Monday, March 31, 2008

No man is an Island

I am not an island unto myself. I cannot shut you out. I cannot exist in this world with out affecting you. You cannot do anything with out affecting me. We are joined together by God but held together by each other.  The only way we can grow up is to grow together. We must learn to walk in love. We have to teach each other what that is. We cannot say well I know how to do but you dont so too bad. We are a part of each other. We need each other to survive. We cannot survive when there is division and isolation. We must encourage each other to care and to know that we can only survive if we survive together. We must learn to walk in love.

I ask God to tell me what to say. I feel as if I have exhausted all the one way conversation that I have in me. I dont know what to say anymore. I ask God what to say and nothing came so I said nothing. Now I speak. I spent more quiet time with God and I am working on the unity of faith. All of our work must be for the edifying of the Lord. We have to grow together and when one is not growing the we have to help them until they can grow. We dont get to move on without them.We dont hurt someone just because we are hurting. We help them, we love them and we dont let them go. We allow someone to love us so that we can know love and be loved. We first must love ourselves. To love ourselves we must know ourselves. Through our relationship with God we grow more in the knowledge of ourselves. I continue daily to work on my relationship with the Lord. I love the Lord. I feel like my plate is overloaded with the things that need to be done in my life. Im pulled every which way but loose.

Friday, March 28, 2008

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. Thank You for another day. I move through this problem centered world with as much grace as I can call upon. My problems/challenges are limited to my perspective. Lord, I have so much to do at work. I am just trying to keep it in perspective. I pray that I am not just putting band-aids on things that really need a long term solution. Am I looking at the problem the wrong way.  Help me see vision in these projects and allow me to determine and decide what my responsibility and contribution will be for all of the demands I are responsible for. To the Saints who are also faithful in Christ Jesus our ultimate goal is to overcome and adversity and confusion and to be united. I want to get this research paper, lesson plan and unit plan defined and printed today. I have been thinking, redesigning, discussing and just plain working on it for way too long. I want to put it in writing today and give it to the people who need it, today. By geting this portion done today I will feel more whole and less broken. That's what I need to do. Prioritize. That one paper, in the 8th grade hands, for their parents will make my day.

Thank you Lord for today anyway. No matter what. At first I was going to have to bring the little man and now I dont so I get to stay in the city and get there on time to get a good seat. Praise the Lord. Some things do actually work together (without me asking anything to anyone) for the good of them that love the Lord. Be blessed today and be a blessing to someone. Make a much needed connection. Let your heart rule over your mind today. Jesus really does love you and so do I.  

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Good Morning

Hello and God bless

To blessed to be stressed

I'm blessed and highly favored

I will walk down the road of positive affirmations today. I will be gracious and loving.

I will speak words to build up and not tear down. Encouraging the mind, body and spirit.

I will be the change that I want to see in my students, family and friends.

Be blessed today and be a blessing to someone. I love you.

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Good Night

Thank You God for letting me hear your voice. You said stay and I will stay. You said to be planted and not uproot my life. You want me to stay and I will stay. I trust the Lord to be true and faithful to me. So I stay and I plant myself firmly, right here.  I stay in love and work towards a true and uplifting relationship. God bless you and I love you. Good Night.

Monday, March 24, 2008

Happy Birthday to Me

It is my 50th.

I let it come in quiet.

No fanfare, no big deal at work. I didnt even tell anyone, not even my students.

We had a meeting until almost 5pm.

I;m blessed to be here and to know that my day is filled with stuff. Im tired. I had a full day,  Be blessed today.,

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Happy Easter

 

Thank You Lord for 'Resurrection Sunday!

Thank You Lord for coming our of that grave. Thank You Lord for saving us. Thank You Lord for loving us when we did not love ourselves.

I appreciate you, I don't take you for granted. I know your worth and the price you paid for me. I acknowledge the sacrifice made for me. I am grateful. I am faithful. I wont change my mind.  I will stay the course. I wont get distracted.

Friday, March 21, 2008

Father God

Father God, I ask you to tell me what to say tonight.

I wont be at the seven last words event tonight.

I wan to touch the heart of the man I love.

Love is on my mind and maybe that is why this message has come to the front of my mind. I said that I wanted something to say about the Rev Wright thing but you chose not to respond, I wanted something to say about the fact that I missed the Trinity fourth word that my darling had today, but you chose to send me to the message that was important for him. My heart wants to connect with him tonight. I love how he plays when he plays. We overcame the bat thing last night and he was able to play and put the baby to sleep. I love how he plays.

