Good Night

 

 

 

Today was a kick in the butt. I cant wait until this month is over. Actually this week. Report card pick up is Thursday. Then the next headache is the science fair. Everyday there is something to do with this fair.

I saw the website today. You have all the power players onboard for your fundraising. I know you will do it.  Where do we go with the distance that we have created between us? You have so many major things going on in your life right now. Your baby is sick, your church needs you desperately. You are working to make it better and I understand that. You didn't even go on a much needed vacation. I imagine next year you will take three or four weeks to make up for all the stress of this year. I know and believe that it will work out. Keep the faith, believe that it will work.

Have a blessed night. I love you.

Good Morning

  Deuteronomy 26 Firstfruits and Tithes  1 When you have entered the land the LORD your God is giving you as an inheritance and have taken possession of it and settled in it, 2 take some of the firstfruits of all that you produce from the soil of the land the LORD your God is giving you and put them in a basket. Then go to the place the LORD your God will choose as a dwelling for his Name 3 and say to the priest in office at the time, "I declare today to the LORD your God that I have come to the land the LORD swore to our forefathers to give us." 4 The priest shall take the basket from your hands and set it down in front of the altar of the LORD your God. 5 Then you shall declare before the LORD your God: "My father was a wandering Aramean, and he went down into Egypt with a few people and lived there and became a great nation, powerful and numerous. 6 But the Egyptians mistreated us and made us suffer, putting us to hard labor. 7 Then we cried out to the LORD, the God of our fathers, and the LORD heard our voice and saw our misery, toil and oppression. 8 So the LORD brought us out of Egypt with a mighty hand and an outstretched arm, with great terror and with miraculous signs and wonders. 9 He brought us to this place and gave us this land, a land flowing with milk and honey; 10 and now I bring the firstfruits of the soil that you, O LORD, have given me." Place the basket before the LORD your God and bow down before him. 11 And you and the Levites and the aliens among you shall rejoice in all the good things the LORD your God has given to you and your household.

 

Ephesians 2 Made Alive in Christ  1As for you, you were dead in your transgressions and sins, 2in which you used to live when you followed the ways of this world and of the ruler of the kingdom of the air, the spirit who is now at work in those who are disobedient. 3All of us also lived among them at one time, gratifying the cravings of our sinful nature[a] and following its desires and thoughts. Like the rest, we were by nature objects of wrath. 4But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, 5made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions—it is by grace you have been saved.

 

 

Joel 2:32- And everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.

 

Good morning Lord. Thank you for saving me. We will raise the money needed. We will have tithing and generous offerings to meet all of our needs for the church. We will continue to dedicate ourselves to you Lord.

I love you, have a blessed day today. Bring us closer. Tell me what I can do to make that happen.

 

 

We Have grown Distant

I need a new picture. I need to recapture my dream. God knows I am not getting any younger and this is not getting any easier. God knows a smile here and ther, a look, a touch, a warm comforting word wouldnt hurt. Is there a manual, is there a flowchart somewhere, how to move from point a  to point b?  How do I make this happen? Less of me and more of God? Leave it up to God. I leave it up to God and we have distance. I stop trying and nothing happens? What's up with that? So what do I do now? Go back to trying? Go back to what I think I need to do? What the heck do I do? Answer that for me.

Miss Potter

OK so I blew off the store for now.

Notes on a Scandal was disturbing and I am now watching Miss Potter, about Beatrix Potter. I find this much more enjoyable. The last movie I have is Breach. I may go to the store after this one and then watch Breach later. Today is my movie day.

A Beautiful Day

Today I awoke early and took Austin to the D<SPAN id=sp-0 title=" CPU, FPU, Pub, Pud, Pug, Pun, Pup" style="BACKGROUND: url(undefinedimages/bg_spellingErr.gif) yellow repeat-x left bottom; PADDING-BOTTOM: 2px; COLOR: #000" _backupTitle="null"> Page Children's Museum. He loved it. We first saw a marionette play about Pinocchio which he could only stand to sit for about twenty minutes. We played in the water, we went through the wind machine, we went up we went down. He just loved it. I will take him back on the 12th. He needs to go about two or three times a month. My next two Saturdays are booked with training. What a drag.

I dropped him off with his mother and now I am watching a movie. Notes on a Scandal. Then I have to go to Sam's Club. We are totally out of paper plates, cups and paper towels. We live on those things.

Then I have to go to daddy's house to get the mail. Finally my day will be over. I have a little of me time in it and I plan to take.  Now is my time for the next two hours.

Harmonious Marriage

You know something, I have this book that I like to begin my journals with. It is a book of prayers and reflections on different subjects. Whenever I come to it, I am able to have a reflective thought of my day and the situation I am dealing with. I trust this book to help me. Lately whenever I open it and ask the question about you and me it always comes to something related to marriage. I don't know if it is because I am reflecting on the subject while <SPAN id=sp-4 title=" AI, Kai, Tai, aid, ail, aim, ain" style="BACKGROUND: url(undefinedimages/bg_spellingErr.gif) yellow repeat-x left bottom; PADDING-BOTTOM: 2px; COLOR: #000" _backupTitle="null"> write this journal or that this is something that is important to both of us. I only know that it keeps coming up. I will sometimes write about something different because I don't want to write about marriage, but lately I will just go where the flow leads me. When I seek my heart and ask God about you and me it always comes up to marriage. I want to believe that this is possible but I must admit I am skeptical. My needs for a relationship are not met and I have certainly not fulfilled your needs for a relationship.  But nevertheless...I will keep believing. I will believe in that ring. Love reigns supreme.  We live and conduct ourselves honorably. I esteem marriage as precious and honorable. Worthy of all the praise.

Romans 5: 5 And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.

Good Night

I am always more quiet in the evening. I am tired and I am trying to stay awake long enough to make this entry. I can seem to keep my mind focused.

Tomorrow is a good day. PD again. No children, they have another day off. Grades go in on Monday.

good night. Be blessed and be a blessing.