Good Night

Hi

A friend told me a story today that stuck with me for a long time. She said that she was in love with a man who didn't trust her. She began to tell me a story about how the relationship was very different. One that was not in the ordinary realm of things. The  fact that she had not been as responsive to him as she should have been or wanted to be. The relationship suffered because of that. She was planning to go to therapy because of This blockage that she was having but she felt something else going on and she wanted to ask me what I thought about it. She wanted to make a concerted effort to change the relationship this New Year and wanted advice on what to do. She thought that her mate felt that she must be seeing someone else or at least overly friendly with someone else because she was not responding to him. He called her a whore and made several references that she must be seeing someone else because she was not responding to him. She has two men that she worked with who were considered a threat at work. Both seem to flirt but nothing is going on at all with either of them, but her friend thinks that she must be doing something, after all women are not very upstanding in his book. Both of these men are married and in relationships. She continued to insist that there was noone else but he didn't believe her. He didnt trust her. After all, she wasnt very warm and loving to him. Probably like Mary and Joseph at one time. She finally realized that she was not going to convince him on her own and even if she had therapy he would continue to believe that there must be someone else in the relationship. How could she convince him or should she even try? Was she paranoid that he felt threatened? Would he ever trust her? Was she worth the risk? Was thsi the one to take the plunge? Did he really feel secure with this one? What should she do? What should she do?

Well, I'm no shrink, nor do I like to give advice to any one about their love life, after all, mine is not one to hold up and admire, but I told her to pray and let God give her an answer because the truth should always be the divining rod for every situation. The Truth. How was she to know the truth. Search your heart and if you still feel that you dont know the truth then you are not ready for the relationship. There is not another man in the situation. Then the truth will be the answer. The fact that something is still wrong and the relationship is not where she thinks it should be, maybe the truth is that this is where its suppose to be and she may need to accept that fact. I told her to ask the Lord to search her heart and to guide her to where He wanted her to be. The truth of the matter. What is troubling your heart? Do you think I gave my friend good advice?

Hello

Good afternoon. Today I am working on my communication skills. I want to improve how I respond to others and how I interpret what others say to me. I want to reduce the confusion. Improve the understanding and be content that the message is heard the right way. Sometimes we are watched and blamed for things we did not do. It just happens like that. We were doing the right thing and in the right place. None the less we are blamed for something else going wrong. Staying true to God's plan and to his word is my ultimate goal. Let God's word be the the truth and man's be a lie.

Grey's Anatonmy

I am watching this right now and I have the opportunity to also use my computer because the girls are not here. Yeah!!!!

Not that I dont love them but sometimes you need a little space. She took the baby with her and I am happy about that. Love the baby but need some time away from him too.

Grey's Anatonmy _ Don't Chase Me Anymore Unless You Are Willing To Catch Me.

What do you think????

This is a story that has a lot of plot lines running through it. Most of them about relationships. I am happy a black female is writing it and I like it but there's a lot of relationships involved in this drama.

Men In Trees is the next drama coming on and let's just see what this is about.

Hello

Today is Thursday. I have had a busy day. Dr's appointment this morning. I went to see Night at the Museum, which I thought was good, even though the critics dont think so. Still trying to get an electriician from Home Depot to confirm a date for installation. I'm sure its because of the holiday. 

I am looking forward to New Years Eve Service. The watch service is always special. They scheduled readers and one asked me to read for them. I know you usually dont have a reader but I'm ready if you do. Usually you dont have a reader. Then in the morning I have to take my daughter and the baby to the airport at 6am. They will be in Boise for a week. That's when the real break begins. 

Hello

Its already Wednesday. This week is flying by. I need to install (that means have someone else come out and remove and install) a ceiling fan for the kitchen. Wash a ton of clothes, sheets and towels. Grade a ton of papers. Make a couple of lessons before the 8th and then of course, rest and relax.

I dont care what others think. I care what you think. Stay Focused and Determined. Have Faith, Keep the Faith. Its Going to Be All Right.

Christmas Gift

I had been trying to think of something for you for Christmas that would give you a sense of me whenever you wore it or saw it. I thought of a nice scarf and gloves. Some chocolate, since I know you are a chocolate lover. Something that would remind you of me. Then I thought of it. I like a fragrance that I cannot get at any store. I have to order it online. I found it when I was in London in 2004. Its Flower by Kenzo. I really like. So I thought why not get you the male fragrance. You may not like it but I know that you do wear fragrances and at least I know that I have something that is matching. Like matching sweaters or jackets. Matching hats, t-shirts. Something matching that belongs just to you and me.  I hope you like it. I ordered it today and I hope to have it by Saturday. I'll bring it to church on Sunday. So now that gives me a sense of peace. I have found a present that I think you will like.

Good Afternoon

Well, well, well. I finally had a chance to listen to the two sermons today. I was on the floor under the computer so that I could listen with my headphones and not disturb anyone. Needless to say you were on fire. I believe you were speaking from the heart. Deep inside your heart. It touched my heart. Patience, time, commitment and perseverance. Faith, faith, faith. I don't have to understand, just know that it is so. Know that one day, somehow, it will happen. A covenant

Be blessed today. I feel better today. Be blessed and be a blessing to someone special.

Christmas Just Aint Christmas Without the ONe you Love

Christmas just wasnt the sam without my church family. My time has been spent with church family every year and this year I was under the weather. Last year when I came home from the service, our furnace was going out and we smelled a strong odor of smoke, we had to call the fire Dept at 2 in the morning. This year I was with my family and we were all sick. That just wasn't fair. One of my neighbors came over to wish us a merry Christmas. I have not met them all year and they decided to visit on Christmas. Good thing we had some extra cookies made.I am starting to feel better. I had soup today and yesterday. I was feeling better this morning but then after my shower, I made breakfast, that was just a bit too much. My day was very plain. I just wanted to get a message to you before the day was officially over. I heard from two people that the Christmas dinner was on the news I missed it. I tried watching the nine o'clock news on WGN and FOX but I didn't see it. Just figures. Well Good Night and God Bless You.

