Pray with Power and See Results

We are data driven. Results are the answer. We need to see good results. Improvement must be the most dynamic thing going.

I am coming into a bad situation and I am expected to turn it around.  Pray with power. Let the power of the Lord guide my day. My plans, my instruction and my travel times.

Father God says that he knows the thoughts and plans that He has for me. Plans for my welfare and plans for peace. Nothing to harm me. Only to give me hope for my final outcome and destination.

God says that I must seek Him, inquire for Him, require that He is a part of my life. Demand that His presence never leave me. I will find Him when I search for Him with all my heart. My heart longs for Him.

One Thing

Father God help me to set my priorities today.

Remind me of what is important today.

Keep me focused on that all important one thing.

Father God today is Principal for a Day. We will have visitors who will come and be impressed, or not. As principal I wonder if they plan on cursing at the students and teachers too?

Lord I take comfort in and are encouraged by the fact that I can say boldly "The Lord is my Helper and my Strength, in whom shall I fear, I will not be seized with alarm nor will I fear, dread or be terrified by what man can or cannot do. I mean really what can man do that God cannot do?" Nothing. If God be for it then who can be against it? I shall meditate on the word of God both day and night.

Father God I know that untrue rumors are circulating about me at this school, I have been talked about and my reputation is being attacked but the devil is a liar and the truth shall prevail. I walk with my head held high and I know the truth. Thank You God for your grace.

Be blessed today and be a blessing to someone.

Disillusion

I swear this school is crazy. Right down from the principal to the students. I have never worked in a place like this. I have been in the military, worked at a mental health facility, worked in two hospitals, many different schools in the worst job as a substitute teacher and now the seemingly worst job in the world, a teacher. I swear if I hear one more person say I take my hat of to you, I commend you for what you do, you have the toughest job in the world...O my goodness, I think I'll scream.

One thing for sure, this school will keep me on my toes. Everything is data driven. Everything is No Child Left Behind. Enough, enough, enough.

I just want to work. I think they are treating me like they do the children. Don't be nice until the end of March. Such is my life right now.

When I Saw You

My Ode, My Poem, My Ponderings

When I Saw You

When I saw you I thought

Why had we not done something scandalous

You and I need to be on the front pages of some newspaper

My heart is heavy and my mind drifts to thoughts of us making the news

There are no scandalous pictures

There are no memories of us entwined together in love

There are not moments where the photos were taken through an open window

We have not engaged in the act that so easily entangles us

We are walking the narrow path

We are living in a bubble, not causing the other to be disgraced

Why cant I have memories of us being indiscreet?

Whispering sweet nothings in the night that are momentary and transient?

Why is it that we have not one affair between us to be quiet about?

Not one indiscretion that I long to dream about? Not one moment where we were living in the flesh and not being rational?

I want an answer.

If God be for us then who can be against us?

God is for us and we know who is against us.

Good night my love and have a restful sleep.

Knowing God's Will

Thank you Father God for instructing me in the way I should go. Thank you for guiding me with your eyes. I look at my life through your eyes Lord. I thank you for guiding me, leading me down the path, and walking with me. You keep me on the right path. I long to hear your voice and your guidance. You lead me in the path of righteousness. My future is brighter because of you. My path becomes clearer each and every day. Thank you Father God for your wisdom. I am not confused about my life. I trust you, I love you.

Romans 8:27-32

27And he that searcheth the hearts knoweth what is the mind of the Spirit, because he maketh intercession for the saints according to the will of God.

 28And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.

29 For whom he did foreknow, he also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brethren.

 30Moreover whom he did predestinate, them he also called: and whom he called, them he also justified: and whom he justified, them he also glorified.

 31What shall we then say to these things? If God be for us, who can be against us?

 32He that spared not his own Son, but delivered him up for us all, how shall he not with him also freely give us all things?

Let Us Study War No More

I do love flowers. Please send me flowers every chance you get. I love the color and I am really excited about the smell of flowers. Roses are just lovely. I love flowers.

Giving Offerings

Father God I give offerings according to the Holy Spirit. I give with a generous and willing heart. Lord, I know that he who sows sparingly and grudgingly will also reap sparingly and grudgingly and he who sows bountifully will also reap bountifully.