What did you send me to today, compatibility in marriage. I pray and confess that my spouse and I endure long and are patient and kind, that we are never envious aNd never boil over with jealousy. We are not boastful and vainglorious and we do not display ourselves haughtily.

I want us to be there for each other. I will not be there tonight. My babysitting days are Thursday, Friday and Sunday. I am not going to bring him out tonight. The weather is a big factor. I love him. I want to see him tonight. I will listen tonight. I wish I could see him, but who knows when actual video will be available. I watched Trinity today. I love him. I love him, I love him.

I will bear up anything and everything that comes my way. I am ready to believe in the best that can be of the two of us. I LOVE THE IDEA OF THE TWO OF US. BE BLESSED AND BE A BLESSING DEDICATED TO THE TWO OF US. I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU.

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Holy Thursday

Walking in humility. Father you give grace to the humble. I humble myself to you. In the name of Jesus I cast all of my cares and worries to you. Father God I hide your word in my heart.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Living a Life of Purity

Father God I submit to your way and your will for my life. Your ways are higher than my ways. Your thoughts are higher than my thoughts. I commit my ways to you and your will will cause my thoughts to line up with your will and there will be harmony with us. My plans will be your plans and there will be success. I am your handmaiden, ready to submit to your will. Your will becomes my will. Together we are established in the Lord and the Lord's will flows through me. I strip off anything that holds me back and holds me down. I trust and take refuge in you Lord. I trust and take refuge in you Lord. Good Night.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Good Evening

What a wonderful day.

It started early, the baby came home today. We were excited and elated to have a baby i the house again. Then I had to go pick up his mommy. Then go to the building to check on the repairs so that it is ready for inspection tomorrow morning. I will be so glad when the inspection is over and we can move on to the next dilemma.

I have to get my middle school children ready for a science project to last for 5 weeks then we are going to go on a lot of field trips. Our school is planning on going to track e so we will head back July 30th. I hope its not too hot a summer this year. I will be on the third floor of the oldest building I have ever been in with no air conditioning. Oh well.

Be blessed and be a blessing. Gotta Go.

Monday, March 17, 2008

Happy St Paddy's Day

Hello Darling

Yes I a speaking words of love and encouragement. I'm not bipolar or manic I'm just constantly trying to adjust to a truly different situation.

I hear from you, wait, not yet, I still have so much to do. When I just get this done, then its time for me and you baby. In the mean time just wait. Get involved, do something to get your mind off of the waiting. I'll be ready for you soon. I have some things that need to be done and I have to do them first. Fine, OK. Let it happen. I don't want to rush things before they are ready.

Its just that sometimes...sometimes...sometimes...I miss the look from your eyes. the touch of your hand, the sound of your voice, just being in the same room with you. That's when I know that there's more to this than meets the eye. God said it, so I know it will happen as some point. It taint me, its you. I'm waiting.

Be blessed and have a good night.

Sunday, March 16, 2008

Good Night

 I am working to be better in my attitude and my oneness with God. I will treat  my mind and my body as a temple for the Holy Spirit.

I will not take anything for granted. Nothing is lost, over or destroyed. I will hold out for the blessing. I am a single believer. I am trusting God to unite me with my destiny. I choose to let God to guide me to my mate. I will stay single until God's Divine hookup for me occurs. God will join two people together and there will not be any doubt that this is ordained by God. God will guide my words and my actions. God will make sure that I am flexible, able to build up and encourage when its necessary, able to understand and compromise for someone else. Not hindering but enhancing and uplifting., Loving the right person. The right person to recognize the anointing and grace on our lives. What God has joined together no man can pull apart. People who can encourage each other and respect each other. We are a new creature, renewed in God's Love and wisdom.

Be blessed tonight and be a blessing to someone. You have an anointing on your life and I understand that you have a wonderful gift. Don't be upset with me because I have not been able to understand what it is exactly that God wants me to do with you. I don't need validation, I just need understanding, I just want to do what God wants me to do and to do it well.  Good Night.

Wounds in the Spirit

 

Deep down we are wounded but the Lord our God knows our hurt and will not give up on us.

We have to keep the thoughts of our selves and our lives on a positive encouraging note, no matter what we may feel like doing.

