Monday, April 30, 2007

I love You

I had a wonderful day today. My artist came and we worked on our mask project for the eighth graders. It went well today. I just thank God for hearing my prayer, even when I think he might be out back and missed that prayer. Today was a good day. I got a possible job offer too. God loves me. I know that everything is going to be allright. Do myou believe that everything will be alright? All things work together for the good of those who love the Lord. I love the Lord.

good Morning

Good Morning Lord. Thank You Lord for another day. Thank You father God for for letting me know that I have to deal with resentment. I thank you for giving me the grace and peace of mind to stand firm until the process is complete. Help me to let go of bitterness. Thank you for putting people in my path who are willing to work with me and wo will work for your good purpose. My purpose is to finish out this year having compassion for others and the ability to forgive those who have wronged me. I move forward only with your power and strength. I cannot do it by my self. I don't have the strength to do it by myself. With the help of the Holy Spirit I can declare that the blood of  the Lamb has set me free and who the Son sets free is free indeed. I declare that I have overcome bitterness and resentment today and I will walk in my purpose and strength which comes from God.

Have a blessed day today. I Step forward not backward. god has brought me out of a lot of things so I know he can bring me out of this too. Glory be to God.

Sunday, April 29, 2007

Good Night

Good Night. I didn't make the rally. I decided to give money instead. I went to the website and donated my available money to the save Darfur campaign. I wanted to do something for them today.  Its thundering right now, it reminds me of your story today about being afraid. Are we afraid of each other? I know that it has been three years since I started this journal and a lot has happened since then. I have Gone through a terrific time of student teaching, then working at a very tough school, only to be let go. After that I found another terrible school and after the second year I am let go. All of the time nothing personal. Each time I pray for the teachers in my position who may not have help. Hundreds of teachers each year are automatically let go and there is hardly a blink of an eye. Every year that I have been in this system hundreds each year have been let go. 2005, there were over fifteen hundred. 2006, over a thousand, and now 2007, over seven hundred. In the past three years, over 2500 teachers, mostly women, have been unemployed by a whim of a principal.  I pray that they find solace and peace in their life. Its a very unnerving thing to find out you have lost your job. The teachers are not given any support and are just told to find a new spot. Most of the time they are able but that is not secure either. I'm sure you know what its like to not know if you will have a job next year, or even next month. But now you are secure with at least another six years. I will have to continue to pray for guidance from God. I'm looking at Bolingbrook, Naperville and Plainfield. Well its late. I have to get ready for tomorrow. I plan to take my days off before I leave too. I have to figure out when I want those things. Be blessed and be a blessing to someone.

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. I give glory to your name this morning. You have given me the opportunity to get it right again. Thank you for another wonderful, beautiful day. The ability to worship together is a blessing. Better days are coming Lord. I know this and I believe it. t is like a dark cloud has been lifted from me. What was meant to destroy me has given me a sense of freedom. I may hurt on one level because its a rejection and none of us like to be rejected, no matter what the reason, budget cuts or what, but I am leaving a place that was destructive  to who I am and I wont miss that. Father God thank you for your blessings. I will teach with the middle school project that I taught with last summer. I have some really good leads on jobs in my area. I will remain positive and have a good outlook for my future. The possibilities are endless. I know one thing, I will survive. God has something better for me and I pray that I will listen and hear his voice in my life. I stay prayerful. Let God move me to my next position. God will make a way, even when there seems to be no way apparent at the moment. God will make a way.

Friday, April 27, 2007

WE ARE A CHLD OF GOD

Turning Point

Today was a turning point for me. I will not return to this school next year. I have begun to look for positions that are available for me in this area.  I am on a jpb search. Lord please pl`ace me where you want me to be. Today was a pecial day. It was one of theday's when enough is enough.  THANK YOU LORD. I TRUST YOU TO GUIDE ME TO MY NEXT POSITION.

