest in my life and problems. Forgive me Lord for ever taking you for granted and just being negligent about our relationship. Forgive me Lord for being disrespectful and distant. Lord forgive me for all of the times that I have fallen short of your expectations for me. Forgive Me.

It's Not About You

Its nothing personal and its not about you. There is nothing you did wrong. You didn't say anything or do anything to make me mad or upset. I havent changed my mind or gotten depressed and moody.
I'm just trying to do too much and because I ignored that building for so long I now have to pay more attention than I really want to. I'm trying to get more family involved so its not just me.
I didn't realize it would be so hard for me to get rid of all of his stuff. Its different if he's dead, but he's still alive. Doctors say he could have twenty more years. He wont always be with me for that time. What do I do? I search God for the answers.

I Put My Trust In Thee

In thee O Lord do I put my trust. I shall speak of your righteousness all the day long.

I will hope continually and will praise you all the day long.

O Lord be not far away. I will walk in your strength. Do not cast me off in my time of old age. Forsake me not when my strength fails. O Lord be not far away and make haste for my help.

Lord take my adversaries and confound and consume them. Let them be covered with reproach and dishonor those that seek to hurt me.

Lord don't forget me. Father God take care to keep me near. Lord you are my everything. My strength, my life. In you I make my being. May God be the glory. I put my trust in you Lord. - influenced and prayed about from Psalm 71
Be blessed today and be a blessing to someone. I love you.

I trust and I believe

Inquire of God and He will guide and direct you,

Even though the same enemy may come to slay you, trust in God, seek his counsel and wisdom and let God do the strategizing.

Trust in Him. Call on Him. Wait on His Word.

I'm trusting, I'm believing, I'm waiting on God's Word in this situation and every situation and relationship in my life. Let me hear your plan for me.

Let me hear that still small voice. Let me hear direction and wisdom.

I confess and believe that the decisions made by the leaders are right and just.

I pray that my breakthrough is forthcoming. My life is in God's hands. I trust you and I believe in you.

God bless you today and everyday. Be blessed and be a blessing to someone.

Asked And Agreed Together

Father God we thank you that as we have asked and agreed together, you have heard our prayers. We thank you for hearing our prayers and connecting us with people who are also working for the good of those that love the Lord.

Thank you Lord for people in our lives who are not just paying lip service to the problems or throwing money at an area that is not going to be useful or productive. Lord we have seem quick fix solutions and this cannot be one of them.

This is a long and arduous journey. Thank God for new beginnings. Let today's journey be a successful one. We are on the road to recovery. Thank You for placing the right people in the right place of our lives.

I pray that having had an opportunity to renew and refresh that I go back with a new attitude towards my students. I want to not be a thorn in their side and for them to not be one in mine. I know its not sunshine and blue skies but let me find a place where I am calm and in a mode of control. Let me find patience and even more patience when necessary.

Let my classroom management improve. Reduce the noise and distractions. Allow the science projects to go off without a glitch. Allow the low readers to be successful. Let my lesson plans be appropriate. Let my words be uplifting and educating.

Let my thoughts be more along the lines of Gods thoughts and ideas for my life and the people who I influence on a personal and professional level. Let me be successful in my personal and professional relationships. Let no weapon formed against me prosper. Let me hear and understand what I need to know. Let me be open to new suggestions that are from the heart.

Lord let me get some tenants in that building. Let's get that building sold. Let's make something happen over there. This is just too much for me to keep together. I need new ideas, new options, something has to change with this Lord. May God bless you and allow you to be a blessing to those around you. Be blessed and be a blessing to someone.

Thank You for the Man

Lord thank you for a man who is dedicated to justice. Thank you for a man who has kept his head about him when it seems as if all others are just plum crazy. Thank You God for giving him the ears of those who can make a real difference. I pray Lord that he is able to voice the real problems and that together they are able to come up with a concrete solution, proposition a start for improvement. Lord I don't expect an all together final plan but something must come out of this that give hope and direction. Everyone must be involved. We all take blame in this catastrophe. We all have a hand in making it better. We are treating the behavior, the outcome, violence. We have to treat the reason for the violence. There are so many factors for the violence, we have to spend less time pointing fingers and more time working together. Stop this constant bleeding of money. These SES programs are funded but with poor attendance. Why aren't the students coming. They don't want to walk home in the dark. Its dark by 5pm in the winter and they say they wont come to a program that lets out that late. Why cant we provide some sort of bus transportation to ensure that they get home safely? Get some more counselors in the schools. Children have so much hate and anger about every little thing. I constantly have requests from children to see the counselor. For reasons from the death of a parent, friend, relative, family illness. These children have problems and no real coping mechanisms to handle them. I just thank God for you. I thank God that you care and you continue to care. Thank you God for a caring and loving man. Lord allow him to rest tonight and to wake refreshed and renewed. Give him the words to say and the ability to work together for a solution. Let him be successful in his endeavors. Show him love, let him express what needs to be said in a clear and concise method that is understood by all. Guide his thoughts and let his words be your words. May God bless you tonight and always.

