Hello

I just want to thank God for today. Thank you for allowing me to spend some prayerful time today. Taking the time to be reflective and just totally appreciate all that he has done for me.

I will be at church tomorrow. Bright and early. I look forward to spending time with you.

Tonight I'm going to watch Independence Day, Jurrasic Park and Harry Potter all at the same time since they are on basic channels. Lots of switching back and forth. Also I'm going to get some of my washing done. Very boring. Nothing exciting. I took a long time to write this because I wanted to just make it plain and simple. Nothing great. Just a quiet night.

I look forward to seeing you tomorrow. Have a good night.

Red Lobster

Hello

How's your day today?

Mom and I just got back from Red Lobster. We needed some rest and relaxation. It was sort of like have a date on date night.

I'm glad we did it because I really feel better now.

We had a Pep Rally at school to encourage the student for the ITBS. It was fun.

Today was a good way to end the week.

I did have one student, he always draws pictures of guns on all of his papers, he told me why they act the way they do, he said look at where I come from. I told him that's just an excuse. He has a facination with guns. He is always drawing something or someone with a gun or just the gun itself. I must have at least five papers a day where he as drawn guns or people with guns on them.I think he has seen something tramautic.

I just do the best I can to keep things civil in the classroom. Enough about my day.

How was your day? I hope everything went well. I'm sure it was challenging but you met the challenge. Thank God for the weekend.

Tomorrow I have to do lesson plans, clean my room and just try not to waste the day away. I will for sure, positively be at church on Sunday. No doubt about it.

Take Care and have a good night sleep. Be Blessed and be a blessing to someone.

 

We're getting a new roof

I rushed home today from school because I had to meet the roof man. We need a new roof. The one we have now leaking and other stuff is wrong  too. I definately need to cut this tree down. We may have a raccoon on this one area by the roof. Its always something. I just know that the Lord is my salvation and I have three estimates, and Lots of references and we go from there.

Hello my dear, yes, hello my love. Words of endearment. Kindness, thoughtfulness. I was riding in to work this morning being fed by your words. Man is not meant to be alone. We need to comfort each other and have concern for each other. I pray for you every morning. I wonder how your day is going, I wonder what you have planned for the day. I hope it went well. I hope you were successful in some of the things you did today. How does your day wind down? I know for me its quiet and kind of lonely even though my mother and daughter are here.  So I come to you with love and concern to end my day and say good night. We come together at the end of the day to just connect and say I love you. So I touch my heart and touch the screen and send my love and a kiss across the miles to you. One more day and Friday is here. I can't wait. Date Night and the weekend.

Be blessed and be a blessing to someone. Good Night.

Hello and Good Night

Today was a good day. God's blessed me with good travel times in this morning. The children are starting to become enjoyable and even funny sometimes.

I had class this evening, so I called you on the way to class. I left school around 4:00-4-15.

I filled out a summer school application. I think I might like teaching the little ones. I think.

You keep me focused.  You keep me thinking. My mind is constantly trying to come up wit ways to get it right.

I called today. I'm sure I'll get a response soon. I should have said "I need to speak to him right now" :)

I feel so relaxed now. I think the women's project is a good thing. Help is on the way for women to feel good about themselves and that's a good thing.

We have so much to be thantkful for. I know April is almost over and time is going by fast. We can never get one minute back. I think that things are really on the verge of a change. We have a lot of positive things working in our lives and I know we are going to make it. Just relax.

Good Night and God Bless you. Sleep well, be at peace.

It was so good to see you

I loved the pink shirt, black striped tie, and black pants. You looked quite handsome. Very manly, very strong and very handsome.

I will be able to do some driving for the women. I'll call you and let you know.

I have to make all of my entries at home from now on. Journals are blocked at work now.

Today wasn't so bad, I think I'm getting the hang of this.

I really enjoyed oru guest speaker.

You are such a visionary. Bringing good speakers who are men of the word.

You start with a little idea and it blossoms into a dream and vision.Follow through is always necessary. You keep me hopeful. I know its going to be all right.

Good Night, God Bless, and talk to you tomorrow.

I ain't givin' up

While not gramatically correct it gives the best message. I ain't givin' up.

You can't take it from me. You can't make me quit and you can't make me stop now.

You can have your reservations, and I don't blame you , but I know that God has nothing but good planned for me so enougfh of the nonsense, let's crank this up a notch or two.

