Never Give Up

You have not given up on Peace, don't give up on Love. Don't give up hope. Have Faith and believe. I love you.

My Life

The love of my life is just as crazy as I am. The love of my life is amazing. He can solve so many problems. Why can't he solve this problem? When will this stop. I want to just talk. Just pick up the conversation right where we are. Just move on with the relationship. What do I say? How do I say it? I don't think that's as important as just saying something more than "how are you doing, that's fine, have a blessed day, I love you". I don't want to just wish and hope for it to happen. I want it to just happen.
I have to be brave and believe in myself. I don't know why I think something bad will happen. I think I know its more good than bad and possibly I don't think I deserve it. Maybe I'm thinking too much. I can truly be my own worse enemy. You would think I had done something horrible. I really haven't. I can see others receive good things and be happy for them, me I just think this is it. God has place the good before me and is waiting for me to grab hold and take what is mine. My blessing is out there. Glory be to God. I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me. The Lord is my Shepard, I shall not want. I love you and pray that you have not given up on me yet. I wouldn't blame you if you did though. This is just ridiculous. Be at Peace. Be Blessed.

Mistakes

Daniel 3:16-18

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¹⁶ Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego replied to him, “King Nebuchadnezzar, we do not need to defend ourselves before you in this matter. ¹⁷ If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God we serve is able to deliver us from it, and he will deliver us^[a] from Your Majesty’s hand. ¹⁸ But even if he does not, we want you to know, Your Majesty, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up.”

Praise the Most High and Holy God. Thank You Lord for your love and your faithfulness. How is it that I can make so many mistakes in this area? I didn't go on the Friday night walk. I am alternating my Fridays with my brother since he doesn't have a car now. He uses my mother's car through the week and mine on the weekends. So in order to help her reduce the use of her car I let him us mine. So every other Friday I will be walking so that I don't miss out completely on the Friday night walks. The Hunger Walk just totally got off my radar. Then the fact that  I was a reader. I had not received the schedule and I was totally unaware that I was reading. I might have known if I had picked up a bulletin the week before, but then of course, I wasn't at  church that Sunday. Wow. When things go awry they really go bad. It's like a snowball rolling down hill. So I have to put more into my attention to church activities. I'm working on the parish council report and plan to have it ready tonight. Now to top that off we have a problem with a bully at the school program for my grandson. I do not like the fact that the bully has be allowed to continue in the program. I'm going to document the events and I am pressing for a parent conference. I'm trying to handle it professionally, but if he persist, I will file a police report for harassment. He called him the "N" word. He's pushing and getting into people's space. He was encouraging other students to beat him up yesterday because he got into trouble. Either it changes today or I will take it to another level. I did not send him to this program to be bullied and to be put under emotional stress. He's 8 years old. He does not need to be stressed out with a bully wanting to beat him up. It can have physical effects as well as mental effects. I would pull him out but we paid 600 for the program and there is no refund, so something has to be done. They have three sites, they can send him to one of those other sites. OK enough venting on that subject. Now to remember that I can pray on it and ask God for an answer. No matter what, God is in the plan. I have to be open to hear the answer. I am available for what ever you need. You can ask anything of me and I will do my best to do it. I want to be honest all of the things going on in my life. I am a winner and I am not a loser. I see myself being a winner. I love you and hope that you have a blessed day to day.

God's Covenant Love

Psalm 40:10

I have not hid thy righteousness within my heart; I have declared thy faithfulness and thy salvation: I have not concealed thy lovingkindness and thy truth from the great congregation.

Thank You Lord for all of your love. I am so blessed. I am grateful for everything that  God has given me. The plans that God has for me are for me. I am looking back over my life and finding all the times where I messed up and God was there for me. I'm still here and that must mean I still have more to do. As I look back over my life I see good things too. God was there for that too. I know that this will be the same thing for me now. God will be there for everything in my life. I am ready for a change. Thank You Lord for being there. I love you. Thank You.

Avoiding the Fool

Proverbs 17-18
selected verses
Better a dry crust with peace and quiet than a house full of feasting with strife.
He who covers over an offense promotes love but whoever repeats the matter separates close friends.
A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones.

Thank you Lord for everything. I am thankful and grateful. I made it to the end of the school year. Today is the last day and I am going to finish out today with the best attitude I have possible. I have to thank you again for every opportunity that I have to interact with my love. We will draw closer and closer. It is my hope and my desire. God is good and he hears the prayers of his people. Have a blessed day today and be a true blessing to someone.

Thank You for Today

Thank You Lord for today. I am one day closer to the end of this school year. I am packing my stuff up and moving to a new room. I am apprehensive. I miss not talking to you. The gaps seem so long. Just fake it until we make it. It can happen. All things are possible. Believe that I have received the blessing. Thank God for his goodness. Keep getting up to bat. Whether you strike out or hit, keep getting up to the plate. Last class for the night time one. Thank You God. I'm just full of thank you  today. Thank You. I love you.