Thursday, April 26, 2007

Good Night

We the People. Today was a day of trying to teach the first amendment in everyday life for my students. We got stuck on freedom of speech. Then they wanted to talk about something that hit close to home. Domestic Violence. The horrible tradgedy of the two brothers killed while trying to save their sister from a rapist. These were people their own ages and the events they could relate to. A mother who works the graveyard shift. A boyfriend with a key.  Some of my girls were adament that they knew someone who had been hurt. Boys wanted to talk about who died young that they knew. We have been working on their family tree so that has brought up may memories. I want them to move forward and not backwards. I want them to have hope for their future. I pray for help in standing for the issues for today. We have leaders who are so desperately trying to get our attention and our vote. Can they help the children? We need spirit empowere boldness. Thank God its Friday tomorrow. I have had enough of this week. I pray that tomorrow will be a better day. Be blessed tonight and be a blessing to someone special.

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

Good Morning

Good Morning Father God. Thank you for adopting me. Thank you for bringing to y mind the fact that I am wonderfully and gloriously made a child of God. I have a wealth of abundance within me if I would just tap into my inner self. My mind is sound today and I am able to wake up knowing that you are taking care of me. I continue to keep hoping for your goodness in my life and for me to recognize and reach out for that tremendous power Glory to your name Father God. Thank you for reminding of my entitlement. What's due me. Where my strength comes from. I am not alone. I can't do it by myself. I need to trust God. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for wanting to make things right with me. Let me not forget who I am. Thank you for your strength. Thank you for enriching my mind and heart.  Have a blessed day today and be a blessing to someone special. 

Monday, April 23, 2007

Abandonment

 

Don't be shy about asking for prayer when you have a problem. Remember how Jesus felt on the cross and before the cross. Prayer allows our imagination to create a picture of our feelings, fears, thoughts and ideas. I pray for discernment. Separate the seriousness from the horseplay. Abandonment issues. Where am I going with that? It was a subject that caught my attention today as I was talking about genealogy with my students. Sometimes when we look at our family we are asked to face some difficult truths. Sometimes I wonder and I keep the thoughts, feelings and purposes close to my heart. Sometimes I let them out and put them up for judgment. Well I will have to end now and really grade some papers. I said I would try to grade daily so that the papers don't pile up on me. My heart stays constant with you.  Be blessed tonight and be a blessing to someone special.

Sunday, April 22, 2007

Thank You

Thank you for another day of hope. If I had to wait forever and ever I would. Hope, faith, and peace. Thank you for all of that today. Being alone doesn't always mean you are lonely, and having people around you doesn't mean that you don't want the company of someone special. I know that I can thank the Lord that I have him on my side. He heard my cry and he saved me. Thank you Jesus. There's something about the name of Jesus. He's been too good for me to not say thank you, thank you, thank you.

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. Your word says that we are overcomers by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of our testimony. Lord I do confess my sins and I vow to overcome the strongholds, through you Father God. I can do nothing without you Lord. I do commit my life to you. I take hold of the thoughts that are not you. My actions must reflect you in my life. I plead the blood of Jesus over my family, my friends and my world. Give us the grace and faith to receive your healing and to forgive those who have hurt us. Teach me to guard my heart and to trust you. Teach me to love and trust you. Bind all fear, all heartache, all abuse and deceit and deception. This morning I am reading so I have to hurry. Be blessed and have a wonderful morning.

Saturday, April 21, 2007

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. Show me to me today. Help me to communicate how to heal past wounds and hurts which have controlled my behavior. I know that words can heal and can hurt. Help me to accomplish positive things with the words out of my mouth. I can build up with words or I can destroy with words. I want to build and encourage. Father God I cannot change myself but I can change with your help. I can realize truths about myself and adjust and be willing to change to walk in your way. Your path is narrow but your mercy and blessings are worth the endeavor. Father forgive me and forgive those who need to communicate more today too. Help our words to be the right words. Words that heal and words that speak the truth.. We can turn chaos to harmony with our words. Help us to chose the right words to help ourselves and others. Keep our action pure and sincere. Guide us with every decision.