Merry Christmas

Well I think I spoke too soon. Last night around midnight I began to get sick. Vomiting and everything else. I was up until 5am. I feel terrible. I thought I was not going to get sick because I had a flu shot but I guess this virus is not immune to the flu shot. It like almost everyone is sick. Anna is better, she's excited and well. Lizzie is well but she's waiting to catch it. My mother and my father are both under the weather. Austin is still battling with it. What a motley crew we are for Christmas. I had some crackers and soup today. I think they will stay down.

Do you have any idea how much I miss fellowshipping together tonight? I haven't missed a Christmas Eve service in many, many years I was pleased to see that it will be on the Internet. I can at least listen, I hope. I will miss the pageant. I will miss you. Merry Christmas. Jesus loves you and so do I.

Hello

Hello. The flu is running through this house. My brother, my father, the baby, and myself all had flu shots. The rest are having some kind of 24 hr bug. Throwing up and pooping. The baby had some if it though. He's better now. Mom is having her turn at it now. I don't need it or want it.

Tomorrow I will be at church at 8pm. I almost made it today but then plans were changed. I plan to attend on Monday too. I think I will help out at the dinner but I didnt want to obligate and not show up.

How are you doing this week? Has it been crazy for you? Are you geting your rest? Have you been feeling well? I miss you. Be blessed and be a blessing to someone special. Thank you for the toys again, it was very nice.  

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. Father God. Almighty. I spent three hours on the phone last night with Dell removing a horrible virus. Someone is sending a virus that says your Microsoft windows program is counterfeit, to fix it click this. It looks very authentic. For the past two days we have not had Internet. The computer at school by my desk was having problems too. Yesterday was the party, it was very hectic. Then the kids tell me that my computer is working again. I don't get a chance to even sit down yesterday. At home I have to try and fix this computer. Good thing I brought the service contract last year, I have until March before have to renew. Lord I'm not sure if I am angry, frustrated, or just plain tired.

Hello and Good Night.

Well today couldn't have been more interesting. I was selected to be part of the walk through team. I was both elated and dejected. I wanted to see what was going on in other classes and find out what the board was looking for and I also wanted to retreat to the comfort of my classroom and not be involved in the goings on of the region and just be concerned with my own classroom. I really think we came up with some pertinent and important things for our children. The classes that I went through were the 7th and 8th grades and Science. Our children were well behaved, which was a plus. They at least know how to act for guest. The biggest thing we noticed for the upper grades was the lack of cursive writing. it should be seen through out and it wasn't. When I came last year and I was teaching Writing, My first and foremost thing was that they write in cursive. Most students needed a review and many couldn't read cursive when I wrote it on the board. The listening skills and note taking skills are very poor too. All in all we will improve or do poorly. Right now I am in holiday mode. I said I wasn't going to the Talent Show but I went. I thought I didn't have after school today but I did so since I was at school I decided to attend. The show was so much better than last year. So many of the 7th and 8th grade students were in the show it was nice to see them doing something they enjoyed.Tomorrow is the staff party. I said I wasn't going to that. I hope I can stick to my guns for that. Did I say guns, figure of speech. I'll have to change that. I watched Paula Zhan tonight on CNN. I caught the last half hour. It was on racism and reconciliation. Al Sharpton, and other prominent black and white figures were on. The fact that they are open to discuss this on prime time is important. Until justice is done, injustice will continue to be the call of the day for those in power. I have put this all in one paragraph. Something I always tell my students not to do. I am human. I am tired and this is not being graded. I am going to bed. Good Night. Be Blessed.

Countdown

I am counting down the days until Friday. I hope this week goes by just like a flash. Then the next two weeks go by at a snail's pace. I don't have afterschool this week so I will be done early. Tuesday is the talent show which I will not be attending. Wednesday is the staff party which I will not be attending and Thursday is the classroom parties. After that I know the next day is Friday. Wonderful, Beautiful Friday. Its going to be crazy on that day. Tomorrow is our Area Inspection. I have to get there early, we also have a staff meeting first thing in the morning. Thank you for the toys. I havent seen them but she called me and said she received a generous amount of toys.  Have a blessedly wonderful evening and continue to be a blessing to someone special. 

Faith Hope Love

Lord thank you for today. I enjoy the felowship of the believers. I believe that we need to praise and worship you together. The fact that just believing in you isnt enough, we have to seek you  daily and desire to be renewed and transformed by the renewing of our minds is important.

Today Lord I was renewed. I know that I am a child of God. I have been given the opportunity to Love you, To Worship You and to Seek your Glory. My heart yearns for a closer relationship. I have to realize that the last close relationship is not the only close relationship that we will have. Each time I draw nearer there is always more for me to seek. When I feel I have a breakthrough, I have to realize that there is more.Always there is more to seek, nmore to desire, more to reach for in my relationship with God.

What about my relationship, my friendship, my covenant with you? We will continue to define and redefine our relationship. Am I reaching for constant attention? Do I need constant gratification? Constant recognition? Am I too needy? Am I too sensetive, too touchy, not understanding the big picture? I know the big picture and if God needs someone else to do it then so be it. I will serve the Lord in whatever capacity I am able to do it. My desire is to please the Lord. My Father, My Almighty, My Lord. My heart is open to the Lord and his wishes. I see myself as an accomplished person. Someone who can do the Lord's will and make it happen. I have the capacity to win. I am a winner. My life is good, and I am able to take God's promises to heart. I believe not just in the fact that I will marry but that I will be an important force in the Lord's kingdom. I will be recognized as someone who spread the word of God to the people and who gave comfort to the elderly, the poor, the prisioner, and the single mothers and widows. I believe that I will make a difference in this world and I'm not afraid to make it happen. I continue to seek God, I know that finding him once doesnt mean that I need not seek him again. I renew my relationship daily with my Lord and Savior. Have a blessed evening and enjoy your day.