As far as my day today. Same old thing. Crazy, hormonal tweenagers. Twelve and thirteen year olds. Fourteen and fifteen year olds. Two will be sixteen by fall. I have at least six overage students out of 23. Enough about them, they have been holding too much of my attention as it is.

I don't want to miss the time I have with you. It's too precious. So I'm back to saying that things will be different when I see you. Life is too short for nonsense.

Born To Win

I'm listening to the service and I have to say that you didn't say " God Bless you to those listening on the internet". It doesn't surprise me, because I told you I would be listening and not at the service so you were mad. So God Bless you anyway. I couldn't be there and I really wanted to be there, I rarely miss a service.This was truly an exception.  I'm there almost every Sunday and Tuesday. I'm there for special stuff and not so special stuff. I just couldn't make it today. I wasn't home wallowing in depression and self doubt. You make me sound like such a pitiful character. Yes, I have crisises that I go through, who doesn't. But I'm still here. I'm still here. I'm here.

This is the second entry for this service, the first one I lost before I could enter it. I typed it and it was long too, but , I guess God didn't want me to say that. When I went to save it it dissappeared. So I am trying this again. I want to grow and I want to be successful for God. Church smart and street smart. The challenges I face are real as they are for everyone else. I don't want to be destroyed by the landmines and obstacles that are placed before me. I know that the Lord is with me because I wake up every morning with the use of my limbs, my mind and the ability to speak. If I wake up I know God has saved me for another battle. God gives me the opportunity to get it right one more time. I haven't lost yet. I may be down but I'm not out. I praise the Lord daily and I am blessed that everyday, so far, I get to choose to do the right thing. Has so much come between us that the distance has gone to another level? Are we going through a trial where God has forgotten us? Is the communication at the level of nonexistence?  Should we walk away from this?  Have you moved on? I just have to call on the Lord and ask him to intercede for me. God didn't save me to be defeated. He didn't have me survive so I could lose over and over again. I'm still here so there is something that has to be done. I still have work to do and its not over yet.

I'm going to end this now so I don't lose it again. If God's word is true then there is nothing the deveil can do to change that. The distractions in my life are things that we all go through. Job, family, health. When it seems like I am walking away from the stuff God has called me to don't believe it, I'm walking towards it.  The deveil is a liar and the obstacles he places before me make the journey more of an zig zag than a straight line. Things look rough but I have to be real and know that I can't do it alone. I need God to go with me on this journey. Come what may, I need Him with me.

Good Morning

I listened to some of Kelly's show on V103 this morning. I just caught the last five minutes while you were on talking about marriage and the new pope. You are an inspiration. Its so great to have you doing the things that you do for people and the community. You are really amazing.

I won't be at church today but I will be listening on the internet. I really will miss not being there. I'll be at home listening. Taking notes.

"A cheerful heart is good medicine..." Proverbs 17:22

So prepare for a good day and be blessed.

 

Faithful to God's Task

Be strong and faithful to God's task. How do we believe in Jesus as our resurrected Lord and Savior? How do we stay faithful to the teachings of Jesus? How do we obey everything he has commanded? How do we do it all?

We walk by faith and not by sight. We believe that all things work together for good. We believe in God's grace and mercy in our life. Faith is the substance of things hoped for. I pray that God will help me to be faithful.

I look forward to seeing you tomorrow. Be blessed and be a blessing to everyone.

A Prophetic View

This week was very stressful form me. I came home yesterday and thought I would take a short nap and I was out for the night. I woke up this morning and knew I need to write to you.

We often wonder if there is any order or plans to our life. Where is everything heading?Why do certain things occur? What do we really know about God's plan for us? When we ask do we get a better understanding about the "why" or the "when"?

As I read about Daniel and the lion's den (I keep coming back to this for some reason) I like Daniel 6:23 - "The king was overjoyed and gave orders to lift Daniel out of the den. And when Daniel was lifted from the den, no wound was found on him, because he had trusted in his God." God didn't stop him from being thrown in but he allowed no harm to come to him, because he trusted in God. I learn everyday to trust in God. God allows me to work on my quailties and hone thiem to become greater instruments that He can use. So I trust Him to hold my life in His had and to make that decision everyday about "Who" and "What" and "When". I praise the Lord everyday and hope for greater understanding of his ways.

Be blessed today, I won't be at the funeral. I know you will do well and continue to let us know that God is the Soveriegn power. I have to meet my group for our presentation on Wednesday. I missed class on Wednesday due to report card pick up and this is the only time we can meet before our presentation on Wednesday. My thoughts and prayers will be with you all day today.