Forgive me for not writing yesterday. I had a long day at school. There were two fights in my classroom. I think in trying to be observant of the Virginia Tech events the students just seem to go over the top. I remember when I was doing my student teaching there they would say every time we have mass the students come back to class with more vinegar than before. Its like the demons are restless after having been kicked around in church. That's what it was like yesterday. After we discussed what had happened and began to make positive choices the students began to get violent. Violence does not have to be the only choice for victory. Unfortunately our students see it as a stepping stone to respect. If you have had a fight, win or lose, you have gained respect. Its all about respect. Children feel very powerless in certain situations. They just go along with the crowd. Enough of them for today. I am looking forward to a good weekend. Be blessed today and be a blessing to someone special.

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Good Night

Well today I  had my ADD/ADHD and any other label that has been put on these children complain because of their report cards. I try to be fair and I give them what they earn. I want to see them all pass to the next grade. I know I am excited about Friday. Its the little things that matter. I pray that I have true integrity ane openness. God is working on my spirit and I keep myself open to God's will.

Have a good night and rest well. Be blessed.

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Resurrection

I listened to the broadcast and you were great. I think that the message you gave was the message that needed to be told. We must be individuals and take responsibility for what is going on today. I don't think we will find our youth at record stores as much as they download and have mp3 players to get the music. They unfortunate thing is that we have people react to die for the wrong thing. People don't value life as they should. Murder, suicide and death itself, are things that we see people commit without any remorse. Its unfortunate that people can degrade other and blame it on the culture and society. The fact that we can say these are the words we will no longer accept in our music and on our movies and videos and dvds will set the standard of how you talk to us and how we talk to you This is the benchmark that we are setting and you have to abide by it. No if ands or but. Stop the nonsense. We can stop the degradation with our own demands on each other. That also requires that we stop calling our children that and that we in the homes stop using curse words that degrade our children and ourselves. I know many parents went home tonight and swore at their children because of the report cards.They told me they would. Is this the only way we know how to address our children when they do wrong? I am not saying I am a saint by any means but as a whole we \need to find a better way to communicate. By talking and finding new words to express ourselves we can connect. We must connect, somehow. We must connect with dialogue and action. We must see things around us differently. We must see each other as people in need. In need of each other.  I pray that we find direction that is morally and ethically responsible. The church can be a leader but the church must set a standard that they are able to define and to follow. Jesus has always given us the hard road to follow. We may not do all but we can do some. e must never give up on this fight. Maybe this is our part in the civil rights struggle. To never give up. Push forward and to stay on the path. We ace at war and we must recognize it. It is a different war. A war on our homes and our beliefs. The stability that we find in our everyday lives is lost. We must take hold of the truth and find God in it. What would Jesus do? He was always direct and confrontational. Never walking around the problem. How can we d the dame thing? Make a difference in everyone's life. Change people when we speak to them, worship with them, and work with them. How do we continue to change the world for the better? Action. We see evil action but do we see Christian action. We must act to communicate to others the need for our hearts and minds to be united.

Take care and have a blessed evening. Good show tonight.

good Morning

 Report card pick up is today. I will listen to you ths evening on my way home and when I get home. I hope you feel better. Drink lots of hot tea and lemon. Take good care of yourself.  I watched some of the news on the shootings and Imus  and its always blaming someone else. The blame goes to society but we are society. When asked individually noone thinks any of the killings are right, when asked what they did most cannot say they did anything. Its someone else's problem. Let's find someone to blame and then move on. Be accountable, take responsibility for our role. Take action to make a change. Gotta go and speak with parents now. That in itself can be a problem. They come in high, some drunk, some just dont come at all. 

Have a good day.

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Good Night

Please take care of your voice. I couldnt go to sleep without saying something to you tonight. Thank you for giving me food for thought. Keep me questioning and searching for an answer. Thank you Lord for your saving grace. The hand of discipline and the hand of blessing. Recognize my sin. Repent and move forward. Take Care of yourself. Good Night.Sleep Tight.