My faithfulness to tithing has to be consistent. My time, my treasures and my talent. I think I am donig the best I can do but I know that I can do better. God knows I can do better.

Baby cry , gotta go.

At Last

At Last

My Love Has Come Along.

My Lonely Days are over. That's an Etta James sont that I like. Its in the movie Plesantville and its also in this new commercial for Beautiful the perfume. I like that song. Its very soulful

My life is blooming and I am going to make sure that my life is good. I look forward to one more week and then two weeks of vacation. Its a well deserved vacation. I have earned every minute of it.

I am just watching the news and I see that the Bush family have taken on the task of fighting Malaria in Africa. Not AIDS, but Malaria. Its a more acceptable disease to fight and the sexual conotations are not there. Good, but still not enough. Work on AIDS, make a difference in the African American community.

I'm going to bed now. Good Night Sleep Tight. Know that you are Loved.

Hello

Today began early and I am hopeful that it will not be too long of a day. The weather is beautiful. I have a minute now to look out the window and its sunny. I noticed rain earlier. I just wanted to say hello and let you know that I was thinking of you today. I have an afterschool program until 4:30 then my day is through here. More drama at home. What if both parents go senile. Or what if one is just a crazy woman, can you still commit her? Of course now she is showing her jealousy about the attention my father is receiving. Lord I dont need this. Crazy at home, crazy at work. I guess I am just born to be with the crazies. Well I have to go to the ladies and then deal with the rest of my day.

Guide Me to Your Truth

Good Afternoon Lord. I am ready to do things your way through and through. Dont grow impatient with me. Make my heart open to what you have to say. Iunderstand that there are short term cost for some long term benefits. My alarm went off this morning and I pressed the snooze button twice. I woke up at 2:30 this morning and didnt go back to sleep until almost 4. I am in training for my journey. You send us out on journeys every day. You equip us with power and authority. I want to grow in the areas of my life that will continue to produce spiritual maturity. I shouldnt yell or have ill feelings toward my students. I must take care to listen and be aware of their feelings. I am thankful that I can worship you Lord and that you continue to strengthen me so that I can bear the real cost, the true cost of dicipleship. My heart longs for you. I know that it will all work out. I can love and be loved. I am willing to let somebody love me before it is too late for me to love. Love is really showing someone that you care about them and want nothing but the best for them. Have a good day. I have to think about your Christmas present this year. Yes, I am getting you a present.

Good MOrning

Good MOrning Lord. Thank you for waking me up today. I am determined to seek you daily Lord. My desire is to please you. I asked what can I do to reconcile and you said to keep my promise to the journal. He needs it daily. He wants to connect with me and if I would just give love a chance maybe he would be able to connect with me. I just see the transition for here to there taking place in an instant. First I'm single, then I'm married. No hoopla, no fanfare, just us, together. I will keep that in my mind, my heart and my soul. I will believe in that promise. Thank you Lord for loving me and letting me know that I am a good work in your kingdom. Have a blessed day today sweetheart and be a blessing to someone special.

RECONCILATION

 What do I have to do to fix it?  I will let God guide me. My focus has been off. I have to get my priorities straight. God first then you and me. My mind is on my love. Have a good night.

The Pursuit of God

The Pursuit of God-A.W. Tozer

I wanted this book after you told us about it in bible study. I finally got it today. I plan on reading it tonight. At least starting it. As the deer pants after the water, so my soul pants after you O God. Psalm 42

I wish you wouldn't look away when our eyes meet. Sometimes its important to make a connection. I pray that I am not the cause of discomfort for you. I say that and I know that this situation, if I believe its real, and I do, I realize that it must be uncomfortable for you. Its confusing and uncomfortable for me. I am sincere in my pursuit of God. I want what God wants for me. I know that together we can make a difference. I want you as my husband, my mate, my spouse. I want you to guide me and love me. Keep me on the straight and narrow path to God.

I pray for you daily. I pray that your heart, mind and spirit keep your body balanced and healthy. I know that you are a man of God and God loves you and so do I.

I will make it a point to be a better steward of this journal. I know I have some decisions to make. I have to prioritize my time and place this, which I believe is something God wants me to do right now back on the top of my list. I know that another day is not promised. I try to live this life as if I will do my best today and today is the only day that matters. If God has silenced me, how do I obey his commands to enhance my future husband's chances of getting a new and improved spouse. If I am impeding my future, how do I get out of the way. All of this requires God to step in, mix things up and for me to let go and let it happen. I feel as if I have been sent on a whirlwind ride and I'm still on it. I believe God is working in my life and I have faith that he has not left me, nor has he forsaken me. I need you to need me and I need to need you. I need to let my self need you and trust you, which I do. I just have to keep moving in that direction. Keep moving on.

Reconciliation. This is when couples have a quiet dinner together and make promises and long talks together. This is when we bond. We spend some we time together. We believe in each other and believe that we are going to get through this. I don't even know what this is. I don't understand but I know that it will get better. I believe it will get better. Well, enough of this confusing talk, prepare for your travels tomorrow. I will pray for you tonight, tomorrow morning, afternoon and evening. You have a good heart.