As a giver I make up my own mind and I give purpose in my heart that I shall not be reluctant to give, I will not do it under impulse or compulsion but I will take pleasure in giving and do it with a joyful heart. I love, I prize in it about other things, I am unwilling to abandon or to do without the ability to give.

Father God I thank you that you are able to give every favor and earthly blessing to me in abundance. I know that all my needs are met. Under all circumstances and whatever the need is, I possess enough grace to not require any additional aid, support or donation.

Father God I thank you for food, clothing and shelter. Christ Jesus I will not be anxious for anything. I will not worry about what I shall drink, eat or where I will lay my head. Together Lord we will survive in abundance and quality.

I will not rest in idleness. I will declare your authority in my life through the Word. Father God I will not eat the bread of gossip, discontent and self-pity. I will give generously and life with your purpose in my heart and out of my mouth. I will conduct my affairs with justice and when I lack wisdom, I will seek you Father God. You will guide and give wisdom in my darkest hour. I delight in your Word and your Will.

Be blessed today my love and be courageous. God Loves You and So Do I.

Relevant

That was our word of the week. Relevant. Today was a very relevant day towards my general well being. We went to the AFC theatre and saw OZ.

The students loved it. My morning was very effortless. We were back by 12:30. Children went to lunch then a prep. I was able to have my lunch then have my class come back. That's when the fun began.

The students were crabby. Not all of them went to the play. There were two confrontation that almost lead to fights. All of this in just 40 minutes of time. I believe their diet is the biggest problem.

During lunch and prep they just sugar up and keep going for a good hour. By the time I see them for the last period they are bouncing off the walls. I deflated the bounce. Got them quiet and went on about the business of keeping them quiet.

Then on the way home, which I think I am doing good to leave by PM, I find out that the expressway is one hour and 48 minutes. This is at PM mind you. What the heck happened that would cause this kind of problem at PM? I decided to take a different route.

This is Friday so I have to baby sit. I pick him up from her job. Today I forgot my phone at home so I didn't get the message that he was at home with grandma and not at the job so I go to the job, then I go home. Its still 5:30 when I walk in the house.

 I spend so much time in that car. Traveling alone takes up so much time. Now I find out I have training in the morning from 8-noon. I had signed up for the bus but I will not be able to ride it. I didn't want to drive but I guess I will have to now.

Now is the time to just relax. Just not even think about school. Have a blessed evening and be a blessing to someone.

" Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ loved the church and handed himself over for her. . ." (Eph 5:25 NAB)

 

 

Glory Glory Glory

 

Thank you Father God for your blessings. I have awaken to a beautiful morning. Its beautiful because I am alive and well one more day. I can get out of bed by myself, I can dress myself and I can have the presence of mind to drive myself somewhere today to learn. Learning is a lifelong process.

I worship and adore you Lord. I bow my head before you today and everyday. Lord I trust you with the plans of my life. I do not grow weary nor do I seem to be able to slumber about the plans that you have for me. I have a fire in my belly that is roaring.

I am not disappointed that my expectations have not been met. Lord God I am ready to love another person unconditionally. I love for the first time. True love and commitment.

Father God my uneasiness and weariness from continual waiting and disappointing expectations will not discourage me. I shall wait upon the Lord and the Lord shall renew my strength. I will find rest for my soul with the Lord. Lord with your strength and the Song in my heart you have become my Salvation in times of trouble and despair.

 Lord I believe you will instruct my tongue to know the words that will sustain me. You will allow my ears to hear what is being taught and to keep in my spirit what is right according to your word. You are the refuge and shield of my life. I will reap a harvest in the end if I just continue to press forward and not give up.

I am in Lisle today.  A classroom management workshop. I am going to get it right. I will have success with this obstacle.

I pray that your day is blessed and highly favored today.

