Good Evening

I dont mind waiting on the Lord. I ask the Lord am I waiting on what you want for me or is this what I want for me. Am I where I am suppose to be. Caring for others, and not myself. Am I doing what you want Lord. God, is my number coming up soon? Our days are not for us to know. Should I feel hurt and forgotten. Should I be doing more?I want a hug, a kind word, a soulful look.Arent I worthy? Have I missed the boat.So back to am I where I am suppose to be and if so why does it hurt so much.