Monday, April 16, 2007

Good Night

Every day is a blessing. I thank God for another day. I take nothing for granted. This morning I took some time to pray and worship this morning.Perserverance in prayer. When I grow weary I know that I have to pay and worship. I turned off the radio this morning while driving in and I continued to just pray and ask God some questions. We had a talk this morning. More like I had a talk and God listened. I just want to know what is wrong. Am I asking for someting that is not mine to hae? Did i blow it already? What exactly is it that I need to do? I refuse to give up on this, no matter how it turns out. I will wait for my answer.

Have a blessed evening.Good Night

Sunday, April 15, 2007

The Power of Words

Word have the power to influence and to hurt. Black women have long been portrayed in the media and in the community as negative, loud, ugly, sexually promiscuous and victims. Victims of black men's abuse both verbally and physically. I'm watching Dateline's topic on the Imus focus and I find new and old topics being raised. We've constantly struggled with the rap music degrading our women but now, we get to address it again with black women who are not willing to let it keep happening, are now talking about it openly. When black men were calling their own women "ho's" and "b's" it was hurtful but it didn't stop. Now a white man has done it and we have a champion to help fight our fight. People who can make a difference. Will it stop, maybe. Will someone think twice about using negative stereotypes about people, yes. We may us a mask to shield our prejudices but at some point the mask will fall and the truth will come out. We must talk about this and we must understand the power of words. This continues to be the fallout of racism. Words. Why do we need to degrade to make money?

I have to finish my grades. I didn't have a chance to do them yesterday. I have to figure out what's going on with us. Me and you. Why is it important for me to figure something out. What makes us so important? I pray that God knows my going to church is not just about seeing you. Its because I LOVE THE LORD. I LOVE GOD. I LOVE JESUS. I will give up everything, for God.

 

 

 

Good Morning

 Good Morning Father God. Thank you for another day. I am blessed to be able to worship you again. I think I have been walking on egg shells, not quite knowing what to say and therefore saying nothing. Father God I pray for guidance and for direction. Lord you give us your decrees, you tell us to follow Jesus and we still set up laws that are impossible for us. Your way seems hard to because we have to trust and let g and let God.  How do we know the right thing to do? Why does it seem so hard? Am I making a mountain out of a mole hill? I need to get moving, time is ticking away. Be blessed and be a blessing to someone special today. 

Saturday, April 14, 2007

Good Morning

I am developing an image of a reliable God. Someone who can be counted on. The faithful one, the rock, the fortress. My day is filled with stuff to do for others. I still have grades to get in this weekend. I have a twinge in my back from picking up that baby. Gotta go. Lots to do, just wanted to say I love you. 

Friday, April 13, 2007

Date Night

I long to see you so that we may mutually encourage one another. Romans 1:11 (paraphrased)

Enjoy your evening.

Good Morning

Thank you Lord for another day.Your covenant is important. Song of Songs. The beloved and the loved. We are loved. We can celebrate our relationship. Today we need to feel loved. Divine love. Our relationship has love. Together we can love one another.

Dark am I yet lovely.

Have a blessed day today and continue to be a blessing to someone special.

Thursday, April 12, 2007

Good Night

Thank you Father for today. Yet another day for me to draw closer to you. I want us to understand what I am saying and to listen to me sometimes. Realize that there are differences in viewpoints about many things. Know when a difference really makes a difference. Wisdom from above is willing to yield to reason; cooperate one with the other- James3:17

Thank you for bringing peace.

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Good Morning

Good Morning Father God. Thank you for today. Thank you for your saving grace and your tender mercies day by day. Your strength makes me strong. I wonder if we are making strides in in racism and sexism and then I say yes. Had this been forty years ago nothing would have been done and the young ladies comments would not be heard. While slow, our voices are being heard and people are responding. The right of life liberty and the pursuit of happiness has created a need for moral and ethical behavior from all. Have a blessed day today.