Testing of Your Faith

2 Count it all joy, my brothers, [1] when you meettrials of various kinds, 3 for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. 4 And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. I am praying for a new creation in marriage. I pray that I am able to submit myself and adapt myself to my husband. I pray that I am able to respect and reverence my husband. I pray that I will notice him, regard him, honor him, prefer him, venerate and esteem, him and that I will defer to his ideas, I will praise him, and I will love him and admire him exceedingly. The heart of my husband can trust in me confidently and rely on and believe in me safely, so that he has no lack of honest gain or need of dishonest spoil. I will comfort, encourage and do him only good as long as there is life within me.

Wow, that prayer was from a book of prayers and it speaks to my heart and my intentions. I seek counsel from my husband. He will be my strength, my hiding place, my high tower, my intercessor. We will stand together, side by side as we minister life, love, healing, soundness and wholeness to those God sends our way. We will stand together as one before the Body of Christ.

Be blessed today and be a blessing to someone.

I Have Chosen Well

My group is better. I didn't yell and I didn't curse. I found the groups more agreeable and less agreeable. After lunch and their prep they have sugared up so much that they are just crazy. I will change my style and concentrate on management. My class room management is my number one goal. I want to see improvement and I want to see it now. I will do it on my terms. Something I can live with and and find solace in. I know that I will grow from this experience, no matter what happens.

God said I could call upon his name and he would hear me. I prayed and prayed and prayed. I can call because I believe in Him who is the great I am. I can call  because I have heard him and know that he is the Lord of Everything. I thank the Lord daily. I thank the Lord that I came to my senses and realized that this is not going to kill me and that I can concentrate on classroom management. I need it, I have been lacking in this area for the past three years. I am ready to face it head on and improve. Do what needs to be done and move forward.

I want to move forward with you. I want to concentrate on you. I want you to be the focus of my year, my week, my life. I don't give God a back seat, He is always on the front, far above everything., But you are next. In competition with Austin. But you are still ahead. That's where I want my focus to be. On you. I love you and I want you. I want us to be together and I don't want to let it die or just disappear. That's just how I feel about it.

Be blessed tonight and be a blessing.

Romans 10:13 For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved. 14 How then shall they call on him in whom they have not believed? and how shall they believe in him of whom they have not heard? and how shall they hear without a preacher?

Good Night

I will try and not hit the snooze button in the morning. I'll try.

Lord you are my Strength and my Song.

You are my Light and My Salvation.

Lord you are the Refuge and Stronghold of my life.

You are a Shield for me, You are the Lifter Up of my head.

You are my Rock, I will praise you with my whole heart.

My whole heart is for you. I will praise you with my whole heart.

Father God your grace is sufficient for me. I will not grow weary, nor will I lose heart. I will not give up. I will stay strong in the Lord. I love the Lord, he heard my cry. I am weary but my soul is renewed. Good Night and God bless.

My soul weeps because of grief; Strengthen me according to Your word.

GOD'S WORD® Translation (©1995)
I am drowning in tears. Strengthen me as you promised.

King James Bible
My soul melteth for heaviness: strengthen thou me according unto thy word.

I am a Child of The Most High God

Thank You, thank you, thank you my love.

you never disappoint me.

I have figured out your messages to me. Somewhat figured them out anyway.

Some days you are in love and your message is just about how much you love. You haven't talked that way in a while but I still remember. How you need a message a day, its like taking your meds or your vitamins. How you cant wait to be married and the weeding dress better be a tear away style. How cute, does Vera Wang make those.

Other times you are the tough type. Grow up, stop letting Satan use you as a punching bag. You are not his whipping boy. Get your act together and stop being a punk.

Then there's the message like today. Yes, I know you have pain and you have a problem but remember God is with you. You are a child of the most high God and you are worth more than that. No one can bring you where you don't want to go. These problems are real and the consequences are real also.

I will not lower myself to their level and curse at the students, but I will work on my management skills for the classroom. I will do what I need to do to improve my techniques. I am not just going to stay the same.