Relationships

A relationship that brings a sense of connection, that demonstrates how I am cared about, and that I have an intimate relationship that displays how I am heard and valued.

This works both ways. I am bringing a strong connection to the relationship, I show how much I care about the other person, I have displayed an intimate relationship and I hear and value the other persons feelings and thoughts. Is this really happening on any level?

How can you say you love me when you have some very devoted and loving women who are good women, who have devoted their lives to taking care of you? I would rather believe that you are in love with them and have moved on from me. These women feel entitled. They have given up a lot to assist you in every way. They love you and expect that if you are ever going to have a loving, intimate relationship then its going to be with them. At least one of them. After all they have earned it. Dont they deserve your love and attention?

I would think that love would be faithful and rewarding. If I've done the most noble of things,then I deserve the reward, the prize, the love. What are you thinking with these relationships. Are you being supportive? Are you keeping things bottled up? Who are you confiding in and are you making decisions when you are not angry or hurt?

I have been spending a lot of time on my own since we started our break a week ago. I have one more week to go so I am now trying to finish things I didnt get to previously. I'm not saving the world, just trying to keep my head about me when everything else seems to be confusing and demanding. Trying to stay sane. I'm no good to anyone if I am delusional.

Lord I pray that we can find the strength and courage to make a calm and appropriate choice and stick with it. Our children are making erratic choices made from anger over the smallest of things. Do we give up and just keep housing them like cattle in jails and poor housing? Is the Harlem Children's Zone really the answer? Maybe its an answer. It seems to be something that my Area is buying into. Does it work? Can we see change throughout and not just in random pockets? Is there a secret, a recipe, a formula? If we do this, and this, then it will work.

Now that we are no longer worried about the olympics, something that was the greatest longshot anyway, can we now concentrate on the safety of our children? This is so layered its almost impossible to change. Students raised by people who are at and below the poverty level. Ao you know they are angry and depressed. Government and business who feel any help is turning our society into a socialistic government rather than keeping it the capitalistic society. The rich keep getting richer and the poor keep getting poorer. Not until the economic situation changes, will the violence change. To reach their heart we have to get their attention. How do we get generations of non readers and non contributors to the main stream society to care about wanting something different?

How do we support each other to allow growth and depth to occur? Where do we find the strength to make the hard choices? Its never too late to make a change. Make a step towards change.

“Although you can not go back and have a brand new beginning, you can still create a brand new end”

My Soul Pants for You

Where can I go to be in relationship with you?

God wants to be in relationship with me. God wants to teach me about love. I want to know what love is. I want to know what real love is. I must seek the Lord. Until I seek the Lord I cannot receive His real blessing. Am I in position for a blessing? Am I the prey or the predator? Is this role interchanging? How do I protect myself. The enemy knows that it can wear us out. It can send us to other sources to find our refreshment. But the psalmist says I want to run to God. I want God to be the one that refreshes me. I want God to handle my attackers. I need something that will fix me for the long term. Not a temporary fix, I need something that can sustain me for the long term. A relationship with God.

Fellowship is important, you can be in relationship but not in fellowship. I want to be in fellowship. I want to care and know about your day to day happenings. I want to know how your day is going. What was good about it and what was difficult. From the smallest thing to the largest thing. What was important to you today. What are you occupying your time with these days? What are intimate with. What has given you passion that you want to seek it out and develop it to the utmost. Who are you intimate with today?

Intimacy promises joy. Not happiness but joy. Joy comes in the morning. I got that Joy, Joy, Joy, Joy down in my heart. The Joy of the Lord is my strength. When you have joy you are strong. You can have a harmonious marriage. You can go through the fire and still lift your hands and praise God. You cant get joy at a liquor store, smoking blunts, or abusing drugs. There is not any joy. Joy is the revelation that God is inside of me. God is with me.

Keep your mind stayed on Jesus.