Where I am is not where I am going to end up.

Its not what I am right now but what I can become.

When life seems unjust and unfair I know that one has come before me who suffered the ultimate injustice. Jesus did that for me. To save me. Because He loves me so I will do what I can do to make him proud of me. I want to do God's will. I may not know it at the time but I do believe that God is with me in everything I do. I invite Him in and I expect Him to stay.  Thank You Father God for loving me, Thank You,. Forgive me and restore me.

Friday, March 14, 2008

Spring Break

I worry about this time for many of my students. Most of them are left to do what ever they want to do. They don't have any one telling them when to be in, when to get up and what to do during their waking hours.

Even when we have activities for them to do, a parent has to sign them up and they have to take them to the activity. For many of my students the parents don't do that. They are left to their own devices. I almost hopes that it rains for the week just so they are not outside and into trouble.

I am so ready for these next nine days. I am always ready to believe the best of you. I believe in you and I believe that you  speak the truth always.

How are you. I miss you. I find that I don't know what to say to you anymore.  How did the rally go today?

Have a good evening. Good Night.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Good Night

I couldnt let another day go by without writing. I have had two very long days and I knew I needed to write

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Monday, March 10, 2008

Good Morning

Good Morning

Thank You God for another day. Thank you for protecting me along this journey. I dont know all of the things that you have kept from me but I thank you because I know that you have protected me out of love.

I continue to wait on the Lord. I continue to wait, just as Job waited. His book has 42 chapters and I feel right now that its at chapter 30. Over the hump, cant go back because I have come to far now, cant see the light at the end of the tunnel because its still a long ways off, but I can keep going. Taking baby steps , running in the dark and still not seeming to get anywhere, but I just keep walking forward.

Therefore in the name of Jesus I take authority over the spirit of fear, and terror that is planned I rebuke it in the name of Jesus. God did not give us a spirit of fear but of power and love and of calm and of well balanced mind and discipline and self control. Wait we must, then wait we shall. We shall be content in our waiting.  

 Romans 8:31

What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? 32He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? 33Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen

Saturday, March 8, 2008

My Weight

 

Today I went to Weight Watchers and found my challenge.

I woke up this morning, took my vitamins, ate a slimfast bar and had some water to accompany it. Went to the meeting and found out that I had forgotten to get the registration when I signed up on line. Tried to get the registration number on my fancy new blackberry pearl that I have to pay extra for internet but have never used and I couldnt do it.

Found out how to count the points with my new calculator and then left and went to get a double cheeseburger, small fries and large sweet tea.

After that I ate a salad with cucumbers, one egg, and 3oz of chicken strips. Only two tablespoons of dressing and a small bowl of fruit. I had an apple and then another small piece of chicken breast. That truly was all that I have eaten today. I will travel this journey with my diary. I exercised today and will do so each and every day. This will also be my food journal. I have to make a sincere and truthful effort to record my food every day. I will lose weight and I will be successful. I have never joined any type of weight loss club before so this will be a first. I have heard of so many good successes with weight watchers that I am sure I will be successful. I went and brought lots of fruits and veggies. Wait til the summer, there will be a new me and I will be a lot smaller, back to where I was in 2000. I have to take time for me. I have to get ready for tomorrow. I'm reading tomorrow. I have a final to finish for class on Wednesday and I have two more days of testing with my children, I have to plan for the down time. I think I am going to take a professinal development during the summer for three weeks. I need some time away. I havent finished the application but I am seriously considering it. This next week cant go quick enough. Then we have spring break. I cant wait for that week to come. I am excited about this week to come to a close.

Bill Foster won. Yeah.

Maybe this is a sign of things to come. I pray that it will do something good for the people.

Be Blessed tonight. Be a blessing. Set your clock ahead. Spring ahead, fall back.

Good Morning

Good Morning

Thank You for a nice evening.

I did manage to get a ticket.

I have to get ready for my Weight Watchers meeting.

This is my first Saturday. I pray that it will be most effective and that I can stay true.

I'm excited about joining and I look forward to further advances in taking care of my health.

Be blessed and be a blessing today.