Thank God for Professional Development. I have another Science one tomorrow for the sixth grade. When I go in on Tuesday I will make some changes. I still have to go back on Monday for a meeting after school for the new reading program. I really do like this school. Its better than the other ones but still no where near the suburban schools have here been in.  Its still no where near the caliber of the suburban schools. I will attend the PD on Thursday. I have paid for it, I will submit my paid receipt and see how long it takes for them to reimburse me. This week will be good. I am in the classroom Tuesday and Wednesday, PD on Thursday and Monday, Back in on Friday but we are suppose to have a field trip to the AFC Theatre. Lets see if that happens. They never want to let the upper children do anything. I heard the field trips for the upper children was two years ago. I know they dont want me to take them but I will take twenty if thats all that they allow to go. My total number of students is 134 students, give or take ten here and there. Then they wonder why the children act the way they do. They constantly promise the older children something and then back away by saying their behavior. How do you expect them to know how to act if you never all them the chance to experience anything. Most of them have never been anywhere outside of the four square blocks that surround their home.

Enough about them, I have a day off from the school tomorrow and I plan to enjoy it. I will always remember that life can be a lot worse than it is right now and that my problems are small and minute to others who have to wonder what they will eat tonight, where they will sleep and who will love them.

Always remember to love like you have never been hurt before. That is what I will remember.

Be blessed tonight and be a blessing to someone.

God Is So Amazing

God is so amazing.

I was wondering what the early morning reading was about and of course it was designed to be my warning. My prediction of my day to come. Your job will be challenged.

God knew that I would be challenged with the things that I met today. First, I was given my "debrief" of the observations. My management skills are lacking for this school. I have been told to curse at the students. Yes, curse. Now I was a sailor and even now I can still have a potty mouth but to be told to curse at the students to get their cooperation is just a little too much for me. That's what they do. From the principal down to the lowest assistant, curse at the students. They tell me this is the only thing that they know and that they will respond to. I know I have a problem with classroom management. I asked for a lower grade but in the CPS system, especially at inner city schools, the lower grades are generally given to the white teachers. There has never been a white teacher in the upper grades, not in the three schools I have been to, anyway. We did have a white teacher who taught sixth grade but that's as far as they went. So all the new teachers are assigned to the upper grades who are totally unruly. None of this is provable. I would love to have access to "CPS" records to just run the race of teachers in the K-2 level. Especially in the inner city, what would it be? Racism is on the rise,not the decline. We have no assistance in the upper grades. I know about racism at home as well as at work. We have had dead animals thrown on our porch, and a dead animal under our deck. Eggs were thrown at our garage, right after we painted it. Someone broke into our storage unit leading into the house. All of this was just given to pranks. All of these things are done by ignorant people. I don't let them know that they have gotten to me. I have been black all my life and have had racism all my life. Every day is a problem. My home, my job and my spiritual life, all of them have been problems with racism.

Now I have the workplace that wants me to begin to continue the degradation of our black youth or I lose my job. My job is now on the line.Of course no one would say that but that's what it is. Can I curse the students out in the manner they are used to so that they understand that I mean business? Can I get them in line by cursing them out.

Can I continue to live in a place where obviously someone wants us out? We plan to move soon anyway because its become too small for us, but who is the small minded individuals that have thought they would harass us to move?

Then I have to try to keep the man I love interested in me. Keep him loving me, keep him wanting to be involved with me. Lord, Lord, Lord, how do I do this?

What the heck is wrong with this world that not only do I have racism from the whites but I have institutional racism from the blacks?

What the heck is going on?

I broke down and told my mom what was going on at work and she is supportive in her own way.

I need my job so I will keep them quiet. I wont curse, I said long ago I didn't need to do that. I was a sailor, I know how to curse and how to curse really good. I learned to curse in Iceland, London, France and Japan. I went around the world cursing. I will not reduce my language to cursing now. I will find a way to keep them quiet though.  Forget anything else. Keep them quiet is the only goal I have. If I keep this position, this year, then I can be assured that I will not be let go next year. I will have a job.