Today is Going to Be Great

Thank You Lord for today. We are united in our desire for a peaceful summer with all of our children. We will eliminate the gun violence in our city. We are united in this cause. Lord hear our prayers and know that we love you and want you to be with us. Your will is our will. I love you Lord and pray that we are close to your heart.

inner turmoil

Joel 2:12-14

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Rend Your Heart

¹² “Even now,” declares the Lord,
    “return to me with all your heart,
    with fasting and weeping and mourning.”

¹³ Rend your heart
    and not your garments.
Return to the Lord your God,
    for he is gracious and compassionate,
slow to anger and abounding in love,
    and he relents from sending calamity.
¹⁴ Who knows? He may turn and relent
    and leave behind a blessing—
grain offerings and drink offerings
    for the Lord your God.

I am so grateful to be here today. Thank You Lord for waking me up this morning. I am tired but here. Two more days and the end is near. Lord there is so much to ask for forgiveness. Lord, I am going to take the time to praise you for everything right and good in my life. The gifts that I have are important to me. Whatever I have has been supplied by God. I am grateful for everything. I couldn't do it without you. Forgive me and punish me for my sins. I will continue to praise you Lord. Its not about just listening to the worries but its about doing something to lessen the worries. We have troubles all around, but what are we doing about them?  I we don't act on our words then we are forever saying one thing and doing another. God is a God of action.  Today is a day of prayer and fasting. Do something different to receive different results.

Drawing Near to the End

Dear Lord, thank you for today. I am blessed to be here today. I will praise you and bless your holy name. I am thankful for all you have done for me. Today is graduation and I am pleased to finish that portion of the school year. Done. Over. Let's move on. Congratulations and everything else that goes with it.

Then I am blessed to be with my love in the evening. Possibly, if he is not called away for some other urgent business. Lord I want to be true to our relationship. Honest to both of us. I will do whatever is necessary to make this work. I do not deny, nor am I ashamed of loving him. We are better together than we are apart. There must be something more for us than this. I refuse to be the cause of our delay anymore.

 Please Father God, let us be successful and accomplish your will. We are not at all against you Lord. We want to work together. There is more ahead of us than behind us. We have a future together. I am speaking those things that are not here right now because I want to be successful and succeed in making a connection today. However small, some connection. Every time I am together with you, I want some connection with you. I believe in the power of our relationship.

I think God wants to bless us even more. I believe in the word of the Lord and I will not betray that word. Lord forgive me for my sins. Forgive me for everything that I have done in the past. I will begin again with a new relationship. I have hope and faith. I think God needs us to continue to build his kingdom here on earth. I will place an effort forward not to be silent. This is neither the time nor the place for love declarations. This is the formal meeting of our parish. I will stay focused on the task at hand. My role is to love you and keep the minutes. That is what I will do. I am always blessed when we are in the same space together. You make a difference in my life. Be blessed today. I love you.

Obedience to God's Will

 
Romans 12 12:3-8
For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the faith God has distributed to each of you. ⁴ For just as each of us has one body with many members, and these members do not all have the same function, ⁵ so in Christ we, though many, form one body, and each member belongs to all the others. ⁶ We have different gifts, according to the grace given to each of us. If your gift is prophesying, then prophesy in accordance with your^[a] faith; ⁷ if it is serving, then serve; if it is teaching, then teach; ⁸ if it is to encourage, then give encouragement; if it is giving, then give generously; if it is to lead,^[b] do it diligently; if it is to show mercy, do it cheerfully.


Thank You Lord for today. I will be obedient to your will today. I can only have one day at a time. This is the day. Today is the day that the Lord has given me. I will rejoice that I have one more day. My thoughts are to be obedient. The difficulties that I face are real. God has not abandoned me. I have to have faith in God and believe that the Lord wants nothing but what is best for me. It can be distressing sometimes because the frustration of not following through on the plans of  the Lord will keep me from my blessings. Lord cleanse me and know that I seek you out daily. Renew and refresh me. Remove all sin, Make me a vessel of your desire. Whatever I am here to do let me accomplish that goal. We all have different roles to fulfill in this lifetime. Let me fill my role and purpose. If I am to encourage, let me encourage you. If I am to love, let me love you. Let me do what I am suppose to do. Have a blessed day today. Be safe and know that you are loved very much.

Peace

 

2 Samuel 22:2-4

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² He said:

“The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer;
³     my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge,
    my shield^[a] and the horn^[b] of my salvation.
He is my stronghold, my refuge and my savior—
    from violent people you save me.

⁴ “I called to the Lord, who is worthy of praise,
    and have been saved from my enemies.