Good Morning

Good MOrning Lord. I am thankful and hopeful that I get things together the way you want me too. Each day I find myself realizing that I must purposefully stride towards your goal for me in my life. I take individual respondisibility for my actions. I  have to move with whatever steps you allow me to move towards you. Baby steps, giant strides or just the knack of standing still. I know that if I want  my promise, I have to go after it wholeheartedly. I seek you  Lord. I seek your promise and your blessings. I pray that I am continuing to seek you daily.

I think the evening went well. I left around 11pm. I found myself searching for you with my eyes. I expected you to look hansome and you did. You circulated very well. I hope everything stayed under control and you were able to get some rest. I know that I must be more cognizant of my duties and my abilities. I plan to get a laptop. I need access to the computer whenever I want. With my Dad in the family room now, I cant go to the computer whenever I want. The month of December is a very spirit filled month and I want to press on towards my goal. If I have to take note cards and speak from there I will. Be blessed today. I'm reading so I have to get there early and you know that's not my forte. I will be there though. I love you.

Good MOrning

Good Morning Lord. I pray everything will be all right for the young boy in my class who was hurt yesterday. I know that your angels are watching and protecting him and his family. Everyday I pray for my school family, my church family, my city, my state and my world. I know that things can happen in the twinkle of an eye. He just walked into the bathroom and slipped on some water. Hurt his back to the point where we had to call 911. I had to call his mother and tell her to come quickly, her baby has been hurt. Lord protect us in our travels and guide us through the day. Dispatch your warring angels to build a hedge of protection around us. Have a blessed day.

Good MOrning

Good MOrning Lord. Thank you for waking me up today and starting me on my way. I am blessed and highly favored today. Today I am writing in my journal. I miss it so much in the mornings. I need to schedule my time better in the mornings so that I can write.

I am seeking that secret place with you. That place where I am protected and loved. Lord you hold out your hands to me and ask me to come. Come. Like the bridegroom waiting at the altar for the bride. I come down the aisle. Thank you Lord for wanting me, for needing me.You want to be wanted and needed and loved. I love you, I need you, I want you. God hears my heart. I am pursueing him daily. I cant make it without him. I wount go without him. I have to have him. I'm glad he's a jealous God. He can provide all of my needs, and keep me safe in the secret place. My heart longs for you. I miss you. I need you to need me, to want me to know that I love you.Come Lord come. Come into my heart and into my mind. Want me, need me, rest in my shadow. I'm all you need. I want you to want me. Want me for who I am.

You have given me a love song for my heart. Have a blessed day today and be a blessing to someone special.

Good Night

I listened to Sundays sermon. It was powerful and moving. I took some really great notes but alas, they are gone. this is the edited version. Here I am Lord, I'm ready.

The most important words uttered on Sunday are Now Go and Be a Blessing To Somebody. Establish his kingdom on Earth as it is in Heaven.

Be Blessed tonight and know that I love you.

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. Thank you for a beautiful morning because I have awaken with my mind on Jesus, my limbs are working and I can talk and move around. Lord I do not take any of my abilities for granted. I understand that if it had not been for your grace and your mercy I wouldn't be here today. Glory to your name Father God.

I waited until 10pm for the opportunity to hear the sermon yesterday, I couldn't listen to it live, and it never appeared. I guess there must have been problems. I'll have to listen to it tonight.  The title seems good, The Power of Vision. I'm excited about listening to it later. May you have a good day today. Stay in God's Mercy, Grace and Loving kindness.

Good Morning

 

Good Morning Lord.

My joy is complete when I have you  in my heart and in my mind. Today I will not be at church. I have to take my dad to his building and one of the car's is down so it puts me in a precarious situation. Though it doesn't make a difference today with this being unity Sunday I would get back early, my daughter has to work too today. The baby is filled with congestion in the chest, but he is still in good spirits. My ability to rely on the Lord, My Father and My God is increasing everyday. Father God I praise you and know that you watch over me daily. You demand that I continue to serve and use your spiritual gifts to minister to others. I spend my days trying to draw closer to you Lord. You require me to share my instruction in the Lord with others. To contribute to their support.I pray that I not grow weary or faint hearted in doing good. I know that the way to heaven is not just to do good, but to have a heart and mind that seeks to please you daily and to do your will daily. I know this is not easy and I struggle with that daily. Only you God can give me grace and mercy for my actions. I cheerfully and joyfully seek to abandon anything that is not of you in my life. What I continue to seek is YOU FATHER GOD. Everything else is a blessing from my seeking you Lord. If I have lost my blessings from the past, then continue to bless me for my future. Not one day is promised to me so I seek you daily and I take nothing for granted Lord. I desire justice, goodness and the truth. I seek how to care for people the Jesus way. Jesus did not heal all and I seek to walk like Jesus. I know the walk is hard and I am continuing to seek your glory Lord. Together, Father, we can do all things.

Give and it shall be given unto you; good measure, pressed down, and shaken together and running over, shall men give into you bosom. Luke 6:38

World AIDS DAY

Hello

Well, what a day today was. Last night I was really wanting it to snow and snow hard. I wanted lots of snow.

The snow was heavy. I shoveled this morning and I had to clean the car off. It otok me an hour.

I had to go in today. I have been sick so much and I need to go everyday this month. I will take one month at a time. I am feeling much better and its allowing me to do so much more. Progress reports will come out soon and I have to get some grades in my book.

I just wanted to say hello and to try and get a message out today.