Good Morning

Good Morning Father God. Today is Friday and all I can say is thank God its Friday. This week has been long and challenging so I am giving you the glory that I have completed with a sound mind and body. I am learning two new programs at school and I have been out at workshops most of the week. Lord you see the struggle that I am having with that 6/7 split class. The maturity level is very low. The challenges still remain. I have managed to get better control over the other two classes. The fact that I have had two observations this week worries me. Both of them were informal and unannounced but what does that mean. I haven't been debriefed on anything about the observations. I don't know what's going on with that. Now Lord I have been told if I want to go to the classroom management workshop I have to pay first then they will reimburse me. Fine, I will pay first but why tell me I can go and you will pay then wait to the last week and then tell me I have to pay first. I said fine Ill pay. I think they didn't want me to go really. Tell me I am the worst at something and I will do everything in my power to fix it. Now they think I have better control and don't need to really go. Baloney. I'm going and I will pay for it. I'm still struggling with classroom management. Thank God for Professional Development Days. Thank God for pay days so I can pay for the workshop. I will improve this classroom management thing. I know it requires lots of rules and procedures. I need to follow through on threats and keep better structure and routines. Stop yelling, which I have done better at the yelling. But I am challenged with the structure because I am out so much with training for the new science program. Today its training for the new reading program. Everybody has a new way to teach our under privileged students. I pray that they work. Our students need a chance. Father God I pray that it does work. That you allow the students to open their hearts and minds to learning a new way. Open the teachers hearts and minds to a new way of teaching. Glory be to God, today, yesterday and forever.

Have I been attentive to you? Have I given you what you need? Am I paying attention to you? Trying to manage my time and split it between home, work, church, I am wondering if I have done a good job. God has directed me to Luke 16.

What strikes me about this is the fact that its about money. Its about a worker who's about to be let go and then decides to plan strategically  for his future.  Whoever is trustworthy with little can also be trusted with a lot. We cannot serve two masters. We will love one and hate the other. This is the choosing part. Have I chosen wisely in my decision making this week. Am I pleasing God? What is highly valued among men is detestable in God's sight. Am I making good decisions?

I mourn that ten year old that was shot this week. I saw a picture of the mother just sitting at the sight where he was shot, rocking in the rain. I could feel her pain. How is it that we have no control over this?  Senseless killings.

Be blessed today and be a blessing to someone.

My Trinity

I thank God for giving me a task to carry out and the knowledge that I have fears and joys about being a servant of the most High Almighty God.

No Glasses

I left my glasses in my brother's car. I drove his car today. I am struggling to read stuff. I think I am getting a head ache.Its time for me to get new glasses anyway. I'm really thinking about Lasik. I see Barak is going to be on Jay Leno. I hope I can stay up til then.

Tonight was water aerobics. I really enjoy these classes.

I just heard a ten year old was killed on the street. Not another child's life taken with senseless violence. This boy was in the wrong place at the wrong time. This gang violence needs to stop.  This is like the wars in Uganda and Darfur. Senseless killing by children. This has become a war zone.Let us study war no more.

I am going to bed now. My eyes are tired and its been a long day. Good Night. Be blessed and be a blessing.

 

Hello

Hello

Today was day two of workshops. The good thing is I didnt have any children to worry about. I was able to collaborate with professionals in my field and get information to help me become the best that I can be for my students. I enjoyed these two days. No staying late, no fights or problems with students, parents and other teachers or administrators.

I did call. I will not give up. It feels like we had a fight and we have forgotten what we were fighting about. We have to find our way back to each other.

Tomorrow, back with the children. But only for two days. Then Friday is a day off for the children. I don't think I will teach after school this year. I have too many workshops for science during the week to be available for after school.

I hope everything went well for you today. I know it must have been strenuous. I called to let you know I was signing up for the bus, I also plan to help in any way I can with the Jena Six. I want to be supportive in any way.

I have to go to bed now. 5 a.m. comes around quickly. Be blessed tonight and be a blessing.

If at first you dont succeed, try, try, again

See I have been feeling like I have been trying and nothing was happening.

But today I of course decided that I would start over again trying.

Luke 5:4-5

When he had finished speaking, he said to Simon, "Put out into deep water, and let down the nets for a catch."

Simon answered, Master, we've worked hard all night and haven't caught anything. But because you say so, I will let down the nets."

So because you say so, because you have not given up on me, because you know how important this is for me, I will keep trying.

Gone are the thoughts and feelings that you are avoiding me, expect some grand display and gesture. What ever it takes, that is what I am going to do.

I will throw my net out again.

 

Way to Know God

God is the answer. God will be with me always.

Father God, Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.