We Need Each Other

I had a rough day but I can say that things are improving. One of my kids said I looked stressed. I told him its because of them.I cannot downplay the environment. and the relatinship of  the children and their parents. Someone from church insisted on giving me a plant box for my classroom. The students are writing a thank you note I have an official class gardner to keep it watered. The person insisted on donating  something for my class and that's why I took it. It was a blessing to have a living plant in the class room. I had thought about getting some flowers but I was reluctant. Spring is here and some of the kids are checking out mentally already.

How was your day? Did you get some of the things done you wanted to get done? Was it productive? Today was a day of blessing and family. I look forward to Friday. Be blessed and have a good night.

Thank You Lord

Today was a successful day.

Your words yesterday were helpful in dealing with the parents of  my problem children. Some parents came in smelling of liquor and it allowed me to understand more what the child must deal with. Some parents had little education themselves and here I was trying to tell them how their child was failing and needed to apply themselves more. I tried not to come across as a thoughtless, snobby  teacher. I believe I connected with the parents and didn't judge or become condesending. While I hope some butts got whipped, I also hope I have given the parents the ability to know that I want to help their child and that I care about them. Being able to recognize the authority the parents have with their child and trying to work together to make their child successful. Not overstepping my boundaries yet still having a voice in the decision making process for the child. I am so glad its over. Now for the fourth quarter. The principal came to my room today and said she was trying to find a  way to keep me for the fall. She will let me know in June. I believe she will try.

I prayed for you today while driving in. The drive was so short compared to my usual drive time. I thought about you and tried to write earlier but as soon as I logged on a parent came in and I had to do a conference. Now I get to write to you. I know this frustrates you because it frustrates me. So I touch my heart, then the screen, and know that as I sit here at the computer, somewhere else, at some other time, you will sit at your computer, and maybe touch the screen and know that we connected today. Each day we connect.

Good Morning

Good Morning, Good Morning

Today is the day the Lord has made, Let us rejoice and be glad in it.

Today is report card pick-up day so I have to be there from noon until six. Now I get to meet the parents of my little darlings.

We had someone attempt to break in our house. We think it was sometime between this week and last week. An area in the back with a lock on it for storage was broken into. There was nothing in the storage unit worth anything and we really can't say anything was taken. We called the police none the less and the biggest suspect is our neighbors. The police suspect them as well. I just thank God nothing else was damaged or taken.

I jsut wanted to let you know what was going on with me today. I will probably get home around 7 or 8 and will write more then. Please take care and have a blessed day.

Recognizing Authority

Everything seems so clear when I am with you. You make it simple and direct. The options are there, the focus is clear. You know when I have the baggage of the world and need to just put it down. Just recognize authority and submit. I wonder what it is that keeps us going like this. I haven't mentioned love and being in love lately, but it doesn't mean I'm not. I'm wondering why things seem to be the way they are , but then I try not to wonder. I want to respect authority. I believe its important to recognize and honor authority. I want to be with you. I say that and then feel like a hypocrite for all the "stuff as usual" behavior. I just stopped saying it. I have to take authority over this. I blamed the stress of this job, the demands of my family and my inability to make a connection with you for the distance we seem to be having. I thought if I could improve the in person behavior then I wouldn't have to have an entry to communicate with you. Obviously, I seem to think I am in control of this and I am not. I just have to let go and let God.

Note to Self

I haven't had a chance to listen to Sunday's service again. I know there is something I missed, especially the "if you don't get anything else from this sermon get this" section. There was some good information and I found growth in the service.

My note to self is "when he begins to dance around you, start to dance with him, don't just stand there and let someone else dance with him."

I'm very sad to hear about Teresa. I didn't know her well, just in EOB, but she seemed very talented. We truly are not promised anything.Parents never think they will outlive their children.

Take care and have a blessed and restful evening.

 

Good Morning

I just wanted to take a minute and say good morning.

I'm sure you have been busy and hae many things on your schedule.

Priorities.God , family, career.

Each of those areas are tugging at me. I will do my best to be the best I can be.

Have a blessed day and be a blessing to someone today.

Sunday

Forgive me, forgive me, forgive me.

I didn't make an entry yesterday. I didn't get up early enough and when I got home at 1:30 am. I went straight to bed. I did all the driving yesterday and I was exhausted.

During my prayer time this morning I reflected on Matthew 28. Being confronted with a miracle, how do we react? A miracle. Not a maybe miracle, but an actual everybody can see it miracle. The women afraid yet full of joy. Joy, Joy, Joy.