I'm tired and I need to be close to you. I need to be refreshed, rejuvenated. Pick me up. I don't understand anything right now. I'm confused and tired. Wrap me in your arms, show me the way, I need you to guide me and direct me. I need you. I need you I need you. I want to know your ways and I want to wait for understanding from you. I dedicate myself to you. I stretch my hands to you. I need you, daily.

Peace of Mind in Troubled Times

Father God I pray that you give peace to a man who is devoted to your will and your ways. A man pure of heart, mind and body who is willing do whatever it takes, believing in your Word for all things to come to light.
Lord we use our faith and confess that all bitterness, wrath, rage, bad temper, resentment, contention, slander, abuse, evil speaking are removed and destroyed. Let him be compassionate, tender of heart, understanding, loving, forgiving and readily and freely forgiving of those who not been imitators of Jesus. Lord we fight a slow and steady battle.
I ask you to renew our mind and give us a fresh mental and spiritual attitude to fight the battle before us. Allow us to come to our senses and escape from the devils hold. Father God allow us to love one another with the God kind of love, united in total peace and harmony and happiness. Thank you Lord for loving us and believing in us and knowing that your will is done in our life. Lord you are the answer and we meditate on your word day and night. We truly seek to be blessed and to be a blessing to someone.

An Authentic Relationship with God

Relationship has to be reciprocal. Love is a two way street. God demonstrates his love to us while we were sinners.

God sees in us what nobody else can see. I want to have my spiritual eye see what no body else can see. Let me be a recipient of God so that I can love God back.

Worship is not about me, its about God. If you never do another thing for me I will still love you. I love you. This is more than just lip service.

If you love God you will keek His commandments. Love involves obedience.

Covenant Love

Always, always, always give thanks to the Lord for he is good and his mercy endures forever.

The way to live your life is to be thankful.

Praise God no matter what the situation.

Make music in your heart. You have a whole orchestra inside of you.

This is the Day that the Lord Has Made

Father God this is your day. Each and every day I am desperate for you. I long for you in my life and I won't stand for you to not be in it daily. My heart's desire is to please you. I wake up wanting to know what can I do to please you today.

Thank you Father for giving us knowledge and skill in all learning and wisdom, thank you for bringing us into favor with those around us. We don't want to be where you are not in the midst of everything.

God, I heard on a movie that, once you realize that you truly are in genuine, sincere love then you want to be close to that individual all the time. You want to make constant and repeated connections with that person because you realize that every moment is precious.

Lord I pray that you intercede in my life. You guide and direct me daily. Don't let me fall. Don't let me make the same mistakes over and over again. Let me learn. Let me speak from divine wisdom and spiritual knowledge and enlightment that is stored up deep within me.

Father God let our children know peace. We commission the ministering spirits to go forth and police the area where our children will be today, dispelling the forces of darkness and evil. Allow them to live their lives in such a way that they are open to the lights of this world that project honor and truth in words, thoughts and deeds.

We bind up evry spirit of darkness and any wickedness that tries to establish a stronghold in our lives. We bind up spirits of the occult, alcohol, nicotine, drug addiction, sexual immorality, profanity, obscenity, the blinding spirit of the antichrist, worldly wisdom in any form and every opposer to the truth. We bind up every destructive, deceitful, thieving spirit. You are loosed from your assignment on us and our children in the name of Jesus.

Father God we thank you and praise you for loving us and wanting us to be closer to you. Just to be close to you is my desire. I can do nothing with out you. Nothing makes sense without you in my life. Nothing works without you close to me. Nothing has value without you. Thank you God for giving me the ears to hear and the eyes to see. Father God you occupy first place in my heart and there is none like you. I praise you for who you are. Each and every day I am desperate for you. I long to please you. I seek you out. I am in love with you. You my boo.

It is always going to be alright

No matter what, its going to be alright. It is what it is.

Routines

Establish routines daily. Stay consistent. Be reliable and steady.

Im tired. My day was very long.
Lord let me sleep well and be refreshed in the morning.

Emotions

Jesus came to flip the script and flip it He did.

I realize that time is precious. Now is what I have to live for. I don't have time for foolishness. I have to realize that there is some stuff that I don't have time for. Life is really just too precious. Some things are not worth the hassle. God knows my heart and my mind and when he prepares me for a blessing he knows that I am a human vessel in the flawed world and my ultimate and final allegiance is to He who is, was and shall be, forever.