When I look for wisdom, I look to God. God has taken me from the dark into the light.

When I think about a time of difficulty, a time like now, a time when I have done things to put myself in this situation, I know that I can look to God. I think that I have created more distance than togetherness. I use me because I cant say you. I have been blaming and I shouldn't. If I am to get past this burden then I have to turn it over to Jesus. When I don't know how, I have to trust in Jesus. Moving forward is my goal so I will turn it over to Jesus. I have no plan, I don't ask questions I just do.  I will wait on the Lord. Patience and Love.

Way to Know God

God is the answer. God will be with me always.

Father God, Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.

When I look for wisdom, I look to God. God has taken me from the dark into the light.

When I think about a time of difficulty, a time like now, a time when I have done things to put myself in this situation, I know that I can look to God. I think that I have created more distance than togetherness. I use me because I cant say you. I have been blaming and I shouldn't. If I am to get past this burden then I have to turn it over to Jesus. When I don't know how, I have to trust in Jesus. Moving forward is my goal so I will turn it over to Jesus. I have no plan, I don't ask questions I just do.  I will wait on the Lord. Patience and Love.

What a Pair

Lord, Lord, Lord.

What a pair we make.

You are stubborn, headstrong and determined.

I on the other hand, am flexible, cooperative and loving.

OK now that you have had your laugh my next question to you is. Are you still stubborn enough to be interested in me?

The fact that I am going to be 50 years old in less than 6 months does not thrill me. I am menopausal, and really quite pleasant maybe one or two hours a day. No, its not that bad, but sometimes it seems like that. I know that I have more good years ahead of me. This is not the end of my life. There's a lot of good years still left in me. I am not giving up and rolling myself up in a corner.

What do I think about what you said? I dont know really. I listen to you each week just saying stuff that we are unable to connect. Its right there but we arent making a connection because of me. How can that be? I mean really, how can that be.

Who am I listening to, I'm listening to you. I hear,keep the faith, dont give up. I hear, if you want this, its yours all you have to do is go after it. I hear, I'm 58 years old, I have been alone and I will be alone. You are sending mixed messages. I'm not surprised. I'm not easy to get along with.

I'm going to stay constant, consistent, and focused. My goal is to do God's will. You seem to be part of my future, my past and my present. Let's make this work. LET'S MAKE UP  AND MAKE THIS BETTER. Let's move forward and just act like two human beings who like each others company. No pressure, nothing else.

Rare

Its beautiful to know that some things exist in this world regardless of human intervention.

In order to get something you have never had before you have to do something you have never done before.

I have a lot of journals to read tonight and then I have my lesson plan to do. Life is good. I am not complaining. I am grateful to have a job. Be blessed and be a blessing to someone.

Friday Night

A person who is forgiven little, loves little.

A person who is forgiven much, loves much.

Romans 12

 1I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service.

 2And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.

 3For I say, through the grace given unto me, to every man that is among you, not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think; but to think soberly, according as God hath dealt to every man the measure of faith.

 4For as we have many members in one body, and all members have not the same office:

 5So we, being many, are one body in Christ, and every one members one of another.

 6Having then gifts differing according to the grace that is given to us, whether prophecy, let us prophesy according to the proportion of faith;

 7Or ministry, let us wait on our ministering: or he that teacheth, on teaching;

 8Or he that exhorteth, on exhortation: he that giveth, let him do it with simplicity; he that ruleth, with diligence; he that sheweth mercy, with cheerfulness.

 9Let love be without dissimulation. Abhor that which is evil; cleave to that which is good.

 10Be kindly affectioned one to another with brotherly love; in honour preferring one another;

 11Not slothful in business; fervent in spirit; serving the Lord;

 12Rejoicing in hope; patient in tribulation; continuing instant in prayer;

 13Distributing to the necessity of saints; given to hospitality.

 14Bless them which persecute you: bless, and curse not.

 15Rejoice with them that do rejoice, and weep with them that weep.

 16Be of the same mind one toward another. Mind not high things, but condescend to men of low estate. Be not wise in your own conceits.

 17Recompense to no man evil for evil. Provide things honest in the sight of all men.