I look forward to today. The task of being faithful to God. Finding that God is with me always. Always.

I have to prepare to leave in an hour. I plan to be on time for my first time reading.

Take Care and Be Blessed.

My Day

Hello,

Now I have the pressure of wondering if I will have a job after the Sun-Times front page article. Get the resumes out just in case. The principal says she is trying her best to keep me so I will know in June.

This weekend is going to be busy.

Tomorrow will be busy. Metting at the church in the AM. Down to Champaign for Mom's Weekend event. Back that same night. Church on Sunday, I am the second reader so I have to be there early. I'm excited about being a reader. I want to be ready. I have practiced, and practiced.

God has been good. He continues to bless me so I put my future in his hands. His will be done in my life.

Take Care and have a Blessed evening.

The Secret of Remaining

"Whoever has a heart full of love always has something to give." Pope John XXIII

"A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love another." John 13:34

"You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit-fruit that will last. Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name. This is my command: Love each other." John 15:16-17

God is amazing. I asked God to give me a word for you tonight. I didn't want to come griping about my job or my day. I looked at my small quote book and it came up with the quote from the Pope and John 13:34. I thought that might be inappropriate with the death of the Pope so I went to my bible. Where did I go but to John15:17 and I saw "Love each other." So my word to you tonight is love. Remaining in love is the ultimate goal. Love makes the world go round. Feel love because you are loved. I ask God to help me become the person He wants me to be. Be Blessed and have a good night.

" Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." John 14:27

Authority

To Have an Appreciation for Authority

"...These people honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me. They worship me in vain; their teachings are but rules taught by men. You have let go of the commands of God and are holding on to the traditions of men." Mark 7:6-8

I want to be true in my worship. I want to have true obedience. I want to obey God.

God's obedience always results in blessing.

Fear God more than man's righteous authority.

God wants to reign over us, let him.

I don't want to place unrealistic expectations on myself or others.

I don't want to become too familiar with God's presence. I don't ever want to take it for granted. I daily ask God to forgive me and show grace and mercy. I ask him to not remove his favor. Refine me, rebuke me, show me what I need to do. Bend me, break me, make me over, but never leave me.

Good Night, take care and be blessed.

 

Healing

"God can do wonders with a broken heart if you give Him all the pieces." Victor Alfsen

"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." Psalm 34:18

I didn't want to go to bed without making contact with you. I drove home in silence. No tape, no cd, no radio. I asked God to show me what I was not seeing and what I needed to see. I want to get it right and do what God needs me to do. I submit, willingly. I am not giving up, and I refuse to ignore God's commands.

Take Care and be blessed. Have a good night.

Good Night

Hello. I was so preoccupied with getting my grade book in that I almost forgot to check in with you. Almost. Not quite. Next Wednesday is report card pick up. I have to have my grades in by Friday. We had a half day with students today so of course it wasnt too bad. Friday no students at all. I look forward to that. Three days, piece of  cake. I giving all tests. I'm glad you have concerns and contacts. Keep following your intuition. Its off to bed for me. Five thirty will come around too soon. Take Care and Be Blessed.

Good Morning

I continue to stsy hopeful. My hope seds are being fertilized and watered. The devil is defeated

Be Blessed and Be a Blessing To Someone Today.

Bouncing Back

I really needed you today and you came through with flying colors. Thank you so much for being there for me. I couldn't put my finger on what was wrong. I knew something just wasn't quite right. I thought maybe I had succumb to the pressures of the environment I worked in, and felt defeated by the overwhelming problems. I thought I had become defeated by constantly saying I'm going to do something and then not having it work out. I just felt so defeated. I thought maybe I had made the wrong decision about my job. That could still be the right decision, but I will approach it with a new attitude. I am reaching deep within myself because I know God has something in store for me and I plan on getting it. I'm not giving up and my attitude is to keep digging deeper within myself. It's not over. I was so going to tell you how you really touched me today, how you healed me, how you fixed me. But when I got in that line, I don't even remember what I said to you. I did talk to you for a minute though. Something and then have a blessed week. I don't remember the something. I'm not giving up though, we've come too far to give up now. I'm wasn't suicidal. I was feeling depressed though. Sometimes you don't even know you're depressed until its pointed out to you. You think its just the stress of the day. Just normal things and suddenly its more. I think its better now.  Once I have the opportunity to identify and face the obstacles I can move forward. I can break out.

Psalm 69  I will read it every night. I will remain hopeful.

