Good Night My Friend

I am so embarrassed about some things that have happened with us. I blame it all on menopause. I have been so grumpy and frustrated. I have so many papers to grade and I will frequently put it off and that just builds more tension. I have students who just plain and simple get on my nerves and that upsets me because it doesn't fit into my plans of the perfect teacher or at least a concerned and good teacher. I eat too much sometimes. Some days I can eat all the right things and others I want to eat everything in sight. I have some serious issues and I wonder why God would do this to you. Why connect you with me. I am not perfect nor am I even the runner up for perfect. I am so messed up, tied up and tangled up in junk and stuff that I don't even know what to do sometimes. I am about to be 49  years old and that just messes with my head sometimes. I live in a multi generational house which is truly crazy sometimes. I work in a below poverty environment and I am feeling like I am fighting a losing battle. What was God thinking. Then there is you. I think you are very special. I believe that you have sacrificed so much and you have been straddled with me. We have something that is not going away and something that is not in our control. I know that for sure. I ask God what is it that I should do. What do I need to let go of. What is it that I am holding on to? What must I do to survive this thing that is happening and the answer is always something related to love and trust. Love and Trust. It always sounds so simple but its the hardest thing to do. Love and Trust. Let God be in Control. Trust God to do the right thing for you. I pray that you have a good night and that you love and trust someone, today. Good Night.

Hello

My day is over for now. Papers to grade and lessons to do.

I think I will think about you while I eat my dinner. Salmon and salad. I did fast today. I had so fruit earlier. Now I did have some sookies. I gave up sweets for Lent and I had some cookies. I also had a double cheeseburger around 4:30. I just couldnt hold our. Tomorrow, I'll do better. This has been a stressful day. ISAT testing begins next week and they are stressing us to no end about these tests. Well back to work, rest, and reflecting on my poor behavior with my fasting.

Good Night My Friend

Sometimes we lose someone very close and it hurts, it comes as a surprise and we just arent ready. I had never been to a funeral at this church before. It was very emotional. I think because the person was so immportant. I didnt know him very well but I knew he was a very important part of many peoples lives. God knows our heart and he feels our loss.  How do ever get it to the point that none of this really matters anymore.What is important is the time we spend together and how we matter to each other. Live life to the fullest. I have made it another year. Another year and I'm still here. Glory be to God. Thank you Lord for another year. Good Night.

Good Morning

Good MOrning Lord. It has been a long morning. I have been up for quite some time. Lord, I know nothing is promised. Not even another day or another minute. I just want to praise you for all that you have done for me. For really making a way out of no way. For finding me when I was lost and loving me when you found me. Lord I just cant say enough about how you Love Me.My days seem short but when it comes down to it, I have no idea of the number so I have to live it as if this truly is the last day. Am I doing anything to please you Lord? Have I done something for the kingdom today? Is my worship for real? Can you touch my heart and find it to be true to you God? Sometimes the best way to prepare to receive something is to prepare for its loss.  Maybe I shouldnt be finding other options, but then again maybe I should. This job is not the only job in the world. I will put out some resumes and see what happens.

Have a blessed day and be a blessing to someone special.

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. Thank you for today. another day to worship you and to love you. Another day to show honor and praise to you. We must love one another and love you. What is the depth of our love and what is the quality of our service? That's what Tavis Smiley said today. Be Socratic and examine our life. How iwll we examine our life and our purpose and our service. Where are we today in Black America? Interesting questions. Interesting answers. How do we fill in that dash?

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. Thank you for today. another day to worship you and to love you. Another day to show honor and praise to you. We must love one another and love you. What is the depth of our love and what is the quality of our service? That's what Tavis Smiley said today. Be Socratic and examine our life. How iwll we examine our life and our purpose and our service. Where are we today in Black America? Interesting questions. Interesting answers. How do we fill in that dash?

Hello

I'm home.

It has been a long day

I have been in St Charles since Friday. I remember this as being the Andersen Center. Its a huge place. The conference was good. Young Adult LiteratureI have some good ideas that I can take back tow school. I am going to get a laptop soon. Then I can have access whenever and wherever.

I'm babysitting now so I will get back to you later but I just want to say hello because its been two days, but who's counting. Me.