 18If it be possible, as much as lieth in you, live peaceably with all men.

 19Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: for it is written, Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the Lord.

 20Therefore if thine enemy hunger, feed him; if he thirst, give him drink: for in so doing thou shalt heap coals of fire on his head.

 21Be not overcome of evil, but overcome evil with good

After all is said and done I still have prayed to God that I am able to just touch the hem of his garment and be healed.

I am so excited that tomorrow I dont have anything.

No professional development, no appointments, nothing.

Icant wait to go to the spa and exercise, relax and just go to the pool.

I might take Austin out for an early morning walk, maybe.

Monday and Tuesday I have a Science Professional Development. I told the children that I wouldn't be there for two days and there were some that were actually sad. They said they hate it when I'm not there. They are probably lying but then again it was nice to know that somebody occasionally misses me when I'm not there. Sometimes its nice to know they actually look forward to seeing me.

Spiritual Rebirth is what I need and what I seek.

Confirmation

Father God today I will be confirmed. What does that mean?

Oh I know the catholic meaning of the seven sacraments and how the sacrament of confirmation is the mature christian's commitment:

"Confirmation is a Catholic sacrament of mature Christian commitment and a deepening of baptismal gifts. Like Baptism and Eucharist, it is a Sacrament of Initiation for Catholics and a Sacrament of faith in God's fidelity to us. "

 

It is for me a commitment to deepen my faith in God.

 

 

Congratulations

I just read that they have dropped the charges due to the fact they couldn't prove it. The evidence was not convincing enough for them to win.

I prayed and prayed for something like this. Glory Be to God.!

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Be blessed and be a blessing. Good Night My Love.

Good Morning

Good Morning

This cannot be the same old entry the same old way.

I cannot put new wine in old wine skin.

"Do not call conspiracy everything that these people call conspiracy

do not fear what they fear, and do not dread it

The Lord Almighty is the one you are to regard as holy

He is the one you are to fear

He is the one you are to dread

and He will be a sanctuary... Isaiah 8:12-14

Be not troubled...

That is my mantra for today...

Be not troubled by the things that trouble man.

Be blessed today and be a blessing to someone.

Greetings

Today was a very early day. My dad and I went to his building very early this morning. Now we have a person who would like to rent the three bedroom apt my dad has. This is a very hard thing for him. He has been with me for a year now and the prospect of moving his stuff out of the apartment and into storage is very daunting for him. We are maybe thinking of a bigger house in general. This request has triggered so very different feelings. Its really like removing him from a place that was home and still it became  a very sad place for him. I never thought about it being sad for him but he did try to just waste away there. Maybe it is bringing back unpleasant memories. It makes what is going on with him very direct and in your face. Before we were always able to go to the apartment, pick up mail and maybe it gave him a sense of independence. Maybe. Sometimes when we went there it was as if he felt there was nothing there for him. I think its hard to give it up, but maybe he's ready to move on. That's something we will have to weigh the pro's and con's this week. She is section 8, has a disabled daughter and a niece who is pregnant. They wouldn't move in until February but there would have to be a lot of planning on our part. Packing, cleaning and everything else that goes along with it. 

We will try to do the right thing.

Change is inevitable.

How was your day today? I pray that you are having a good day. I am sincere in my concern for you and how your day is going. I don't ask the question and not care about the response. I really do care. Be blessed today and continue to be a blessing.

Hello

I am so happy that you have your church back. I know that it has bee a hard time for you not being able to hold worship services in that beautiful place. That is your baby. You have saved that church from destruction. It was destined to be just another church on the south side that closed but you saved it. You have done a wonderful thing. You have revitalized a whole neighborhood. You have done this. You have stayed constant and never given up the fight to make that a better church and a better area. You were the youngest priest to have a parish. A parish that was on the verge of dying off. You not only saved it but you made it great. You brought life into something that was dying. You are now well respected in the community. The Archdiocese is another story but you are still part of the catholic church system.  I continue to wonder if you are going to buy St. Sabina from the archdiocese since I know you are not going to leave that jewel in their hands to do with as they please. So what is your plan? I don't see you building this empire and then walking away. You are now raising money for the building, over 3/4 of a million dollars. This will really be a big deal but I believe it will happen. You have lots of connections and this can be done by many of them. Your church family loves the church and you so that is something that we are constantly going to assist you with. What ever you need, I will be supportive and caring. I will always be supportive of you. I know that you are where you need to be. You love that church, you need that church. Not another church, that church. You have a big investment there. I stay supportive and I stay in love. I think I realized the hand that was dealt to me today.