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. Thank you for waking me up today and thank you for showing me there is light while in my tunnel. Lord, Lord, Father, Father. The Great Almighty. Often I find my self just calling your name. Improve my communication skills. I said I would not go another day without placing an entry in my journal. I miss it. I know word are powerful. There is power in the tongue. Words can hurt and words can heal. Father help me to control my behavior and my speech.Teach me to speak the truth in love. Teach me to control my thoughts and my heart. Help me to understand and accept that others have a right to their ideas own opinions. Everyone has a right to express themselves and it will not always coincide with my ideas and opinions.Father God let me not react out of past hurt and unresolved anger. Let me not try to look better or act better than what I really am. Let me not twist things around to the point of unrighteousness. Holy Spirit guide my talk. Let the words come out that build character and develop healthy robust relationships.I submit to the wisdom for above. I lean not to my own understanding. When I don't understand, if I have discerned that it is God in my life then I submit. I give up my will, I allow God to take over. Break me Lord and make me what you need me to be. I submit to releasing my human anger and ask God to forgive me. I cannot change myself, but I am willing to let God change me in his wisdom, grace and loving kindness.My heart overflows with a sincere desire to please God. I know the Lord loves me as I am today, as I will be tomorrow and as I was yesterday.  I know that improving me does not mean that I am not good enough right now, its just that God wants me to be the best that I can be. I may not be perfect but I'm not what I used to be. I bind any selfishness and hatred. I move forward with mercy and kindness. The truth is what I seek, The truth is a double edged sword. Let the truth direct my conversation Lord. Let me walk in a reasonable and healthy day. Let me treat others with dignity and honor and be treated that way also. Love me for me Lord. It doesn't mean I dont need to improve, but I know God that today, right now as I write this, You Love Me Just as I am.Nothing may ever be good enough but today I am good enough and I am in the place I should be in and I have everything that I should have.  I guess that was in me.

Hi

How was your day? Sometimes when I write I like to think that you are answering. I like to think we are in conversation right now.

How was your day?

Mine was fine. I was not surprised to have my children ransack the classroom and take all of the candy I had. The broke all of the games I had. The library was a mess. All the books were just thrown around the room. I made them clean the room before they switched. The room was so bad even the janitor didnt come into the room to sweep, he emptied the garbage and left it just like they left it. They do things like that when I'm not there. I tried to hide stuff but the sub just let them go wild. Some children were like , where were you, you know they just went wild without you. Some times we need a break from the craziness. I needed a break from the craziness. I feel better. I'm tired now. I have papers to grade and I want to check out this new book. I also want to start my treadmill regime again. I can do it, I know I can. Well enough for tonight. Be blessed and be a huge blessing to some. Good Night.

Good Morning

Thank you Lord for today. I am blessed beyond measure. My life is complete I have grace and mercywith me all the days of my life. I walk with the knowledge of you loving me Lord.

"God will never let you be shaken or moved from your place near his heart." Joni Eareckson Tada

"Yur love, O Lord, reaches to the heavens, your faithfulness to the skies... How priceless is your unfailing love!... Psalm 36:5-7

God, My God, My Lord, Father God Almighty. You sent your only begotten Son to save me. You are my Rock and my Salvation. In whom shall I fear. I keep you near me in my heart and my soul. I miss you. I love you and I want you to know that my heart is at peace. I find you to be the anchor in my life. I shall bless your name at all times and your praise shall continually be in my mouth. I will worship you and magnify your name.

Today I will get up the branches around the house, go to my dad's building, wash my clothes and prepare for tomorrow. I watched this movie yesterday, Lake House, It was good, reminded me of some things about waiting. Yesterday was my movie day. I watched, X Men, Ice Age 2, and Click. I was a movie watching fool. No shopping for me. Anna did manage to get a good deal on a digital camera and printer though. All for the baptism. Well off to begin my day.

Be blessed today and be a blessing to someone special.

Have

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. Thank you for such a beautiful morning.

Make room for us in your hearts 2 Corinthians 7:2

Make room for me in your heart. Is there room for me in your heart?

Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death. See what this godly sorrow has produced in you: what earnestness, what eagerness to clear yourselves, what indignation, what alarm, what longing, what concern, what readiness to see justice done. At every point you have proved yourselves to be innocent in this matter. 2 Corinthians 7:10-11

I am not commanding you, but I want to test the sincerity of your love by comparing it with the earnestness of others. 2 Corinthians 8:8

What is my relationship with God? How do I strengthen it? How do I pass the test?

For I am a great King says the Lord Almighty, and my name is to be feared among the nations. Malachi 1:14

Worship the Lord God Almighty and honor his name. Show that he is worthy to be praised.

My covenant was with him, a covenant of life and peace and I gave them to him; this called for reverence and he revered me and stood in awe of my name. True instruction was in his mouth and nothing false was found on his lips. He walked with me in peace and uprightness, and turned many from sin. Malachi 2:5-6

Am I revering the Lord God Almighty? Have I shown reverence? Am I offending God?

In my period of waiting, my in between period, I travel through the stages of waiting. I am initially edgy and restless, then I am irritated and finally I move on believing that what I am waiting for will not ever happen in my life time and I become disappointed. Not because of any particular thing that has happened but because the dynamics of waiting has taken a toll on my belief system. I am then injected with a new dose of faith and belief. Do I believe that "God Treasures Me", am I able to withstand the test? Can I fight the good fight of faith? I say Yes, I preserver, I tithe, I pray, I give, I serve, I press on, Not believing what I see, but knowing in my heart that God Loves Me. Yes, Me. God Loves Me. God Loves Me and he has plans for me which are good because HE LOVES ME. Plans to prosper and not to harm, God Loves Me and I am a servant of God. This is how I know that good is for me. I will fear no evil because God is with me and God loves me. So I may flounder with this relationship but I know my first relationship is with God and I have to build that relationship to the highest heights before I can even hope on any other relationship. Be blessed today and have the peace of God with you today. May your home, family and business be at peace. My heart is at peace. I can say I love you and be at peace with that too.

Happy Thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone

What a year. This year is just about out of here. We have seen so many changes and we have been through a lot of different phases in our lives.

