Take time to grieve

What must I take time to grieve about? How have I been complacent and prideful? I must take time to pray over the people that I have lost and remember to ask God for his will in my direction. Lord, I miss the loss of my friend. I miss the fellowship. I move forward knowing that I have to forgive in order to be forgiven. I give of myself expecting nothing in return. My loss is too great to continue this stalemate. There is no winner here.Peace is what I desire.