We Have grown Distant

I need a new picture. I need to recapture my dream. God knows I am not getting any younger and this is not getting any easier. God knows a smile here and ther, a look, a touch, a warm comforting word wouldnt hurt. Is there a manual, is there a flowchart somewhere, how to move from point a  to point b?  How do I make this happen? Less of me and more of God? Leave it up to God. I leave it up to God and we have distance. I stop trying and nothing happens? What's up with that? So what do I do now? Go back to trying? Go back to what I think I need to do? What the heck do I do? Answer that for me.