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Hello

Thank you God for small favors. I found out today we only have four days with our wonderful students this week. Friday is professional development day. Hopefully we will have a chance to compute some grades as well. The children came back like they had eaten sugar for a week. I truly think some of the had nothing but candy and snack food for the whole week. All in all we adjusted to each other again and we are continuing our little journey together. Next week the parents will come in to find out how their little darlings are doing. Some will be very disappointed. Some wont have any surprises, others wont even show up. I'm excited that this is the third quarter and somewhat surprised at how fast the year is going.We are already on the fourth month of the year. 

 How was your day today? I hope you managed to get some well deserved rest. I pray that you have a good evening and that God will send his peace on you and your life today. Have a good evening. I pray that all is wel with your dad and his care giver. Be blessed and be a blessing to someone.

Monday, April 9, 2007

Good Morning

Good Morning Father God. Thank you for another day to worship and witness for you. I love you and you continue to llove me unconditionally. I am ready to go back into the trenches. Guide my steps and watch over me. Watch over the families that I work with an the children that we teach. Dispatch your angels to fight our battles and to keep the environment safe. We have challenges but let them be your battles. Let us know that we can do nothing without trusting in you. I chose you . I will let your word and your will be my will. I believe in marriage and not divorce. I understand my dream better now. We work this our, we work through the pain, we stay together and make it better.Be blessed today and k that God loves you dearly and so do I.

Sunday, April 8, 2007

Good Evening

What a glorious service!

God was with us today and we were blessed. We keep God in our hearts and in our minds. I kept saying over and over I am his wife I am his wife I am his wife. I love the fact that God has stepped in our lives and made us trust him and no one else. Believe in his word and none other. Gloru be to God. We are a team and we are united. Together we stand. United we stand. I pray that you are alright, your dad and his helper is fine and that your world is OK. You are OK. We are OK. The is nothing that can separate us. We are together, now. We are together in spirit and in truth. That's what is important. Do we believe that, yes. We have authority. God Bless you and get some rest.

Good Glorious Morning

Glory to God. He has risen! We are able to celebrate another year that our Lord and Savior has risen. We are in a day and time when Christians are challenged every step of their life. We challenge a cross being in Daley Plaza, a place where we have our government. We must separate church and state they say. How can we not have the church within in the member who represent us in the state? We need believers who represent u and are out for our common good. We must believe and keep the faith. We hop, we hope, we, hop, that our lives are important enough to care about and that its not just the conquest of another dollar or the taking of someone else's land. We must care and be strong and committed. I know that caring and staying the course is important in a strong relationship. I care, I hope for more and I love. I love the fact that Christ love me and I him. I love the fact that I a able to love others. I take none of this for granted. I can love you and know that it is true. I hope, and I have faith in that hope and promise. Be blessed and be a true blessing to someone special today.

Saturday, April 7, 2007

Hello

I am so grateful that I was able to attend the Friday night service. I believe these tijmes help me to see Goed more clearly. They help me to obey God. I thank God for all the different people in my daily life that he allows me to communicate with who are able to let me know again and again that God loves me and he died for me. Thank you for bringing such great talent to allow us to hear and grow both spiritually and mentally with God.

The weather is so cold it almost doesnt seem like Easter. Its more like January or February.  I wanted to go to the baptisms tonight but I refused to bring the baby. Tomorrow his mommy is coming to church with me so we are planning on arriving early. I'm watching The Passion of the Christ (with subtitles). I'm excited about tomorrow. He has risen. Have a blessed night and be safe. 

Friday, April 6, 2007

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. Thank you for today. I love you and I rejoice in that knowledge. God you have continued to go with your basic theme, faithful love comes from faithful trust. Hope has a very life preserving effect. As if it is a character in a story, my story. Hope continues to survive. We can be in the same conditions but the one with hope can survive.Hope is the fact that a presidential candidate who is new can raise almost as much money as a seasoned candidate. Hope for a new future. Hope keeps me humble.