When I think about all the ups and downs I have been through, I am truly blessed to be here today. Blessed that my dad is still here, blessed that my mom is ok, blessed for so many things. Even my health is getting better because I am trying to be more conscious about who is the Boss in my life. My days wouldnt be the same without my God.

I think I have been demanding certain things that I should not have been. I want what God wants for me. I want to embrace what that is and I think I know what it is. I need to talk to God more about this. I'm not negotiating, I'm just clarifying.

I hope you have a wonderful day today. I knwo you will be fed, entertained and happy. You are going to have a wonderful day.  Be blessed today and know that you are loved.

Being Thankful

Yesterday was a beautiful service. It was very spiritual.I'm sorry I was late. You know my schedule is demanding. I had to take my dad for his doctors appointment and we didnt get back until 6:30. You know how traffic is. I did my best. I got there thirty minutes late.I still felt the spirit. I was moved. The service was really good. I am glad that you are back. I do miss you when you are gone. I am thankful for so many things this year. The best thing is that I get the opportunity to wake up to another day. I have a chance to make a difference in someone's life. I have to finish some things today and then I will be chained to the stove for the next 24 hours. Be blessed today and be a blessing to someone special.

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. Life is good, life is good, life is good.

 I Am thankful for each and every day that I am here. My life just wouldnt be the same without God in it. I am blessed and I know it. Thank you Lord for all that you do for me. Waking me up this morning.

Be blessed today and have a wonderful day.

Good NIght

My day has been busy. My attitude has been much better though. I have taken the next two days off so when I went intoday, I just knew I would only be here for one day. I didnt let anything bother me. It has been nonstop all day though.

It was nice to see you today. Sometimes its the little things that remind you about whats important.

I'm tired and I'm going to bed. Good Night.

Fragrance of God

Lord I came home and prayed. I  needed to pray. I had to pray. I needed guidance from today.  When I went to my bible, your words sent me to 2 Corinthians 2:5. Forgiveness for the Sinner.

If anyone has caused grief, he has not so much grieved me as he has grieved all of you, to some extent-not to put it too severely. The punishment inflicted on him by the majority is sufficient for him. Now instead, you ought to forgive and comfort him, so that he will not be overwhelmed by excessive sorrow. i urge you, therefore, to reaffirm your love for him. The reason I wrote you was to see if you would stand the test and be obedient in everything. If you forgive anyone, I also forgive him. And what I have forgiven- if there was anything to forgive-I have forgiven in the sight of Christ for your sake, in order that Satan might not outwit us. For we are not unaware of his schemes.

I must forgive and hope to be forgiven. I have to believe God's word and walk in faith with him. I know that that child has some very bad circumstances to deal with. I know that we are trying to place him in a residential home and that will be a plus for him.

For me the harmony of faith and suffering is a reality. God didn't promise me a rose garden but he did send me a savior to accept the consequences of sin. Lord forgive me for my sins today and forgive my student. He doesn't know any better sometimes and his leaders and examples are few.

Give me any opportunity to get not be so overwhelmed. Let me catch up. Let me feel balanced somehow. If this is my breaking and remaking the let it pass quickly. Even as I say that I know its not. The heart is amazing. It can be broken, repaired and mended and ready for the next adventure. I am not a constant broken heart. I mend. I repair. I move on. I trust. I believe. Do I say my words lightly? No. Do I believe that God is Faithful? Yes. God is Faithful. That I can rely on and I know that God is with me. He has delivered me and will continue to walk with me.

Take care tonight. Be blessed. I know I wont see you until Tuesday. Be safe and know that I am thinking of you daily.Be Blessed and Be a Blessing to Someone Special.

Thank You Lord

Thank You Lord that I am not at the Police Station, The Morgue, or any other place associated with those  My day was something else.Lord thank you for loving me. Thank you for giuding me and protecting me today because somebody was going to get hurt today and I was determined it was not going to be me. Lord what is going on? This student is so defiant. His mother and grandmother are both drug abusers. He respects no one. He is constantly defiant and aggressive. I am so thankful that I dont have him all the time. Only twice a week are his class and mine together but he constantly wants my attention and he will get it negatively or positively. The boy is too old for grammar school anyway. He knows the repercutions are few on the elementary level but I and the other teacher are pressing charges with the police now. He has pushed the line and we are fighting back with the resources that we have available. I was so upset. I cant go into details but it is enough to say the situation warranted the need for police.

I just needed to get it out. I am so overwhelmed. I left my desk a mess and just came home. I will write later. I just had to get this off my chest.

Good Night

Lord I have challenges in every area of my life. I dont want it but sometimes the hardest thing is to surrend. To humble yourself. I think I have humbled myself and I find I have to go further. I have a desire to please God. Its my passion, my goal, my desire. What is my life without God? I cannot choose betweenmy life and God. My desire and God. It must always be God. Everything else is secondary. I try to be the best I can be. I have to try to be the best for God, no matter what that is that he wants for me. I must find my place with God. This is no game for me, this is my life.I have been sick, over stressed, over worked and just tired. Why is this happening to me now? I dont know. Am I being refined and purged. Am I being prepared for the next hurdle. I dont know. I do know that Im in it and that I can just ask God for one day at a time. Sometimes its just one hour at a time.I dont give up. I press on and maybe I hit the mark. I dont know whats expected but I do have hig expectations.

Good Afternoon

Good Afternoon is about all I have time to say.

Maybe I'm still going through my process and let me say its not easy but I am willing to do what I have to do. I do it to be a petter person for God. Whether I am blessed or not I want to be a vessel for God to use as He sees fit.  I pray that I can accept the challenge and do what is needed. Sometimes it sounds like someone describing the water to you as you are drowning. When you are in the fire you dont particularly want to hear how hot the fire is. I'm in now, I'm dealing with it. If I come through better, great, if not oh well, I just have to keep trying. Its nice to see you again.

