My Love

Don't ever equate my love for you with this journal alone. Whether I write or not, I love you very much. You are strong and you feel deeply. Sometimes I'm strong and sometimes I'm weak. We balance each other. You either believe it or you don't. We are either together or we are not. What do you believe? God is good and I know all good things work together. I love you. Period. 

Broken-hearted Faith

Faith comes from hearing the word, as the bible says.

When I need my faith to be bolstered, I go to the word. I have faith in us. Faith that we can work together for our future.faith and love. 

Respect and Love

I feel that you are able to remind people that they (black folks mostly) are to be respected in their own communities. When the lines of communication break down, you are able to start the conversation over with a fresh look at the same situation. Respect the life of the person living next door to you. Respect the life of the person in your own city. Respect the life of people in your own home. Together, people can begin to care. We are lead to the two most important commandments, love God and love one another. I say it all the time, you don't have to like me but you will respect me. Be Blessed. I love you..

One Week and a Day

There is love in this house today. We are laughing, playing the guitar, singing and watching the man of the house build something manly. It's funny and heartwarming. Elijah will not even remember me in a week, but they are happier now. My presence made a difference and that's what I wanted. Give them some time to connect to each other again. Their anniversary is Monday and they will spend time alone. Saturday I'm back and Sunday back to church. I'm excited to return. A month is a long time. I needed to get away. 

God Will Deal With The Crazy

http://bible.com/111/jud.1.19-23.niv

It is going to be all right. Jesus set me free. You have to trust real love for yourself. No one can tell you who to love and when it's real. You are amazing and worthy of love. Mature or immature, love knows no boundaries. God believes a true heart. You are amazing and there is only one of us in this world as with God, all good things are possible. I will trust God to guide my decisions. I have to believe in a stronger power because if this is it then I am in real trouble. God's Power is my strength, daily, when I think of all that God has done for me, I'm in awe. God has kept me through the hard times and will continue to keep me. I trust that God is looking out for me, God you are amazing. I worship you God.help me to dream about the yet to come. Holy Spirit stir my soul so that you are amazing everyday of my life. Bless our gifts and know tha we accept you as a living sacrifice. We sacrifice our life to you Lord. We will not be intimidated by what the world throws at us but as mature Christians we will get up and know that God will keep us and stop us from falling.

Helping Family

You know what I find to be the biggest help I can do out here is to give them the time to sleep. Having a fourteenth month old is out of this world. They don't care if you are tired or your knee can't make the stairs as quickly as they can or want you to ca Ray them. Grandma can't move as quick. Believe you me this little mister is one busy fellow. I am happy to give my grandchild some grandma time. If they can sleep and rest and get their bearings back, maybe there won't be so much arguing. God, I pray that you protect this relationship. It's loving on the surface, but what are they not showing me? I've seen too many headlines to know there is always another side, the truth. I'm going to watch three coins in a fountain. I have never seen this movie before but it's suppose to be a classic. I want that feeling again when I knew you wanted me. Good Night.

New Day

Psalm 35:1-31 

Contend, Lord, with those who contend with me;
fight against those who fight against me.
² Take up shield and armor;
arise and come to my aid.
³ Brandish spear and javelin
against those who pursue me.
Say to me,
“I am your salvation.”

Dear God each and every day remember me and my loved ones. Prayers and hope constantly go out for us to keep the faith. This fight is not ours, it truly is the Lord's fight. We do our part by being constantly in society's face about injustices. What we can do, we do. Never be silent about the right thing to do. If Donald  Trump can get so much attention by making himself sound like a champion for idiots, what does that say for the ruling society that has the money. He's just saying what the people want to hear. Blasting any and everybody. It's good that he can split the Republican voting population. The politicians have lost their focus. Every last one of them running for president are millionaires who are out of touch with the reality of society. How can they not see that some type of economic help has to accompany the choices for our youth and their families. Please see that most people are one paycheck away from the poverty lines. I think they truly don't care. It's all about what I can do for me and if I don't have to deal with the problems of society in my world then I will turn a blind eye. I'll think about Christmas in July and some other irrelevant thing so I don't have to deal with the truth. The truth is too ugly and painful, plus I might find out I'm to blame, and God forbid I should do something about it. Institutional Neglect. It's more than just the racism it's the classism that's really hurting our country. Financial disparity. The haves and the have nots. How much to give, how much is enough, how much is too much, and what are they going to do with what I give them? Fear that we will mess it up, waste it or better yet, actually do better and then become competive in the playing field. Enough. How do we get out of the barrel and not kill each other in the process. Where is our humanity for each other? Love one another as we love ourselves. If we love God then we can love others. Let's Find some love within our lives. Find a way to care for others. Not just a few people caring, but a whole lot of people, especially the ones with the serious money caring and helping the ones without. If the blacks with serious money were able to get together and plan sound financial strategies then they could make a huge difference. We can work together to save ourselves but it's always a struggle that gets more talk and less action, a little bit here and a little bit there, never enough to really make a true difference. I believe we can do it. I believe you have been a voice of injustice in our society and will continue to be for a very long time. You spark the consciousness of the people to act and react to injustice. You keep it on the front burners not the back burners. That's why people will stand with you. You are not a fair weather friend. You stay the course, through thick or thin, you chose not to give up or waiver in your faith. God is with you on this challenging journey. You could have walked away many times but you didn't. You could have made it easy, but you didn't. You could have backed down, but you didn't. Many choices you made in life always seem to relate to the hard road and not the easy road. Persistence is your middle name. You have found success with that strategy even though it wasn't easy. Look at your accomplishments for your parish. You have turned a dying community into a blossoming industry. Struggles constantly come, but you are still there and so is a thriving community that probably wouldn't be without you. You are special, loved, needed and just my own personal hero, I'll follow you anywhere. Keep the Faith Baby, it may not get easier, but know that you are not alone on the journey. I love you. Be blessed and be a blessing to someone.