GOOD NIGHT

I HAVE DECIDED TO BE FILLED WITH THE HOPE THAT SOMETHING WILL TURN OUT WELL.

I CHOOSE TO GET LIFE BACK INTO MY LIFE.

I CHOOSE TO HAVE HOPE.

 

Today was a trip. We had a gas leak scare. We had to stand outside for almost forty minutes until we were cleared to go in. Then of course the students were on 10. The fact that they had lunch and then we got to keep them for another a two hours was just .ridiculous, They are not use to any change to their schedule and the fact that we had to stand outside for forty minutes was just too much for them to process. The afternoon was just crazy. I took my things and tried to leave when the students left. We had a parent arguing with another parent in the lower grades. What is it that they dont understand about setting an example for the student. Parents cursing at students teachers and principals. What an example to set for students.

Then I get to go home and travel for one and a half hours on the expressway. Pick up the baby, who is grumpy because he's been up since 6 this morning traveling with mom and doing hair for a wedding and not getting a good nap. I hear he has heard the word s-h-i-t and that's now his new favorite word. I pick him up, take him home, give him a bath and its off to bed. He is out like a light.

I'm happy he's out. I have a workshop tomorrow at DePaul and I need a little rest. I am so thankful for three day weekends.

I had my outburst, now I am going to rest. Be blessed and be a blessing to someone.

Good Night

I have been trying to be the worst I can be and then the almost best I can be. The worst is to send him away saying I dont want anything to do with this crazy woman. But Im not really that crazy. I just have to remember that I have a goal at the end of this and thats something that seems so distant sometimes. Somedays I am reminded of it and the fact that I want something else. Inside it just requires me to bring something out and up. When I do that I feel the tears and I wonder can I handle this? Have I taken on more than I can do? Am I really going to make a difference? Should I just forgive and forget. Move on, keep my head up and not be concerned anymore. This could take years and years. What the Hell!

Thank You

 

  

I just thank God for the people and resources that he has put in place for me to be successful. Every day is an opportunity for me to be molded and to learn. I just dont want to forget that the maker and shaker of my future is the Lord Almighty.

How was your day today?

Enduring Love

This is the day.

Things begin to get better when you plan for them.

Today was not the best but it definitely was not the worst.

The Lord is with me and I thank Him for being with me daily. My thank you card. Thank you for today and everyday that I am able to be the very best that I can possibly be. I love the Lord and the Lord loves me. I thank the Lord for today and I know that it is a blessing.

Thank you Lord that we will be back in the sanctuary this Sunday. Thank you for everything. I just want to thank you Lord.

The Beginning of a New Crew

One thing I have learned is that no matter what school I am in, there are always certain groups. There is the person who complains, the one who does what ever they want, and the one who wants to do the right thing but is unable to move forward with that goal. We have teachers who are just frustrated. They are so upset with the way things are that they take it out on the other teachers who will listen. We have a meeting and they just complain and complain. We all feel overwhelmed and its good to hear that we aren't alone. Its good to voice the concerns, maybe the squeaky wheel will get oiled and we will all benefit from it. Be how long do you have to beat that dead horse? I hope something gets done, it will restore my faith in the administration. I have a science fair to put on and I will just stay focused on that. After having been in so many schools for the past seven years I put very little faith in the administration. They have to work within certain parameters and that's just the way things go sometimes.

My readings for today were Matthew 4. The beginning of Jesus' ministry. The beginning of something new. It began with fasting and temptation and once he was through that he began with. Repent, for the kingdom of heaven is near. The kingdom of heaven is near. He pulled his disciples, he began to heal and preach. Discipleship. What are the qualities of discipleship?

Have a blessed evening and be a blessing to someone special. With much love and peace. I pray that I will be a faithful disciple.