Good MOrning

Good MOrning Lord. This weekend has been a positive and a negative. Positive that I have had an opportunity to just sleep. Negative because I have missed a day of journal writing. I have to get ready for church today but I wanted to write something. My days are so full now. I dont know how to manage my time. I need to get more organized. I have my dad on a daily basis. My grandson has needs daily. My daughters, my mother, my brother, etc. Everybody needs something at one time or another. Then of course there is my classroom. A room full of needs. How do you meet their needs and your own needs? How is it that I keep getting sick? Where is the balance Lord. How do I balance all of this so that I am not overwhelmed and lost in the shuffle? I'm just telling the truth as I see it and I hope that you understand that there is nothing bad reflected on you. I dont have an attitude or anything, I'm just tired and overworked. I have to go now its time to leave.

Hi

It is  raining and thundering here. We have suddenly become much colder and there are threats of snow tonight.  I am not going anywhere tonight.

Where have I been? I seem to have no time to do anything now. My mom and daughter went to New Yourk yesterday. They will return on Sunday.

My other car is sick again

My eyes are bothering me again. When I went to the doctor on Oct 30 I told her I thought they were getting sick again and now Im right. I hate being right.

My day was so yucky at school. Thrree fights in my classroom, the hallway coming from lunch and the stairs. What the heck is going on? Its something in the air.

What are you doing right now? I always want to know what you are doing when you read my journal.

Well I have to prepare dinner for the remaining clan. We are having salmon and green beans.

Have a blessed evening tonight. I finally get to watch my show "Men in Trees". Be blessed and be a blessing to someone.

Good MOrning

Good Morning Lord. Good Morning. I have not been able to place a morning entry for a few days now. Thank you Lord for the opportunity today. You have been with me through out all of my ups and downs. Today is report card pick up day. I will have an opportunity to meet the parents of most of my students. My concern is that I wont have a big turn out. Whatever the case I will be there. Giving my best and doing everything I can to encourage them to be an integral part of their child's life.

I am so looking forward to this weekend. My mom and Lizzie are going to New York on Thursday and don't come back until Sunday. I don't have any plans at all and I plan to enjoy my time immensely. I have to start getting ready for today.  I have been listening to your sermons for October and the one with the sword came to mind as I looked for a photo. Say Yes. We need each other.

Be blessed and be a blessing to someone special today.

I'm So Sorry

I am so sorry.

I have been trying to place an entry for two days. I usually don't like excuses but please forgive me this time. With report cards, two afterschool programs, building problems and just trying to live I find time for me vanishing. I am up every morning with my bible and I read supportive and spiritualy mature things to help with my spiritual growth. I find it hard to get to that computer in the mornings. It doesnt mean I dont want to or that I am not thinking about you its just finding the time to actually sit down for ten to twenty minutes and do this.

How is your vacation? I hope you are enjoying yourself. Have a blessed day today and remember that I do love you.

Hawaiian Monk Seals

Well, today I watched a documentary about the Hawaiian Monk Seal off the French Shoals. They mentioned that they were becoming extinct. Of course the only reason I watched it is because you are in Hawaii. I found it interesting though. My scientific mind began to wonder along with the scientist why they were becoming extinct. There are only three places where there are warm water seals. Hawaii, Caribeean (they are extinct now) and the Mediterrean. They strapped a camera on them and found that the seals werent feeding around the general local area.

That area was shark infested and it also had their other enemies there. The seals were diving hundreds of feet below the surface to distinct coral reef which they indicated wre aosis in the deep desert and the seals found food in the form of coral reefs and fish at this incredibly deep sea level. No predators.

Why am I watching anything about Hawaii. Because you are there and I want to connect with you no matter how vague it seems. I realize that you probably dont even go to this remote area but I know its close to you. Anything that will get me closer to you is important to me. Have a good night and be blessed.

Hello

Hi

How is your vacation going? Today's service was good. I wonder if you listen while you are away. I think you do. You would have to get up at 4am. You are probably up any way. I hope youare enjoying your vacation. Come back and tell us stories.Take lots of pictures. Read alot. I have to get that book you told us about in bible study. Dont do any of those thrill seeking adventures. No base jumping. Its thrilling enough just waking up the next day. Find a hobby on the ground that doesnt require dangerous chemicals and dangerous activities. Im sure you will be mindful of yourself and not do anything stupid.

I pray for you in the morning, afternoon and evening. I know that you are safe and happy. You are rexaxing, rejuvenating and restoring your mind, body and spirit. Continue to do so.  Have a wonderful day and be blessed. You are loved very much.

Be blessed and be a blessing to someone special.

 

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. I am here. I said I would be here and I am here. Breakfast is done for almost everyone in the house now. I even have to make a bottle sometimes. I cant stop thinking about the new baby message from yesterday. The Savior. I know how it is when you have a new baby and everyone wants to say how cute he is, can I hold him and just congratulate you on the baby. Imagine what Mary and Joseph must have felt when prophets and strangers began to say this child is the Messiah, the Christ, The Son of God. I imagine the awe and reverence was abundant.

We had a good Sisterhood session last night. Making ourselves Whole required an inward journey and we shared with each other. Some people really liked to share, and share and share. All in all it was good. I took the little man with me, he was very good.

This morning I have day two of the conference. The over to my dad to check on the building and the tenants. Then hopefully, back home to rest. I'm closing my door and not coming out until morning.

Enjoy yourself and rejuvenate. Be blessed and be a blessing to someone special.