 

Thank You Lord for today. I pray for peace with our children. They are about to embark on the hardest part of their year. Spending time at home in the warmth of the sun. Lord occupy their time with good things. Allow them to see the good and not the constant evil. Help their families to help them and protect them. Keep them busy. Life is complicated but we can make a difference if we try. We have lived through many obstacles and found success. I was so blessed by our young singer yesterday. She has such a powerful voice. Spiritually she can reach inside and touch your heart with her music. She was a blessing. Thank You for always trying to bless the faith community. Your heart is in the right place. You are a blessing. I missed your touch. I need your touch. I am on countdown until we meet again. There is more to us than meets the eye. We must be successful. God has place this on me and has not let up one bit. I love you and pray that you are successful today in whatever you do.

We Are Closer

Luke 22:43-44

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⁴³ An angel from heaven appeared to him and strengthened him. ⁴⁴ And being in anguish, he prayed more earnestly, and his sweat was like drops of blood falling to the ground.

Thank You Lord for today. Thank You Lord for yesterday too. I am so encouraged. I haven't been this encouraged in a long time. Anticipation for the future. I am excited. Things are looking up. I pray that I stay on point. You are doing a wonderful job. You need to be married. I think that would be the best thing for you. A new adventure. I look forward to sharing that adventure with you one day. We don't have forever and a day. We have to be diligent and persevere. There is no turning back, we have to press forward. I am excited about the future. I drove home excited. There was a change in me when I got home. My daughter said, what happened to you? I wasn't my usual tired, grumpy self after a long day. I was smiling and thinking of you. I know its coming this time. I know its closer than I think. I'm just praying for strength and fortitude. Keep me focused on the end result. Let's end this school year and say goodbye to this school year. There is so much to do in that classroom, but I have lots of students to help. It will be done. There is more in my future. God willing, I am strengthen to move forward. The anticipation is rejuvenating. Its like Christmas when you are a child. You know its coming. You know you will get something good. You know its going to be the best day of your life. It just seems to be taking forever to get here, but you know its coming. I know we are going to make it this time. I love you very much. Have a blessed day today. Be a blessing to someone who needs a blessing.

Do Not Offend God

Exodus 20:3

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³ “You shall have no other gods before^[a] me.

 

Psalm 37:4

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⁴ Take delight in the Lord,
    and he will give you the desires of your heart

Thank You

Psalm 50:23
He who sacrifices thank offerings honors me, and he prepares the way so that I may show him the salvation of God.

Thank You Lord for today. Thank you for everything that you have done in my life. I know its not perfect but its better than it could be. You have kept many things away from me that I don't even know about. My life is in your hands. I need you Lord. You are worthy to be praised. I love you and honor you. We are going to get this together so that you can continue to build your kingdom. You are an awesome God. You amaze me daily. There truly is none like you. Your uniqueness keeps me in awe. Thank You for your blessings today Lord. I will keep my mind on you and remember that all I have is because of you. Thank You Lord. I love you and need you. Have a blessed day today.

Pleasing God

Galatians 1:10

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10 Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ.


 Thank You Lord for today. I am grateful for all that you do in my life. I am blessed that today I can reach out to you  this morning. My heart and my mind are with you. I want to be closer to you. I want to stop, stay, talk, listen, explain, comfort, and just be there. Man does not determine my destiny. Fake it until you can make it.  Its not easy but it can be done. There are many things that can keep me in the Lord. I never want to leave you. When we are together, time just goes. This is my long day. 7:30 am meeting, class until 9pm. Just show up and the rest will take care of itself. Have a blessed day today. You are a blessing to me. Our community recognizes that you are a blessing as well. I know your heart is heavy because of the escalation of violence. WE will never stop talking about it. We will not think of it as the norm. Change is possible. It happened before, it can happen again. Faith in the good works. Faith that we will make a difference. Faith that God is for us and not against us. I love you very much and I never want to hurt or disappoint you. I am forced to realize that each day apart is doing just that for both of us. Our relationship is important to me and I will do what needs to be done to make it better. We will not fail. It can be done. We are servants of Christ and we seek the approval of God.

Life Gets in the Way

I am so thankful that I went to church today. My internet has been down since Friday and doesn't look like it will be up again until Monday or Tuesday. Just one more little thing to get under my skin, but I will not be dismayed. I'm at the library because I needed to get online. We are so dependent on the internet now. Our home phone is affected too. What the heck. Who knows what the problem is. It might be some critters eating the line outside.  The fact  that Comcast couldnt come for five days does not instill confidence in me.  Iknow we have more to do. I was inspired to just keep talking. I know you think i had such a bad experience i dont want another but i dont think it will bad with you. i think it will be great. I think we will work through wht ever we need to and find tht we are the best for each other. So why hven't I moved us along/ further to the purpose that we were meant to be? Good question, now it needs a good answer. It will happen. Soon, very soon. I love you and pray for us daily. Pray for my internet and phone. Its one thing when you haven't paid the bill and its off, but when you have and its their fault and not yours, its frustrating. So in the morning I won't be there. I will be thinking of you though.