Thursday, March 6, 2008

The Race

Its interesting that now Hill is commenting that she would share the ticket with Barack. Only she wants the top spot. Would she still share it if he is the top spot? Would Barack

The problem now is that disgruntled Republicans who cant see their vote counting in the primary now want to vote democratic and vote for either Hill or Barack. Most are voting for Hill because Barack is a very formidable candidate. Then there are the independents who will throw their hat in the race at the last minute to further tear down the democratic side. Dems need to look more unified and less divided. If this doesnt happen then our overconfidence will result in the Republicans stealing another election. God forbid we have another four years. I pray that that doesnt happen.

I'm tired. good night.

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord

Thank You for today. Thank You for waking me up this morning.

Keep me safe and under your umbrella of protectection.

Keep me focused and on task.

Lord help my students to remember the right answers on their exams this week and next week. Give them peace of mind.  Let whatever gang wars that are going on in the community stop. There should not be shooting in the morning when children or anyone for that matter is on their way to school or work.Keep us safe in our living and working community.

That's why we need a president who is concerned about what is going on in the urban city. There is so much that has to happen before the final nomination in the summer. Before that happens there's going to be a lot of mudslinging. Obama has got to show he is tough. He has yet to win any big state. Hill goes in and touches their heart with fear and those folks just fall over. She is working on the fear factor. Barack must come across as more confident and assertive. He has got to get his swagger going on. I'll pray for swagger and more confidence for him. I believe this battle is going to be won behind closed doors. The people ar divided and that probably won't change. Let pray for a big turnaround.

Good day today. Have a wonderful day, stay in the presence of God.

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

Get Involved

I'm feeling what you're saying. You are concerned that I am feeling unloved and neglected and you want to change that.  You suggest that I be patient because the best is yet to come. Find a hobby, find a cause to work for, get involved in ministery again and let the time just fly by.

OK

I can say that because I know that You are sincere in wanting me to be mentally healthy. You want me to be content and occupied.  I am nurtured and encouraged and supported.

I am walking the walk of courage right there. I have someone who is encouraging me. Praise the Lord. God Knows That Is Important to me. You can do it. I have always been the one encouraging, supporting and uplifting. Not that I will stop but it feels good to know someone thinks you can do, you can make it, you can succeed. Thank You for that., I don't take it for granted. I have very few people in my life that are encouraging to me. I am usually the one doing the encouraging. Thank You. More tomorrow, for tonight I just want to encourage you to stay strong. You are doing a good job. You have what it takes to be an over comer in whatever situation you are faced with.

Be blessed and be a blessing to someone special, as you have been to me. I love you.

Monday, March 3, 2008

I ask in Faith

Dont give up

You are amazing. You keep encouraging me to believe in the journey. You believe I can do this.  I believe you have Godly Wisdom in ths matter.

I ask in faith to keep me from wavering, to fill me with the knowledge of God's will and wisdom and understanding. I will incline my ear and my heart to understanding so that I might receive freely God's wisdom and instruction.

I want to get it right. I want to be successful. My heart and my mind want this. My voice will be heard. I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me.

Be blessed tonight and be a blessing to someone special.

 

Proverbs 2 Moral Benefits of Wisdom

 1 My son, if you accept my words
       and store up my commands within you,

 2 turning your ear to wisdom
       and applying your heart to understanding,

 3 and if you call out for insight
       and cry aloud for understanding,

 4 and if you look for it as for silver
       and search for it as for hidden treasure,

 5 then you will understand the fear of the LORD
       and find the knowledge of God.

 6 For the LORD gives wisdom,
       and from his mouth come knowledge and understanding

Sunday, March 2, 2008

How Much Longer

Dear God

How much longer do I have to wait? Am I waiting in vain?

I'm sorry Lord that I am finding the journey extremely challenging and disheartening. I want more and I am not able to have what I want.

I'm here, I am alive, and I know that I want this to happen now. Now is important. Tomorrow is not promised and I should be actively involved with today.

I know that I love you and don't want to hurt you. I don't want to lose you to foolishness.  I don't want to continue with this not talking, not recognizing and not being together. Help me help myself. I don't want to lose you I want to love you.

I said I would go to a doctor and I did go to a few. I went to the eye and got new contacts, I went to derm and got a new skin cream and a mole over my eye removed, I went to the allergist and got a new prescription for my allergies. But I didn't call the psych doc yet. I plan to do that this week. I will not give up and not be defeated, I know that the journey is hard and long. I don't kid myself about the constant challenge.

What are you kidding your self about? Can we love each other and make this work, tell me that we can. I love you.

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