Be strong

^{Joshua 1:7-9}

⁷ “Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go. ⁸ Keep this Book of the Law always on your lips; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. ⁹ Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.”

 Be encouraged, God keeps his promises. He is with me. I love you.

these United States of America

Attacks on americans overseas. I'm not surprised. 47 congressmen writing letters to foreign governments to show there is discontent at home and we don't respect him so why should you. I feel their move borders on treason. Infighting with each other is one thing but in foreign countries the usa must stand united. I spent too many years overseas in the navy to know how important it is to show a United front. I worked across from the embassy for 4 years in London. We received a letter bomb. This was the hostage crisis time. Iran and the the Middle East have bee a thorn in many sides. Now it's Syria. Now these idiots have shown weakness. Racism clouded their common sense. No telling how many Americans have now been placed in danger. Netanyahu has to accept the Palenstian state. Now he is triumphant cause he fixed the election.dear God touch his heart to do the right thing. I love you so much. You saved my life. If you never do another thing for me I will love you forever. I am here. I will do whatever you want me to do. I love you.

Second Chance

God has given me a second chance. I realize I want to have a husband. I need a companion, a friend, a lover. Someone who loves me. I am putting myself out there emotionally. I mean to say, I am ready and if you aren't, I will keep looking for someone else. 

I'm going to try to drive myself next week. I'm going to come in for my birthday. I meet a lot of people out here at the doctors office and hospitals. I have been in three hospitals since December. I don't have a lot of time and I am responsible for my own happiness. Now if you have moved on since the many years that you have proposed to me. You are faithful and energetic still, but I need someone who has time for me. I have been through hell. 

My faith is strengthen since God brought me through. I realized after researching the disease that I had 8 of the 18 symptoms. I never knew. G.E.R.D. What was to be a simple knee surgery has turned into life changing, learning curve, lifestyle, adjustments. I am in charge of my happiness. If God keep me quiet because I have felt jealous, then I will move on. My waiting for you might be in vain. You have many people who need you and I am in a needy position right now emotionally from my husband to be. I need to be together, see each other, comfort one oat her. I haven't found anyone because I kept waiting for you. I can't wait any longer. I am a creation of our Lord And Savior. I am meant to be happy. My happiness matter. I need a mate. I am looking for a husband.

This will be new ground for me, but I'm ready for the challenge. Can I find someone to love me before I leave this earth. Spiritually I am connected to you. I love you, but if this is not the right time for you then, I will move on to someone who has time for me. I was a caregiver for eight years. I teach urban city children in a town that the youth call Chiraq' , the idea of war is glamorous to them. Veterans and people out of the economic fray are in the front lines. 

I am a veteran of eight years overseas during the Iran hostage crisis. Our unit received a letter bomb even though I was in London, right across from the embassy. Life is unique. My life is different. Social status and anger is still paramount in how the youth act. It's always about respect. He didn't respect me. I haven't been in school since November but it is evident in my ten years that the parents are from the crack aged children who didn't care and did not mother and nurture their children who now have children. And don't know to mother them. Nurturing and discussion groups for them to share their thoughts are important. God is good. God is watching me. His eye is on the sparrow so I know he is watching me.

Truth Shall Set You Free

Truth is paramount in any good relationship. I am jealous of how you flirt so easily. I didn't know if I could handle it. I don't like be jealous but I don't want to play the fool again. Trust issues big time. You proposed to me years ago, once, in McMahon hall, down on one knee. That was never repeated again. 

I thank God I am still here, I was back in the hospital this week. 911 call and everything but this time the gastro doctor put a camera down my throat and fix what was mimicking a heart attck. Heart is good, valves and arteries clear even with history. God is good. I haven't felt this good in a long time. I'm truly still here so there is more for me to do. I love you.

God watches over the Sparrow, So I Know He Watches Me

God saved my life and if the reason is only to be with you then I'll take it. I will love you until the day I die and into eternity. It's you for me. I'm going to work hard on that because that seems to be what God wants me to do. My last reason for saying no was the heart disease. I knew I had it and knew that the women that you loved seemed to leave you early. Your mom and your sister. I knew there was a chance I might leave you early too. I want you you have a wife who can give you a long life. Find someone else. She can't love you more than I love you, but she can maybe stay on this Earth longer. I'm sickly and know it. If I return to work in November, with all the stress on that job it's impossible. I am praying for this workers compensation to take care of it. 

What if a man fell from one of those very tall ladders at work" first tore something in his knee that the surgeon repaired. Said At THAT TIME, I would need a knee replacement BECAUSE of the injury. At the aftermath of the third procedure on this injury the employee has a heart attack. How would you compensate them knowing the stressof the job can kill them. I need to be stress free now and I plan to. I had a supplemental retirement fund that had 16000 in it and I can get that because the CPS is not paying me after this month. But what happens after November? I am the bread winner. What do they do for a man with these types of injuries? Teachers don't think lawyer. I was layered with my fathers will and power of attorney at that time. Then I left for Hawaii for ten days. I don't know if  I told him about the fall at that time or not. I'll have to ask him. I'm so used to taking care of myself, but not anymore. My family has been lovely. The wait on me  at every turn. I love the for it.We were a track e school. I am only asking for what is right. What is mine. What God has for me is for me.

I had a workers compensation claim. I trusted my doctors who obviously don't have any idea about time constrictions when dealing with workers compensation claims. ASK and KNOW TIME LIMIT. 

SEE GOD wants me to trust him. Trusting God in the valley is hard. That's why Jesus cried tears at Getsemenee. This ain't fun and games its for real, it's life. Just think you could have received a call to officiate my funeral this week. God said you didn't need that and neither did I. I know God has plans for us. I love you.

John 3:16

I want you to be the lord and savior of my life. I want you lord in my life. I need you lord in my life. I wish you could get some special players like Mia Hamm or the winner of the Illinois volleyball girls high school and middle school to talk to the the girls. Have a wonderful spirit about the league and the competition. Have a ball/ dress up occasion where the girls have hand maid dresses, like the lady who makes the dancers clothes. Every girl have a white gown, they don't have to do the purity abs

Fence or anything like that unless they want to. All white gowns, have a dinner at the end where they get to dress up and be a princess.

 Let them wet somebody encouraging and positive who can offer suggestions and coaches. I love you for doing this.