God is Knocking

God knows you have been on my heart. Today, God woke me up, demanding that something be done, today, to communicate to you, and to say I am sorry. I love you and have caused too much pain to both of us. I am sorry. I disappointed myself today. All through service, and even while in the line I kept saying to myself, I will say I am sorry, I will apologize, I will profess my love and faith to you. I believe that when I got to you, my mind went blank. Where were the words to express what is necessary. I am not giving up. There are many things I have to be thankful to God for. I am blessed that God still wants me. I have some use in his purpose. I am blessed that you are here. I will not give up and cry any more. My tears today are for the realization that I will not stop. I will be going to Seattle on Friday and I am not worried. You travel all the time and God protects you. I am believing that protection is out there for me too. So this week I have two occasions to say to your face, I am sorry, before I leave. I believe God gave us this blog for a reason. It didn't have to be. I didn't have to start one, and you sure didn't have to find it. But I did and you did. So we move forward from that. God placed it on my heart today to tell you, I love you, forgive me and know that I am with you. Now I just have to say that. We can transform the world. Praise God, there is still a future for us. God has placed a demand on me. I feel the pressure of this like never before.