Today I won't be at Trinity, but I will listen, if possible, on their live streaming. I will be at our church tonight. I will also have the baby. I'm still going for a front row seat. I know I have to be there when the doors open so I must leave early enough. I want to be able to enjoy tonight and not be too tired.  You make sure you get a chance to put your feet up. You have had a long night and now its going to be a long day. Be blessed and be a blessing to someone special. I love you.

Wednesday, April 4, 2007

Good Night

The Bridge

I have had a busy day and I am glad its over. It started out a little crazy. I had a dream about you last night and I don't usually dream about you. I have had one or two but this was so different. We were in my house and there was a lot of people around. My family and your family. For some reason you wouldn't leave We went about our daily lives but we didn't leave the house. Then there were some Muslims that we saw through the window and you asked one of them to bring you a shirt. You had a shirt on but you asked them to bring you a shirt. What a strange request. Then we continued to talk in the living room with people coming and going. Strange. It stayed on my mind all day. I wish I could explain it better. It seem to work on unity and harmony. Everything was just flowing even though there was so much activity.

Today was so windy and cold. My week is almost gone. It goes by so fast. I have to pick up the baby's momma in the morning. He and I have spent the last two days together and I know he is ready for his mommy. I know I'm ready for her. I have been successful in one area I said I would work on and that's my laundry and dry cleaning. I have almost finished the laundry. That was quite a chore for me.

Well one more night and then I will see you tomorrow. I look forward to this weekend. I will have many opportunities to interact. May God bless you tonight and keep you safe. Place a hedge of protection around around you and your faith community. Be blessed.

Tuesday, April 3, 2007

Cars

God this whole car thing is just too much sometimes. Did I give the car because I thought it was a great car, no. I gave the car because I had used it and I was able to get back and forth to work for almost a year and I would still be using it if no for my father's car. That in itself is another story. I dont find it a blessing having that new car, there is more to that than meets the eye as well. If you knew the cost of that oil, if you really knew, you would not be so ready to judge me as someone being blessed. My knowing the cost and reasons that he is here now does not warrant me to think blessing.My giving that old car, a seventeen year car was not to offer up a junky sacrafice to God. I would take it back today if that were the case. I know it has problems but I thought it might be of help to someone. I know so many people in the church who dont have a car and rather than me just giving it to them and having someone mad at me for not picking them, I would rather let you decide. If you dont feel its suitable to give to anyone then dont. I was trying to stay faithful to the church and thought before I got rid of it maybe the church might know someone who works on cars and could give it to someone.Did I do the wrong thing? Lord I tithe, I try to give of my time, treasures and talents. I am constantly searching for faithfulness in my life. I dont want the car to be a problem, I'll take it back if it seem to be a thoughtless gift or a demeaning gift. It was not given in that spirit. Lord I dont refuse correction, I seek you daily and I strive to deal honestly and seek the truth in all of my dealings. If I am at fault and this was not good, let it stop now. Today I thought about that in connection with the car. Sunday's sermon connected with me today. Forgive me Lord, I didnt know.  

Monday, April 2, 2007

Hello

I think about you all the time. I pray that you are well and safe. I hope for nothing but the best for you. You can do so much for people. You have a wonderful ability to let people know that you care. You can be funny too. I don't want you to take this lightly. I was thinking of someone in my life who exemplifies the traits and qualities of Jesus and you came to mind. Not everyone of the cloth comes to mind. You are sincere. I can find honesty in you and I can trust you. You have a true spirit of caring and warmth that is not phony. I keep chasing after you. I wont give up. I'm in this too deep to turn around now. My heart is in the right place. I stay in love with you. Have a good day.

Sunday, April 1, 2007

Today was a good day to start holy week. We had a very good day. The message was so on time. Love God, Love Jesus, Love each other. God's mercy and grace has given us redemption. Jesus has done so much for me. For me, he gave his life. Glory to God.I think I should have with my reading partner today but I was told something different. Oh well everythnig went fine. I pray that love stays with us daily. I love you. Have a good night and be blessed.

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