So I have nothing to be jealous about because he would not allow that spirit to be part of me relating to anything that is of Him. I know innocent and genuine caring and love for individuals. I don't need to be jealous or to have someone think I am some green eyed monster filled with jealousy every time they talk to someone. God would not have that spirit in me and I don't receive it. That's not of God and I don't want to be in a situation where I am down that road. That's not me and I don't receive those feelings, so I keep myself in check and will not get closer to that demon.I believe God knows what I can handle and what I can't and my mind is strong and determined. When I see myself walking down a path that I am not comfortable with, I will turn away. I am not perfect and I realize that is something that is starting to rear its ugly head in me and I don't like it. I pray to God to remove that from me. I am not perfect and as I age, I find more and more imperfections. Probably due to the fact that I put up with less and less. I try to challenge myself in new situations to increase my exposure to many different responsible feelings.

I choose how to respond to things in my life and my emotions are not determined by a look or a word. To be so feeble and fragile is something I neither seek or desire. I am strong and determined in my life. I am passionate and secure about my life. Why some things work one way and not the other are for many reasons that I am not aware of but I chalk that up to protection for me. What I may want, may not be right for me. Many factors are present when people are attempting to establish themselves in a relationship. What keeps them apart, what draws them together, what brought them together in the first place and what are the real factors keeping them apart and keeping them together. What really is the truth? What is the reason.

How much is our fault, good or bad? Who is to blame? Is that where we are stressing our faith? Who do we blame and how much is their fault? Is there really any one to blame and what is the crime really. At this point, what will happen will happen. Good or bad, we lived through this. Life is too short to constantly blame anybody for anything. We move forward, forget the past and plan for the future, come what may. Its just not that serious in the whole scheme of things. If it is to be then it will. If not then, so be it. Control what I can and move on. If things aren't changing then there is a reason for it. God has a plan and he knows how to work it. Love never fails. Whether real or imagined in my mind, it affects how I react to the outcome.

If only we could change those factors. I am waiting for God to give me a clear sign that this is what I am suppose to do. Just as you are waiting for God to tell you to leave and to do other things, I am waiting also. I don't know what the future holds, good or bad, I pray that I hear God's word and follow His directions. I trust God to know me and to place me where I need to be with the skills and strength to stay there. God is not setting me up to fail. I will be confident in my decision. My God supplies all of my needs. I will be obedient until the end. I thank God for providing salvation for me through his son, Jesus Christ's death. I believe in the Father, The Son and the Holy Spirit. I am a believer. I trust God to order my steps and if I am not following in His ways, I trust Him to guide me back to the path. When I am lost and blind, I call on His name to find me and take me out of my mess. I call on His name. My faith is restored in Jesus.

I know that God is aware of every inch, minute and second of time that I am allotted on this earth. I believe that when God blesses me it will be a recognized, identifiable, true blessing for me. I don't need someone to tell me that this is my blessing. God has put it in my heart and mind to know that this is OK. I may be challenged to accept the gift, blessing on God's terms but I feel God knows me well enough to give me a blessing that I will not miss. If every blessing is for me to miss, unless I am changed and reformed and more astute and alert and waiting at the right time and right place and I hear the right words and say the right words, then I am totally not going to get that blessing. I know God knows me. I don't say that I am perfect and unwilling to change, but I am a child of God willing to stretch and grow and learn. I want more from God and I am open to go where God wants me to go. God knows me.

I have lived a half a century and I don't imagine that I have another half of century ahead of me. Especially not in the same health and strength. I am thankful for each and every day that I am still here functioning and contributing to life. I take nothing for granted. My mind is open to change and I don't live in the past. I search for the future. Each and every day I try to do things that are contrary to the devil's plan for my life. I constantly remind myself that I am in the world but not of the world.

I refuse to be treated any old way. I refuse to accept any old treatment just because it has the potential of being great. I will not prostitute myself to that which is not of Christ. I will die to me so I can live in Christ Jesus. I will humble myself to the will of Christ Jesus and I will continue to do all I can to please Jesus.

I have picked up this mantle of taking care of this child, my parents, my family and I surely did not ask for it and continue to find difficulty in setting boundaries with this situation. I continue to be challenged in every aspect of my profession, learning how to do things differently, being held accountable for things that are new and old. If all is in my mind and I am able to control these things then I have to devote time to these situations until they are more manageable because I am in control of nothing right now. Its just one big mess in every aspect that I look. Home, work, church. I have to find a new solution. Trial and error. Try something different. Be open to change and willing to try and try again.

Put new wine in new wine skins. I'm tired of being in the same old place doing the same old thing and getting the same old results. I want new results and new wine in my life.