 

"I will praise God's name in song

and glorify him with thanksgiving." Psalm 69:30

What a Beautiful Day

What a beautiful day.

I got some of the things I wanted to do today done. Some things didn't get done.

Sometimes I just don't know what to say. I always want you to know I am thinking of you. I always want you to know that I care and that I am concerned about how you feel.I want you to know that you are important to me and that you matter. How to convey that without coming across overwhelming is a challenge.

I continue to think that's its important to communicate to you daily. Its important to send words of concern and maybe comfort and sometimes just a general hello. This is important.

OK, back to correcting papers.

Friday Night

I think it's funny that  my Friday is free. I have been busy on Friday's thanks to you.

Today was not so bad. Either the children are getting better or I'm getting better. I'd like to say its a little bit of both. I don't let so much stuff bother me. Also two of my troublemakers were suspended yesterday. Just having one or two out of the mix makes all the difference.

I'm looking forward to this weekend. Grading, lesson plans and washing clothes and cleaners. I also have to take the care in for an alignment in the AM.

The weather's going to be beautiful. The weekend. I am so looking forward to this. Sleep in on Saturday. Actually get some things done on Saturday. Church on Sunday. OK so enough of my gloating over the weekend. I can't wait to see you on Sunday.  Take Care and have a Blessed evening.

Good Morning

Good Morning, Good Morning

God bless you this beautiful morning.

My internet was down yesterday.

Thank God its Friday.

We had visitors at school yesterday and they came to my classroom.

I'm taking the time to get a quick not off to you because I didnt have an opportunity to do so yesterday.

I noticed you are wearing a different ring, this is the second time I've seen you wear that ring. I noticed.

Take Care and Be Blessed Today in All That You DO.

Hello

Hello, I had professional development today so I didn't even have to see my little darlings today. Naturally I'm in a much better mood. I do have class tonight but that's no big deal. I do have a paper to write before class on my weekly reflections. I need to get started on that now. I just wanted to take a minute to say hello. Hello.

We are Connected

We are connected. I feel that connection. What God has in store for me I just accept openly. I know this is the right thing and I am ready and will to say yes and do what I have to do. I do know that there are times when I just want to let you know that everything is ok, that I am thinking about you and that I am ok. I care about you and want you to know that.

Good Night

Hello and Good Night.

Blessing to you today. I was very happy when I saw you. I wanted to introduce you to my father but he left to watch the game which has proven to be not that great for Illinois afterall. I think its improtant to let the community have a say in what businesses come in. These are people who want to make a difference in the world. It's hard to make a difference but its not impossible. Sometimes just letting people know that you care will make a difference down the road.

I hope you had a wonderful day and that nothing but good things happened to you today. I missed my hour. What a day at school. I think the kids missed it too. They were pretty quiet until around 11:00 then they woke up and realized they were in school. I have to grade papers so take care and I look forward to seeing you tomorrow. Take care, be blessed and have a good night.

Hello and Good Night

Today was a good day. I always feel renewed when I listen to you. You can bring me out of a slump. Sometimes I can't quite put my finger on what the problme is but I just know that something is wrong. You reassure me, renew me and have me see things in the light. I believe there is a future for us and I hold on to that belief. I am walking in faith and belief of that. I choose the blessing not the curse. We have had some bad things happen this week but ultimately we have to rest in God's grace and peace. I well keep believing and I know this will work itself out.

Good Night

"Dust thou art, and unto dust shalt thou return" Genesis 3:19

"Each person is born to one possession which outvalues all the others-his last breath." Mark Twain

"The fear of death is worse than death." Robert Burton

"Tis after death that we measure men." James Barron Hope

"Death levels all things." Claudian

Today I spent with my father. I hadn't seen him for a while and I needed to do some things for him. He has yet another apartment for me to clean for a new tenent. We had a chance to watch things unfold at the Vatican. I believe that the Pope is at peace now. I don't know what else to say on that. There will be a lot discussion in the days to come. I 'm sure you will be very busy.

We also had a chance to watch Illinois win. We talked about the upcoming election in Lynwood. I got some campaign literature too. I hope the Renaissance Team wins. They are very divided on that casino issue. My dad was at the dinner Friday night that Randall spoke at. He does plan to be at the rally on Tuesday, as long as it doesnt interfer with the basketball game.Oh well.

I look forward to seeing you in the morning. Chicken Dinner Sunday and Unity Mass.

Renewal

Renew my mind and spirit.

Rejuvenate

This week is over and all I can say is thank you God for small favors.

Friday Night.