Good Morning Lord. This morning I read the Christmas Story but this time it was with reverance and awe that the knowledge of a Savior being born was given to the shepards and the two member in the synagogue. The awe and reverance that Mary and Joseph received for their child must have amazed them. What childis this...We seek to understand God and He continues to amaze us. Mary kept those things in her heart and pondered them. She knew he could turn water to wine at Cana, he probably did the same with juice or other things at home growing up. What a child to have at home, to supply your every need. To have wisdom and grace at such a young age. We complain now how our children are so uncooperative. What was it like to have baby Jesus at home for the early years? Blessed is the name of Jesus.

I am off to my conference today. I dont have to be there until 8"30 and its close to me so I can leave at 8.

Have a blessed day today and know that you are loved.

Hello

Hi

Sorry about this morning. I have just not been able to do all that I used to do in the mornings. I still wake at 5:10am. I didnt even hit the snooze button this morning. I read my bible. I got up and took a shower. Then I started breakfast. Fed my dad, got dressed and it was 7:30. I tryto do the journal while fixing breakfast. I initially could do it with no problem but now its just almost impossible. I will not be defeated. I know one thing, I am flexible and I will get an entry in no matter what. Its almost impossible to find the time at school anymore. Enough of my excuses.

How are you?

Are you enjoying yourself?

Are you relaxing?

Please, Please, Please just take the time to do absolutely nothing

Tomorrow I have a conference to attend. Its in the burbs so I am happy about that. I hve to go on Saturday too, I'm not so happy about that but if it helps me help my students then I'm all for it.

Tonight of course I am babysitting. We have now worked out a deal. I babysit, she grades papers and becomes my teacher assistant. That works for me since I have been babysitting for free anyway. Report card pick up is on Wednesday so we definately have some work to do before then.

Well, take care, be blessed and know that you are loved and thought of each and every hour. I touch my heart and touch the screen. I send my love and nothing but good thoughts and blessings to you right this minute.

Good Night

Good NIght

I am so sorry that I have not had a chance to write sooner today. I actually didnt hit the snooze this morning but with all of my duties in the morning its becoming more and more difficult to actually sit down and write, but no matter what my goal is always to have an early morning entry and if possible an evening entry. I need to connect with you and I dont ever want a day to go by when I dont intentionally make the effort to connect. I hope you are enjoying your vacation. You are relaxing, walking and reflecting. Relaxing, Walking, REFLECTING. I know God is guiding you. Let HIM. Listen to HIM. SEEK HIM. I'm going to bed now. Tomorrow is Principal for a Day and we have three of them coming to our school. I have written three donorschoose proposals. I hope they will fund them.

Good NIght my love, be blessed and be a blessing to someone special.

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. You are awesome. Your earth is an awesome place. You have given us a magnificent view. Cherish it. Lord we are standing on Holy Ground. We must take off our shoes and bow down.

Today is a good day no matter what. We will have a blessed and glorious day today.

Good Morning

Good MOrning Lord. Thank you for today. I am blessed that I have been given another day to make things right. Another day that I can put your words and thoughts into my mind and continue to reach for you Lord. My prayer this morning is for safe travels and for a safe and uneventful journey. Let nothing come between him and his vacation. Let him arrive safely and relax for the entire time he is there. He deserves a vacation. This is a man of God who asks little for himself. Refresh him, renew his mind and keep his thoughts and prayers with you. Let me not be a worry that he has. Let him be reassurred and confident about us. Keep him safe and happy. Let him pursue happiness while he is away. Relax, rejuvenate and renew.

Good Morning

Good MOrning Lord. Thank you Lord for another morning. You have seen me through a difficult night. Baby crying, congestion for me, teething for him and just a general regular night. When I am called by the Lord I know that I have something to do. Your glory is abounding. Your mercy is forever. My head is foggy Lord. What are the words you want me to say today. Whereare the words. Give me the words to say today. Your will be done in my life. Lord I do know that you will make a way out of no way. Thank you for loving me Lord.

Good NIght

Hello

I dont know if it makes a difference but I just had to write. My day has been so full. The training this morning was long and time consuming. I came home and tried to take a nap. No good. Then we went to Sam's Club. When I was home I found out my mom went to the emergency room. She had a lump on her breast. This is not the first time this has happened. We dont know anything until she has a mammogram and biopsy. or something. She does not like to go to doctors. She likes herbs and vitamins. This was a big shock today. We are just waiting until she can go to her regular doctor on Monday. Then we have to wait until she has the test and then get the results. The next few weeks are going to be annoyingly nervewrecking until we know something definate. Well I am going to prepare for bed. I think I'm trying to catch a cold. I have been so busy this week. I cant wait to get to church. Im excited about going to church. I have to finish that article too. I may just go with the information I have. I havent had a chance to call back again. Im really looking forward to getting my hour back tonight. I think I mourn that hour every year. I have papers to grade, lesson plans to write, but all of that will be pushed aside for a quiet evening at home.

May God bless You and keep you tonight. See you in the morning.

Good Morning

Good Morning Lord. I have to do this again, it didnt save the first time. I always think when that happens I didnt say what you wanted me to say. Lets try it again. Good Morning. Keeping my covenant with God this morning is first and foremost. I did press the snooze one time. I got up, read my bible and was directed to Nehemiah. I will renew my covenant. I will not give up. I am going forward, not backwards. I'm staying steady on the course and giving God the praise and glory.

Be blessed today and have a good day. Be a blessing to someone special.

Good Morning

Good MOrning Lord

I know I am streching this week. Today I still hit the snooze button twice. I know now that when you snooze you lose. I lose the twenty minutes that I usually take for my journal writing time. I needed to say that. back to getting up when the alarm rings the first time. 5:20 here I come and I come with joy not reluctance. We do that whichis important and this is very important to me. I need you, you need me, we are all in this together. Please have a blessed day today and know that someone is thinking about you today and cares very much about you. I am praying for you today.

Good Night